Just doing some streaming in my minecraft world. Your welcome to come chill. https://www.twitch.tv/skyophyre

Streaming. And as mentioned before, I know minecraft isnt everyones cup of tea, but come chill with me. Looking for some new things underground. Maybe we will find something interesting. You can find me here: https://www.twitch.tv/skyophyre

Hey guys. Doing a bit of streaming. I know it likely isnt to everyones interest, but I am doing some casual minecraft stuff, and so figured maybe some people would like to just come and chill with me. Can find me here: https://www.twitch.tv/skyophyre Id really enjoy the company.

I feel like venting a little bit. It has been a while since Iv posted anything on here. Iv had a really bad year with my health. Iv been in and out of the ER, struggling with kidney stones. I had surgery last month on the 20th to have what they thought was a large stone removed, but it turned into 11 little stones all bunched up in the bottom of my kidney. Doctor said it went fine, had a stent put in to keep my left ureter open. Had it removed a few days later.. and then the following day I crashed. Fever, chills, dizzy spells, light headedness turned into shaking and unable to get warm. I had my sister rush me to the ER where I had been rushed right back as I had started to turn septic. Sepsis, an infection was rampaging through my blood, and antibiotics were not getting it under control. I was informed that I nearly died 3 times as I was critical, convulsing as they struggled to find an antibiotic to get the infection under control. I dont remember the first few days of that. I spent 12 days in the ICU. I am currently on very strong IV infusion antibiotics. Had another surgery a few days ago. I am so sick of being sick. I am currently crashed at my mother's house, as I am still on IV antibiotics to be sure the infection is cleared out. Tomorrow it will be a month since this crap happened.. but its been all year struggle. This has been hell, and I am so annoyed with the doctor who was supposed to remove the stones.. I feel he fucked up something, and I almost died because of it.

Iv been struggling for a while to write this.. and even now I start crying. In the early hours on May 5th my light faded.. DaiDai passed away peacefully in his own bed. DaiDai was 16 years this year, and for a while I had been watching his health get worse and worse. I didnt bother taking him to the vet, because I knew what they would tell me, and that I should put him down. Im glad I didnt poison him like that. His passing was peaceful and painless, and he just drifted off to sleep safe in his own dog bed.. not in some weird place. This had to be one of the hardest things I ever had to do.. I dont think alot of people understand how hard this was for me.. DaiDai was my emotional support animal, a dog I fought for, cried over, nearly lost three times.. He was there in my worst moments, licked the tears away when Id cry for no reason.. The memory of that morning is still very vivid even though its been months.. Waking up to find him gone, and holding his lifeless body in my arms.. I know he is safe and in good company, but it doesnt make the pain and missing him any less.. Rest in peace my "Bright one".. I will see you again some day..

This will be my last journal here.. I wish you all the best..

You ever wish.. that you could just go back to how things were, once upon a time ago... Iv been feeling that way alot recently.. But.. its likely far too late for that now. I miss the friends I once had.. one friend in particular..