Greetings, my fellow friends, watchers, and secret admirers from afar! Today, I've decided that enough was enough. "Fox3087" was a stupid lurker name that I held onto for 6 years in the fandom, since I've been active in roleplaying and buying art.

Now, as I'm approaching my 30th birthday in November, I figured it'd be time to cement myself in the fandom proper. Worry not though. This account WILL remain open so all the art I posted in my 20's will remain visible to everyone.

But please, if you haven't, please watch me on my new account! I look forward to continuing my path here as your ultra hung, lovable pegasus. <3

NEW ACCOUNT:  ZeusPegasus13

Man, been far too long since I posted anything about my own personal thoughts and feelings. But, this morning I got some very sad news coming from one of my longtime friends. I... I can't utter her name right now as the pain of it still stings fresh in my mind, but there are a swirling typhoon of emotions going on in my head. We haven't dated since 2014, but still remained close and friendly. Even met her in person at Anthrocon. And yet, out of they blue, they decide to "move on" from me. No more chats. No more gaming. No more RP. No more anything. It's suddenly over and I'm left to pick up the pieces of what was once cherished between us.

I felt like I deserved some more notice than that, but I get why they wanted to take this approach. Better to rip off the band aid than to slowly peel it off. Even still, as much as I'll trust the life they'll lead will be successful and fruitful without me, I can't help but feel guilty and like I broke up with a girlfriend. But, I feel like I have no right to feel that way.

I CAN'T HELP IT THOUGH! I loved this friend a ton. Cheered them on, wanting to stroke their ego and make them feel like the goddess they were to me. Regardless though, I do have my three online mates and plenty of close friends to lean on. Maybe they're right and it was time to move on. I just didn't want to let go, and... feel like the whole getting to know them efforts were completely pointless. It's hard enough to focus at work right now with this pain in my heart. I'm sure I'll get over it eventually, but I hate letting friendships end. I'm just thinking about all those opportunities I had to hang out with them more. Maybe less of the RP and more on the gaming side of things.

Hindsight is always 20/20... and, such does make me think about my other ongoing friendships. When will they end? Will I always be the one who gets dumped or I will sever ties with others? Anyway, I love you guys for choosing to stick around with this big pegastud. Hope we're all able to make plenty of positive memories for many years to come.

Last night, as I'm sure many of you are aware right now, everyone's lovable, kind inflatable loving stallion  Cetas has left this mortal plane. The news came suddenly for many of us. Tough feelings lit up in my own soul and I found it hard to sleep last night with Cetas in my mind. I wanted to say goodbye. I made an assumption that things were fine from his positive tweets. But... my own belief has me thinking the big man upstairs is showing Cetas right now how much he's meant to others. Even though he never found an IRL partner to call his own. There was no doubt in my mind that he was loved.

I am so glad I've had the opportunity to chat with him on occasion. I knew where his faith lied with, and I know in my heart he's rejoicing a far better life in the next one. If I'm sent to where he is, I aim to give him a massive hug before my own next journey begins. Many of his friends and I will miss him dearly. He will not be forgotten in my heart. He has touched the hearts of so many too, including my wonderful mate  ancara

I know things will be coming art wise for Cetas and hopefully money wise too. He deserved all the love people have given him. And please everyone... do keep in touch with everyone you know as often as possible. Life is so fragile. So precious. Heck, I too nearly DIED last February with a trip to the hospital over my own near heart attack like symptoms.

For now, below is a song to honor his life. What a beautiful soul we've lost.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QHPFrHzYhoI

Lyrics

Good times and bad times,
I can count on being with you.
I thank you for staying so true

My life will go on a long time,
Have to catch up when I see you
And You are my reason I can make it through

I will give my word that I will come in time to rescue
My heart will always be with you
I'm so glad I met you being with me wherever,
We're made for each other forever

I know life can be tough on you time and time again
laughter maybe gone away
I will wipe away my tears to-morrow
Life must go on, that's the reason that you travel away

I will be there if you need me
And I know you'll do the same
I can see you, I can hear you in my heart
You will be here if I need you
I will never have to guess
cause we are very special friends

So send me a letter,
let me know how you're doing.
You are my lifetime and true friend.

We'll never be forgotten,
having trust is all we may need
You are always with me in the life I lead
So far, far away from life I used to know
worries are too far, too

I will stop and close my eyes, remember
And at the rainbow I can take you,
I will catch it for you

Memories you can recall
With me any time of day
You can reach out
You can ask me in your soul
I will answer when you call me
I will come no matter how
Cause we are very special friends

Just like a river that flows
Just like stars in the dark night
Lead me in the storm,
Lead me in the dark
You are the light of my life

I will be there if you need me
And I know you'll do the same
I can see you, I can hear you in my heart
You will be here if I need you
I will never have to guess
Cause we are very special friends

Memories you can recall
With me any time of day
You can reach out
you can ask me in your soul
I will answer when you call me
I will come no matter how
Cause we are very special friends

So, plenty of things happened in the past couple of years as I move on with my young adult life. Part of that is finding souls to love in this vast universe, and I'm more than certain I have found them. Two mares came into my life recently, both of them proudly displayed on my profile page, two souls I cannot possibly live without, ever.

Macro Zecora. This fertility goddess found me in Equestria a couple years back, and our chemistry was electric from our first couple bouts of love making. Her love of size, eternal growth, and caring for the young was everything I looked for in my wife. And now, one full ascension later, we've become quite the pair of love centered diety figures. A talented writer and calm, rational individual, she forever has a place in my heart now going forward.

Heralestia. I've always had a soft spot for the most famous sun mare at all. Many joked about her being a dictator and too bland for a serious relationship. But I thought differently. She was princess of Equestria for a reason, and I found this loving soul to take to her image for me. A former stallion, not ultra busty and young developing goddess with the help of Zecora and I. What resulted is the perfect mare to forever give my endless amounts of love to. I cannot wait to see what lewd and interesting adventures await us.


Of course, none of this means I'm retiring from RP. Far from it. The three of us love each other and trusts our judgment. We know plenty of souls wish intimacy with us. And who can blame them? The only thing is that any art of Zeus making others pregnant will be reserved for my wives.

That's pretty much it. I'm such a blessed stallion!!! Never knew I'd marry this soon in my life. <3

Good evening all!

So, now that this amazing weekend of my first dive into furry fun times at AC is over, I'd like to sit down, get real with you all, and pretty much gush over everything that occurred.

Going into AC, I didn't know what to expect really. I've had my share of fandom related conventions in the past, mostly some pony conventions in Florida along with the popular Megacon. It was something I initially tried to hide from my nosy family, but I ended up telling them anyway to avoid bigger drama if caught lying. Of course, I was reminded how controversial the media portrays the furry fandom. It got annoying. I couldn't wait to board that plane alone and meet up with furries for the first time away from the computer screen.

Thankfully, the flight up to Pittsburgh was as smooth as smooth can be. My roomies picked me up at the airport and we had to endure QUITE the rush hour to reach the hotel only 16 miles away. Immediately when I got there and saw other furries, I remember my skin hairs being on end, wondering how they'd greet others. Would it be super awkward? Would they be as chill as the wonderful pair of foxes that picked me up from the airport? The answer for that would have to wait until tomorrow. I did get some interactions via Telegram with the macro fur group and I was pleasantly surprised to see them just as quirky as I was, casually RP'ing their grand entrances into the city of Pittsburgh.

So, first thing my group did was pick up our badges. And already, I felt like a such a noob to the whole convention scene. I waited in the wrong line... TWICE. Much time was wasted, but thankfully, a warm meal of pizza, wings, and giant seafood hoagies helped me settle in for the night. Oh, and did I mention we stayed at the Mariott? That place was AMAZING! Comfy beds, high class room service, and proximity to enough places to avoid paying for an 18 dollar breakfast buffet.

After food, and a good night's sleep, I woke up and quickly got ready to head over to convention. Along the way, it was so surreal to see tons of fursuiters walking around the city, with not many people awkwardly staring. In fact, many were asking for cute photos with them instead! I was also relieved to see the complete lack of religious protesters, and the oodles of security once we got into the con center. With the massacre in recent memory of my hometown, I am glad the convention was able to provide a sense of safety so we can enjoy the weekend in fur filled bliss.

Opening ceremonies was our first destination, and while in line, I got quite the smothering hug from  giantgrowingvixen. She definitely crushed me a bit, but it was well worth the greeting. We both fangirled inside about being there, and were fortunate enough to find good seeds near the middle of the Spirit of Pittsburgh area. Then to open up the convention, two furries started to sing a 20's style big band piece! Being the band nerd I am, I was hyped already to see talented performers kick off the convention. Then I saw the panel of the organizers of the con, including the famous Uncle Kage, who I was told recently is a macro fur, so more hype from my end for sure! It was absolutely crazy to see so much hard work go into making this truly the largest furry convention in the world.

Soon after the opening ceremonies, GGV and I decided to travel around the con, making sure we hit up all the locations to get our bearings. We were big fans of the game rooms for sure. And I was personally impressed with how easy everything was to find in the convention center. The schedule was filled tot he brim with so many events, that there was no way we could experience it all. So, we decided to hit up the Macro/Micro fur meetup panel. While the panel itself was pretty unorganized, my jaw dropped when I met the one and only DNA!  dnapalmhead I was so happy to see him act so casual and humble when meeting another fan. Definitely was my highlight of Friday.

After that, Vix and I decided to hit up a bit of the dealer's den. Nothing was bought, but we enjoyed the sights of it all. Afterwards, we battled it out at the Mario Kart 8 tournament. Vix was unfortunately knocked out round 1, but I made it to 3rd place out of 28 people! Ego was flying high for the rest of the day. Then, we hit up a famous place known as Fernando's. I got my doggie bowl with a lasgana wrap. Shame it will be closing down for 2017, but I am honored to snag a piece of furry con history. After relaxing back in the hotel a bit, I went out with Vix for some Werewolf games. It was her first time, and boy did she LOVE it! Village ended up winning the two games we played, with me scoring the final lynch in the second game on a cute dragon fursuiter. Poor suiter, he was so cute. D:

Saturday morning soon rolled around and I got ready for yet another fun filled day. After a quality breakfast, I met up with my roomies to tackle artist alley once again. It was then where I ordered my first AC badge. I can't wait to show you all once it is done! And it was nice to see people enjoying my Owen Grady cosplay. Shame I couldn't find any raptors to take a picture with. Raptor Jesus showed up after I changed out of cosplay... maaaan. Anyways, the parade was starting soon and I once more met up with my roomies to enjoy the Westin's signature furry milkshake. The sparkler on top was a nice touch! Although, I'm sure I drank an entire meal down with how loaded with sugar that shake was.

The parade started and my roomies bunched up inside the shaded part of the convention center. I was hoping for some music for the parade, and then a marching band began to blare in my face. Immediately, I was hyped as hell and whipped out my camera. I saw a lot of people high fiving the suiters, but I was too shy to approach them in their moment of awesome. It was crazy seeing how good these suiters looked. I was admittedly a little jealous, but then I remembered how expensive they are. Plus how annoying it would be to tend to it. I much rather use that time to socialize. It lated longer than expected too, but soon enough, I found myself back in Artist Alley/Dealer's Den. There was a smash brothers tournament going on that night, so Vix and I signed up for that. Not much happened in the Den outside of me getting a sketchbook from JAEH and telling him how big a fan I was of his work. The dude astounds me with how humble he is. He definitely charges way too low compared to other artists.

Dinner was approaching and I got invited out to an expensive Thai restaurant. Good food once more, and then it was a mad dash back to the hotel to change into more comfortable clothes. I had to run back to the convention center, got lost talking on the phone with my parents since I kept it touch with them, and ended up 10 minutes late. Thankfully, no names were called. Just a bunch of rules. The tourney went way worse for me as I got knocked out round 1. Vix got knocked out in round 2, although she should have been in top 16 with how close that match was. Either way, it was fun and we prepared for a rave! Smoke greeted us into the space, where so many lights and furs were dancing on the floor. I grinned and got close enough to the center to exchange dance moves with many others. I joined a congo line and cheered on a dance circle for sure. But, after an hour of this, I was already dead tired.

Sunday, I made it a mission to wake up early enough to hit up Dealer's Den when it opened. And my reward was an open commission slot from Kadath!  kadath Been a big fan of his art and I was stoked to have finally scored something from him. I also met up with Gideon and Cooner in the Den, happy to see more enthusiasts of big furs. Most of that day was chilling out in the Zoo, playing a game called Superfight! Much hilarity was had and I met more macro furs there too. Later on, I hung out with Vix in the game room just as it was closing. By then, it was back to the zoo for some deeper convos before closing ceremonies arrived. I was pretty bummed at that point, but still thrilled to have made the trip up and meet a lot of awesome people!

And the bottom line from all this is the following. I am so glad my preconceptions of furries in real life was shattered. Turns out this fandom is full of people just like me, and they just want to have fun in ways many people don't. I already cannot wait until AC 2017. Hopefully I can plan it a bit better so I can do more cool things!

In the meantime though, I will be happily advancing my career as a Research/Development Engineer, gaming hard with furs online, and maybe attend local furry meetups to pass the time before next year hits!

~ Zeus

That's right everyone. My very first furry convention! Definitely can't wait to be in Pittsburgh. I'm so excited to be among some people I've known for years and meet new faces.

Hey everyone!

I'd like to take the time to clear up some things when the urge is there to attempt to ride this stallion or do something else with our fursonas. This isn't meant to target anyone who does RP with me, but I'd like to just make it clear right now instead of surprising those who would rub me the wrong way and paint me as an awful guy because of it,

1. Do NOT make your first note/comment to me a basic request to RP.

I like getting to know other people I might in bed with first before doing any sort of deed. It's rather awkward and I don't nearly feel satisfied just getting busy when I hardly know what makes you tick. I'm not a sex object after all. I'm good at what I do and I do it with the people I love being around. :)

2. DO share your kinks clearly with me first when we have both reached a point to start RP.

I don't like guesswork. It makes me look like an idiot and likely won't please your tastes if we're not in synch with an RP idea.

3. Do NOT harass me to RP whenever it's your convenience.

I do have a lot of other interests besides online sex. Respect my time and I'll respect yours. We work together to make a time work.

4. Do NOT expect me to add you to my character canon or front page just because we RP'd a couple of times.

That's really my own discretion and it takes a lot to get up on there. No one should feel entitled to have their profile name anywhere.

5. DO have a decent competency for basic grammar and post length.

Sorry, but 1-5 word responses in an RP is frankly unacceptable and downright lazy to me. I ask for a couple sentences on average. Get the basic details out and go with the flow of the RP. Do make an effort to separate dialogue from actions. I'm not here to solely service YOU. I expect both parties in the RP to work with one another to create a memorable experience.

6. DO make an effort to be sociable online.

Don't just expect me to RP all the time. Start up different topics. Share different ideas with me. Create a reason to stick around and I will do the same.

7. If I don't want to RP with you, I will explain myself for clarity. But don't take that as a direct attack on your self value. Not everyone can jive with one another. If you want quick throwaway sexy flings, then go to F-List or some other site to find others like you. Please don't bother me. I have enough in my life to think about.

That is all! Hope everyone has a great week as we start the third month of the year. :)

I'm eager to expand my gallery a ton this year. But in order for me to do that, I need to put in the time to find open artists who want to draw some epic solo macro pics of Zeus.

And... another form of my character I've been meaning to do for a while that  giantgrowingvixen has graciously blessed me with!

Of course, those wanting to appear in duo commissions too, I'm game as well. Just wanted to throw this out there for those interested.

Hey everyone!

Well, I don't imagine it's much paying attention to my account, but I wanted to finally get rid of that other journal I left nearly a year ago.

I probably will compile my thoughts about the past year in an upcoming journal, but man does it feel good to live on my own and be part of this huge and fun fandom.

Once a furry, always a furry I suppose.

Hello everyone.

Recently, I have been caught redhanded of my online activities involving smut, sex texts, and erotic role play. For those who don't know, I am a Christian. I've been led astray from the path from my first RP mate way back then, 3 years ago now.

I've tried to explain to my family why I did what I did, but it is simply not acceptable. There is no justifying what I did. I've sinned against God, and even took pleasure in it. I have much to learn, and the first step is to leave behind this old life of mine. My mind is screaming in much pain, and only the holy word can heal me. Once and for all.

Thank you all for the memories here. I did learn a lot. However, it is time refocus my life towards a more holy lifestyle. Do not try to contact me. I... I need time away from this fandom.

Goodbye. :(

Hello to all my watchers, close ones, and the random lurkers giving my humble space on FA a looksee. Today, I would like to make a monumental announcement, something that I never dreamed about when I first joined this large fandom. As of July 17th, 2014, I became mated with the love of my life.

 giantgrowingvixen

That's right, you read that correctly. The same beautiful vixen who has been known around the fandom as a major growth/hyper lover, willing to RP with anyone who approached her with the same interests, and write smutty fanfiction of herself. But let me tell you, that the vixen I fell in love with is a lot more deeper and complex than you realize. I'll get into that a bit later. We've known each other for months already, but things really started to change when she decided to quit RP'ing back in June. After a long talk, I started to feel her pain and frustration with her whole life. So, seeing how I was still one of the few to make her feel rather special in our RP, we continued in secret. Thus, I apologize deeply for lying about my entire intention to quit RP'ing a while back, but I couldn't help but honor her deepest wishes. She was clearly in pain and I wanted to be a good friend and help at the same time. From now on, I'll be as open as I can with everyone here to prevent confusion. Anyway, together, we have already walked through a lot of pain already, shared indepth discussions on our personal views on life, and let each other's traits rub onto one another, in mostly the best of ways. ;)


GGV is super special to me for a variety of reasons. For one... she really has changed ever since I have met her. Gone is the usual bitter and lonesome self, and in to replace it is a rekindled soul so beautiful, caring, and supportive of the people that understand her. To get to her core and to appreciate her beyond her incredibly sexy and bouncy body is what really sung out to her. I didn't see her a fetish fueled sex ride, but truly as a unique, kind, and gorgeous individual. She's also helped me go through some early fandom drama as well, and I can't thank her enough for that. Another major reason why I love her is her willingness to sacrifice. To give up RP'ing for good with anyone and give me a shot was something I could not believe at first. She's given up a lot for me to keep it going, and I'm glad to be able to give it back in spades. The third and most important reason is that she truly strives to make me feel happy each and every day we chat. Yes, she was rather egotistical of herself, but she put all that aside for me. She gives me a strong purpose to live and do what I do each day I'm on this planet. She makes me feel complete and safe from the harsh opinions of those who view my life. I respect her more and more each day. Honestly, I just feel so damn proud to have made a huge difference in one's life. I don't know how I ended up with a woman as fantastic as her, but I don't care anymore. We're together now and I intend it to make it last.

With that all said, let me lay down a few ground rules and changes about my OC, Zeus going forward.

1. Absolutely no smut RP's with me (OC wise). My cock belongs solely to her, and no one else. If I get to know you well enough, then I'll likely cuddle and treat you well in casual RP. But again, no smut from now on. Smut RP's involving officially licensed characters is fine. I know I have some I need to finish.

2. Art commissions going forward (Do note that I have two smutty ones coming that were requested before GGV and I became official) will ONLY involve smut with my mate and just solo pics. My mate and I are fine with cute and suggestive poses with other furs online, but I will not order anything that involves me making love to you. Not even kissing.

3. My cock was once a meager 12 inches in size with baseball sized testicles. Now, I plan to have it constantly be hyper size, and I'll post its current "natural" size every so often on my profile. Our love for one another has got us in a constantly growing state, so if this bothers you, then I suggest you don't watch my page or hers anymore.

4. Canon for my OC now has Zeus completely disabled to fly. I did it to fix a major blunder I committed against her. It's a long story, so I won't get into it. If you are in an investigative or casual/world building RP with my OC, then please respect this.


Anyway, that's all for now. So, I'm going to end this with a quick message to GGV. Babe, thank you for everything you have done with me so far. I'm glad to have entered your life and be the constant source of happiness you've been desiring for so long. I promise to do my best to make this matehood work, no matter the public opinion that can come our way. Because you matter the most to me in my life right now. We will achieve each others dreams together as one mind, body, and soul!

I love you.

*smooches deeply and hugs*

*gives everyone of my watchers a huge hug*

Hey everyone! I'm finally back from my vacation from Denver, Colorado. 3,600 miles round trip of driving later, and the extent of my problems only include an annoying cough that won't go away, heh. Anyway! I've missed you all dearly and I can't want to chat again via Skype and ntoes. However, it's going to be a tad slow this week since starting Thursday, I have to attend 4 straight 10 hour days of class to earn a license in insurance sales. But I will do my best to get online when I can to relieve the boring days of studying!

But, I bet you all are wondering what went down in my 2 week vacation. The link below will take you to an album of my pictures of my trip.

Pictures: http://imgur.com/a/PGerL

In short, my trip went very well! I visited the following locations.

- Red Rocks Amphitheater
- Denver Museum of Science and Nature (T-Rex picture)
- Royal Gorge (Where I went extreme zip lining and white water rafting for the first time!)
- Valley of the Gods
- Broncos Stadium
- Jack N Grill (Amazing green chile sauce and portions!)
- Celestial Seasonings Headquarters (Free ice and warm tea, as well as a free tour.)
- Colorado Springs
- Boulder (Home of the University of Colorado)

If you want to hear more details, send me a note or catch me on Skype so we can chat. Can't wait to catch up with everything and get a lot done this week!

To my fellow watchers, friends, and the random lurkers who wanted to send me a note for RP purposes...
This past weekend, I spent my time at a retreat with a couple of close friends of mine, trying to recapture my more spiritual side away from my access to my laptop. It was very refreshing to step away from it all and just re-examine my own life for a change. But, during those self reflections, I wondered about my recent activities online and if they were a true reflection of the person I want to be in life. The more questions I asked myself, the more I found out how I was becoming something I didn't want to be. And the stem of that problem... was my recent surge in erotic RP'ing.

I've met plenty of wonderful contacts through RP's, and even found myself on a website called F-List. However, I found myself becoming more selfish, desiring to only be interested in new people who are into erotic RP's like I am. F-List made it very easy to fill up that desire in my life, and give me a false sense of who I should associate my time with there. That place is also filled with tons of people with questionable motivations and sometimes, outright rude and disrespectful behavior. Time is growing much more limited now due to my incoming 2 week vacation in 5 days times. Also, with more job opportunities coming and the new responsibilities I might take on soon with said jobs, I should continue to get things straightened out in my life. So as of now, I've deleted my F-List account for good. Good riddance, for real. ;)

For those who are worried about me, don't be. I'm not mad at anyone who knows me. It's NOT your fault! It's just a personal decision of mine to better myself. I just need a mental break right now. I want to focus a lot on my fan game, My Little Investigations, upon my return from vacation as well. Do note that I've GREATLY enjoyed my time RP'ing with everyone I have been doing it with so far. I hope that you can respect my decision for now and move on with your lives. I'll be happy to chat, play the occassional online game with, and answer questions about stuff that comes to your mind. I will not shut myself away from you all. I'm deeply sorry about the planned RP's that need to be postponed for now. I was really looking forward to them myself. But... that's the way life goes sometimes. You're pushed to make big decisions at any given time.

Anyway, I like to state that this is an indefinite leave of absence and not an official retirement from RP'ing. I'll likely return one day once I feel things are more stable in life and feel motivated to resume. Thanks again for the memories so far, I look forward to making more with you all in other ways outside of RP.
Take care everyone.

P.S - More artwork sure to come, especially now that I have potential to get some sweet income soon.

Ah, memorial day. It's a time of rejoicing and honoring those who had fallen in the heat of battle for the United States... or just an excuse to go to the beach and have a great BBQ. Your pick. But, today has gotten me thinking, a lot. After some usual yard work at home, I got online to see how all of my friends were doing. It's always great to see good news coming from them. When the conversations started to die down though, I figured I would spend some time doing RP's.

Ever hear the expression. "Look before you leap?" It means to not make assumptions before doing something potentially dangerous or reckless. Well, this expressions applies to anything you do, even online on IM places like Skype and F-Chat. It's incredibly important to pay attention to your conversations and make sure all parties you interact with are satisfied. I pushed myself a bit too much today and found myself ignoring a close friend of mine (who I won't mention because I despise singling people out and it's against the rules) when they wanted some of my insight into a indepth matter they wanted resolved and discussed. We reached a point in the conversation where I made an assumption that this person didn't want to continue discussing the issue at hand.

So, I quietly left the conversation to RP. This person poked me. Needless to say, there was more to be discussed and I ended up making the person feel quite ignored and not worth caring about. To say this hurts my soul is an understatement. I personally strive to make as people happy around me as I can. My family has tasked me to live up to a lot of high standards in everything I do. Due to that, I end up getting taken advantage of periodically in my moments of weakness. So, when I let things like this slip by, I start to question my true priorities. What do I truly look for in the people I talk with everyday online? Have I really devolved into wanting to do only smutty RP's in my free time instead of being a good friend and listen to others when they need me? The growing reality of this scenario terrifies me. I don't want to be like that. I want to respect others time and leave the sexy/world building stuff for when nothing is truly going on. I can't put self interests in place of others when they need it. My extended silence spoke a ton more than words, and I felt like I've been punched right in my heart.

But then again, I'm also glad this happened to me. Self reflection is incredibly important once in a while. And often enough, I need a kick in the rear to set my life straight. So, to all of my RP mates, if I have to bail to take care of another person online, please respect my decision to do so. That's all I ask. It's far too easy to get into too many conversations online and lose track of the ones you care about the most. For other RP enthusiasts out there, I hope this reflection has helped in examining your own life as well. The world needs to communicate with each other more. Going at it alone and trying to shove problems under the rug isn't going to change anything.

Take care everyone! I hope to have a more positive journal next time. :)

Zeus

P.S. I'm not depressed. I just felt eager to share an experience I had to rest of my followers, hoping someone can learn from my mistakes. ;)

Hello fellow furries, macro/hyper enthusiats, and my entourage of watchers. So, let me begin by stating how glad I am to be contributing to the community here. You're probably wondering why I decided to bother posting a journal after my many years being a watcher of other's work before I started to write fetish smut fics. To be frank, I felt compelled to share my experiences on how I became more active here. I credit that to my interest in RP'ing with others, a trend that began a while back, around the end of 2012 actually.

Then, I found a random person via Skype who followed a game project I'm working on known as My Little Investigations. Check it out here!

https://www.equestriandreamers.com

Anyway, this person and I bonded a lot through RP's, for over a full year. We did some pretty mystery centered and adventure themed RP's, with a layer of grimdark tones, and I found myself having a good time. Eventually, we started donig some smut RP's, which at first I was pretty hesistant about, but over my time with him, grew to LOVE it! However, as time passed, we started to run out of ideas and didn't want to RP with each other. The fire he lit within me to find other RP partners grew stronger as I scoured Skype for more people. I eventually ran into Geno13 via one of his works, around I checked his profile was suprised to see him interested into fetish RP's in early January. Shortly after we met, he introduced me to a great forum found at this website.

http://www.thecouncilsrpforum.com/r.....orum/index.php

I found 2 other great RP'ers here. Neither are related to FA, but they are both incredible people with fantastic attention to detail, creativtiy, and endurance to engage in 2-4 hour long RP sessions. Some other people joined me on Skype that I very much respect, but I am not as attached to them as I am to the group of 3 RP'ers I formed beforehand. We mostly do simple fucks, with some fetish themes involved. As happy as I am with them, I was wondering who else that I watched on FA was willing to find long term RP partners.

One of GGV's works was posted on my new artwork feed two weeks ago, so naturally, I checked her profile first. That's where I discovered the very active and horny community, F-Chat. I immediately applied there and created my kink list, which you can check out here.

https://www.f-list.net/c/zeusassassin

I was pretty overwhelmed how many RP partners were there to choose from, but my focus still was on asking GGV to RP. To be honest, I thought I didn't have a chance with her. Considering how many friends and watchers she has, I figured I would be nobody worth considering. Much to my surprise, she responded to my request. We became contacts on Skype and then I pitched my idea to her. To my surprised, she was pretty intrigued with the idea and we got started the next night. In between sessions, we chatted a lot and even shared some deep stuff. In the two weeks I've gotten to known her, I've enjoyed every minute RP'ing with her. The amount of detail she puts into her posts is very impressive, and I'm glad she feels the way about my posts as well. The RP we are doing is going to go on for a long time, and I really can't wait how it'll affect the canon and commissions for our OC's.

And just a couple of days ago, I met another fellow hyper enthusiast, Veedway. After reading her journals, I wasn't sure how willing she was to open up to new RP partners. I found her Skype information and posted a note to her on FA. Again, I was surprised to get a quick response from her. After ice breaking we her for a bit, I was absolutely floored how quickly we bonded and loved each other's presence. Veedway is one of the kindest, kinkiest, caring, forgiving, and understanding people I've ever met online. I'm very honored to be her loving master. I do hope we keep this relationship firm between us as much as we can. <3 <3 <3

With that, I have assembled a strong group of RP'ers to interact with over the past 5 months. I don't think I will be searching for more for a while. After all, quality > quantity. However, if more people do want to approach me for a long term RP relationship, I don't mind hearing you out. Send me a note. Thanks for taking the time to read this. I hope to return to writing more fics one day. Until then, I'll be RP'ing and watching all of my favorite artists here on FA.

fox3087 AKA Zeus, signing out.