check them out!

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/63054149/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/63054149/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/63054149/

I want to say big THANK YOU for everyone who donated, helped me with ideas and checked on me 💜
I was able to buy my kitties food and pay some bills. I still need a good amount for the monthly mortgage payment.. but I'm feeling a lot better and trying to get back to work!

hey guys. I'm experiencing my first, real, and very painful break up
I need time to heal, to recover. I'm very sorry for any delay but I need that time.
I'm thankful for this experience even if it was so painful in the end..

so whats happening: my government tries to block the entire internet in my country. i couldnt access to the web for 2 days, didnt had any connection at all :/

IF I WILL DISAPPEAR, I WILL STILL BE ON TELEGRAM!
my tag here is freddd54

i hate all of this.

i want to warn you about qwukyarts on twitter (maybe she has other social medias but i dont know)
https://x.com/qwukyarts

she's a horrible person. not only she is TRACING arts, she's really rude, selfish and seriously offended our good friend rosedad.
rosedad helped this person and was told so much bullshit in return, poor soul crying so hard.

if qwukyarts will reach to you, please, don't give her any attention. she's really really BAD person.
see this post for the tracing proof ->
https://x.com/FredsCloset/status/19.....49830448984133

please, check my YCH for May, I really hope you'll like it ^^"

https://bsky.app/profile/fredsclose...../3logyejcaec2o
https://bsky.app/profile/fredsclose...../3logyejcaec2o
https://bsky.app/profile/fredsclose...../3logyejcaec2o

i wasn't uploading arts cos fa was down and i always post everywhere at the same time... but i can't be silent for more time.. -.-
here, have my links where i will be posting arts!

BTW! i will post my Mayternity YCH soon so be sure to check it c:

https://x.com/FredsCloset
https://bsky.app/profile/fredscloset.bsky.social
https://www.deviantart.com/fredscloset

gonna close it on 10th of march :p
(probably will reopen it in the future but nor sure-)

grab one if you want! :D
(CW: pregnancy, tentacles, ovi, nsfw)

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60088047/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60088047/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60088047/

...by my friend Rose!!!

she does amazing art you might wanna check out ;3

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59886931/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59886931/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59886931/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59886931/

hello!
if you missed this post - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59574215/ - im letting you know, that my comms are still opened! :D
im taking sketch and flat colors slots preferably but i can take 1 or 2 full arts!

you can also check my opened YCHs right here ->
https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....Available-YCHs

feel free to ask any questions and if you're interested please contact me on:
telegram - freddd54
discord - freddymartin

hate to say that it's a bit emergency, so i will really appreciate ANY help and support!! >////<

I was wanting to do that for a long time, but then discord got banned in my country.. and since I have a decent way to keep it up and stable, I want to ask you:

what do you think of me creating my own discord server?
I'm not a good chatter, but I could share my WIPs or we can share thoughts of what could I possibly draw

it will be my first time doing something like this, but I'll gladly listen of what you think about it

GUYS, I need your help STAT!
after long months of searching and monitoring apartments I finally found one in a good shape and area, I could just move my stuff and live here
BUT! I could get a mortgage only if I have 50% of the sum
I am 5k short, and I PREY it won't get sold!!!

anything helps, or just spread a word about it, please!
I have to move, I can't stand this abuse anymore

https://gofund.me/34826f02
https://gofund.me/34826f02
https://gofund.me/34826f02

i want to say a sincere thank you everyone for the b-day wishes, you all are a very important part of my life
i dont know what would i do without you <3
today has started pretty sadly but thanks to all of you i had this bright beam for the whole day
hugs hugs hugs

...yay i guess?

i'm sooo close in reaching 2k on my twitter/x !
if you wanna help me a bit i will be very thankful if you repost this xP
https://x.com/FredsCloset/status/18.....38245163004204

it'll be the best b-day gift! :D

hey friends.. I hate reminding but..

yes, my mom just married this abusive man that hates me..
i still can't believe it happened. but it did. things are getting progressively worse and I really, really need a hand of your help..

https://www.gofundme.com/f/engger-h.....sive-situation

i feel bad for reminding things so i rarely do it.
thats why i'm thinking of doing a "donation drive" in the nearest future.
but instead of taking donations straigtly, i will link my GFM instead. maybe at least this will help..

i'm so exhausted to live. can't do basic things.
eating junk and suffering from stomach pain. can't sleep, can't work, can't do anything.
im so tired from everyday's brain fuck from my family

so what's happening?
imagine working the whole day, and then being yelled at for
"doing nothing, playing the whole time, and you're so useless"

i can't find joy in what im doing, im being devalued all the time, so why bother...always trying..
im burnt out

what character should I use for donation drive?
(whatever, my OCs or popular characters)

https://www.gofundme.com/f/engger-h.....sive-situation

i want to warm up, so im taking sketch requests
please notice, i will be drawing pregnancy themed stuff! and send the ref sheets under this post: https://x.com/FredsCloset/status/18.....13656367268303
i will pick up characters only from the comments!

hello. my family situation has reached its peak, i feel like im on edge
the abuse is getting stronger, and my mental health is getting lower

my friend Mel started a GoFundMe to help me raise money for my own place of living
you can help for free, but i also plan on doing gift arts for people who helped me greatly by donating a significant amount, after the process of moving is complete and I'm safe

please spread a word about it. i will appreciate any help

https://www.gofundme.com/f/engger-h.....sive-situation

im talking about this summer ych!

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57069405/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57069405/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57069405/

i'm gonna take 4-5 more slots and will close it!
so if you want to take a slot its your chance *wink wink*

hey friends, im so sorry for that kind of question
but does someone know any donation platform which will work for russia?

"buy me a coffee" banned all russian users and "kofi" requires a middle person as it doesn't do payouts to russian cards
maybe boosty but it shutted down the paypal
hipolink is just boosty's rename and i dont want to use it

i use EasyStart and it's great but not for donations as i need to register each person here and the minimum amount is 20

i want to try on doing donation drive because i have to earn on my own place of living. my mother just said fuck you i chose my fucker instead of my child lol

huge vent about my family.
I do apologise in advance for any grammar or spelling mistakes, I'm not that good in English for big texts.
...and sorry for the vent itself. but i need, i really need to talk about it, let go of a bit of weight from my shoulders..

In my child and teenage hoods my mom wasn't supportive, she was full of her own trauma and never took a good care of me. She stopped walking me to school at the first grade, as well as cooking me breakfasts. I was doing all myself from my very young age.
Whole my life I was a creative person, I mean I've loved drawing whole my life. School days were okay-ish, I was drawing in my sketchbook and didn't really care about what's going on. (well i had some troubles with education but thats not a point)
My mom did not appreciate it at all, she liked to say that it is pointless, I have to have good marks so I can succeed it life, y'know like most of moms like to say.
College days were a disaster..
I was stalked, almost beaten by other students, teachers were pushing me hard, I had terrible panic attacks, I was nearly suffocating in the college toilet and crying and no one was knowing about it. My mom had no idea what I was going through. She wasn't supporting me and I had to pull myself together to keep going.
I never finished college and left which caused my mom to go crazy. Literally.
She became yelling at me and be mad at me for existing. I've been told to pay for living in her flat, she didn't care about me being her child, I had become a stranger who needs to pay for everything. She was pushing me every day, yelling, taking away my phone and PC cabels.
Meantime I tried the hardest to draw and make something from commissions, but it all were going to my mom's wallet cos I *have* to pay for being here.
3 years passed, I was earning my hardest to afford one surgery that changed my life. Meanwhile my mom was visiting psychologist (wow! credit to her!) and it seemed that she became better, we could chat without anger, she accepted me and was as respectful as she could.
We moved to another living place, my relationship with mom was good at that point, she even took a money credit to make this house better, i agreed to help with it and everything was amazing!
For..a year.
She met a man, they started dating. A year ago he moved to our house. He bacame making his own rules and trying to "change" me.
He doesn't understand that I'm working while sitting on PC, every day he was telling me "stop playing, get a job"
I never yelled at him, I never said anything to him, I accepted him as my mom's man, she just a woman who needs love.
But the way he threats me.. And my mom defends him..
I want you to understand the picture.
So, this is me, working hard every day to pay for mother's credit, buy food for me and cats, and manage to preparing food for myself.
My mom, in the other hand, doesn't work and always borrows money from me. She rarely cooks and even if she cooks her boyfriend eats everything.
Her boyfriend, well, helps with the house but gets into my private life and tries to "re-teach" me.
I could tolerate it..
but he started yelling at me.
This fucker started screaming at me, at 22 years old person, who managed to make a living on commissions, that I'm not doing anything and just playing the whole time.
This is worse - let me tell you a situation that happened not long ago.
I prepared foods for everyone, I haven't eaten. I was drawing whole day non stop and was very hungry. I remember that I have food waiting in the kitchen. When i entered it, I saw this man pouring all the food at his plate. I kindly said: "Please, share a plate with me, I haven't eaten"
And this fucker started yelling at me so HARD, my whole city could hear it! I was shaking, my mom tried to chill him, and after that he said to me: "You life is easy! Your mom does everything to you! You're useless!"
I really thought he will punch me. He was very angry at me. I was crying after that and never touched food.
I was trying to speak with my mom but she says he is right. He is fucking right.
And she says it after I support her financially.
Yesterday he yelled at me again with no reason, he just loves to scream at me.
And i have panic attacks once again, my sleep is awful.

You may say, get your own place. I want, I really want. But this is complicated.. I don't want to rent someone's house and give money to a random person. I want my own place and I'm saving up as much as I can to afford it.
You may say, don't give money to family and you will be right. The reason is... complicated. I lived so long with the idea that I owe to my mom because she pushed me very hard with this. I can't just stop paying her, she will scream, she will curse me, and I need to... just don't care, but I can't. It's all so freaking complicated..

mayternity is coming soon but im out of YCH ideas

what do you have in mind for mayternity? what kind of YCH do you want to see/probably buy from me?

hello!
i have a question posted over twitter (X), i want you to check it. i need your opinion and advice!
feel free to write a comment here or on twi!

https://twitter.com/FredsCloset/sta.....93257642283306
https://twitter.com/FredsCloset/sta.....93257642283306
https://twitter.com/FredsCloset/sta.....93257642283306