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General | Posted 3 years agoIts early morning here still but for me the day has started so you all get my best wishes for the day.
Also it's my birthday so guess that's a thing as well
Also it's my birthday so guess that's a thing as well
Art raffle
General | Posted 3 years agoSo 
LixtleGhost is doing a raffle that can be found here https://www.furaffinity.net/view/47155568/
And as a long time follower and client, I wish to share it here. They are an amazing artist that you should at lest check out, even if you don't want to join in.
LixtleGhost is doing a raffle that can be found here https://www.furaffinity.net/view/47155568/And as a long time follower and client, I wish to share it here. They are an amazing artist that you should at lest check out, even if you don't want to join in.
Raffle boost
General | Posted 3 years agoSo hello everyone. 
Cogo is doing a raffle right here https://www.furaffinity.net/view/46569068/ and on Twitter so you guys should check it out if you like his art.
Cogo is doing a raffle right here https://www.furaffinity.net/view/46569068/ and on Twitter so you guys should check it out if you like his art.Recent thoughts (update and vent)
General | Posted 3 years agoHey all
So the update part straight away I am writing stuff. Have started two stories I will write more off when I feel like it, so slow progress but progress. I also overworked an idea through well, putting it in better and more logical words. Might do it with another and post it here, even if it would be purely lore again. Might get comms this month again, but other than one, I can't promise anything.
So thoughts. Not going to get peace of mind through this, but it's probably going to let me think about it less. First off, my time here with everyone is amazing. I have meet so many nice people that are simply amazing and great to talk to even. Though the reason I am in here as deep as I am isn't a good story.
It started when I needed somewhere to enjoy myself since the one thing that I did for me, to be more healthy, backfired terribly, while I also was finding myself deeper and deeper in furry and English media. As some are aware, I am German, so English is far from my mother language, there was a time while I still was in school I hated having to "learn" it, thought it was useless. Looking back at that, I was just some brad angry about homework while also "learning" something "important." I wouldn't say I learned English at all in school, or at least nothing important. I learned it at home when I choose to through YouTube with English content, another change again this time, though, since it opened doors that would be helpful all my life without worry. And look at me here with friends and acquaintances from quite a few places.
Some might know from me admitting it, I am heavily overweight for where I live and there is no change in sight. It's that that led me here. I tried to change that once, and I did, I lost 1/5 of my weight in a short time and could have held that, but "fate" made that change. I was in rehab to make that change and my absence made my friends leave me behind, except it didn't. They left me hanging and running after them instead of cutting me loose. Again I am here now with all the good and bad. This was what started my mental decline at the time, which led to anger issues soon after and well depression. Only one friend of that group stayed, the only one I had contact at the time with, and they tried their hardest. They left, but that was good when it happened. The days with that group were numbered and as time ticked down, anger ticked up and depression swallowed me. The one person there, an unhealthy beacon of hope since I had nowhere else to go. Yet I learned English around that time. I had almost properly gotten into Pokémon on accident, and FNAF and Undertale both lead me ever on to learn English. Understand the games and the content around it and well the fandom I had unknowingly thrown myself in. Vore had been on my mind before then but never with a word for it, just the idea, and when I found it I gut pulled deeper as my interest grew. Somehow with luck striking twice the one friend was also a furry and also into vore, though admittedly almost all of them were close to being ones. Ever wondered why I have so much scanned traditional art here that I haven't drawn. Well, it came from there. When thing were still good anyway. So as time moved they were not only a beacon but the person I trusted. Till they weren't.
Something happened, and it left me almost where I am today. I was betrayed and lied to about it even though I had prove and well I did go along with it at the time. It still left me heavily paranoid, though, which some here might know from talking or not. Yet lately I leave it behind a good bit better than before.
As "fate" would have it things had to change again and as it did, it didn't. Almost last minute "fate" decided to throw me back to that friend that by this point was better off left behind both for them and me. I would have had to learn to move on, and they would have gotten to be happy without my craziness all over them for some more time. Well, seeing it as a good thing, the two of us reunited for the time being. As that "hope" became toxic through that, though. So it went pretty badly that year, but it worked out. And once that mandatory time was over, they left me on read. I lashed out at anyone to keep myself together, the toxicity going through the roof. You should know what I meant if you got to talk to me at the time. And it all failed. Though by now I am at least standing okay with anyone I know from here.
At some point I overstep the boundary as that all was happening and left on read became blocked. A breakdown having brought me there, I finally got to do what I should have done before, move on. And I did. Great times followed I meet more people some left, some I still talk to. Talking changed last year, though. My father died. The details ain't important and my thought get dark there, so let's summarize what happened. I stopped talking and RP's for the most part, and I am still at that point, only recently trying to mend wounds that came from that sudden stop. I got glasses and meds from some work on myself. My constant headaches reduced to a sizzle in the back, still annoying, but letting me write when I can hold the mood for it.
I never go into detail on this kind of stuff, till now, and I am not here for any of the above.
I'm currently not home much. Not only that, but I am working on getting proper work again. Another rehab like situation, just that my friends here I can write, and they answer when they wanna talk and the ones in person I can hang out with these days. I/we have cats. Two to be exact. One isn't doing good. This is what is putting a mental strain on me. Makes me eat my sanity on downtime, like right now. They are sick and I can't help again. Money isn't the problem, it's that the cat has more than one problem. And with me away from home in this rehab, there is no one that could monitor them. They probably won't make it if they get the help they need to get through with them getting two serious ailments at the same time. One needing time and extra care on top of medical help, the other does too, and one can only be fixed after the other. So I am sitting here thinking what the right thing to do is, even though I won't be the one making the decision or even be able to influence it since I am not home and can't be. Everyone involved know there are only two options, and the right thing to do isn't the right thing to do.
Anyway that's that. And no worries I am taking care of myself just the first time I feel like sitting down and writing something like this out.
So the update part straight away I am writing stuff. Have started two stories I will write more off when I feel like it, so slow progress but progress. I also overworked an idea through well, putting it in better and more logical words. Might do it with another and post it here, even if it would be purely lore again. Might get comms this month again, but other than one, I can't promise anything.
So thoughts. Not going to get peace of mind through this, but it's probably going to let me think about it less. First off, my time here with everyone is amazing. I have meet so many nice people that are simply amazing and great to talk to even. Though the reason I am in here as deep as I am isn't a good story.
It started when I needed somewhere to enjoy myself since the one thing that I did for me, to be more healthy, backfired terribly, while I also was finding myself deeper and deeper in furry and English media. As some are aware, I am German, so English is far from my mother language, there was a time while I still was in school I hated having to "learn" it, thought it was useless. Looking back at that, I was just some brad angry about homework while also "learning" something "important." I wouldn't say I learned English at all in school, or at least nothing important. I learned it at home when I choose to through YouTube with English content, another change again this time, though, since it opened doors that would be helpful all my life without worry. And look at me here with friends and acquaintances from quite a few places.
Some might know from me admitting it, I am heavily overweight for where I live and there is no change in sight. It's that that led me here. I tried to change that once, and I did, I lost 1/5 of my weight in a short time and could have held that, but "fate" made that change. I was in rehab to make that change and my absence made my friends leave me behind, except it didn't. They left me hanging and running after them instead of cutting me loose. Again I am here now with all the good and bad. This was what started my mental decline at the time, which led to anger issues soon after and well depression. Only one friend of that group stayed, the only one I had contact at the time with, and they tried their hardest. They left, but that was good when it happened. The days with that group were numbered and as time ticked down, anger ticked up and depression swallowed me. The one person there, an unhealthy beacon of hope since I had nowhere else to go. Yet I learned English around that time. I had almost properly gotten into Pokémon on accident, and FNAF and Undertale both lead me ever on to learn English. Understand the games and the content around it and well the fandom I had unknowingly thrown myself in. Vore had been on my mind before then but never with a word for it, just the idea, and when I found it I gut pulled deeper as my interest grew. Somehow with luck striking twice the one friend was also a furry and also into vore, though admittedly almost all of them were close to being ones. Ever wondered why I have so much scanned traditional art here that I haven't drawn. Well, it came from there. When thing were still good anyway. So as time moved they were not only a beacon but the person I trusted. Till they weren't.
Something happened, and it left me almost where I am today. I was betrayed and lied to about it even though I had prove and well I did go along with it at the time. It still left me heavily paranoid, though, which some here might know from talking or not. Yet lately I leave it behind a good bit better than before.
As "fate" would have it things had to change again and as it did, it didn't. Almost last minute "fate" decided to throw me back to that friend that by this point was better off left behind both for them and me. I would have had to learn to move on, and they would have gotten to be happy without my craziness all over them for some more time. Well, seeing it as a good thing, the two of us reunited for the time being. As that "hope" became toxic through that, though. So it went pretty badly that year, but it worked out. And once that mandatory time was over, they left me on read. I lashed out at anyone to keep myself together, the toxicity going through the roof. You should know what I meant if you got to talk to me at the time. And it all failed. Though by now I am at least standing okay with anyone I know from here.
At some point I overstep the boundary as that all was happening and left on read became blocked. A breakdown having brought me there, I finally got to do what I should have done before, move on. And I did. Great times followed I meet more people some left, some I still talk to. Talking changed last year, though. My father died. The details ain't important and my thought get dark there, so let's summarize what happened. I stopped talking and RP's for the most part, and I am still at that point, only recently trying to mend wounds that came from that sudden stop. I got glasses and meds from some work on myself. My constant headaches reduced to a sizzle in the back, still annoying, but letting me write when I can hold the mood for it.
I never go into detail on this kind of stuff, till now, and I am not here for any of the above.
I'm currently not home much. Not only that, but I am working on getting proper work again. Another rehab like situation, just that my friends here I can write, and they answer when they wanna talk and the ones in person I can hang out with these days. I/we have cats. Two to be exact. One isn't doing good. This is what is putting a mental strain on me. Makes me eat my sanity on downtime, like right now. They are sick and I can't help again. Money isn't the problem, it's that the cat has more than one problem. And with me away from home in this rehab, there is no one that could monitor them. They probably won't make it if they get the help they need to get through with them getting two serious ailments at the same time. One needing time and extra care on top of medical help, the other does too, and one can only be fixed after the other. So I am sitting here thinking what the right thing to do is, even though I won't be the one making the decision or even be able to influence it since I am not home and can't be. Everyone involved know there are only two options, and the right thing to do isn't the right thing to do.
Anyway that's that. And no worries I am taking care of myself just the first time I feel like sitting down and writing something like this out.
An update
General | Posted 4 years agoSo I am actually writing something again. Like a story I mean. That probably will just exist on here once finished. Has been a while since looks at date Halloween, huh. Did want to write something and bring it out on my birthday but like everyone knows I didn't. That's the last time I did, and before that probably another month. Guess it wasn't too bad though, had hung out with friends for a while. irl I mean. Probably a long time till that'll happen again. Though not like I missed much in the fandom. Was only like two people that were maybe ready to try something in the multiple days of time, so guess sorry for not being there.
Guess the other thing is, I honestly kinda feel like I might as well not be here anymore. Is it thanks to the stuff stated above. Maybe. Just feels like everyone has better options that they use for all I can offer. Like i literally could be gone, and it wouldn't change anything. Can't and probably wouldn't prove it anyway though. Probably just feeling bad and alone though, so take that as you will. If you do at all.
Guess the other thing is, I honestly kinda feel like I might as well not be here anymore. Is it thanks to the stuff stated above. Maybe. Just feels like everyone has better options that they use for all I can offer. Like i literally could be gone, and it wouldn't change anything. Can't and probably wouldn't prove it anyway though. Probably just feeling bad and alone though, so take that as you will. If you do at all.
Fun fact
General | Posted 4 years agoI tried to color a base again. Like the second time I tried. I can say I still have no idea how to do it. Especially not to my liking, so I stopped trying again after half an hour. Since I probably would be breaking something by now otherwise.
Any advice?
Any advice?
An addition
General | Posted 4 years agoSo since I was pretty bored and felt like it, I added stuff to "My dragon info" Which is just a document for info about dragons originating in my fantasy verse if you want to call it that.
It's the comment made under it and basically just goes into some more info like what if a nation of dragons is around. Like made up of mainly dragons or dragon-like creatures, so that's there now.
It's also more so about like before industrial evolution stuff like way before more medieval like than anything
It's the comment made under it and basically just goes into some more info like what if a nation of dragons is around. Like made up of mainly dragons or dragon-like creatures, so that's there now.
It's also more so about like before industrial evolution stuff like way before more medieval like than anything
Some things
General | Posted 4 years agoSo i might get a comm sometime soon. That's about it honestly. Haven't really written anything since i literally rather do nothing since I don't feel like it lately.
And an extra fun thing is I did win a raffle not to long ago. And got blocked by the artist for no reason. And hey what was i to expect that i should have seen coming.
And an extra fun thing is I did win a raffle not to long ago. And got blocked by the artist for no reason. And hey what was i to expect that i should have seen coming.
Art raffle
General | Posted 4 years agohttps://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10035859/#cid:58692072
RainyPaws is looking to get to 5k watchers and they are doing a art raffle so obviously they get a boost.
RainyPaws is looking to get to 5k watchers and they are doing a art raffle so obviously they get a boost.Art raffle
General | Posted 4 years ago
MyDrawnWorld is doing an art raffle and the draw some great looking art so check it out https://www.furaffinity.net/view/43521852/Halloween art raffle
General | Posted 4 years agoSo 
AlvaViva is doing a raffle here https://www.furaffinity.net/view/43508602/ and they do seem to make nice art
AlvaViva is doing a raffle here https://www.furaffinity.net/view/43508602/ and they do seem to make nice artRaffle boost
General | Posted 4 years agoSo no idea how i missed it but 
spazywolf is doing a raffle that ends once they reach 2000 watchers so join in or watch him. He does some nice art
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9753287/
spazywolf is doing a raffle that ends once they reach 2000 watchers so join in or watch him. He does some nice arthttps://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9753287/
Journal boost
General | Posted 4 years agoSo an artist i follow LixtleGhost for a while is doing free art and i am just gonna boost them since they are a good artist. In my eyes anyways.
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9964205/
LixtleGhost for a while is doing free art and i am just gonna boost them since they are a good artist. In my eyes anyways.https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9964205/
Art raffle
General | Posted 4 years agoSo 
Travon is doing a raffle and he does some great art so sharing it.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/43161877/
Travon is doing a raffle and he does some great art so sharing it.https://www.furaffinity.net/view/43161877/
Raffle boost for Raptor4694
General | Posted 4 years agoRaptor4694 is doing a raffle for a few things i and I would think people watching me would be interested in check it out here
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/41860339/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/41860339/
Reuploading taken down art
General | Posted 4 years agoSo an artist is coming back and is okay with me reuplaoding the stuff again they asked me to take down (they asked everyone from how i got it then and most didn't that i knew off that got stuff too) so ill try and get them done quick so sorry for a bit of spam there.
Story comming soon and thoughts
General | Posted 5 years agoSo with some luck i'll have a story out in a few hours. It'll have vore in it too. So guess some might actually look into it. I dunno if anyone will really as it seems most aren't that interested in my storys. At least my none vore ones.
It'll continue with Kany and will probably have an alternative scene with digestion at the end for those interested in it. Otherwise stop before the warning that's also mentioned before the beginning and just enjoy a bit of normal story, jump to a hunt or straight to the vore and or what might follow.
Sorry for the kind of set up storys lately but guess am somewhat starting to reveal some more that happens around my characters and what kinda place they are in. Took me long enough right. Just like what three years to start writing it out in english and putting it up on the web.
Might be getting another commission soon too for those that might care. It'll be of fensune Night that much i will say already or that's my plan right now anyways.
It'll continue with Kany and will probably have an alternative scene with digestion at the end for those interested in it. Otherwise stop before the warning that's also mentioned before the beginning and just enjoy a bit of normal story, jump to a hunt or straight to the vore and or what might follow.
Sorry for the kind of set up storys lately but guess am somewhat starting to reveal some more that happens around my characters and what kinda place they are in. Took me long enough right. Just like what three years to start writing it out in english and putting it up on the web.
Might be getting another commission soon too for those that might care. It'll be of fensune Night that much i will say already or that's my plan right now anyways.
A side note
General | Posted 5 years agoSo some might know that i have characters that haven't been established with which i mean i haven't shared them online or they aren't fleshed out yet.
I might try to get them ready at somepoint so guess some might look forward to that or not.
I might try to get them ready at somepoint so guess some might look forward to that or not.
New story
General | Posted 5 years agoWell I posted a story yesterday and not sure if people might have missed it so here is this as a reminder
Raffle boost
General | Posted 5 years ago
Anti-Cupid is doing a animation raffle check them and that raflle out herehttps://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9736688/
Possible story.
General | Posted 5 years agoSo there is a good chance that i will upload a story not too long from now with some luck that i wrote today. It might be the longest one i ever made public and features some small info that probably isn't important but it's still in there.
Announcements (regarding my birthday and Updates)
General | Posted 5 years agoWell it's nothing huge. I might get a pc again soon so I might write some more then.
Sadly really bored lately but could be worse. Since I still get distracted enough from stuff thankfully so.
And my Birthday is on Halloween for anyone interested in that which maybe wasn't clear to everyone.
Sadly really bored lately but could be worse. Since I still get distracted enough from stuff thankfully so.
And my Birthday is on Halloween for anyone interested in that which maybe wasn't clear to everyone.
It's weird.
General | Posted 5 years agoI am totally calm right now. Even if one of my closest friends just quit our friendship. Can hardly be mad at them. Not even at myself for once even if it's on me. It's odd just being relaxed right now.
Vore day.
General | Posted 5 years agoSadly have nothing to show for today but wish everyone a good one.
Regarding my latest story
General | Posted 5 years agoWanted to ask anyone that is watching me and that read my latest story if you would be interested in seeing more of the character in it. In another story for example.
