How is everyone? Where is everyone at?

I know, for me, its a struggle to keep one's head above water. Especially as the water is in constant turmoil and bad news outside in the world... its hard to pick a place for without any bad news these days.
In sparkly news:

Updated My deviant art page! Made a post..journal coming out as me, my name change, my mates a little[I plan to make a dedicated journal to them about them], and currently adding long forgoten artwork! just to stir the algorithms a bit and put me on the map for people to see me. I miss the ...something something nostalgic murber cough cough. DA is so different from the last time I used it.
I plan tomorrow to work on adding artwork here! I have lots to work with! Need to see how to organize here and such to not miss artwork or something...

Guess I'm a little lonely and trying to reach out to long time friends. I'm also up for making new friends! So done doom scrolling it kills my mood if I go too long.

Me and my two mates have returned from our latest adventure, visiting Washington to see if its a potential place to move into! Plans are moving forward, and we just got an extension to our living situation which is making things a lot better. Though at a loss of a roomie. :<

My parents and brother are, well, okay I think? we barely talk via text. I wish I could talk with them on the phone but, it always ends up with mom talking and talking nonstop religious topics or other family drama. I know mom is a denier of the pandemic and continues to insist that I come visit like nothing is happening. Think my dad gets it. My brother got dumped and now plays games nonstop. Moving my stuff out of their place is gonna be hard. but, one step at a time.


I'm hopeful I can make more rainbows soon. Lots changing now, hope I can keep the momentum up.

Nix

Telegram:
Nixycorn

Twitter:
Nixknax

website:
nixknax.com

2020! AAAaadventure!

Life is getting together! My Pilot mate got upgraded to Captain, Me and Chainmail mate are thinking of finding local cons to sell our ware and grow in our skills with more hands on art. We want to move to outside the state maybe? Oh what about if we find a place in the meantime. We'll plan for top surgery and bottom surgeries when we have more room. Hey! We got our wedding reception done an-
}Shelter In Place{ happens...

well. There goes our plans
now what?


Has Quarantine been like this for you too?
Slowly getting life on hand. Now that, you know, shelter in place will likely last till next year when theres more development of a vaccine. Guess its good me and my Chainmail/Jackal mate are WFH artists. We've been slowly getting into a rhythm to work. Hard to do so without fulfilling some of our extrovert tendencies. Everything is online. Saves on gas money.
Least the pressure of the capitalist/greed feel is mostly gone.

Lots changing. History making.
Stay safe

~January 2019~

WOOOoo happy 2019! This is going to be a great year!

~10 months later~

aaaand I totally forgot to keep up with this journal...well

news:
Legal name and gender are underway to being changed!
I've started T, 13 weeks as of today
I've moved in with my two mates, it sorta just happened.
I quit my retail job to dedicate my time to art, animation, craft
Gone to Florida twice, plans to go to Alsaka/Cape Cod are next

And, for the third year in a row will be selling my wares at Pawcon2019 in a couple of weeks. Nov1-3 in San Jose, CA. Which I have changed my store name of Mercado Peakit to Nix Knax. I will be sharing the table with my Chain mail mate and be next to friends as well. I'm both excited and nervous to be going to Pawcon. Got new art to show, to get done, and prepared for the weekend. A first at trying to make my own stickers, art book, at con commissions, and lots of new jewelry

Feel free to chat with me as I prepare for glitter and excitement!
Nix

ps working backwards on posting work. Crazy how much I made over the year and some

Hey friends!

catching up on all my Social Media work, Thanks for all the follows, and supportive comments on the works. I'll get to posting more regularly. Hopefully.

Announcements:
I am in Pawcon 2018 with a larger table! Not sure who saw me squished for my first time but it was a tight fit for the amount of things i already had. This coming year, I got new fixtures, new designs, and lots of experience making physical art. More jewelry is being made and I cant wait to try and display it all again XD Got some ideas for prints in the process of it being made. Making my lists too for what is gonna go this time.

To help cover for Pawcon, I got a job! Working at petting pets, helping pets shop, and over petting DOGS! Yes I work at a pet supply store but its such a blast! This does mean less random hours to be arting or all nighters trying to art, but hopefully a more scheduled time to do so.

Personal announcement: I turned 30 this year! Had a great time with my made up family of close friends and immediate family. We almost had a pinata, had it not been for the fact that our house is falling apart bc part of it wasnt made to code. Who knew that those who work with construction companies cant build car ports to code?

Lastly: My commission prices are updating! After several attempts by my wife to convince me that i was charging too low, she succeeded and I listened. I'll be glad to work with any idea, and we can always discuss estimates for larger projects. In the next few days I'll post the changes and make the changes here too!

For a more daily way to get in contact with me for anything.
>>>both Telegram & Twitter work! Peakit for both! <<<

Also, who be interested in a raffle? think its time for a raffle. What kind of raffles do you like? how about we have a raffle here, now! anyone can enter, drop a name of a friend of yours in the comments with visuals please! I wanna do colored doodles like this one: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26187273/

Till Nix Time!

Pawcon is right around the corner! So excited to have it be my first convention as a vendor selling my own art! I got prints, hand modified jewelry, experimental painted figurines, and a "light project" or two. As well as at con mini doodles and pick up orders for art. I have small space theme badges at $20. Then theres 4x4 ish badges for $35. Couples/bff badges for $50. And traditional paintings are open for preorder as well! Digital & or animation may be delivered after the Convention Weekend, depending on the number of preorders..yeah!

If something else comes to mind, or after the con you get an idea, please send me a message. I be happy to work with you and your inspiration. I look forward to arting for you in the future!


Who am I going to see there? Its at the Double Tree Hotel in San Jose by the airport. Look for the purple tail with stars!

Current queue
1. Rav ~40% done
2. Ratcliffe ~10% started
3. Luna Fox -just recived ref
4. _Hab - waiting on more sticker ideas.
5. Pixel - getting ref
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Hey everyone! Hows summer going for all ya? Been an exciting few months since April. Birthdays, holidays, and even housesitting for family.

The important thing I wanna say, I'M BEING A VENDOR FOR THE FIRST TIME THIS FALL! AT PAWCON!

Yes! Theres a first for everything, including selling my own works! Got a few months to go before the convention and I wanna get lots of projects done. INcluding, offering space badges themed to match Pawcon(examples will come soon) These badges are pick up available for those going, and we can discuss if you would like it sent instead. Theres also glow in the dark paint I wanna try out with characters so we'll see!
I'll also have star bottles, a creation of my own, for sale. There's going to be special sets, and one of a kind crafts. See them at Pawcon this November!

Theres also, an idea to offer badges that allow access to telegram stickers. That'll be planned out for later~

Thank you all for reading and catching up with me.

Well, March kinda just, didnt appear and then realized it was april. Was. April...yeaaah

LINK, HAz COME TO TOWN!
AND SAVE THE PRINC-ooo whats that shiny over there! Wait theres a Korok puzzle here. Oh and then theres a Skull-
Thank you Breath of the Wild for getting me everywhere and nowhere at the same time.
*ahem*
SO yeah. Thats what happen in March. Could not stop, and will not stop.. but slowly have been returning to drawing. There's some moments in BOTW that I reaaaaly want to draw out. or least share and such! Something to look forward to.

actually. Going back to the month. April became "We has project, can you project?" with MikeFolf from Twitter! Project almost finished, I'm so excited how the work is coming along. Plans for it to be done soon!

in the meantime, been doodling little sketches or colored ones. depending how far I go. See here at tumblr: https://www.tumblr.com/blog/peakit-art

Upcoming idea is Mermay. a whole month of doodling mermaids. So yeah. if you want your character as a mermaid being let me know. This will hopefully be a chance to explore some fishy ideas I've had for awhile now. Also appropriate theme to my life since 1, May has my birthday, 2, my birthdayish twin is the day before mine, and we both love mermaids. She actually swims like one. 3, The Little Mermaid was one of my first favorite disney movies because she was different. Now adays its like Repunzul or Leia.

Mermaids! Sign up if you wanna become wet and go under da sea! Starts May!

Hello all!

January 2016 has come and gone already and I didnt get a chance to do a new years update XD
Got given a drawing tablet, has already given me much needed push to draw everyday.
Life has taken a new turn, with all this adulting going out of wack, the best thing so far is I'm engaged!

No, there is no date set.
No, did not know what would happen after I proposed.
Yes, the answer was yes.

anywho. Work is 10hrs too long! that includes travel time and getting ready for work and food sometimes. Funny when you got nothing to do, you are feeling bored. minute you get something taking 8 hrs +some, you want to do the very thing you cant! thats how it is for me most days. BUT I squeeze art when I can.

Like these *points to bottom of page* May not have been updating regularly but have been doing arts! Sometimes I have to be pulled off the desk to sleep 4 hrs XD

So without fur-ther ado:

Monthly update here, not all art is sfw

These are the arts I have done
ref sheet http://www.furaffinity.net/view/189.....che=1454388996
she said yes http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18974536/
2016 Doodle http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18974563/
Rainy hop http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18974606/
Sunny http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18974632/
Bird pinup http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18974738/
Sleeping doodle http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18974825/
Size play http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18974880/
Pancho girl http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18974897/
Foxes doodles http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18974928/
Nice http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18974943/
Naughty http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18974956/
Cyclone http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18974972/
Riding Chew http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18975012/
Emma Hops http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18975035/
Zari Flop http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18975076/

I've also started simplistic comics that are mostly of daily things happening or that I predict happening. Take a look,
silly comic strips!
https://twitter.com/PeakitArt

Thats all folks of all kind of coats!

Open for trades, requests, and digital commissions!

~Talk to you laters <3~

so you like art, decide you want to be an artist when you grow up.

"you cant make a career in art, i wont support you if you choose art"

Study Engineering. Fail.

go and study engineering and art. Learn about animation. Dedicate to working in animation. Nearly done.

Dont know what im doing with animation.


Dont you just get those days, where you realize you don't know what youre doing?

maybe a little bit for me.

I'm at a lost as to what to do. I've learned of a dear cousin of mine is hospitalized due to some sort of looking infection under his skin that had developed from a bad cold or something. It may be cancer. It may be a bad tumor. What ever the reason, he's going to need help paying for the medicine, x-rays, hospital bills, and who knows what more. On top of all that, he's going through his divorce and his own mother isn't doing all that she can to help save him. She's treating all this like if he was some carpet at the cleaners, "if its too far stain oh well." He's one of my cousins I see the least (because he's in Mexico) and he's of the closer ones I am to than any family i have here. (sad isnt it?) . He's part of my child hood, family, friends. I wish i could take action for all the years i haven't and i cant still today. Sitting here while he's having a difficult time breathing, how is that fair.

Only course of action i can do is help with the future. I still have a ways off to hope for big commissions but I ask you viewers, would you like to help out? any donation, even pennies will be appreciated.

Please look through the gallery, see something you'd like me to draw you for your donation, please note me.

I thank you for reading this through and for your thoughts.

~Peakit AmaltheaTwin~

i dont really have a internet life.
nor a social life.
or a big gaming life.
nor is my life being taken away from animating.
im sorta just, floating in life i've discovered.

there are times something gives me boost of energy to go a direction. Lasting an hr at most, then I'm left with the built up momentum and floating again. guess im not used to this after last year and the entire day of my time was filled with school projects, social events, animating, gaming, etc.



okay im done reflecting. back to drawing

commissions-free requests -thingys open. I wanna improve drawing wise.

Its summer end and I've done...well summer.
life processing. Continue to bottom

Monday I start classes with a relaxing schedule. As much as I want to pretend, last year was proof I could not handle too many responsibilities and it wore me down greatly. My studies are number one priority after taking care of myself of course. I know exactly what the formula, more or less, is to having a difficult schedule and that's volunteering for too many positions at school. The job wasnt difficult, show up to meetings weekly, keep notes, plan for the next, talk to the correct people etc. Problem was I had too many. Every day I was running to one meeting to the next. Cramming work, little sleep, social life falling apart, family issues rising.

Yet as I'm reading emails from the school, my mind is racing looking at all the work that needs to be done. Retaking classes. Recovering from academic warning. Getting my feet back on the ground and picking up where it all got cut off. Get the last stride in to get graduated and started on a career. Or something at the very least. I hear the job industry is really bad that its better to stay in school. How true is that when school tuition increases and living expenses increase and job payment lower. I dont want to get lost in this endless cycle of school-work-die, theres more to it than that.

the day is not over yet. There's a chance to put everything in order. I got friends. Family. Support. I got this *trips on own feet* sorta!

Art Status

well. none.

Got some etching work done today. Tara the landlady said it's valuable material for my portfolio. Okay..

Random art have not done yet. I want to keep up with drawing even though I'll be taking art drawing classes >.>

Free ...none.

gonna get my flash installed. I want an Icon that moves


that be all folks!

Feels like I haven't lived in a very long time. Tonight I'm posting something very serious. Or, well, it seems to be in my case to me, to a worry some fox I am. Multiple somethings I think.

Think everyone reaches a moment in their life where they can say they might feel to be part of a Romeo and Juliet story. Where you've found love in a loving unique soul, knowing entirely your own parents will disown you the minute they learned the truth. Its not entirely like that with me. No. Its more of, I'm existing between realms. Entering one reality and leaving another in an attempt to find my way. Currently Home doesn't exist in my life. Living at my parent's house, where no one listens, no sense of respect towards me, no space to concentrate or breath. Going to school where its 98% guys, the few friends I have are graduating, and no one takes the school serious anymore. Cant always run to my SO for the distance is too far and just cause tremendous amounts of trouble with folks and school. Everything just, got to me this semester and I could not see clearly what I was doing.

I started getting professional help. LaDonna is all I can remember right now. Walked in last week after nearly a month of silence pain, where no matter how stupid easy it was to get help, I would refuse to get help. Hearing from friends, I may have had developed depression when I started Highschool. LaDonna said I should write a book of my life, about how much shit i've gone through. To be proud of where I am, take a stand on what I am today. To be happy I didn't drive down the road to the nearest bridge and fucking jump off to end my life. Seriously a wreck. I know part of me did die even though I was too scared go out and do harm to myself during the darkest day of my life this year. Always returning to the same feeling of picking up broken pieces of myself and trying to put them back. There's plenty of gaps all over me, but I've left parts of me that i don't want anymore in the mud. Basically unlearning what I learned all my years of pure loneliness.

I can admit I've changed, or least going through changes. Its been less noticeable recent due to not always being here *bonks head a couple times* but supposedly I've changed. Of course comparing years difference will show. I'm concerned of over 10 months. 10 months and 4 days today, is the continuous amount of time i've dated one person. There are IFs that are starting to crawl under my skin like Egyptian scarabs. I'm not overly panicking over these thoughts like when i first started. Yet its getting little hard to just smile at the questions and not have it bother me. Even less now that I've built a bit more of an understanding of whats been going on. It looks like I stole someone's heart by having spells of black magic and I'm from outer space or something. I feel like im that unknown variable that can completely upset the balance of life by falling in at the right moment. "If things hadn't happen the way they have happen.." "If I went to go visit and things happen.." "if we had met in person.." "What if I change and feelings change.." freaking out about the last one. I dont want to even look at the last one to try and avoid making that true. I know that 'the change' is unavoidable...Will i really love the same? Am I loving the same now? why is my love is changing? Is it really love or am I just taking advantage of the soul? What is love anymore? I know I love, but are we on the same page about love? We nearly ended due to many things happening. Whats preventing that from happening again? or even us going through it the next time? Are we really compatible if we were doing harm to each other? What are relationships for? Can we handle another black mark at this distance away? Why did I take away his opportunities? why did i step in now? What if he's happier...she's happier if i hadnt come in? where would she'd gone or end up if I hadnt walked into her the last few days of school and got her to come on her own to dinner? Am i just on her way to where she needs to go? What am i teaching her? Am I doing right for her? Cant help feeling im holding her back..

I know who i've fallen in love with, I know it at the bottom of my heart, to the bottom of my soles. This is the one, there wont be another awkward first date or first kiss or first anything with anyone else. There's no one else. if I screw up, waste the opportunity, I'll never have another chance. Sure I'll most likely be a vixen and be sleeping about with countless others. Fall back onto my old title of the "virgin taker". Have a new flavor for each day of the week. But there wouldn't be another that be able to hold my spirit down. I know the ways of the game, I know the angles i'd have to shoot for to get what i want, if I were single and just taking what i could. Sex is a big part of who I am that my parents will never know about. There's alot they dont know about.

Too much Im certain they can guess at. Not the closer to home ones though. Haven't told them I'm seeing professional help. Not even sure How im going to bring up the fact I failed to classes during a span of three months I had thoughts of suicidal thoughts every other week. They barely know me.

Directly from http://digifoxcat.deviantart.com/ and some adjustments to fit a Peakit's journal~
Offering it on DA, would like to offer it to you FA too. <3

The first 10 people who comment on this journal will get a free sketch. In return you must offer 10 free sketches in your own journal. Practice for both participants, so a win-win for all artists. If you've already done 10 Free Sketches simply link the journal entry in your comment!
Its only fair if I see this in your journal too. By no means am I participating in chain-journals, just supporting the desire to practice other ideas and reaching the 1000 drawings challenge. If your thing isn't drawing, I'm sure any form of practice art you are willing to dedicate to will be fine. One character per person, gives a focus to the sketch. I will try OC's as long as you give me a reference to work from. If you desire something specific, we can come to an agreement with further discussion.

its a neat idea. wanna draw for you works. Besides, who doesnt like free?
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V, Vixen, Vix, tails, kit, peakit, Ginya, purple, violet, Amalthea, vicky

I've used so many names, so many different identities, so many sides to this shiny in the rough. Yet still, too many names lead to too many identities, spread out, broken pieces of love. It feels right now, as stable as I can be with half of my mind and heart miles away from me, that I am currently picking up broken pieces from the ground and putting them back together to the best of my abilities. Did this piece go here? Why does this not fit here no more? Why am I taking this back? I thought this one was all my goals?

When listening to your favorite music, you realize its no longer your favorite, that it has become background music. When eating vast amounts of chocolate, not caring for the consequence, doesnt lift your spirits. When pushing yourself to work on the things that would make you happy, and it doesnt. This is where I was, Where I am, Where I dont want to be, where I have been for half of my life if not longer.

maybe it does take a vast, sharp strong emotion to kick things back to the right track.

Please. Death is the easy way out

Happy to be with the one i'm in love with. Thats all I'll say about this shape day.


I've dissipated for far too long now. been going through so much that really has nothing drama-sized big.

Hopefully I'm back for good.

oh btw, I'm taking on one drawing per week. if you want me to draw you something, contact me please. I want to draw more, and this may be a way to do so. so. free of charge, because well. you're all good friends.

i know there's already people have asked fro drawings, I'm back to working on them.

Something I notice after valentines. The Glow from couples I knew at school, If they had a great night, their face, behavior, and total self were completely different. I mean, I'm even feeling it...after going through the start of removing whats hurting me...>.> I mean, today, I wanted my picture taken. I feel so animated, so alive, so much cute. And I'm not one to want the attention or go showing off sexually in front of classmates and such. the fear of embarrassment is starting to melt away. I'm okay with this..though, doesn't mean I wont fall back on a pillow fortress and hide for a day or so when I don't want to be seen or something. >.>

oh and take that back about what i said first. I'm so, so, so happy and adoring my http://www.furaffinity.net/user/sharialsoftpaw/ and i'm so glad we dont take anything seriously between our jokes and puns. *does whoosh whoosh motion with arms* I love you so much hon.

night all

...hi out there..


Im not very good at keeping a journal, considering this is my ....lost count both physical and electrical. It seems real easy to do, but i just dont do it because it would be a scheduled habit, and i dont really like doing the same thing over and over.

*ahem* Welcome aboard to AmaltheaTwin s doodles and such. Apologies to those who expect more art from a supposed art student. Well more animation student. Not sure yet what kind of artist I am but all I do know is I cant stand sitting inside a box nor do i wish to do that for the rest of my life.

"why am I journaling?" um good question. Guess I needed somewhere to try out to talk to myself where it might get me some good. I figure, not many people actually know me and the best way to meet friends is to start talking out...even if it means a couple of years of no comments because im just another generic story out in the cyber world. It happens. Mean, take DA for example. I joined it when it was brand new nearly 7 years ago. Only gets used to see my current RL friends artwork..that I see in person sooner.

I feel really out of the loop. I try to keep up with twitter and other emails and seeing art, just dont have the discipline to get stuff done. like i was suppose to work on a thumbnail of what my hw is going to look like. didnt get past 20 lines. Nearly did everything else that I do unconciously but not the hw.

but. Yeah. hi. Welcome. I'll be posting soon. ..something.

~Vix~

and not a day of them was not loved.

^.^


as for my followers,

Thank you and Welcome to the crazy life of Amaltheatwin. Started as an artist in the year 2001, ever since then been doing my best to be able to translate what I see into something what others can see.

If you are reading this far, you deserve a medal. So far I'm not that interesting, what keeps you reading?

Finals are next door to me. So drawings will drop a bit. The urge to drop everything and draw is grand, but got myself 2 weeks to go.

Until then, keep an eye out, thanks for watchin
~AmaltheaTwin~