Hey everyone! It's been a while, huh?

The purpose of this journal is just to provide a place for people to comment or reach out to me for additional contact info in case FA becomes unusable to them or myself.

The latest policy update doesn't affect most of the art I've posted over the years, but there were a couple of submissions that I have now deleted, since they could be seen as against FA rules.

I haven't posted a lot here recently, and unfortunately I don't see that changing anytime soon. I haven't written anything about my furry characters in almost two years as I've been exclusively focused on my novel when I do write anything. Here's the link if anyone would like to take a look:
https://www.scribblehub.com/series/.....-and-fondness/

I did post about this several months ago. I've given it a fresh start and begun to rewrite it from the perspective of eleven year old Robin.

Here is the synopsis:
In the mid-2000s, eleven-year-old Robin Brush lives in the commuter belt village of Stanstead Abbotts in Hertfordshire, England. His life is a constant minefield of being bullied, ridiculed, or misunderstood by almost everyone, leaving him without any friends to play with. At school, his teachers fail to understand his railway-centric world, further isolating him. Additionally, he deeply misses his old friend, Justin.
A glimmer of hope appears when Robin's new neighbor, Timothy, enters his life. The two boys discover they share similar interests, and a friendship blossoms between them. However, even with this newfound companionship, Robin's strife and troubles persist. Timothy is several years younger than him, which doesn't help when he endures escalating taunting from his bullies. He is left questioning why he is so different from everyone else.
As Robin begins high school, his struggles are finally noticed by his teachers. A referral finally brings some light to the end of the tunnel, as he yearns to find solutions to his problems. Yet, amidst these new challenges, Robin finds himself facing a difficult choice regarding his friendship with Timothy.

What I've written so far can be read here:
https://www.scribblehub.com/read/74.....stead-abbotts/

Hey guys! Remember my little rat character whom I introduced nearly two years ago? A new scene and story for him is on the way!

Toby lives in a town quite far away from Friendly and Timothy (Originally called Dumbarton, but I like Milton better. The story is centred around his friends coming over to play for the day. Life for Toby is quite different than for his two friends. I have quite a few ideas for this, but feel free to comment anything you would like to see below!

Having pondered for the last couple of days, I don't think publication is really what I want. Especially if it means throwing away almost everything I've paid for over the last decade.

This is my escape from reality. A safe place to retreat to when I'm stressed or sad. I don't think the stress of taking my characters through editing (by an unknown person) and subjecting myself to people who will never understand the finer details of my fantasy will do me any good.

It would be nice, but I don't have the willpower to see it through. All I can do is take what I've learned and try to grow from there. Timothy is my little ray of sunshine. He keeps me company and I love my daydreams about being with him.

Regrettably we live in a world where others are too quick to judge someone for having these feelings and desires.

But at least now I do have some cute ideas for stories that I can work on over the next few months.

Hey everyone! Winter's finally over and I'll be moving to Edmonton in ten days from now ^_^

On Friday I found this really cool trail that was still pretty icy in a park on the western outskirts of Calgary. On Sunday I returned to record some scenes of myself walking along there, with plans to return on a slightly warmer day wearing my iconic outfit for my littlespace character, Timothy. (Often portrayed as a raccoon between the ages of five and eight, or in the image of my childhood best friend as a human boy).

Here is a sneak peek of a full video I have planned:
https://youtu.be/5lpssAQyT9c

I have my off days from time to time, especially in the winter. I've posted here a few times regarding my state of mind which usually boils down to more frustration than depression/anxiety.

Because the truth is, I am frustrated. Who isn't at least a little these days? The days I feel depressed are typically because of loneliness.
That being said, I don't need a therapist. Others do and that's totally fine. What I need is to talk to the right people, which is frustrating when they never respond or don't give the answers I want.

Then comes the next question, why am I lonely? The answer is complicated, but I remember a time not so very long ago that I was full of energy, and never turned down an opportunity to go ride bikes or swim or just hang out with someone who meant a great deal to me, like the little brother I always wanted. If I had the choice to return to my pre-teen years I wouldn't hesitate, but that isn't possible and isn't likely to be anytime soon. When I started feeling lonely I comforted myself by writing about my character Timothy, so much so I started thinking of him as my own child. By now I was hoping that I would be in a better financial situation (in a way I am, but still relying on PWD benefits) and have at least someone to co-parent with (Thanks COVID for delaying that time and time again) and be making arrangements for my Timothy to be brought to life. I envisioned Timothy to look like my childhood friend, and the truth is I won't settle for anything less. I want Timothy to look identical to him, in every conceivable way. However, there has been no definitive progress in my chosen form of reproduction, it is still illegal to attempt in most countries and hasn't been perfected, even if it is scientifically possible.

I have been waiting patiently for the last half-dozen years, but that's ultimately what I want out of life. A therapist won't make that happen, if anything they'll attempt to talk me out of it.

For now, I'm focusing on things I can control. I'm possibly moving to Edmonton in a month or so to a better living environment with occasional visitors, who share common (though mostly unrelated to this) interests with me. If all goes well by this summer I should be in a happier place, even though I likely have to postpone bringing my Timothy into this world by up to another five years.

(Posted in regards to the mental health awareness that's going around lately)

Hey everyone!

Some of you know about my PAW Patrol fanfiction. Others may not. Suffice it to say I have indulged in a few spoilers of the upcoming PAW Patrol Movie and now, I'm working on something really, really wholesome centred on what I've seen. No spoilers though! xD

This particular fanfiction should be ready by the end of August, as I want to see the movie in all its glory, and the two books focused on it. One of which is titled "Be Brave, Little Pup"

Anyways, who else is excited to see this movie? For those lucky enough to have already seen it, feel free to say how you feel - but please avoid spoiling it for any of us who haven't seen it yet!

Hi everyone. Some of you are probably wondering what happened to my previous journal post about 'Tails of Friendly and Timothy'.

Yesterday I was posting some of my work (particularly my latest story) for constructive feedback on a writing forum. Anyone who has read my stories here knows that I strive to make them wholesome while still appealing to me. Regrettably though, to some people my wholesome tales read only as 'fetish writing'.

I write my stories because I find it therapeutic, it allows me to reclaim my childhood that I feel was robbed from me by my undiagnosed autism, from being bullied by kids my age, and by figures of authority (my Dad, and some teachers) who caused trauma from overly strict disciplinary tactics for even minor transgressions.

Still, at least now I know that my stories will never amount to anything, and it's best just to keep them here in safer communities that are more understanding to ABDLs, ageplayers and others who like to regress for therapeutic purposes.

Hey everyone, just a little entry here pointing to a story I wrote three years ago. I've just submitted some minor updates to it.

For my new watchers, it's definitely worth a read!
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/25347520/

Hey everyone! I apologise again for the lack of activity over the last few months. I've been busy working at a local drugstore chain and lately I've been working four or five days a week, which is more than I'm used to.

Anyways that aside, I hope you enjoyed the first part of "Back to School Buddies". The second part of that story should be posted in the next few days.

I'm also going to be working on the overdue second part of "Friendly's New Friend" and in the summer I should be able to finish the similarly overdue second part of "The Camping Adventure".
There is more art of Friendly and Timothy coming too.


Hope you are all well, and I look forward to reading your comments on these creations over the coming months.

FriendlyFox

This isn't meant as a gripe or lashing out at someone, but I'm just feeling unappreciated. For a few artists and other friends I've written their characters into my stories with many adorable scenes, but to this day not a single one of them has messaged me and said that they appreciated what I wrote for them. Nobody has thought about commissioning or illustrating any of those scenes. Nor has anyone actually thought that those stories would constitute a fair art-trade.

Writing stories (especially good ones) takes just as much work as illustrating scenes. Especially if there are multiple characters involved who all need to interact in their own little ways that makes for an enjoyable read.

What do I know though? Nobody even comments on what I wrote for them :(

This is something I made few months ago, but I'm still obsessing over it...
https://t.co/UgJ6YWPhnm

A hundred years ago there were lots of railway companies in the UK, large and small. This is set in the early 1920s (1920-1922) with companies like the LNWR, Maryport & Carlisle, Midland Railway, NER and Caledonian Railway.
In 1923 all of these companies were amalgamated into the LMS, except the NER which was absorbed into the LNER.

Microsoft Train Simulator - Skipton-Carlisle route.

Decided to put out my first gaming video! More will come over the next few months, but here's a start. Who likes playing with trains? :D
https://youtu.be/98C3hH_Lw7E

No doubt a lot of nostalgia for anyone who played Transport Tycoon.

So... it's been over a year since I last posted a journal entry here.
My desktop PC was a relatively easy fix, under $200 to have a new power supply and GFX card fitted (as that was on the way out too) and has been back in business since the end of May last year.

However there have been later developments. My apartment that I had been living in for the past two years is being gutted out and refurbished. I moved out at the beginning of April and I'm temporarily living with my parents again, on Vancouver Island. Seeing as I doubt I'll find anywhere closer to Vancouver for under $600/month rent I'll be heading out to Calgary for a week in June, to explore the possibility of moving in with friends, for better job prospects as well as more affordable accommodation, not to mention future plans of being a homeowner and family man.

There will be more stories from me - and artwork commissioned by me - to come. It'll just be a while longer.
I'm continuing to upload videos to my YouTube channel too: www.youtube.com/user/Welwyn22/…
Some are reuploads of earlier videos, others are newly recorded. Be sure to take a look!

So! It's been quite a while since I posted anything about how my life is going. I'm still uncertain about what to do in the far future, but I know that in 2018 and 2019 I want to do a lot more travelling. I spent most of 2017 at home and was highly restless and lonely. I don't mind the loneliness, so long as I am having fun and at least have someone to talk to sometimes. Travelling is something that helps.

So without further ado... here is my itinerary.

June 3rd-18th, 2018: Road Trip to Kelowna, Calgary, Saskatoon, Edmonton and Kamloops.
FurCon: Fur-Eh!

August 1st-28th, 2018: UK and Europe Trip. Three weeks in UK, one week in Germany.
FurCon: Eurofurence

All of the accommodation and most of the travel arrangements have been made already for these two trips. My YouTube channel has been rather productive lately earning around $350/month. I daresay with all the videos I'll be creating and uploading from these two trips, I can get that up even more. The ideal target is $900-1000/month. With this I can do a lot more travelling to visit friends and furcons farther away. Some preliminary plans for 2019 include a return to Further Confusion, Furnal Equinox and MegaPlex, as well as new adventures at Furrnion and Confuzzled.

I'm even looking into a New Zealand-Australia-China-Hong Kong trip in the spring of 2020, but that remains to be seen.

Just thought I'd let you all know! Tell me if you're gonna be at Fur-Eh or Eurofurence so we can hang for a while!

So after unplugging my desktop nearly two weeks ago and taking it over to my parents' place last week, it turns out my desktop is alive! I guess there might just be a short circuit in one of the USB ports which was causing it to turn off abruptly, so I just have to make sure not to use that particular USB port. I will be looking for a new power supply though just in case that is the problem - and maybe looking into more detail about what should be replaced. Then again though this desktop is 10.5 years old and I'll probably be looking into a replacement at some point, leaving this one as a contingency unit.

So yeah. This evening after I'd returned from grocery shopping I turned my desktop on hoping to work on some stories (after eating dinner) it just died. Just like that, shut off without warning and wouldn't turn back on. Even when I pulled out the power cord and plugged it back in it wouldn't turn on. Completely dead. It is over ten years old, so I guess something had to go eventually. Most likely it's the power supply.

I've had this happen before - eleven years ago with an even older computer system (Asus A7N8X-Deluxe motherboard and Socket A processor). In that case the power supply went kaput and fried the motherboard as well. I really hope it didn't fry the motherboard this time.

So replies will be a little more sporadic, but I do have two backup systems plus my smartphone. (My mini HP desktop, and my Toshiba laptop).

FriendlyFox

Hey everyone! Sorry about the depressive journals as of late. I tend to feel more depressed, sad and lonely in the winter months. Must be the lack of sunlight or something.

Anyways, not to spoil the surprise but I'm working on a new story about Friendly, Jake and Timothy... taking place sometime after this scene: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26043196/
This is a collaboration story between myself and  thehotrodhero - I look forward to sharing the finished story with you all soon.

That's all for now
FriendlyFox

Hey everyone! Just a journal explaining a few things going on in my life, in my head and just some other lovey-dovey stuff. If that isn't your thing, then never mind. ^.^

It was just over a year ago now that I started watching Paw Patrol. Instantly I thought it was adorable and soon developed an affinity for Chase. I love all of the characters, what's not to love about the show? Hehe... That's as far as it went though... until just recently when I watched the episodes again and also found out that my eight-month-old nephew is already a fan of the show too!
I've been feeling depressed and lonely for ages, and watching this show makes me feel so much better. It would be awesome to watch with friends and comment on all the adorable scenes and moments in the show... who knows, maybe in the future that will happen.

Though I'm feeling depressed and lonely, I'm not suicidal - that isn't my style as I care about others' feelings more than my own. I'm just more willing to embrace death when it occurs, as it will one day. These stories that I'm writing about my character (Luke - inspired by my almost-given-birth-name in this life) give me some form of comfort that when I do pass onto the next life, I will be there in Adventure Bay interacting - playing and helping out the Paw Patrol pups whenever I can. I have quite a few ideas for stories in-between scenes in the official episodes as well as some new-creation ideas that I'll work on later.

Don't worry about Friendly and Timothy, they're still important to me too and there will be more stories featuring them in the future - it's just right now I want to focus on this adorable TV series and its' characters that I have fallen in love with. Call it 'Puppy Love' if you will, but it's a real feeling. To just want to be there to cuddle the characters when they're sad, or laugh with them when they're happy - or just to be there and witness some of their antics first-hand and interact.

Anyways... that's as far as I'll go with this journal. I don't want to bore you all, do I? ^^
FriendlyFox

Well - after writing a formal letter to my store manager I finally can say I have the necessary time off for MFF! I'll be there with my new suit, Jake. Just have to book the flights - which I'll do within the next couple of weeks.

Still waiting on a lot to go right, but it's a step in the right direction at long last. :D

Hey everyone. Rather than summing up everything that's gone wrong this year I think I'd rather try and focus my energy on how I can get out of the mess I'm in and try and focus on the future I'd like to have.
So far ever since joining the full-on furry scene I've been to twenty-four furry conventions (mostly RainFurrest, VancouFUR, MidWest Fur Fest and Further Confusion) and yet over the past five years almost every con has gone the same way - (with the exception of a couple BLFCs). That is - I'm lonely, I'd like to socialize with people and get to know them better, but at a convention there's so many people one can't possibly choose. That means I've gone towards trying to get to know certain fursuiters. To this date, I still only know a handful of fursuiters by their real names and I have yet to actually hang out with any of them. I mean, we've hung out in our suits, but when it comes to getting food, going out and doing general life things, or even anything around the convention, I'm always left alone.
It would just be nice to be a part of a group of furs who might call out, text or message me: "Hey Friendly, we're going out to get food. Wanna come?" or "Hi Friendly! We're heading up your way for a convention/travels, would you like to meet up/hang out?"
You know, just so I'm not going mad from near-total solitude. The only thing I dread when I leave a con is that I won't get to see anyone for months. Talking online is nice, but it only goes so far. I really want to travel and visit my friends, but it's my own doing that I haven't been able to this year. I took a gamble and lost, and now I have to pay for it.

On top of which, you know I bought a new fursuit. I'm seriously thinking that was a mistake too. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely adore him and love how he looks and feels, but what's the point of having a fursuit if you can't go and visit your friends once in a while?

Now on top of ALL that, my current employment has stated that my ONE time off-request for the whole year (MFF) won't be approved because absolutely nobody is allowed time off for November-December. "That wouldn't be fair to everyone else" - well it's not exactly fair to me either. The one time of year I can actually get a chance to see most of my friends and hopefully make new ones, and I'm either going to be stuck working - or looking for a new job if I do decide to go anyway. *sigh*

I long to experience the joys and pleasures to be had in this life... but right now I'm just feeling dejected, without much hope. Sad thing is I've been feeling this way for the past year or so.
All I can hope for is that someday I can pursue a dream in life, and actually live a life where I can visit my friends, we can hang out, and we can enjoy ourselves in each others' company.

Hey again everyone!
So, I was very fortunate and found a place at the Hyatt to stay for MFF! Really looking forward to meeting some of you, and seeing all of you again!

Keep in mind - I won't be bringing my suit of 'FriendlyFox' to the con. Instead I'll be bringing Jake (My new GShep character) and some more pics of him will be posted over the coming months.

If anyone would like to hang out, feel free to let me know! Most cons I've been to I've just been bored between suiting because nobody says "Hey! Let's go get pizza!" or "Wanna hang out with us for a bit?"

Really guys, I would like to hang out with people more.

Hey everyone! I'm just posting this journal as I am planning on attending MidWest Fur Fest once again and I am seeking accommodation from Wednesday evening through to Monday morning. Can pay cash, or will also settle for PayPal so long as it isn't needed in advance.

I will also be around in a new fursuit! Keep an eye out for a new, blue G-Shep likely hanging out with other sheps and puppers and... well all of you cute animals!

:D

In a similar turn of events to  tjfoxxxx 's journal, some of my OC'S can answer questions! Anything at all, as long as it's PG-13. Ask Friendly, Jake and Timothy!

Welp, I arrived back from Megaplex in the early hours of this morning. As I was so exhausted from the trip I fell asleep basically as soon as I arrived home - around 1:00am my time (Pacific).

Anyways let's start at the beginning - on August 3rd around 8pm I was on my way to YVR Vancouver International airport to begin my overnight journey to Orlando for Megaplex. At 8:15 I was checking in when I realized I forgot my VISA card (needed for hotel checkin and airline baggage payment) so rushed back to my apartment 30 minutes away (by transit) to get it, then back again. Checked in at 9:30 and almost immediately went through security - a breeze with my NEXUS card - and my flight left on time at 11:18. Through Dallas four hours later where the entire plane had to go through customs as it was closed at YVR, and again a breeze with my Nexus Card - TSA on the other hand took a little longer as my KTN was not on the boarding pass, so they wouldn't let me through TSA-Pre. Anyways that aside caught another plane a couple of hours later bound for Orlando MCO Airport.

In Orlando, here's where things started to get interesting. I had looked up how to get to the hotel by transit and looked it up on Google Maps again - funny thing is it said it would take three hours, whereas I'd researched it to be about an hour-and-a-half. Shrugging this off I went with my pre-planned itinerary (the 111 bus to SeaWorld followed by the 50 bus to the hotel). Then at Seaworld the 50 never showed up, there were at least four people plus myself standing under a tree as we were subjected to a Floridian rain shower before finally - 50 minutes after the 111 dropped us off, the 50 showed up - jam packed. We all squeezed on and then ended up at - wait for it... Disney's Magic Kingdom! Of course this wasn't where I wanted to go so I asked the driver if we had passed the Embassy Suites, unhelpfully he just replied "I don't know where that is."
Rode back on the bus to where I thought the hotel was (Palm Pkwy at Marabella Palms Ct.) and walked through uncut grass and bushes to the Embassy Suites. Upon trying to check in, here came this fantastic news (sarcasm) - it was the WRONG Embassy Suites! I thought it looked different from on the Megaplex website, but I was so tired I didn't pay it any attention. The (wrong) Embassy Suites called me a taxi to take me to the correct hotel - five miles away and a $39 blow to my finances - also amid pouring rain. Anyways that aside, I arrived at the correct Embassy Suites and checked in. I was too tired to do anything else so fell asleep for three hours before looking around the con, briefly introducing myself to  blitzgshep and then going back for a proper sleep to try and get rid of the jetlag.

Friday morning came - I missed the free breakfast as it finished at 9:30am and I didn't get up until 10. Went over to the nearby 7-Eleven to get food and forgot my wallet, had to go back and get it and then came back again to get the food. Wow, things were just going wrong all over the place. xD
That afternoon I decided to go for a swim in the pool. I met quite a few people there and had a good time amid several inflatable floating animals - belonging to  silverwolfoneofmany and then later on seeing  thedoggygal with her boyfriend and Momlando.
That evening there was the news that  spazzfox was coming around midnight. I simply had to warn him to go to the correct hotel after my own misfortune and I made sure I was in suit so I could greet him with a big fox hug - this never happened of course but he did acknowledge me.

Saturday came - Once again I missed the free breakfast but had some leftover food from Friday's 7-Eleven visit so had that, and then went down in fursuit with my EZ Cooling Vest on (it's great for keeping cool in warm climates!) and prepared to go in the fursuit parade. Of course I didn't actually march in the parade because by the time I went over to the door the parade was over already! xD Ah well, I was just about to go out and see who else was fursuiting when Spazz came in, with  elliotthebunny and  kodipup - so quite predictably I stayed in the room. Once again Spazz acknowledged me and amid a few short heads-off breaks it was fursuiting antics amid staff trying to clear the room for the next event *giggle* (for those of you curious, Spazz has never acknowledged me like this before, so I was quite delighted with this). Anyways as Spazz predictably buzzed away leaving me all by myself, I went up to desuit. For the next few hours I was cooling off in my room until I went over to Subway for some supper, on my way back bumping into Orlando and Momlando yet again.
After this I saw some playful shenanigans with  taikoshepherd and a few of his friends, so after recording some I went suiting again for an hour or so, actually getting to introduce myself to Taiko and a couple of other suiters as well. I retired for the night after that, catching a glimpse of a beer-toting Spazz talking to Syber - the exact words he said were "Tomorrow's gonna suck."

Anyways on Sunday I did one more spout of fursuiting before packing him up in preparation for leaving. The Pawpet show was cancelled to my dismay, but then I caught Spazz yet again and we talked - like actually talked, though again as he was with Syber and enjoying a drink in her company I didn't want to linger too long. I don't want to say this was the highlight of my con because it really wasn't - the whole con was amazing, but this moment was still special to me.
After this I continued walking around the con talking to more people, some of which I already knew and some I'd only met just a few days ago. I went to sleep that night feeling particularly happy.
Among them were  rookshep and  zip-the-fox

Next morning I woke up at 9am - my flight wasn't until 5:40pm but I wanted to get underway as soon as possible. I tweeted to Spazz a reminder that I had a ride available for him - though as most of you know Spazz is most elusive and must have found his own way to the airport by magic. xD
I got to MCO Airport around 1:15pm and tried to check-in, but of course it was too early. D:

As soon as that clock hit 1:40pm I checked in for my flight, though I spent an extra five minutes getting my boarding pass upgraded with my KTN and the associated TSA-Pre benefit. Then found a departure board, showing the next plane to Toronto departing at 2:09 from Gate 13 - a WestJet. Then I rushed off at full-tilt to TSA-Pre, breezing through with only one minor hiccup (my fursuit head bag was too light to come through the x-ray machine on its' own) and proceeded to Gate 13.
--I know what you're thinking. Why on earth am I rushing there instead of proceeding to my own flight? Well a silly part of me wanted to say "Goodbye and safe journey" in person to Spazz, no matter how briefly. -- Unfortunately by the time I arrived the gate was already closed and everyone boarded. Feeling slightly dejected for just a moment and then thinking about what to do, I went over to the window and fought with my dying smartphone to take a picture of the plane and tweet it - which took far too long as the old thing is particularly buggy, I swore I was gonna throw it away when I got home. I did successfully send a tweet as the plane taxied off to the runway though, and wistfully waved a goodbye before going to find out where my own plane was departing from - gate 58.

This part I'll shorten, my flights from MCO to PHX and from PHX to YVR were on time and relatively smooth, though I was dying of hunger when I reached PHX. Ended up spending another $11 on pizza and pop (and not a great deal of it either to be frank) before getting on my final flight of the trip.

Looking back at this entire experience I think the moral of this (very true!) story was this: "Alas things seldom go the way we plan, but C'est la vie."

With Love.
FriendlyFox

P.S - my MegaPlex music video can be found here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MUF7x09JQsM