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Suffer In Silence
Posted 4 years agoThose who care, can't help.
Those who can help, don't care.
Those who don't understand, think you're an attention seeking, melodramatic whore.
Those who do understand, are praying for the same miracle you are.So put on your mask of happiness and pretend everything is fine, suffer in silence underneath, let no one know your pain.
Suffer In Silence
Posted 4 years agoThose who care, can't help.
Those who can help, don't care.
Those who don't understand, think you're an attention seeking, melodramatic whore.
Those who do understand, are praying for the same miracle you are.
Those who can help, don't care.
Those who don't understand, think you're an attention seeking, melodramatic whore.
Those who do understand, are praying for the same miracle you are.
Goodbye 2020!
Posted 5 years agoNever wanted to see you,
Never wanted to live through you,
Never wanted to see the back end of you.
If you toast to the new year tonight, thank whatever supreme being(s) you believe in you aren't me and actually look forward, at least in some little way, to the next 365 days...
Never wanted to live through you,
Never wanted to see the back end of you.
If you toast to the new year tonight, thank whatever supreme being(s) you believe in you aren't me and actually look forward, at least in some little way, to the next 365 days...
So, me...
Posted 5 years agoBefore I start I will clarify that I am not suicidal, I'm too much of a coward to do that, I'm deep in the "I don't care if I wake up" stage, have been for about two years now, though I would be lying if I said the whole Covid-19 situation didn't make it worse.
I have a college degree, two actually, I direly wish to advance so I can get a job I want, but to do that it's a full time 3-5 year course load so I cannot work at the same time. I'm not married or have a partner, and don't desire one, and I don't have nearly enough money to quit my job so I can do that, talking about $100,000, so it seems I am doomed to a job I hate which pays little with no chance of advancement, where I have no impact on anything, and a life where the possibility of 60, or perhaps more, years of living is a thought worse than hell, because at least in hell you know things can't get worse or better, here there's always that 0.00000000000000000000000001% chance you win the lottery or have some unknown rich relative leave you money, but that never seems to happen to people like me, it always seems to happen to people who want to blow it all on a big house and a Ferrari.
I'm so tired of it, tired of crying myself to sleep, tired of praying I wake up with a fever, tired of wanting a better life, tired of not being like everyone else and able to find something to enjoy in life. I can't think of a single happy memory in the last 20 years of my life, and I can't see the day when I will be able to say I am. Some tell me to take a long vacation to clear my head, but that won't do any good, it's just a temporary escape that only would serve to leave me in a worse position than I was in before.
I'm not depressed, depression has a cause and a cure, unless you're one of those spoiled rich people who say they're depressed because they're so rich. I'm a realist, and no amount of therapy or medication will change my situation.
Don't be like me, find something that makes you happy, something that makes you not see a heart attack or ruptured aneurysm as a preferable alternative to living.
Oh, in case you were wondering, the degree I want to advance is my psychology degree. Ironic, isn't it?
I have a college degree, two actually, I direly wish to advance so I can get a job I want, but to do that it's a full time 3-5 year course load so I cannot work at the same time. I'm not married or have a partner, and don't desire one, and I don't have nearly enough money to quit my job so I can do that, talking about $100,000, so it seems I am doomed to a job I hate which pays little with no chance of advancement, where I have no impact on anything, and a life where the possibility of 60, or perhaps more, years of living is a thought worse than hell, because at least in hell you know things can't get worse or better, here there's always that 0.00000000000000000000000001% chance you win the lottery or have some unknown rich relative leave you money, but that never seems to happen to people like me, it always seems to happen to people who want to blow it all on a big house and a Ferrari.
I'm so tired of it, tired of crying myself to sleep, tired of praying I wake up with a fever, tired of wanting a better life, tired of not being like everyone else and able to find something to enjoy in life. I can't think of a single happy memory in the last 20 years of my life, and I can't see the day when I will be able to say I am. Some tell me to take a long vacation to clear my head, but that won't do any good, it's just a temporary escape that only would serve to leave me in a worse position than I was in before.
I'm not depressed, depression has a cause and a cure, unless you're one of those spoiled rich people who say they're depressed because they're so rich. I'm a realist, and no amount of therapy or medication will change my situation.
Don't be like me, find something that makes you happy, something that makes you not see a heart attack or ruptured aneurysm as a preferable alternative to living.
Oh, in case you were wondering, the degree I want to advance is my psychology degree. Ironic, isn't it?
Worthwhile Advice
Posted 5 years agoDo not dare to dream.
Dreams lead to wants.
Wants lead to hopes.
Hopes lead to depression.
Depression leads to misery.
Misery leads to hating every second of your life.
Do not end up like me. Do not dream of anything better. Do not dream of a better life you cannot have, no matter how realistic that life may be. Do not become someone who dreads the thought of waking up in the morning, of the thought of being stuck in the same existence for year after year, decade after decade, knowing that unless you get that one in a billion stroke of luck and come into life changing money to where you can make something of your life, that the only relief will come from death.
Dreams lead to wants.
Wants lead to hopes.
Hopes lead to depression.
Depression leads to misery.
Misery leads to hating every second of your life.
Do not end up like me. Do not dream of anything better. Do not dream of a better life you cannot have, no matter how realistic that life may be. Do not become someone who dreads the thought of waking up in the morning, of the thought of being stuck in the same existence for year after year, decade after decade, knowing that unless you get that one in a billion stroke of luck and come into life changing money to where you can make something of your life, that the only relief will come from death.
So, birthday over.
Posted 5 years agoWell this year I got some shinies from one lovely gryph, and a few Happy Birthday wishes off FA. Not bad, though birthdays are much better when you're 3 and you get a big party and cake and presents compared to when you're 33 and it's just another day...
My Upcoming Birthday
Posted 5 years agoRight, so it's almost my 33rd birthday, 33 days from now actually, and considering I didn't even get Happy Birthday from literally (not figuratively) anyone last year, I'm not expecting anything from this, but I mine as well try.
So please, wish me a Happy Birthday. Or, if you're feeling generous, send me some shinies.
So please, wish me a Happy Birthday. Or, if you're feeling generous, send me some shinies.
No more art for a long while for me...
Posted 6 years ago
Being the world's least popular squirrel, or quite likely the world's least popular anything, few if anyone will read this.
I just saw how much I spent on art this year, and it's not a pretty figure, so don't expect many, if any, new arts for at least the next year. I have a few pics I've already paid for which are in the works, but after that...
A Birthday Poem
Posted 6 years agoHappy birthday Miles, said no one.
No gifts received, no well wishes sent.
Sun came up, sun went down.
Just another day of the year to me.
Day in, day out, as my life approaches its perigee.
A birthday party is an absent sound.
Not a foot outside the door I went.
As will be repeated until my life is done.CDC: Don't snuggle your hedgehog
Posted 7 years agoDon't care what they say, I'm still going to snuggle Sonic!
https://www.cdc.gov/salmonella/typh.....-19/index.html
Eleven people infected with the outbreak strain of Salmonella Typhimurium have been reported from eight states.
One person has been hospitalized and no deaths have been reported.
Epidemiologic and laboratory evidence indicate that contact with pet hedgehogs is the likely source of this outbreak.
In interviews, 10 (91%) of 11 ill people reported contact with a hedgehog.
A common supplier of hedgehogs in this outbreak has not been identified.
The outbreak strain making people sick was identified in samples collected from three hedgehogs in two ill patients’ homes in Minnesota.
https://www.cdc.gov/salmonella/typh.....-19/index.html
Eleven people infected with the outbreak strain of Salmonella Typhimurium have been reported from eight states.
One person has been hospitalized and no deaths have been reported.
Epidemiologic and laboratory evidence indicate that contact with pet hedgehogs is the likely source of this outbreak.
In interviews, 10 (91%) of 11 ill people reported contact with a hedgehog.
A common supplier of hedgehogs in this outbreak has not been identified.
The outbreak strain making people sick was identified in samples collected from three hedgehogs in two ill patients’ homes in Minnesota.
Organization Complete
Posted 7 years agoFinally got around to uploading most of the commissioned art I had done over the years. I didn't do mixed YCHs or group pics, though they're still in my favorites. Added gallery folders to organize it all as well. Even revamped my profile info.
Not that anyone actually looks at any of it, I'm not exactly a popular person.
Not that anyone actually looks at any of it, I'm not exactly a popular person.
Squirrel gets his testicles caught between fence boards...
Posted 7 years agoJapan Goes Crazy Over "Large Breasted Squirrel"
Posted 7 years agoWhy Nearly Half Of Under 40s Japanese Are Virgins
Posted 7 years ago"Masturbation clubs" were listed as one of the reasons. Not something you see...anywhere else.
https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/ar.....s-virgins.html
https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/ar.....s-virgins.html
German Man Calls Police While Being Chased By Baby Squirrel
Posted 7 years agoAlthough it's about a squirrel, I couldn't get the picture of the porcupine from Open Season out of my head. BUDDY!
https://www.independent.co.uk/news/.....-a8487026.html
https://www.independent.co.uk/news/.....-a8487026.html
Squirrel finds used condom in Maine. Feasts on contents...
Posted 7 years agoHappy birthday to me...
Posted 7 years agoAnother year older...If you're as old as you feel, I'm 265.
Play Bravely Second End Layer? Add me.
Posted 8 years agoFriend Code 5043-5967-4593 also several other games, such as Monster Hunter Generations.
Don't kill Opossums!
Posted 10 years agoHere's a good article on the matter. Don't kill the cute buggers, they don't carry diseases like armadillos do.
http://www.inquisitr.com/2106782/op.....orne-diseases/
http://www.inquisitr.com/2106782/op.....orne-diseases/
Yea I'm still alive
Posted 13 years agoI know haven't uploaded anything in ages, just haven't had time. I've got a few stories in progress, either part done or a rough draft of it, so stay tuned!
