I'll get right into brass tacks here, some people have probably seen me signing into this account since I disappeared. Unfortunately that has been me...losing it, for lack of a better term. I have unfortunately made very little progress these past few months with my...issues, except for a two week span which let me know that what I'm doing is right. I felt normal, I felt free, I felt happy for what felt like the first time in a very long time.

So I unfortunately have to say that when, if I ever defeat this addiction, I will not be coming back as I said. FA just presents too many temptations for me, writing for me sadly presents too many temptations. Sadly, this journey has taught me that, if I lack anything, it's the will to resist temptation.

I guess I should explain why this is so important for me. Though I discovered this addiction when I was 16, that's because I only took the time to examine myself and recognize this addiction for what it was. I am 30 years old, I have known about and indulged in pornography for 20 years. People can do the math and figure out what age I was when it started, how this fundamentally changed my mind's chemistry growing up. Though that is no excuse. This addiction, this mistake, is my own.

So...yeah, I just thought everyone should know that I won't be coming back. I'm not one of those artists/authors to delete their content, so everything I created will still be here. If you read it and enjoy it, I'm glad, as that's what it's for. I have no judgement, not only because it would be hypocritical, but because I just don't have the energy to care anymore.

For everyone who supported me, thank you. For the friends I've made here, I'm glad I met you, and I'm sorry that I wasn't a better friend or a better person.

Hopefully everyone has a good day, and a good life.

I never wanted to write this journal, but here we are.

In case I haven't already laid everything out there, I'm had a few demons around porn, to put things a bit into perspective I've been grappling with these specific demons since I was 16, I'm 30 years old. I've fought, and lost to my desires every single day, the notes back 4, 8 months ago were where I thought I had them under control, and fell the next day. So, to put it simply, I haven't been writing for months, specifically becuase of my own failure and inability to control myself. It is simple fact and I have to accept that.

The reason I'm writing this journal is that things hit a head a little more than a week ago. I reached a line where, in my own eyes I'd fall to my desire, and there would be no way back. I jumped over that line with such enthusiasm and gusto, looking back, it disgusted me. I managed to pull myself back, but after a lilttle test a weeek ago, I can't keep doing this.

I say I'm laying down my pen, but only in terms of pornographic content, I will also be mostly stepping away from the net until I can get this, get myself under control. Though even when, if I return, anything I write would be safe for work.

I do want to say that I have no judgement for anyone else, people enjoy what they enjoy, this journal is a comment on my own personal failings and inadequacies. To everyone who has enjoyed my content, thank you. To everyone this is going to disappoint or whose expectations I've failed to meet, you have my apologies.

Thank you for your time and have a good day.

As someone asked this before, I thought I'd mention it in another quick journal, if anyone remembers that 2nd MILF story I took suggestions for. That's one of the stories that is on the chopping block, as I never really constructed it with any greater narrative in mind.

So, thought I'd send out this quick update, I'm not dead, just been very busy the last few months, trying to sell one house leading to being removed from my own home for hours at a time so it could be shown, moving into our new home (old one hasn't sold yet) due to someone needing to live there, and having my laptop die on me and needing to get a new one. It's been an eventful few months, should have stayed on more or been more communicative so you have my apologies for that.

I should be getting back to writing, planning to hopefully finish those two fics that I've already started, though I am trying to make my fics more...story-focused, even those focused mainly on smut. Basically trying to weave some kind of narrative into it so that my stories are less one macro/micro sex scene after another with window dressing. This does mean I'm going to have to do a fair bit of re-working and it means any ideas that are basically smut are out the window. But hopefully this greater focus will help me get my ass in gear and churn some content out. That and it's just good to be back.

Thanks for the time.

I meant to create this a lot sooner, back when I wasitting at 500 watchers. but better late tan never. First of all I want to say thank you to everyone who has and is still enjoying my work. That's the msot I can ask for as a writer, that people enjoy the things that I create, even if they're based on pre-existing works. I unfortunately don't have a raffle or anything planned as I'm still in the process of moving and will be playing catch-up when that is over.

I will assure everyone that I'm going to keep writng, and I do hate this slower pace, but tings will get done, so I also really appreciate everyone's patience and thank you for your time.

So I've got news, I'm moving at the end of June, around the 24th. Though we've been renovating for monthsto try to get our current house on the market, that's cranked up to 11 now. With this in mind, I will be changing the release date of the Lonney/Tiny toon story to TBA, despite my early analysis, I will pretty much be on hiatus for these two months, as I unfortunately just dn't have the time/energy because of everything I thought I would.

Really wish I could post a positive update for once, but life makes fools of us all.

Hey, so I'm sure alot of people are wondering whre the Tiny Toon/Looney Tune story is. It's still coming, RL is slowing me down a bit as is trying to make sure I don't burn myself out again, though the main reason I'm not finished is the story got a bit...away from me. I had only orignally planned it to be around 30,000 words, but after plotting everything, creating a summary and put pen to paper. It looks like it'll be triple that length or more, So...yeah, I am hoping to finish writing by the end of May at the earliest, and that's without taking into account the two diferent endings and corrections so the story being posted is still a ways off.

I just thought I'd keep everyone updated that things are stll going. I think the end product with how the story is shaping up will be worth the wait, Also if anyone has any suggestions for the story, do note me and let me know. I can't guarantee it'll make it in, but it's always nice to know there is some intrest/excitement for your work.

I just wanted to say thanks to everyone who provided their opinion. I'll be taking it into account and it should hopefully noticeable in the final release of the story that there's some non foot/paw/flipper content included.

This is pretty low stakes but I am looking for second opinions. As I've mapped out the Tiny Toon/Looney Tune story I've realized two things. Keeping the focus on paws/flippers/feet has made things easier as there are only so many things you can do with them. At the same time, that's my issue, I am finding that some of the ideas, though unique are still rather similar. Such as Lola asking the MC to help clean her paws after some fun, and Minerva demanding to have her soles attended to as she bathes.

The question for the poll is, are people fine with these similar enough interactions if they're spaced out enough, or would preference be to have some non paw/flipper/foot related content to make sure there's no repeats?

The poll will only be up for 24 hours as I've got to get back to writing, so if you've got an opinion please let me know, the more detailed the better!

I know I've brought this up a few times, but things sadly haven't been imrpvoing very much.  Antonioy111 Is still not in a good situation financially, I won't go into too man details but any comissions that anyone would like to get would help him out, hopefully if you do want to commision him, you'd do so sooner rather than later as things aren't the most stable.

I can attest to the quality of his work, as it'sgood enough that I've created stories for some of his older pieces simply because I enjoyed them that much, he's the one who created the icon I'm currently using for my FA account, and with the sheer quality of his work, both in the macro and micro details, every dollar is one well spent.

So if anyone's looking for some macro/micro, size difference ro jsut regular SFM art that you're sure to enjoy and be proud to own, I'd suggest comissioning  Antonioy111 is who I would recommend. As wth the last journal I posted I'll post their prices and rules below.

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Hey, so writing is going well, though that'snot the reason that I'm creating this journal.

With the world in the state that it's currently in, andhas ben in for te last few years, lots of people have been affected. Some more than others, I'll be completely honest and say give my own persnal circumstances I've been rather insulated against the ripples that have spread across the world but some I know haven't been as lucky.

 Antonioy111 despite being kind enough to let others know when others have been struggling is himself in a less than enviable position economically. I won't say too much, but suffice it to say that his current situation isn't sustainable.

If anyone wants to get some SFM commisions that pay special atention to the details, down to focusing on the nails and claws and including extra effects to help sell the entier scene. That include some truly stunning facial expressions that really sell the picture (far harder then it looks, speaking from experience) and equally exquisite dialogue, with a fair bit of selection. You are sure to get your money's worth.

I'll post his pricse and rules below, so if anyone is interested, do hit him up.

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First of all I'd like to thank everyone who gave their opinions on which of the Tiny Toon villainesses they'd like to see. Based on the results I'll have two versions of the story, one where the story ends at a certain point, and one where the story continues past that point, and the three villainesses are included.

Which brings me to the announcement part, this Tiny/Looney Toon story is the next story I will be writing and I'll hopefully be putting pen to paper sometime in the next week. So, I'm back. Half a year is enough time, and while I've still got my demons, they're a lot more manageable.

I'd also like to say thank you for all of the support, it was really nice.

Good morning everyone, things have been getting better for me and I should hopefully be returning to writing soon enough. I just wanted to ask. I am planning to write a paw/foot focused group giantess story focusing on females from Lonney Tunes/Tiny Toons, and wanted to know if anyone wants to see one or more of the following villainesses (swan dancers count as one villainess even if they are a group) from Tiny Toons as one of the giantessesa in the story.

Please comment with none if you don't want to see any of them, or the villianess/villainesses you'd like to see if you would like to see one or more ofthem included. I'll leave this up for about a week to guage people's interest on who they want included.

Margot Mallard
Description:
https://tinytoons.fandom.com/wiki/D.....Margot_Mallard

Image:
https://pbs.twimg.com/media/Dyget-1V4AAXHA1.jpg

Rhubella Rat
Description
https://tinytoons.fandom.com/wiki/R.....d_Rhubella_Rat

Image:
https://images-wixmp-ed30a86b8c4ca8....._amidnarasu_d6vv7ag-fullview.png?token=eyJ0eXAiOiJKV1QiLCJhbGciOiJIUzI1NiJ9.eyJzdWIiOiJ1cm46YXBwOjdlMGQxODg5ODIyNjQzNzNhNWYwZDQxNWVhMGQyNmUwIiwiaXNzIjoidXJuOmFwcDo3ZTBkMTg4OTgyMjY0MzczYTVmMGQ0MTVlYTBkMjZlMCIsIm9iaiI6W1t7ImhlaWdodCI6Ijw9MTAwNCIsInBhdGgiOiJcL2ZcLzNlOTEyYjYyLTQ3YzQtNGY3Ny1hYTZjLTRmYTYxOWQxZjM0N1wvZDZ2djdhZy1lZWYwMmRlZC02OTlkLTRlNTYtOWRlNi1iNDg3ZTc2MjA3MDAucG5nIiwid2lkdGgiOiI8PTEyODAifV1dLCJhdWQiOlsidXJuOnNlcnZpY2U6aW1hZ2Uub3BlcmF0aW9ucyJdfQ.oEILMFlink9IfqZ8muwvVpLALBBF64yFb6wnZPQ59hE

Swan Dancers
Description:
https://tinytoons.fandom.com/wiki/Swan_Dancers

Image:
https://static.wikia.nocookie.net/t.....20211128024722

As someone asked who the other giantesses will be:
Babs Bunny
Shirley Loon
Fifi La Fume
Bimbette (the pink female skunk from the Summer vacation movie)
Lola bunny
Minerva Mink
Julie Bruin and finally
Penelope Pussycat (the cat Pepe Le Pew chases)

Decided to add my own vote as it's been more than half a week has gone by, and mine's for Margot Mallard as her introductory episode painted her in a very...flattering light, physically if not personality wise. Friend also told me they voted for none.

Current Votes:
None included: 2
Swan Dancers: 1
Margot Mallard: 2
Rhubella Rat: 1

I just thought I'd post a quick udpate to let people know how things are going. Things are better but at the same time more or less the same since I posted that laying it al bare journal a few months ago. Still have issues but it feels like things are getting better even if it's at a far slower pace then I'd like. So...yeah, just wanted to say that I will probably pick up a pen again (metaphorically) even if I'm not entirely sure when.

Hopefully everyone had a Merry Christmas and will have a happy New Year.

One of my good friends is in one a less...economically stable position thanks to COVID, so if anyone is looking to comission some incredible SFM or Sizebox macro/micro content, then I would suggest going and giving him some business.

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You get top quality for your money as he focuses heavily on the details, both in terms of dialogue and with the images themselves, has a plethora of models to choose from and and is overall a very enjoyable person to work with.

So, again if you're looking to comission any SFM or Sizebox macro/micro content, I'd suggest giving Anytonioy111 a look, as you won't be disappointed.

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First of all I'd like to say thank you to everyone who passed on their sympathy, it's incredibly appreciated. It's always nice to know that you've got support, as it makes things easier.

On to the second part of this journal. Grief is...it's a hell of a thing, True grief even more so, the kind of pain that hurts on every level of your being. But it has its uses, like cutting through a fog and making you realize a few things. When you're left with nothing but your thoughts as you're overwhelmed by pain, you can get introspective.

To make a long story short, I've got a porn addiction, I've known about this for...a while, far longer than I would like or will admit. It's the main reason why I disappeared a few months ago. As I tried to quash it and failed miserably. As for the introspection part, that grief broke the addiction's hold on me, and it let me see how much it had affected me and how pathetic it was.

So, yeah. If I can break this addiction permanetly, I'll probably come back to writing stories as I have been. Though I know that's going to be one hell of an uphill battle. If I'm not able to control myself, then I'll need to change my focus. Like every author I've always wanted to try writing my own novel, so I'll probably give that a try.

Thanks for taking the time to read this and hopefully everyone has a good day.

I just thought I'd let everyone know I'm probably going to disappear for...I don't know how long. We put down and buried one of our cats today. Most people see pets as just that, but when they're with you for 20 years, they become family. This post isn't meant for sympathy, though any empathy is appreciated. More as an apology to anyone I built expectations for and I'm not able to deliver.

I just am not in the headspace to write, and honestly after already losing my drive once, I'm not sure when or even if I'll come back to writing. I might be around the site or I might not. I just don't know.

Thanks for the time to read this and hopefully you have a good day.

First o all I'd like to thank everyone who made their opinions heard. The final 3 MILFs for that upcoming story have been chosen, and it looks like it's going to be Dragon from Shrek, Nicole Watterson, and Vanilla Rabbit. Though there were 3 MILFs with 2 votes each, after I had two votes I missed pointed out to me. . I'm going to make a bit of an executive decision here and choose Vanilla, just due to personal preferenece.

So the MILFS that will be showing up in that future story are:

Toriel (Undertale)
Jewel (Rio)
Jane Reed (Arthur)
Dragon (Shrek)
Nicole Watterson (Amazing World of Gumball)
Vanilla Rabbit (Sonic)

First of all I'd like to say thank you to everyone who provided their opinions. The first three MILFS for that future story have been chosen. Now on to the second wave to choose the last 3. Everything will be reset so that every MILF has the same chance, and everyone who wants to, has three votes they can utilize. More MILFS can be added if they have somehow been missed, but each new MILF added will count as one of your votes, as I want to make sure the ones chosen are the ones people want. So please choose carefully. I'll start with my choices so there will be some votes already taken into account. Also please leave only votes in the comments, if you'd like to further elaborate or just talk with me, please send me a note.

Dragon (Shrek) (3)
Nicole Watterson (Gumball) (3)
Vanilla Rabbit (Sonic) (2)
Light Fury (How to Train Your Dragon) (2)
Patricia Bunny (Lola's mother, Looney Tunes Show) (2)
Princess Carolyn (Bojack Horseman) (1)
Kate (Alpha and Omega) (1)
Mama Bear (Bearenstein Bears) (1)
Ellie (Ice Age) (1)
Retsuko's Mother (Aggretsuko) (1)
Kate (Father of the Pride)
Charlotte Carson (Bojack Horseman)
Twilight Velvet (My Little Pony)
Alicia Acorn (Sonic Comics)
Eve (Alpha and Omega)
Mayor Mare (My Little Pony)
Cup Cake (My Little Pony)
Spoiled Rich (My Little Pony)
Cloudy Quartz (My Little Pony)
Mrs. Shy (My Little Pony)
Ms. Harshwhinny (My Little Pony)

So, as the title of this journal sas, I am back, and back to writing. I'm not going to say when the stoy will be released, though it will be about the Netflix show Hilda. Timeline for the story or not, I am back to puting pen to paper. I will also be doing only 1 story at a time going forward, as well as taking things a lot slower in general. As putting far more on my plate then I could handle was what burnt me out in the first place.

To tide people over, and to hopefully stir a bit of interest. I've got both a little sneak peek and a question in regards to the story planned after this one. To start, the story will be a futa-only story if that is not anyone's cup of tea, you have been warned.

The general premise of the story is more or less the same as the Disney Milf story I've already posted. But there is one difference for this new story, NO DISNEY MILFS, though it's keeping the furry focus. Since this is more or less designed like a poll I decided to just turn it into one, with the tallied "votes" so far. The more votes a MILF has, the more likely they are to get into the story. Also if anyone is mentioned as having a vote but not listed in a comment, it's either mine or Mcfarty's choice.

Poll
Toriel (Undertale) (5)
Jewel (Rio) (5)
Jane Read (Arthur) (4)
Nicole Watterson (Gumball) (3)
Patricia Bunny (Lola's mother, Looney Tunes Show) (2)
Vanilla Rabbit (Sonic) (2)
Kate (Father of the Pride) (2)
Dragon (Shrek) (2)
Light Fury (How to Train Your Dragon) (2)
Ellie (Ice Age) (1)
Charlotte Carson (Bojack Horseman) (1)
Princess Carolyn (Bojack Horseman) (1)
Twilight Velvet (My Little Pony) (1)
Mama Bear (Bearenstein Bears) (1)
Alicia Acorn (Sonic Comics) (1)
Eve (Alpha and Omega) (1)
Kate (Alpha and Omega (1)
Retsuko's Mother (Aggretsuko) (1)
Mayor Mare (My Little Pony) (1)
Cup Cake (My Little Pony) (1)
Spoiled Rich (My Little Pony) (1)
Cloudy Quartz (My Little Pony) (1)
Mrs. Shy (My Little Pony) (1)
Ms. Harshwhinny (My Little Pony) (1)

So the question is, if anyone reading this could choose six of the above women to be in a story. Who would you choose? Also if anyone's got any suggestions for other popular non-Disney furry MILFs, feel free to suggest them. Please post any answers to the question or suggestions as a comment to this journal.

As everyone knows Covid is thankfully starting to more or less starting to wind down, for countries like Canada, the U.S..etc at the very least. However it's still definitey got a presence in certain countries, and not every country is sadly in the same position to start off economically.

Which is why I'm making this journal as one of my good friends is in one of these less...economically stable positins so if anyone is looking to comission some incredible SFM or Sizebox macro/micro content, then I would suggest ging and giving

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some business. You get top quality for your money as he focuses haevily on the details, both in terms of dialogue and with the images themselves, has a plethora of models to choose from and and is overall a very enjoyable person to work with.

So, again if you're looking to comission any SFM or Sizebox macro/micro content, I'd suggest giving Anytonioy111 a look, as you won't be disappointed.

Prices Page:
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Rules:
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I made this both as I wanted to get rid of that old journal, or at least move it from its prominent space as seeing it everytime I opened my profile was bumming me out, and to say thanks for all the words of encouragement and support. They really meant a lot, I'll hopefully be back sooner than later, but even if it takes a while it's nice to know there's people looking out for ya.

Hey, so if the title wasn't eough of an indicator...I'm done. Whether it be becuase of "burnout" and trying to push myself too thin, this pandemic getting to me, work and RL responsibilities interrupting or exhausting me. The reason doesn't really matter, I've committed the most egregious sin as a writer, I've let my passion become nothing more than work, a chore I'd rather avoid then commit to.

Truthfully I haven't "put pen to paper" since Feb 22nd despite what I may have said otherwise. My own arrogane blinding me, telling me I could just "make up" any writing I hadn't gotten done at a later date. I'd apologize, but at the moment I just don't really care, as a sense of apathy has fallev over me. Lacking a sense of drive, lacking passion...just lacking.

This isn't some cry for help, I'm not in a "dark place" or anything like that, unless yuo count the fact I've alwys had my writing and now I don't have that. But I digress. This is me doing the least I can as a man, owning up to my mistakes and not hiding away.

I have no idea if or when I'll go back to writing, though you'll probably see me around more on FA in the future, lurking if not adding anything.

Thanks for reading this, and have a good day.

As I'm sre is to be expected from me by now this update isn't exactly good news, as things are going to have to be pushed back. Loath as I am to admit to such a reputation of not meeting my own deadlines, it's one that I've earned by my own actions, or rather my inactions.

The delay is both due to work, as I lost at least ten days in the past month due to a project I had to focus on, inclduing 8 hours over my 2 days off in one week, and being completely honest my own laziness. As tired as work may have left me for those days I did have to work, I simply did't want to put in the time investment writing would have taken and on the weekends, I just rested all day rather than putting fingers to keyboard.

So...yeah. I'm definitely not abandoning anything I'm writing on, though those whom I'm writing for hae my sincerest apology, for what it's worth. If they want to message me and talk about it, they definitely can.

I will be trying to put pen to paper so to speak in the coming days, and hopefully get everything done sooner rather than later. Thanks for taking the time to read this, and hopefully everyone has a good night.

I was planning to leave the old journal up for for at least a week, but as I've only gotten one response vehemently against the suggested idea, and no others for or against. I'll be cutting that short. I must admit I was expecting a few responses at least, positive or negative, but the sheer amount of silence is what's actually catching me by surprise. Regardless, for or against the idea I'll still be writing it when I find the time to, I was just curious as stated in the journal if anyone else would be interested and wanted to give them the change to say their piece and make suggestions if there were characters they wanted to see.

Though to advertise the next stories which will hopefully be done in the next month...ish time frame. If you're into the cartoon Hilda, specifically her mother Johanna, Nala and Perdita as giantesses (with one as a futa) and Macro Fox Mccloud with lots of bulge/cum/sizeplay then there'll hopefully be something in my next few fics for you to enjoy.