So word on the street is the Osama bin Laden is at long last dead. Only took 10 years but FINALLY!

In all seriousness I really do hope this really is the end of that hatemongering disgrace to humanity. And may the flotsam he left behind crumble to dust. It may take a while but at least the world is better off with one less mad man alive.

I really don’t know what to say or do other than offer my condolences for all people whose lives have been devastated. My hopes go out to you and may all those lost find peace.

It’s not much, but it’s all I can really do. This goes out to all the other coastal people, too. Please be safe.

~FM

For my last annoying emo journal. I could make excuses like I was sleep deprived, off my meds, or under alot of situational stress but that really doesn't excuse my pathetic display of emotional immaturity.

My appologise,
FM

Who else let's themselves go emo because they compaire themselves to a fictional character.

So on a popular comic here on FA there's this one character who is the epitome of a male badass. He's georgeous, a martial arts master, completely stoic, lost his virginity at like 13 or 14, is hung like hell, and could possible kill someone with out hesitation. Everything a man is suppose to be that I never have or ever will be.

That and the main characters are in a perfect love and have undergone ordeal I never had to so I feel like a loser and a scuz wad.

In short I'm a stupid loser not fit to live. Thank you everyone who's not going to read this jpurnal anyways.

 Eluna-Milli is offering three lucky men an oportunity to be in a free commision. Check it out.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:16639781

So, over the course of the past twelve months I have:

Quite my job of two years
Moved out of my parents house and into my friends
Learned the pains of and pleasures of living on ones own
Gained and lost a job on my own
Lost all my money
Had to move back into my parents house
Had to put my cat of ten years to sleep
Finally sought help for my depression
Came out to my parents
And addopted two new kittens

So, yeah. This has been one hell of a year.

Merry Christmas everyone!

The good news...
I got the diagnostic on my computor

The bad news...
The motherboard's cooked

The good news...
My mother said she'd buy me a new one

The bad news...
For a birthday/christmas combo this december

TWIMC

Just announcing it, especially to any who know me on SL, but I sent my computor in for a diagnosis and am waiting for their results.

You see my laptop went screwy a few months back and couldn't start up. I was waiting to get a job so I could pay for the repairs but my mother offered to help. Depending on how much it'll cost of course.

So hopefully I'll be back to having my own computor in a matter of week and no longer have to use my iPod for my Internet needs.

Yours Truely,
FM

I missed Rainfurrest! T^T

I have no one to blame but myself. Being broke sucks. I just feel sorry for my friend BlueTiger07 and his mate. I wanted to go and meet them there.

Well, crap. Next year then. And before that I’m going to strive to go to the next nearest Con. I swear it!

To anyone who can help

I have recently though up another fantasy world and even more recently thought up an idea for. Said idea is also what I need help with. I want to add Steam Punk elements to it.

Anyways I’m only moderately familiar with the genre and was wondering if anyone out there could point me in the direction of some good resources for it. Just some good ideas of the technology, dress, and other basic elements that’d be cool in a fantasy style setting.I know at least two of my old watchers are into it and if you guys can stand to talk to me again I’d greatly appreciate it.

My deepest thanks,
Foxmagik

TWIMC

Just a few updates on my meager existance, good and bab alike.

First off for the good I got a volunteer postition at a local pet shelter. I'll be working with dogs and go in Monday for training.

Next I've decided, and was coaxed into, enrolling in some on-line classes. I'll be taking a creative writing class to hopefully improve my skills and more importantly my confidence as a writer.

Now for the bad I still have yet to find a paying job and it's begining to dampen my already sopping spirit. Although Ive just had a lousy mood all day today so that doesn't really help.

Anyways, that's all. See ya.

FM

*Grins beneath an open umrella while petting a black cat* Happy Friday the 13th.

Any one out there know some one I could commision for a character reference sheet?

Happy Independence Day, my fellow Yanks.

To everyone else over the globe, just a good day to you.

I'm sorry for the string of emo-journals over the past month.

That is all.

*sigh* Ok, I’ll just say it. I’ve pretty much severed my ties with the mainstream  pokecombatacademy This doesn’t mean we’ll never see my characters ever again it’s just that after years of not belonging there I’m officially breaking away from the label.

I… I just haven’t had fun with it in years. I hate myself far too much. Yes, myself. I see my characters as poorly thought out, my story lines as weak and furthermore am such a sloth that I can’t focus long enough to type a story or doodle something. Not that they’re any good anyways.

I’ve never contributed anything good. I’ve only partaken in the communal events like three times, and even then didn’t get noticed, and further more I just can’t stand what it’s become. The whole political schism total ruined things for me, big surprise, and again it’s all a bunch of teenage smut and super powered characters. That’s the only way to succeed in it and I just can’t keep up.

I’m tired of hating myself because I can live up to my expectations. That my work is so lame and tame compared to everyone else. That I don’t like high school porn because I was a social outcast who was never noticed by the opposite sex and feel like a pathetic loser for it. That I tone down my characters because I’m too soft and naïve.

So, in closing, Team Platinum, the VACA and all my other creations may continue, and we may see some cameos of characters I like, but I’m done being a part of something I have no place in.

So, in the last month I’ve:

Lost my house
Had move back in with my parents
Lost my job
Ran out of money
Suspect my computer is on its last set of legs
And nearly lost my cat to Saddle Thrombus just last Friday

So yeah, worst month of my life!

But, I suppose, when you hit rock bottom the only way to go is up. Who knows, maybe I could just turn this into a new beginning. Here’s hoping.

Thank you and goodnight,
Foxmagik

They said they needed someone with beter stess management.

So, long story. Yesterday I walk out of my room to take a shower and my roommates call me over for a house meeting. The reason being that our neighbors’ psychotic girlfriend called the cops on said neighbor and put him in jail. Now my roomies are good friends with him and justly hate his little animal-wife with a passion and this was the final straw. So the two of them will be moving into a new apartment on the 15th, but I can’t afford to go with them.

The original plan was to move on the first of July, but because they can’t look at that horrible woman with out wanting to strangle her they’re moving as soon as possible. As for me, I’m going to have to move back with my parents at the end of the month, transfer to another store for work, figure out how the hell I’m going to get there since I can’t drive, and am left with a maelstrom of negative emotions in my head because of this.

I had the freedom I’ve dreamed of for 21 years and now because fate loves ruining lives it’s been taken away. Needless to say: Life. Is. A. BITCH!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=boz2bGu5M4A&playnext_from=TL&videos=W42DOm5I4Rw

*Sniff* I love this song so much, especially this version. It's so melancholy, yet so beautiful. If you haven't seen Pan's Labyrinth I would recomend it, just do NOT expect a happy Disney like fairytale.

Does one need to suffer to in life in order to advance in it?

Why must others endure hardships while others go unscarred?

Is one forever shackled to their inferiorities due to their own inadequacies?

Is it possible to hate ones life when one does not even have one?



Sorry, my depression’s been really getting to me lately. Life sucks.

Im not too savvy in internet speak but I believe some would call this game 'Epic"

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/534416

A good neighbor is there.

So long story short Tuesday night or so my computer got hacked! Thought I had a virus or something all week because I couldn’t access nearly anything! Will, my neighbor agreed to look at it this weekend if the problem persisted, so he did and viola! Back to normal. Turns out someone messed with my setting and changed it to proxy or something.

Anyways, my computer crapped out, and my awesome neighbor fixed it.

That is all.

~Foxmagik

…As I type this but I’m just in a mood where I thinks a bunch of pseudo-existential questions. Such as what’s my purpose in this life? What am I suppose to be doing with my life? What’s my destiny?

What’s the point of my existence? Why don’t I know what to do? Have or will I ever make a difference in this world? Am I wrong for thinking the way I do? Do I just burden everyone I know? Am I wrong to just not liking some things for really minor or petty reasons? Am I a terrible person? What am I suppose to do……….

Just rambling….. That’s all………………