Hello there,

A friend of mine is in need of some help. The link to their journal is here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7431420/

Hey guys... Just an update that one of these days, I might not be around anymore... If I didn't die because of suicide, it will be because of starvation... My parents just decided that even one meal a day was far too much for me...

Seeking shelter would drive me to suicide, by being where I am right now, I'd still have the internet to talk to people, but I'd starve... I think it's the end for me... There's nothing I can do... And the only things I can do will result in my own death...

Goodbye...

Hey guys...

I have a confession to make and I need help.
I am addicted to chatting, the internet and seeking constant recognition/confirmation. The reason for this is my home situation.

I have no degree, I am locked up in my room and am forced to find work for a few years now, but because of an exceptionally long depression combined with well... Basically mentally abusive parents, I have no degree in any school, while having the knowledge to get several Masters. Because of this, nobody wants to hire me, I'm broke and I live in a 2m on 4m room with only a computer with internet access, a bed, some books and some water. I cannot leave this room without getting mentally attacked by any of my parents, I have become selectively mute because I just don't dare to speak most times, my hygiëne is crap and I usually get a maximum of 1 meal a day, leaving me underweight. Online is my only escape right now, where I can chat with people, people who understand me, people who make great art, people who love me of who I am. Hell, I even have managed to make a small fanbase around my own Portal 2 chambers, who make me feel like I can actually achieve things! Every single one of those fans made me feel great, until I've stopped making these chambers. That's when I declined into a deep depression again...

Recently, I've picked up Second Life again, and I've managed to find a few really awesome people with who I can chat, with who I can cry, with who I can laugh, and it's amazing. Hell, I've even found one such wonderful person who manages to give me a smile on my face every time they chat with me. They give me hope. But right now, I'm on a breakdown again. I cannot live like this any longer.

I'm stuck between 4 walls with the only window to the world being my computer. I have medical bills that I cannot afford, I am broke. I have only one way out, but I can't do it on my own. I need your help. I need to pay my medical bills and then move out to someone where I can finally feel safe, where I am free, but it all costs money. You can donate to the link below, if you wish to. The amount already donated helped me a lot by already paying a huge chunk of the bills, but I need more. I need a reserve of about 2000 euros at least, of which 700 to 800 will be used to move out.

https://www.gofundme.com/gg2b5uag It's my only hope, and I'm sorry for asking this, but I have no choice anymore...

Heyheyhey everyone!

I used to draw using vectors and stuff, but I really hated doing so. Since I had no drawing pad of any kind, nor did I have a trackpad to draw using my fingers, I simply had no other choice than to use vectors for making anything decent. Now, I really hate how it looked, way too clean, too computerized, and the worst of all: extremely difficult to make shadows with.

So, after I had received a few wonderful donations of someone who likes to be anonymous and had paid my medical bills with them, I had more than enough left for a great drawing pad. I have ordered a Wacom Intuos 4 Medium and it will arrive somewhere next week. This way I can finally start on creating drawings I actually like myself!

This also means that I may even want to open up commissions in the future, if I had enough practice to get back into drawing and if you like my style.

It may take a while to first get used to the pad and then get used to a new style, but I will get back to business soon!

So, a few days ago, I went back on Second Life. I have my account for about a year and 3 months, but since I never had a decent enough computer to run it (SL is pretty heavy), but now I do. So, I went back online, and saw that I still had an awful freebie outfit. After some browsing, I found another freebie furry that wasn't as bad. With that furry, I went to The Ark, where one of the dancers spoke to me. They said that if I wanted some lindens, I could go to one of the poles there and basically dance.

Now, three days later, I have earned over 2000 lindens and bought myself a great fur from Luskwood Creatures, along with some "accessories". Because I today helped fending off a griefer attack on the sim, I've been invited into the official group. I now am an official member of The Ark.

Today also, I've found out that the wonderful dancer who helped me along was someone I follow on Tumblr. I'm waiting for them to come back online.