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Posted 12 years agoFollow instrctions here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9577651/ and here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4205326/
geet 1 standard plush of the mane 6, and shipped to you. Go!
geet 1 standard plush of the mane 6, and shipped to you. Go!
Kiss me?
Posted 13 years agostolen from IronBadger
Tis the Season to Kiss someone. Everyone has at least one person on FurAffinity who would LOVE to kiss you. So.. repost this to find out who would want to kiss you and WHERE they would like to kiss you? Even if your taken do this! Please?
1- Cheek
2- Neck
3- Lips
4- Make-Out :)♥♥
5- Naughty Places
6- Skip The Kisses, Straight To Bed
7- Other_____________
Tis the Season to Kiss someone. Everyone has at least one person on FurAffinity who would LOVE to kiss you. So.. repost this to find out who would want to kiss you and WHERE they would like to kiss you? Even if your taken do this! Please?
1- Cheek
2- Neck
3- Lips
4- Make-Out :)♥♥
5- Naughty Places
6- Skip The Kisses, Straight To Bed
7- Other_____________
Eyecons!
Posted 13 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3583922/
kodriak Is giving away blinky blink cons, they blink and have cool details! Go enter!Looking for Computer Aided Design Program
Posted 13 years agoI'm looking for something that is kind of like Auto Desk Inventor, but along the lines of free. The program that I'm looking at costs 995$. I'm completely serious and that is for one person personal use. The Google version is not what I'm looking for. I checked I need the ability to extrude, round out objects, make really detailed designs. Blender Might work but i have no clue how to use it. But its not a CAD program. I'm Being really pick about this as well, mostly because I want the ability to create things. So does anyone know of a free or cheaper 3d CAD program maybe specifically for engineering?
Streaming
Posted 14 years agoRules
#1 Tell Us who you are or you'll ruin streaming for everyone, PERMINATELY (If you think i'm kidding TRY ME)
#2 NO MURRY PURRY
#3 Be Respectful
LINK: https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....WhVvH6NM0/edit
#1 Tell Us who you are or you'll ruin streaming for everyone, PERMINATELY (If you think i'm kidding TRY ME)
#2 NO MURRY PURRY
#3 Be Respectful
LINK: https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....WhVvH6NM0/edit
October 13th
Posted 14 years agoForty four years ago on Friday, October 13, 1967. My family on my dads side suffered a major loss.
My grandfather, Raymond "Bud" Moulder died.
He was a volunteer firefighter. He was called to fight a fire in the town of Noblesville. He was supposed to be off duty that night, however, he went. Later that night he saved a fellow firefighter as the wall collapsed saving the other firefighter but sacrificing his own life. He was only 28.
Four or five years ago the town of Fishers held a remembrance on the anniversary of his death. The town council also Declared that this Day in the town Would be set aside to remember a town hero,my grandpa. Along with that a truck was also dedicated in his name. Being the only Moulder present that day four or five years ago they gave me the official town decree.
WHEREAS, Raymond "Bud" Moulder Served as the Fishers Assistant Fire Chief in 1967; and,
WHEREAS, on Friday October 13, 1967, During a massive firefighting effort in a neighboring community, he preformed his last act of heroism, saving the life of a fellow firefighter; and,
WHEREAS, the act of heroism and self sacrifice claimed the life of 28-year-old Raymond "Bud" Moulder, leaving a wife and five small children; and,
WHEREAS, 40 years later we again remember his heroism and sacrifice; and,
WHEREAS, on Saturday, October 13, 2007, the community gathers at Highland Cemetery for a Remembrance Ceremony to honor Raymond "Bud" Moulder:
Thank you who real this all the way through. I know for most everyone he has no real significance to, but to me and my family he makes us all proud to have a hero in the family that won't soon be forgotten. My aunts, uncles, dad and grandmother still get really quiet when talking about this day 44 years later.
My only regret on this day is that i wasn't able to be there. when they held this ceremony, I want to go there soon to at least pay my respects. again thank you for reading this depressing post. *sobs*
My grandfather, Raymond "Bud" Moulder died.
He was a volunteer firefighter. He was called to fight a fire in the town of Noblesville. He was supposed to be off duty that night, however, he went. Later that night he saved a fellow firefighter as the wall collapsed saving the other firefighter but sacrificing his own life. He was only 28.
Four or five years ago the town of Fishers held a remembrance on the anniversary of his death. The town council also Declared that this Day in the town Would be set aside to remember a town hero,my grandpa. Along with that a truck was also dedicated in his name. Being the only Moulder present that day four or five years ago they gave me the official town decree.
Town of Fishers
Town Council
ProclamationWHEREAS, Raymond "Bud" Moulder Served as the Fishers Assistant Fire Chief in 1967; and,
WHEREAS, on Friday October 13, 1967, During a massive firefighting effort in a neighboring community, he preformed his last act of heroism, saving the life of a fellow firefighter; and,
WHEREAS, the act of heroism and self sacrifice claimed the life of 28-year-old Raymond "Bud" Moulder, leaving a wife and five small children; and,
WHEREAS, 40 years later we again remember his heroism and sacrifice; and,
WHEREAS, on Saturday, October 13, 2007, the community gathers at Highland Cemetery for a Remembrance Ceremony to honor Raymond "Bud" Moulder:
THEREFORE, WE, THE FISHERS TOWN COUNCIL, DO HEREBY PROCLAIMOctober 13, 2007as a day to remember Raymond "Bud"Moulder in the Town of Fishers, and we ask all residents to join in this observation.Thank you who real this all the way through. I know for most everyone he has no real significance to, but to me and my family he makes us all proud to have a hero in the family that won't soon be forgotten. My aunts, uncles, dad and grandmother still get really quiet when talking about this day 44 years later.
My only regret on this day is that i wasn't able to be there. when they held this ceremony, I want to go there soon to at least pay my respects. again thank you for reading this depressing post. *sobs*
No Subject
Posted 14 years agoFor those of you that did read this: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2744182/
I was going about in a round about way of saying who wants a free commission?
As of right now I'm only taking 3. get em while they're hot
I was going about in a round about way of saying who wants a free commission?
As of right now I'm only taking 3. get em while they're hot
If i were too...
Posted 14 years agoSay offer free commissions for a limited time. I am curious to who would like the opportunity to get a free story. I would try getting them out within a month of receiving the commission. who's interested?
A Series of Unfoutunate Events (A.K.A. My life)
Posted 14 years ago I don't mean to harsh anyone's happiness but i feel i need to get this out.
July 4th; Approximately three p.m. i emerge out of my room. i head outside to find my mother and her husband outside. The husband is doing chores. A bunch of things were said, causing severe depression. Lit fireworks had a good rest of the day
July 5th; I wake at around 11 mom and Scott are home, i express my feelings of depression at around 2 pm, from that time till somewhere around 8. at this time my friends come over to try and cheer me up. We went to see a movie, Mr Poppers Penguins, good movie. Arrive home at around 11 and i was told to find somewhere else to sleep that night. the reason why is when i left they thought i was leaving for good. So, from there i had an even worse day. My parents felt that i was being ungrateful because i didn't want to be alive anymore. and they blew it out of proportion. For those of you who know i am prone to severe mood swings, and those who don't well know you do.
July 6th; Wake at around 7 am. try finding out whether I'm going to be able to live there any more. Somehow they make the fact that I WOKE THEM UP AT 7 AM TO FIND OUT ABOUT MY LIFE! So yeah that was turned to make me look like a bad person, because its moms one day to sleep in. For someone who says life doesn't revolve around me she sure thinks it revolves around her. I did that, i did this, MY one day, ME, me, me , me. And i don't know how the real world is.
I don't remember all that was said and really i don't want to. I want to get out of this house that is for sure. But one step at a time
July 4th; Approximately three p.m. i emerge out of my room. i head outside to find my mother and her husband outside. The husband is doing chores. A bunch of things were said, causing severe depression. Lit fireworks had a good rest of the day
July 5th; I wake at around 11 mom and Scott are home, i express my feelings of depression at around 2 pm, from that time till somewhere around 8. at this time my friends come over to try and cheer me up. We went to see a movie, Mr Poppers Penguins, good movie. Arrive home at around 11 and i was told to find somewhere else to sleep that night. the reason why is when i left they thought i was leaving for good. So, from there i had an even worse day. My parents felt that i was being ungrateful because i didn't want to be alive anymore. and they blew it out of proportion. For those of you who know i am prone to severe mood swings, and those who don't well know you do.
July 6th; Wake at around 7 am. try finding out whether I'm going to be able to live there any more. Somehow they make the fact that I WOKE THEM UP AT 7 AM TO FIND OUT ABOUT MY LIFE! So yeah that was turned to make me look like a bad person, because its moms one day to sleep in. For someone who says life doesn't revolve around me she sure thinks it revolves around her. I did that, i did this, MY one day, ME, me, me , me. And i don't know how the real world is.
I don't remember all that was said and really i don't want to. I want to get out of this house that is for sure. But one step at a time
Unapeciation
Posted 14 years agoMost people don't realize what they had till they loose it. Though if you had nothing to begin with then you really wont miss it will you? I have nothing. No true friends, no real sense of belonging in my family, no true brother, no real sense of direction (hell I'd sit on a bean bag and eat Cheetos all day if i could), I sense no sense of love from anyone, most of the time I'm being used. Over the past decade, I've grown quite frankly unwilling to live much longer. With each passing day it grows more and more. I'm told I'm perfectly okay. My mother seems to think my friends put the idea i need to go on anti-depressants comes from my friends. so she'd never consider it. So while i have material possessions i have no intangible things except for my shitty memories. Valentines Day, when i was a kid, i got in trouble, (Ever happen to you?) and my brother looked me in the eye's and said "You ruined Valentines day". I remember that day as possibly one of many times he bridge between me and brother got longer, as well as a day where my eternal depression started. No matter how long i stay happy, the world always seems to say, I'm going to kick you in your balls because your too happy you need to be down here with the rest of us. It never seems to fail.I get excited about something. And it either doesn't happen or, it almost doesn't happen. This causes my never ending Skepticism. Why whenever my parents say we need to have a talk to me equals "I'm in trouble" "you fucked up" "You'll never do anything right". These are initial reactions. NATURAL INITIAL REACTIONS!
I used to think positively about these things till i got kicked in the nuts too many times. I've been kicked there so much that it seems as if even if i started all over in another county speaking another language, with a whole new face, different set of memories I'd still get kicked in the nuts one too may times and become the person i am now, focusing on only the negative. As a child i was full of bright and happy energy, but slowly "life" whittled me down to the pessimistic, half empty, middle of the road waiting for a bus kind of guy i am today. Yet shockingly shockingly i still think this life and all of the shit I've endured, every crap pile that is my memories, are not worth trading. but maybe worth dying because there is nothing worth living for in this damn life. All of my experiences have taught me everything i have in life everything i will have, everything i want, everything i need, will never, never ever, ever ever. Be worth a damn. I see my future as a street urchin. That is how far i've sunk. I'll be lucky if i get a job scraping gum off of the seats at a foot ball stadium. Knowing my luck I'll be at the wrong place at the wrong time, and be involved in a gang related shooting at 24. I will never make it to 30! So congratulations, every single asshole in this world who make living a less worth living.
I used to think positively about these things till i got kicked in the nuts too many times. I've been kicked there so much that it seems as if even if i started all over in another county speaking another language, with a whole new face, different set of memories I'd still get kicked in the nuts one too may times and become the person i am now, focusing on only the negative. As a child i was full of bright and happy energy, but slowly "life" whittled me down to the pessimistic, half empty, middle of the road waiting for a bus kind of guy i am today. Yet shockingly shockingly i still think this life and all of the shit I've endured, every crap pile that is my memories, are not worth trading. but maybe worth dying because there is nothing worth living for in this damn life. All of my experiences have taught me everything i have in life everything i will have, everything i want, everything i need, will never, never ever, ever ever. Be worth a damn. I see my future as a street urchin. That is how far i've sunk. I'll be lucky if i get a job scraping gum off of the seats at a foot ball stadium. Knowing my luck I'll be at the wrong place at the wrong time, and be involved in a gang related shooting at 24. I will never make it to 30! So congratulations, every single asshole in this world who make living a less worth living.
I'm fine now
Posted 14 years agoSorry, diregaurd the last journal, been having one of those days. I was pissed off at a few people, the people i usually talk to when i'm upset and i was bottling it up and then it just boiled over. Sorry been a bad daystill mad at a few, and you know who you are. And i wont name names.
Well in other news, i got my learners permit, i'm working on several projects, hopefully they will be posted shortly. BTW i kind of want an editor for a few things. Hopefully they will be posted by the end of the month. alos open to commisions if anyone wants one.
Well in other news, i got my learners permit, i'm working on several projects, hopefully they will be posted shortly. BTW i kind of want an editor for a few things. Hopefully they will be posted by the end of the month. alos open to commisions if anyone wants one.
Cutting myself off from communication
Posted 14 years agoI have as of late hit depression, brought on by my seclusion. so for as long as i feel necessary i will Be out of touch. IT might not help but i doubt any of you really care. so tah tah.
Some People
Posted 14 years agoI hate hoe people behave, take for instance my sister in law, I woke up today, and my niece and nephew came over today, and i woke up just maybe a half hour before. I wasn't in the mood to deal with kids, So I was stand offish, now that's my fault, but when that woman is here i can't stand to be within a 10 foot radius of her or I go crazy. So i came out and said i was going to rake the sticks up (We cut up a tree that was torn down in the middle of a storm). and i was told my niece was wondering where i went. i went back inside the house to go to the garage. and apparently she called me an asshole. I didn't hear it, but i was told that she did. Now with her ever since day one she treated me like she was better than me. She treats me as if though I'm not related to her husband. I get treated like a red headed step child. Had i heard her i would have went off on her.
Basically she doesn't care what her in laws think of her. but you know what to keep peace with the family you have to respect people, its bad enough they are separated, but she called me that in front of her kid. All I'm saying is something is wrong with her.
Basically she doesn't care what her in laws think of her. but you know what to keep peace with the family you have to respect people, its bad enough they are separated, but she called me that in front of her kid. All I'm saying is something is wrong with her.
I need a vacation
Posted 14 years agoAnd i need it away from my family, they're the ones causing me so much stress. If it gets to that point in your life you know its horrid. I swear, seems like no matter what i do my mom is PISSED OFF AT ME, because she's STRESSED, causing me stress. She doesn't care because she has a JOB, and I DON'T. That is her reasoning because "I DON' KNOW WHAT THE REAL WORLD IS LIKE" WTF? I don't know what the worlds like? She doesn't have autism, and she doesn't go to high school, possibly the worst part of any persons life to begin with, magnified by autism. The reason I'm so pissed off is really stupid. They like to yell at me from the base of the stairs, i like to shut my bedroom door, and i usually have a fan on. pus the t.v. I cant hear them. they get mad at me by thinking that I'm ignoring them, They yell five times, they are both smokers, and they can barely make their voices carry over all of it. And by the last time they are so pissed that no pleasantries will be taking place anywhere within the next hour. Now, in my mind yelling = trouble. Or whenever someone asks me to "Come here" my mind automatically goes to trouble. My dad would always yell at me, claiming "Its the only way anything gets into your head" He also, liberally used the phrase "Come Here" usually while growling/yelling it out. Not a real man you want to father your children with let me assure you. Godzilla + Tokyo = My dad. I blame him for alot of my problems particularly self esteem wise. People say, well if he's out of your life now then whats the problem? The problem is that if you tell someone long enough they are something and they say it long enough you see yourself as such, and lets say he calls more people stupid then you can shake a stick at along with. but not limited to, dumbass, stupid fuck/s, stupid shit, and retard.
But the years almost over. I'm getting closer to my finals, and i am an honor role student. but need a vacation away from my family issues and sorry for the rant, it just helps me.
But the years almost over. I'm getting closer to my finals, and i am an honor role student. but need a vacation away from my family issues and sorry for the rant, it just helps me.
Fuck Life, Love, and the Pursuit of Happiness
Posted 14 years agoI'm tired of it all.
You all can run around like the happy go lucky people you are but, I refuse to live my life in a lie anymore. The truth is I'm depressed 24/7. No matter what I do I come back to a this foul mood. It never makes any difference to me. Life fucking blows its how the world fucking goes. We live to suffer and even in death we suffer long drawn out deaths.
Love? I've sen all sorts. Mostly faked acted out emotions that no one really cares for. I want to hate every single woman on the face of the earth. You know why? I guess there's some fundamental flaw that makes me unlikeable by the opposite sex unless in a relationship. So my question is what the hell is it? Why am i like this? Simple, People hate different people. Now when i say different i don't mean strange. I mean people who have some sort of disability or another! Mine is autism, thus making me less desirable.
Ties in with the first two! Figure it out! For those who can't I'm sick and tired of playing these games we have developed in our life! So now very calmly I declare I have no desire to try any me I forfeit. I've been too high and fell so hard that nothing not even the lord almighty himself coming down and telling me I'm important is going to change that. so I'm a doormat walk over me, that's what I'm for.
You all can run around like the happy go lucky people you are but, I refuse to live my life in a lie anymore. The truth is I'm depressed 24/7. No matter what I do I come back to a this foul mood. It never makes any difference to me. Life fucking blows its how the world fucking goes. We live to suffer and even in death we suffer long drawn out deaths.
Love? I've sen all sorts. Mostly faked acted out emotions that no one really cares for. I want to hate every single woman on the face of the earth. You know why? I guess there's some fundamental flaw that makes me unlikeable by the opposite sex unless in a relationship. So my question is what the hell is it? Why am i like this? Simple, People hate different people. Now when i say different i don't mean strange. I mean people who have some sort of disability or another! Mine is autism, thus making me less desirable.
Ties in with the first two! Figure it out! For those who can't I'm sick and tired of playing these games we have developed in our life! So now very calmly I declare I have no desire to try any me I forfeit. I've been too high and fell so hard that nothing not even the lord almighty himself coming down and telling me I'm important is going to change that. so I'm a doormat walk over me, that's what I'm for.
Cake Meme, because a friend is forcing me
Posted 14 years agoLAYER ONE : THE OUTSIDE
- Name: Michael Moulder
- Eye Color: Hazel
- Hair Style/Color: Brown, Military Cut
- Clothing style: T-shirt and shorts
- Best physical feature: My birth mark shaped like Harry Potters scar
LAYER TWO: THE INSIDE
- Your fears: Snakes, Spiders, Bears, and losing my friends
- Your guilty pleasure: Games
- Your biggest pet peeve: Being lied to
- Your ambitions for the future: Computer Engineer, or a Writer
LAYER THREE: THOUGHTS
- Your first thoughts waking up: What I was thinking about the night before
- What you think about most: Whats exciting me the most
- What you think about before bed: Sex
- You think your best quality is: My personality
LAYER FOUR: WHAT'S BETTER?
- Single or group dates: Single
- To be loved or respected: Loved
- Beauty or brains: Brains
- Dogs or cats: Dogs
LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
- Lie: sometimes
- Believe in yourself: Like hell I do
- Want someone: Every damn day
LAYER SIX: EVER?
- Been on stage: Yes, hated every minute
- Done drugs: No
- Changed who you were to fit in: Never, Take me as I am or fuck off
LAYER SEVEN: FAVORITES
- Favorite color: Green
- Favorite animal: Siberian Husky
- Favorite movie: Avatar
- Favorite game: RPG's Period
LAYER EIGHT: AGE
- Day your next birthday will be: 11/8/2011
- How old will you be: 19
- Age you lost your virginity: Never
- Does age matter: No younger/older than five years
LAYER NINE: IN A BOY OR GIRL
- Best personality: Friendly
- Best eye color: Their own
- Best hair color: Their own
- Best thing to do with a partner: Have fun and enjoy life
LAYER TEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE
- I love: My Friends
- I feel: happy/depressed
- I hide: Everything
- I miss: Cathleen
- I wish: I could find my child hood friend
LAYER ELEVEN: I TAG
Everyone Who hasn’t done one
- Name: Michael Moulder
- Eye Color: Hazel
- Hair Style/Color: Brown, Military Cut
- Clothing style: T-shirt and shorts
- Best physical feature: My birth mark shaped like Harry Potters scar
LAYER TWO: THE INSIDE
- Your fears: Snakes, Spiders, Bears, and losing my friends
- Your guilty pleasure: Games
- Your biggest pet peeve: Being lied to
- Your ambitions for the future: Computer Engineer, or a Writer
LAYER THREE: THOUGHTS
- Your first thoughts waking up: What I was thinking about the night before
- What you think about most: Whats exciting me the most
- What you think about before bed: Sex
- You think your best quality is: My personality
LAYER FOUR: WHAT'S BETTER?
- Single or group dates: Single
- To be loved or respected: Loved
- Beauty or brains: Brains
- Dogs or cats: Dogs
LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
- Lie: sometimes
- Believe in yourself: Like hell I do
- Want someone: Every damn day
LAYER SIX: EVER?
- Been on stage: Yes, hated every minute
- Done drugs: No
- Changed who you were to fit in: Never, Take me as I am or fuck off
LAYER SEVEN: FAVORITES
- Favorite color: Green
- Favorite animal: Siberian Husky
- Favorite movie: Avatar
- Favorite game: RPG's Period
LAYER EIGHT: AGE
- Day your next birthday will be: 11/8/2011
- How old will you be: 19
- Age you lost your virginity: Never
- Does age matter: No younger/older than five years
LAYER NINE: IN A BOY OR GIRL
- Best personality: Friendly
- Best eye color: Their own
- Best hair color: Their own
- Best thing to do with a partner: Have fun and enjoy life
LAYER TEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE
- I love: My Friends
- I feel: happy/depressed
- I hide: Everything
- I miss: Cathleen
- I wish: I could find my child hood friend
LAYER ELEVEN: I TAG
Everyone Who hasn’t done one
All new low... Begging for commissions
Posted 14 years agoI'm Looking for commissions. I charge around 12 USD for a 3500 word story. Will write mostly anything, no scat, no snuff. I'm not a bad writer just an unheard of one, I want money for a few things, and have no job and have to rely on these to get them. My parents are too cheap and if i make the money myself then they cant tell me what to buy with it. I enjoy writing and it's what I do, I've been reduced to asking a friend give me a shout out, and it still hasn't worked. So I'm asking all who read this just please think about it, and maybe make my day.
Payment info:
PayPal only, must be willing to pay half up front.
Contact info:
Gmail: foxmoulder969[at]gmail.com
Sofurry: foxmoulder992
Payment info:
PayPal only, must be willing to pay half up front.
Contact info:
Gmail: foxmoulder969[at]gmail.com
Sofurry: foxmoulder992
Writing Commissions
Posted 14 years agoMy average cost is 12 dollars for 3,000 words. There are a few things, no snuff, rape, huge breasts, all human stories, or scat, but is not limited to the list.
Vindictus & commishions
Posted 14 years agoLooking for anyone who wants a cheap commission 10 - 15 dollars. List is not limited to but includes, Snuff, scat, vore, and things of these natures.
I recently hit a wall with a game called Vindictus http://vindictus.nexon.net/default......tion=StartGame, Looking for people to play along with, i have a LVL 12 Char, thinking about creating a guild but need to be able to put people in it. I'm on the east server under Foxnine69 i believe.
So if you are looking for a commision note me or leave a comment, same thing with the game.
I recently hit a wall with a game called Vindictus http://vindictus.nexon.net/default......tion=StartGame, Looking for people to play along with, i have a LVL 12 Char, thinking about creating a guild but need to be able to put people in it. I'm on the east server under Foxnine69 i believe.
So if you are looking for a commision note me or leave a comment, same thing with the game.
Open For Story Commisions
Posted 14 years agoI have five available spots open right now. Please note me if you are interested. Will write most of anything, i do have limits however, and i will tell you as soon as i find out all of what it entails. Price is about anywhere from 10-15 USD.
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Going to be gone
Posted 14 years agoTitle says it all, i don't know how long or when. Changing ISPs disagreement with figure and now we change to a different one. So I'll be back when I'm back
Febuary 14th, Valentines day: How I Hate it so...
Posted 14 years agoToday as you all know is Valentines Day. A big event that has no relative mark in history, but seems as if in every culture there is one of these "Holidays". It is a fake holiday. I am usually unaffected by this holiday, but it seems as if though on this particular one it was fated to be a bad day for me.
Number One: Its Monday, I hate Mondays.
Number Two: I couldn't get lunch today.
Number Three: I am attracted to a girl who as of right know is in a committed relationship. My policy I never confess feelings for another when they are in an aforementioned relationship.
With all of this in mind i have hated every single part of this day. Its been rough, I'm in a funk that will probably last a while until I find somebody else. In turn ill be pining for even though I cannot touch her. The only positive thing I've known all along but never knew why I could do this or couldn't do that. I'm Autistic, I am however on the high end of the spectrum, which means i function pretty well. Apparently all of my suffering is from this and learning how to cope with it. That's some good news. I don't and wont try to use it a an excuse.
Number One: Its Monday, I hate Mondays.
Number Two: I couldn't get lunch today.
Number Three: I am attracted to a girl who as of right know is in a committed relationship. My policy I never confess feelings for another when they are in an aforementioned relationship.
With all of this in mind i have hated every single part of this day. Its been rough, I'm in a funk that will probably last a while until I find somebody else. In turn ill be pining for even though I cannot touch her. The only positive thing I've known all along but never knew why I could do this or couldn't do that. I'm Autistic, I am however on the high end of the spectrum, which means i function pretty well. Apparently all of my suffering is from this and learning how to cope with it. That's some good news. I don't and wont try to use it a an excuse.
Felling kinda good
Posted 14 years agoSo last friday i was complaining about life, well now i'm kinda laughing about it. That Girl i said who gave me a fake number turns out NOBODY LIKES HER! so in a way shes ostracizing herself. So know im just laugjing about it.
Also With the 6 day weekend i have and continue to get some more writing done. I love it alot Next chapter should be posted soon, hope you guys like it.
Also a little comedy: http://teamcoco.com/content/best-su.....owl?o_cid=4471
you guys have a great weekend.
Also With the 6 day weekend i have and continue to get some more writing done. I love it alot Next chapter should be posted soon, hope you guys like it.
Also a little comedy: http://teamcoco.com/content/best-su.....owl?o_cid=4471
you guys have a great weekend.
People Suck...
Posted 14 years agoSo here I am again. i hate people. Fuck them all. They pick on guys like me all the time. It never ends. I must ask why though. What makes you so insecure that you have to make people like me make you fucking mad as shit!!! No on gives a damn! Its like no matter how much i try to be the nice guy i get pissed on, without the courtesy of calling it rain. Nothing will ever change, nice guys finish last. Apparently I must have some fundamental flaw that makes your goddamn blood boil. Will you be happy when I'm dead is that what its gonna fuckin take!?
Well guess what assholes I'm not going anywhere any damn time soon so just cut me some fuckin slack and get over yourself! You treat me like i am a piece of shit. So quit making me suffer for your poor self esteem. In every life it seems as if there is that guy who hates everybody, because he is a doormat, I am one of these guys. I cut myself off from the world except for these non interpersonal relationships that will cause me n sort of pain if they end. Thank you world wide all of you assholes who determine that i am not good enough to lick the shit off of your shoe. This makes me feel better than you because i know if you treat me badly im better than you in some fashion or another.
Now to explain why I'm extra sour today.
First off, A damn freshman. He has been asking for it for a long time. My mom is getting married and the guys daughter is handicapped, she is stuck in a wheel chair and has a mentality of a three year old but really smart. She's my damn sister and i will stand up for her. she rides a special bus, and this bus has to park in the driveway to get her safely to the house. He started in "Hey look there's a bus parked in Franks (fake mane) driveway!" i snapped at him i told him whats what. The look was priceless like i had bitch slapped him. The next day he was talking shit. Saying "I'm going to beat him until he goes to the hospital, then I'm going to kick his ass some more." On the plus side hes a total wimp, thinks hes a gangster (where i live there's no real crime i mean at the worst we get an armed robbery, criminals usually apprehended right away, so he's basically a poser). On a very positive note he got written up, even a few people agreed he had it coming, plus a friend of his (or so i think) said he was full of shit.
Secondly is more recent.... Today recent. Now here are a few bitches in my school or as i like to refer to them "Sluts" But not those they'll let anybody do them, but those high class ones that treat guys like me like dirt. I believe i got a wrong phone number from one of these people needless to say i won't honestly find out till Monday. But if this is the case which i so hope it isn't cause i have to deal with these three for the rest of the year, and my teacher for that class is an utter bitch cause as i said last week there were some unpleasantness. used the phrase "I'll know the problem is you if you ask to switch to a different group. and i won't let you switch to another group"... more or less what she said. So the point is kinda obvious, i will have to make pleasantries with them.
Well guess what assholes I'm not going anywhere any damn time soon so just cut me some fuckin slack and get over yourself! You treat me like i am a piece of shit. So quit making me suffer for your poor self esteem. In every life it seems as if there is that guy who hates everybody, because he is a doormat, I am one of these guys. I cut myself off from the world except for these non interpersonal relationships that will cause me n sort of pain if they end. Thank you world wide all of you assholes who determine that i am not good enough to lick the shit off of your shoe. This makes me feel better than you because i know if you treat me badly im better than you in some fashion or another.
Now to explain why I'm extra sour today.
First off, A damn freshman. He has been asking for it for a long time. My mom is getting married and the guys daughter is handicapped, she is stuck in a wheel chair and has a mentality of a three year old but really smart. She's my damn sister and i will stand up for her. she rides a special bus, and this bus has to park in the driveway to get her safely to the house. He started in "Hey look there's a bus parked in Franks (fake mane) driveway!" i snapped at him i told him whats what. The look was priceless like i had bitch slapped him. The next day he was talking shit. Saying "I'm going to beat him until he goes to the hospital, then I'm going to kick his ass some more." On the plus side hes a total wimp, thinks hes a gangster (where i live there's no real crime i mean at the worst we get an armed robbery, criminals usually apprehended right away, so he's basically a poser). On a very positive note he got written up, even a few people agreed he had it coming, plus a friend of his (or so i think) said he was full of shit.
Secondly is more recent.... Today recent. Now here are a few bitches in my school or as i like to refer to them "Sluts" But not those they'll let anybody do them, but those high class ones that treat guys like me like dirt. I believe i got a wrong phone number from one of these people needless to say i won't honestly find out till Monday. But if this is the case which i so hope it isn't cause i have to deal with these three for the rest of the year, and my teacher for that class is an utter bitch cause as i said last week there were some unpleasantness. used the phrase "I'll know the problem is you if you ask to switch to a different group. and i won't let you switch to another group"... more or less what she said. So the point is kinda obvious, i will have to make pleasantries with them.
Yay Life!
Posted 14 years agoAren't you happy that you live in a world filled with disappointment and hate?
So I figured I'd give you guys an update... Been a great day, pissed off about yesterday. My work is coming along, I'm trying very diligently. Too many distractions. Sorry for the delay. Still working on it.
So about yesterday (I know drama). I'm back in school for one more semester. One of my classes is Senior Foods. We were assigned groups this week. Our first creation was a batch of chocolate chip cookies. Well we were mixing the dry ingredients yesterday, just flour salt and something else. So the person who was supposed to go get them was trying to figure out what we needed. I tried helping her out. So after a minute she became Snippy which to me says this "Hey I'm an utter bitch. Avoid me at all costs!" I knew this was going to b an issue, because i have "Doormat Syndrome". it basically seems to be like people can somehow sense the too nice in people. So this means that even some nice people will be assholes for no reason.
SO i talked to the teacher and asked to be put in with another group. She said she'd think about it. Today she was being a complete bitch, saying that if i asked to be put in a different one, she would know its me, who IS the problem. She had me last year she knows I'm not that bad, i am non-confrontational.
So I'm looking past the assholes in my life cause apparently i have something they don't, and they are threatened by me because of this.
Also have a new email had to change it, i couldn't access my email otherwise!
Thank you all for being patient with me on this. Have a Nice day
So I figured I'd give you guys an update... Been a great day, pissed off about yesterday. My work is coming along, I'm trying very diligently. Too many distractions. Sorry for the delay. Still working on it.
So about yesterday (I know drama). I'm back in school for one more semester. One of my classes is Senior Foods. We were assigned groups this week. Our first creation was a batch of chocolate chip cookies. Well we were mixing the dry ingredients yesterday, just flour salt and something else. So the person who was supposed to go get them was trying to figure out what we needed. I tried helping her out. So after a minute she became Snippy which to me says this "Hey I'm an utter bitch. Avoid me at all costs!" I knew this was going to b an issue, because i have "Doormat Syndrome". it basically seems to be like people can somehow sense the too nice in people. So this means that even some nice people will be assholes for no reason.
SO i talked to the teacher and asked to be put in with another group. She said she'd think about it. Today she was being a complete bitch, saying that if i asked to be put in a different one, she would know its me, who IS the problem. She had me last year she knows I'm not that bad, i am non-confrontational.
So I'm looking past the assholes in my life cause apparently i have something they don't, and they are threatened by me because of this.
Also have a new email had to change it, i couldn't access my email otherwise!
Thank you all for being patient with me on this. Have a Nice day
