yeah... i can't keep friends for shit (non-local friends, local friends are fine) ... drama goes down... guess i was unfriendly... idk how... but this sort of thing has happened before... you know... some things are your fault... but you don't know exactly how or why... i was mean to them, but i don't recall... i was condescending, but i didn't mean to be... but it's my fault... i tried to be a friend... but i'm not "friend" material i guess... well gotta go to bed... and at least try to sleep... got class early in the morning... maybe things will get better... at least i hope... i hope... i hope that i don't mess up again... i wish i could help my communications... i'm just retarded... mentally incapable of comprehending my own words... oh well... moping over...

Two word meme stolen from  shins

01. Yourself: Is chill

02. Your boyfriend/girlfriend: Very cute

03. Your hair? Short Soft

04. Your mother: Psycho Bitch

05. Your Father: Hard Working

06. Your Favorite Item: Record Player

07. Your dream last night: Anal Sex

08. Your Favorite drink: Hard Liquor

09. Your Dream Car: Already Have

10. The Room You Are In: dorm room

11. Your Ex: really zany

12. Your fear: eating raisins

13. Where you want to be in 10 years? With him

14. Who did you hang out with last night? Boyfriend (Online)

15. What You’re Not: Mainstream Asshole

16. Your Best Friend: too many

17. One of Your Wish List Items: Good Home

19. The Last Thing You Did: Practiced bassoon

20. What You Are Wearing: Gay Getup

21. Your Favorite Weather: Rain Snow

22. Your Favorite Book: White Fang

23. The Last Thing You ate: Vegetarian falafel

24. Your Life: overly complex

25. Your Mood: very indifferent

26. Your body: too skinny

27. What are you thinking about right now: My Boyfriend

28. Your Crush: Loves Me

29. What are you doing at the moment: listening radio

30. Your summer schedule: In Austria



Now ask thine questions!

 demonwaffle has been having spinal issues, and is getting some test results from the doctor today. Let's all hope the best for the sweetheart

and got a little drunk on scotch, bro(ette)s. A friend of mine just recently got out of jail (wrongly accused of rape) so we celebrated. It went by so freaking fast. I came out of the closet to everyone there, because I was drunk... Everyone was chill about it though... kinda cool... I guess I was hilarious last night. Made everyone laugh, even that one guy that hates me. I feel pretty drained now though. I remember most of it luckily :P I can hold quite a bit despite how skinny I am. I remember refusing after a while when offered more. So I know when enough is enough so no worries :3

I'm in Cloudcroft for the weekend, and there isn't much to do... as always. There is more I'd like to say though. I got a WORKING record player :D Grizzly Bear's "Veckatimest" never sounded better. An old friend of mine found out that I'm gay somehow, I had the feeling that he suspected it anyway, but oh well, despite how conservative he is, he's pretty chill. The biggest news is that  demonwaffle and I have plans to get together in December on a date. He's totes the coolest bro ever, so chill, and oh so cute. He's the nicest person, and he's fun to talk to :3 So life is good

should I get one? I mean, I think I'd look pretty good with curly hair. Just a thought :/

So I went to the mall with  dimitriihusky ,  ryanwulf , and  vinylwolf last night. I got a teal shirt with a monochrome panda wearing glasses on it, and then I found a pair of jeans on the clearance rack for $5! So we were all walking to get smoothies, and I was stopped by a security guard. The guard then asked me to remove the teal bandanna (you now know my favorite color) from around my neck. Odd, I know. I guess he thought it was a gang thing. If it were red or blue, and around my head I'd understand, but if it's teal and around my neck that just means I'm gay [via accessorizing]. I mean honestly! I was wearing tight jeans and a fitted v-neck shirt! That does not, whatsoever, resemble a gangster! *sigh* :P
All in all it was loads of fun!

I auditioned, and got 1st bassoon yall! Freshman and principal bassoonist of the top band in the university!

Well I'm finally out of the house... I came to Starbucks for internet. Internet isn't hooked up in my dorm yet... really really really lonely... no roommate yet... waiting until the 15th... Will finally get to see a lot of fur friends, really anticipating that

I've been posting some pictures of myself and all of a sudden strangers start saying how cute/ beautiful I am. I am honestly unsure how this is often people's first impression of me. I think I'm rather average tbh. I hear it from friends, that I look good, but I always thought they were just being nice. :/ Now with strangers saying things to me...

taken from  Dimitriihusky


1. YOUR PORN STAR NAME: (first pet & street you grew up on)
Frisky Gila (XD)

2.YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (fave ice cream flavor, favorite cookie)
Love Potion #31 Tagalong

3. YOUR "FLY Guy/Girl" NAME: (first initial of first name, first three letters of your last name)
A-Gas

4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal)
Teal Fox

5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
William Safford

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (First name: the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first, Last name: first 2 letters of your mother's maiden name, first 3 letters of the name of the town you were born/grew up.)
Gasaa Frsaf

7. SUPERHERO NAME: ("The" + 2nd favorite color, favorite drink)
The Green Mojito

8. NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers)
Joseph Gerry

9. STRIPPER NAME: (the name of your favorite perfume/cologne/scent, favorite candy)
Dark Temptation Chocolate (XD Oh god!)

10.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (father's & mother's middle names )
Shoupe Anne

11. TV WEATHER ANCHOR NAME: (Your 5th grade teacher's last name, a major city that starts with the same letter)
Nations Nashville

12. SPY NAME: (your favorite season/holiday, flower)
Spring Morning Glory

13. CARTOON NAME: (favorite fruit, article of clothing you're wearing right now + "ie" or "y")
Pineapple Bandanny

14. HIPPIE NAME: (What you ate for breakfast, your favorite tree)
Coffee Aspen

15. YOUR ROCKSTAR TOUR NAME: ("The" + Your fave hobby/craft, fave weather element + "Tour")
The Musicmaking Rain Tour

nothing is going the way I want it to lately uggghhhhhhh

Mainstreamer robot fears he was only born to be a meme
Mainstreamer altbrobot icons here yall
http://www.hipsterrunoff.com/2008/1.....fter-yall.html

does anyone have any good ideas for a theme for a poem. You can give me a theme, a style (meter), a tone, etc. I'm just bored, fire away.

Take the total amount of the following in which you apply by 2 and get your girly percentage:

[] You own over 10 bottles of nail polish
[] You own a designer purse
[x] You own perfume(cologne) that cost over $60
[x] You had/have fake nails
[x] You have more hair products and body products than you can use
[x] Your pet is a Chihuahua/Pomeranian/Yorkshire Terrier(mix)/Siamese/Shih Tzu/mini anything
[x] You have clothes/shoes/accessories for your pet
[] You have enough clothes to cover an entire refugee camp
[] You have enough pictures to create your own wallpaper
[] A pink comforter, carpeting, walls or sheets
Total So Far: 5

Do you:
[] Spend more time at the mall than you do at homework
[] Have had a hair color that is not natural
[x] Have "blonde moments" at least once a day
[x] Buy stuff because it's awesome and then never wear/use it
[x] Constantly keep your phone at your side
[x] Dance around in your room when nobody else is home
[X] Have a name for your car
[] Know what celebrity is dating who and who broke up this week
[] Refuse to go out in public without makeup
[] Prefer to be called "princess"
Total So Far: 10

Do you love:
[x] Makeup
[] Glitter
[] The color Pink
[] Jewelry
[x] Mirrors
[] Chick flicks
[x] Shoes (OMG!)
[x] Rainbows
[] Unicorns
[x] Disney Movies
[x] Flowers
[x] Stuffed Animals
[] Purses
Total So Far: 17

Do you shop at:
[] Coach
[] Forever 21
[] Victoria's Secret
[] Guess
[] Claire's
[] Express
[] Delia's
[] Hollister
[x] American Eagle
[x] Abercrombie Fitch
[x] Aeropostale
Total So Far: 20

Do you say:
[x] Whatever
[x] Oh my god
[] Hun
[x] Fugly
[x] That's hot
[] Dunzo
[] Darling
[] Bff
[] Cutie
[] Hottie
[x] Skank
[x] Totally
[x] For Sure
[x] Fabulous
Total So Far: 28

Do you read:
[] Cosmopolitan
[] Glamour
[] Marie Claire
[] Elle Girl
[] Teen Vogue
[] People
[] Us Weekly
[] Star
[] Self
[] PerezHilton.com
[] Dlisted.com
[] Seventeen
[] people.com
[] usmagazine.com
[] popsugar.com
[] Pink Is The New Blog.com
Total So Far: 4

Do you love these:
[x] Legally Blonde
[] Elizabethtown
[] Mean Girls
[] Now & Then
[x] The Notebook
[] A Walk to Remember
[] Sweet Home Alabama
[] Where the Heart is
[] Just My luck
[] John Tucker Must Die
[] Center stage
[] Bring it On
[] How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
[] Mona Lisa Smile
[] My Girl
[] The Wedding Date
[] 10 Things I Hate About You
Total So Far: 30

Do you really enjoy:
[] America's Next Top Model
[] Project Runway
[] Desperate Housewives
[] The Simple Life
[] 8th & Ocean
[] Sex & the City
[] Grey's Anatomy
[] The O.C.
[] The City
[] Nip/Tuck
[] Gilmore Girls
[] Degrassi

and there you have it I'm 60% girly xD

My parents came back from Arizona with a 2001 gold Toyota Avalon!!!! *bounces around* I don't have to drive around a Dodge covered in dents, missing a bumper, that has a broken air conditioner! My new Toyota looks kinda like an old lady car, but I'm happy, because it's in great condition, and the MPG is great! Plus Japanese made cars are so much better than American made. I mean really, I don't give a fuck about horse power, I just want something that is fast enough, and will last a while.

So I downloaded the demo for the cutest game ever, Rocket Knight. It's a continuation on the older title made in 1993 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JheuaSpca5Y

So y'all heard of The Ssion? If you haven't you are missing out on perhaps the gayest indie group. They are F'ING fabulous. A few gay dudes and a lesbian, that's right. And will you look at that 'stache!

The song Clown:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lW_tXgGrVu0

Heaven:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yIHwR5PqbC8&feature=related

Whoop De Doo:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dxPyhPN6rIc&feature=related
(there's someone in a polar bear suit dancing in the background in this vid)

oh yeah, about 99.9% of women you see are actually drag queens.

I don't like talk about my DEEP personal troubles too much, only with a select few people, but I'm really bothered. I graduated, finally, I should be excited, but really I'm depressed. I'm leaving a lot of the friends I know and love, and they are irreplaceable... that's part of it, and now, I just don't feel much purpose, I've always had great plans for my future, but now, it just seems unreal. I'm actually going to have to move forward with it. It's just hard seeing any goal or purpose. For the longest time, I guess I felt I needed to get out of town, out of that dreadful school. Now, I would tolerate all the hillbillies, all the assholes, just to cherish all the moments with the greatest friends I could ever imagine... now... I feel alone. I burst into tears, after I left the graduation party the school throws late at night, when a friend of mine told me, "See ya, Aaron, in a... well... I don't know, hopefully we'll see each other again." I think I can get my plans on track well enough, but I am upset that I'm being separated from my pack of friends. I drove home at 2:20 am, with tears streaming down my face, listening to Beach House's "Take Care" singing along to every other word, and choking up on the rest in my sobs. I come home, sulk up the stairs go to the bathroom, look in the mirror, see the lines of my tears from my eyes to my chin glistening in the yellowish glow from the sodium lights. I hear a light tap on the door, my mother seeing if it was me. I force myself to stop crying and say in a falsely confident voice, "yes..." She says,"oh the party was supposed to go on until 3:00"
"I know, we finished early," said I.
"Is everything ok," she asks."
"Yes"
"Alright..."
I walk on out to go to bed, reach the ladder to my room, and I hear my name called out quietly. It was my mother. I shuffle on over to my parents' room. "So WHY are you home early?" she asks as if she doesn't trust me.
"I TOLD you, they let us out early!" said I.
"Quiet the kids are sleeping over on the floor" she said since I do have family staying over.
"Whatever, I'm going to bed,"
So now since my mother helps nothing. I am further depressed, writing this journal now... I just wish I could take it all back, without having to deal with my ungrateful mother.

On a side note:
I requested the song "Such Great Heights" by The Postal Service for the graduation slide show, and it was on there :3

I got it...
here's some stuff from my play list, because my taste is better than yours:

Animal Collective aka AnCo aka AC:

Doggy
Grass
Purple Bottle
In the Flowers
My Girls
Summertime Clothes
Chores
For Reverend Green
Winter Wonderland
Cuckoo Cuckoo
Leaf House
We Tigers
Water Curses


Arcade Fire:

Neighborhood #1 (Tunnels)
Neighborhood #2 (Laika)
Neighborhood #3 (Power Out)
Crown of Love
Wake Up
Rebellion (Lies)
Black Mirror
Keep the Car Running
Neon Bible
Intervention
Ocean of Noise
No Cars Go


Band of Horses:

Ode to the LRC
No One's Gonna Love You
Detlef Schrempf
The General Specific
Cigarettes, Wedding Bands
Window Blues
The First Song
The Funeral
Part One
The Great Salt Lake
St. Augustine
Factory
Compliments
Laredo
Blue Beard
Dilly


Beach House:

Master of None
Gila
Holy Dances
Home Again
Norway
Walk in the Park
Used to Be
Take Care


Beirut:

Le Moribond/ My Family's Role in the World Revolution
Cliquot
Forks and Knives
Cherbourg
Gulag Orkestar
Postcards from Italy
Mount Wroclai (Idle Days)
Scenic World
Elephant Gun
Scenic World (Second Version)
La Llorna
Napoleon on the Bellerophon


Broken Bells:

The High Road


Department of Eagles:

The Piano in the Bathtub
Romo-Goth
Family Romance
Ghost in Summer Clothes
In Ear Park
No One Does it Like You
Phantom Other
Teenagers
Balmy Night


Fleet Foxes:

Sun it Rises
White Winter Hymnal
Ragged Wood
He Doesn't Know Why
Your Protector
Blue Ridge Mountains
Oliver James
She Got Dressed
In the Hot, Hot Rays
So Long to the Headstrong
Drops in the River
English House
Mykonos


Gorillaz:
Clint Eastwood
Feel Good Inc.


Grand Archives:
Miniature Birds
Sleepdriving
Witchy Park/ Tomorrow Will
Silver Amongst the Gold
Oslo Novelist
Left for All the Strays


Grizzly Bear aka The Grizz:
Alligator (Choir Version)
He Hit Me
Little Brother (Electric Version)
Deep Blue Sea
Don't Ask
Alligator
Fix It
Le Duchess Anne
This Song
Don't Ask (Alpha Remix)
Fix It (Foxy Remix)
Don't Ask (Final Fantasy Remix)
Southern Point
Two Weeks
Cheerleader
Ready, Able
Foreground
Easier
Lullaby
Knife
Central and Remote
Little Brother
Plans
On a Neck, On a Spit


Handsome Furs:

Taking Hotel Arbat Blues
All We Want, Baby, Is Everything
I'm Confused
Nyet Spasiba
Radio Kaliningrad
Handsome Furs Hate this City
Cannot Get Started
Dead + Rural
Dumb Animals


Iron & Wine:

Such Great Heights
Belated Promise Ring
God Made the Automobile
Bird Stealing Bread
Naked As We Came
Fever Dream
Passing Afternoon
Jesus the Mexican Boy
Pagan Angel & A Borrowed Car
Wolves (Song of the Shepherd's Dog)
Innocent Bones
Resurrection Fern
Boy with a Coin
Flightless Bird, American Mouth
Woman King
Jezebel


MGMT aka The Management:

Time to Pretend
Weekend Wars
The Youth
Electric Feel
Kids
4th Dimensional Transition
Pieces of What
Or Moons, Birds, & Monsters
Indie Rokkers


Miike Snow:

Animal
Song for No One
A Horse is not a Home


Owen Pallett aka Final Fantasy:

Furniture
The CN Tower Belongs to the Dead
Andventure.exe
Please Please Please
The Sea
He Poos Clouds
This Lamb Sells Condos
Lewis Takes Action
Lewis Takes Off His Shirt
E is for Estranged


Panda Bear aka Noah Lennox:

Comfy in Nautica
I'm Not
Good Girl/ Carrots


Patrick Wolf:

Hard Times
Vulture
The Sun is Often Out
Wolf Song
Paris
A Boy Like Me
The Magic Position
Accident & Emergency
Wind in the Wires
Tristan


Phoenix:

Liztomania
1901


Radiohead:

Pyramid Song
High and Dry
Fake Plastic Trees
Bullet Proof, I Wish I Was
Street Spirit (Fade Out)
15 Step
Down is the New Up
Weird Fishes/ Arpeggi
Faust Arp
Jigsaw Falling into Place
Videotape
Everything in its Right Place
Kid A
Idioteque
Morning Bell
Airbag
Paranoid Android
Let Down
Karma Police
No Surprises
Lucky
Creep
Thinking About You


The Shins:

Kissing the Lipless
So Says I
Saint Simon
Pink Bullets
New Slang
Caring is Creepy
Sleeping Lessons
Australia
Phantom Limb
Sealegs
Red Rabbits
Turn On Me
A Commit Appears


Wolf Parade:

Modern World
Fancy Claps
Shine a Light
Dear Sons and Daughters of Hungry Ghosts
I'll Believe in Anything
This Heart's on Fire
California Dreamer
Disco Sheets


Yeasayer:
Sunrise
Wait for the Summer
2080
Ambling Alp

all I have to say is...
BEST GAME I HAVE EVER PLAYED!!! Buy it!!!

 hihey9989 and  ziggycostello win, I'm working on a poem right now. :P

Well there are many reasons I haven't posted any poems in a while. First, I've had little inspiration lately. Life has been slow. Second, not too many people actually read them, the poetry scene isn't that big. I have a good number of watchers, but I only get 17-20 views, 2-3 favs, and only about 1-3 people ever comment. Third, I don't even like the way most of them sound, myself. There are a few I'm proud of, but truly the majority have terrible unmatching rhythms, and desperate rhymes. So don't expect anything new, in a long time, or even ever. I'll keep everything on, and be on FA frequently. I'll make comments, conversations, favs, still do journals, and post pictures if I get or do anything exciting :P

Fill this out!

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favourite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any tattoos and/or piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favourite sport?
12) Do you have a pessimistic or optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What eye colour do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $/£/€10.000 today, what would you do with it?
26) What's your favourite place to hang out at?
27) Do you believe in ghosts?
28) Favourite thing to do in your spare time?
29) Do you swear a lot?
30) Biggest pet peeve?
31) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
32) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
33) Favourite and least favourite food?
34) Do you believe in God?
35) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

If you like indie, folk, country, alternative rock than you should give Band of Horses a listen. For those of you who know their greatness, they released a new album called Infinite Arms, from what I've heard it's amazing, a new fresh sound, very creative. The song "Factory" is so beautiful the shear sound of the instrumental and his voice blending almost put me in tears. It's so beautiful. :'3

You can find three new songs at this site, one of them is a video :D
http://www.bandofhorses.com/