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Posted 13 years agoSTREAMING
Posted 13 years agoSOMEONE COME WATCH
http://www.livestream.com/erithacuscreations
It'll be a little mature tonight, folks
http://www.livestream.com/erithacuscreations
It'll be a little mature tonight, folks
SOMEONE BRING ME FOOD
Posted 13 years agoI am hungry and poor and my car is broken :(
Selling Characters!
Posted 13 years agohttp://erithacusrou.deviantart.com/...../poll/3127419/
I can go pretty cheap on these too
Oh yeah and streaming: http://www.livestream.com/erithacuscreations
I can go pretty cheap on these too
Oh yeah and streaming: http://www.livestream.com/erithacuscreations
STREAMU
Posted 13 years agocoloring me and Diznits collab bro
http://www.livestream.com/erithacuscreations
first stream since I got to college, it may not go well. my internet is terrible
http://www.livestream.com/erithacuscreations
first stream since I got to college, it may not go well. my internet is terrible
Commissions
Posted 13 years agoCommissions are open now because I am now in college and I really need the money to pay for books and housing and tuition.
http://fav.me/d5bt0p0
Also I don't know how paypal works.
http://fav.me/d5bt0p0
Also I don't know how paypal works.
Suddenly in OKC with Binders???
Posted 13 years agoBut I'm still not happy.
Streaming
Posted 13 years agoI stream now
Posted 13 years agohttp://www.livestream.com/erithacuscreations
Same as yesterday: working on the DD pic, doing speedpaint requests if I feel up to it
Damn guys, no one ever comes to my streams...
Same as yesterday: working on the DD pic, doing speedpaint requests if I feel up to it
Damn guys, no one ever comes to my streams...
Let's Talk About My Feelings
Posted 13 years agoEverything has kind of gone to shit right now, guys. I've been keeping so much bottled up the past month and it's killing me. There's just so much bothering me right now and I really need to get some of it off my chest.
Chest, haha... I'm so fucking unhappy with my body right now. I have a small body and a large chest, so it's impossible for me to find a bra that stops the jiggling. Anything that even comes close is crazy expensive and with my family's finances and my lack of a job, I doubt I could afford anything if I found it. I'd really like a reduction surgery too but again, that costs more money than we have. My back problems seem to be getting worse as well. I'm pleased with my body except for my breasts. I just want them gone. And my acne too. Lately I've been getting really deep zits that hurt to touch. Appearance wise the acne doesn't bother me. It just hurts. But my boob problem is getting to the point where I break down and cry about it. I just want a flat chest, dammit. They look so much better.
Speaking of finances, I am the biggest emotional and financial burden in existence yay! My parents seem to be getting angrier and more frustrated with me lately and of course I understand why. I'm going to college and they're still paying off their student loans. We don't have money for college. I want to go. I want to learn and make friends and have fun. But we can't afford it. And my parents insist that I go. I only get $5000 in financial aid every year. I applied for scholarships and everything and I'm still not good enough. I need all these things for college and they cost money that we don't have. I was going to do graphic design, but that requires a Mac and there is no way in hell we can pay for that. I'm now doing biology thankfully, but I wish I could be independent enough that m parents didn't have to pay for my education. I fear that I may forever be a dependent pussy that can't do anything on my own and can't even grow the balls required to ask for help. I'm hopeless.
What's more pathetic is how I suddenly miss Dane so much. I was okay for the past few weeks but now he won't even talk to me. I still love him beyond belief, but I still want to be his friend. I just can't stop dreaming about him. They're all usually pleasant dreams, with us getting back together or something sappy like that. The only problem I had with the relationship on my end was that never felt needed. No one's ever made me feel needed. Not even him. I need that so badly... We're both going to the same college. Living in the same building. It's going to be hard. What I want the most is to make up with him. Tell him how wonderful it was to be with him. I want to know what he disliked about the relationship too. We never talked, and... I really want to talk to him about this. I need to. I feel like doing it would make me a step closer to moving on. Or maybe moving closer together. That's also a possibility, albeit a slim one. I've been through so much in the past month and I've done so much maturing... Maybe it could be different. I know for a fact that I need a stable partner in my life to function well, and without one, I'm a bottle of emotional messes waiting to be spilled on passersby.
I can't seem to motivate myself to do anything either. I can't draw, I can't eat, I can't do anything but pick up my DS for 10 minutes, put it down, then pick it up again. I really do want to draw. And write.. I just can't get myself to do it. My cat makes me happy sometimes... But I'm leaving her in a week and it fucking breaks my heart. I need her right now. I'm going to miss her so much.
All I have to look forward to is moving to Edmond next weekend. Because, well, I need something to look forward to. Something to keep me alive. The thought of suicide has been ever prevalent in my mind this week, more serious than ever with all these compounded problems. I've taken to using small dates as goals, Just so I can keep going. I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I've lost my purpose.
I have more problems but there's only so much attention span I can devote to one post so maybe I'll make another idk
Chest, haha... I'm so fucking unhappy with my body right now. I have a small body and a large chest, so it's impossible for me to find a bra that stops the jiggling. Anything that even comes close is crazy expensive and with my family's finances and my lack of a job, I doubt I could afford anything if I found it. I'd really like a reduction surgery too but again, that costs more money than we have. My back problems seem to be getting worse as well. I'm pleased with my body except for my breasts. I just want them gone. And my acne too. Lately I've been getting really deep zits that hurt to touch. Appearance wise the acne doesn't bother me. It just hurts. But my boob problem is getting to the point where I break down and cry about it. I just want a flat chest, dammit. They look so much better.
Speaking of finances, I am the biggest emotional and financial burden in existence yay! My parents seem to be getting angrier and more frustrated with me lately and of course I understand why. I'm going to college and they're still paying off their student loans. We don't have money for college. I want to go. I want to learn and make friends and have fun. But we can't afford it. And my parents insist that I go. I only get $5000 in financial aid every year. I applied for scholarships and everything and I'm still not good enough. I need all these things for college and they cost money that we don't have. I was going to do graphic design, but that requires a Mac and there is no way in hell we can pay for that. I'm now doing biology thankfully, but I wish I could be independent enough that m parents didn't have to pay for my education. I fear that I may forever be a dependent pussy that can't do anything on my own and can't even grow the balls required to ask for help. I'm hopeless.
What's more pathetic is how I suddenly miss Dane so much. I was okay for the past few weeks but now he won't even talk to me. I still love him beyond belief, but I still want to be his friend. I just can't stop dreaming about him. They're all usually pleasant dreams, with us getting back together or something sappy like that. The only problem I had with the relationship on my end was that never felt needed. No one's ever made me feel needed. Not even him. I need that so badly... We're both going to the same college. Living in the same building. It's going to be hard. What I want the most is to make up with him. Tell him how wonderful it was to be with him. I want to know what he disliked about the relationship too. We never talked, and... I really want to talk to him about this. I need to. I feel like doing it would make me a step closer to moving on. Or maybe moving closer together. That's also a possibility, albeit a slim one. I've been through so much in the past month and I've done so much maturing... Maybe it could be different. I know for a fact that I need a stable partner in my life to function well, and without one, I'm a bottle of emotional messes waiting to be spilled on passersby.
I can't seem to motivate myself to do anything either. I can't draw, I can't eat, I can't do anything but pick up my DS for 10 minutes, put it down, then pick it up again. I really do want to draw. And write.. I just can't get myself to do it. My cat makes me happy sometimes... But I'm leaving her in a week and it fucking breaks my heart. I need her right now. I'm going to miss her so much.
All I have to look forward to is moving to Edmond next weekend. Because, well, I need something to look forward to. Something to keep me alive. The thought of suicide has been ever prevalent in my mind this week, more serious than ever with all these compounded problems. I've taken to using small dates as goals, Just so I can keep going. I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I've lost my purpose.
I have more problems but there's only so much attention span I can devote to one post so maybe I'll make another idk
LIVESTREAMING (restart)
Posted 13 years agohttp://www.livestream.com/erithacuscreations
I'm going to be working on my logo, and it seems that I work better if I have people to talk to. If I can manage to get this finished, I'll do some sketch requests.
:'D
I'm going to be working on my logo, and it seems that I work better if I have people to talk to. If I can manage to get this finished, I'll do some sketch requests.
:'D
LIVESTREAM
Posted 13 years agohttp://www.livestream.com/erithacuscreations
Logo work and a 'sona for my sister, maybe itunes. plz come I am lonely. :C
Logo work and a 'sona for my sister, maybe itunes. plz come I am lonely. :C
Wait what am I doing
Posted 13 years agoI just
I just watched all of my watchers. I wish I could unsubscribe from some peoples journals because I really only want to see my watchers journals. I really don't care about those other people lol.
I also may stream tonight? I promised Mr Texas Man some porns
I just watched all of my watchers. I wish I could unsubscribe from some peoples journals because I really only want to see my watchers journals. I really don't care about those other people lol.
I also may stream tonight? I promised Mr Texas Man some porns
I'm trying to be active here
Posted 13 years agoI really am. Maybe after I get a laptop and am not confined to the open computer room haha. I want to make some friends on here, ha... I'll open commissions soon too, so hopefully I get some here too...
Um hi guys can I get some help?
Posted 13 years agohttp://erithacusrou.deviantart.com/
Once I have it set up, I'll be opening commissions, as soon as I figure out how to use it. I'm thinking the first three or so commissioners will have a 50% price reduction if they help me out with figuring out paypal. Y'all can sign up for that now, if you want...
I just hope some people will actually want my art, ha...
Once I have it set up, I'll be opening commissions, as soon as I figure out how to use it. I'm thinking the first three or so commissioners will have a 50% price reduction if they help me out with figuring out paypal. Y'all can sign up for that now, if you want...
I just hope some people will actually want my art, ha...
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