The only game that I actually anticipated and got on the release day; SimCity 5. doesnt fucking work because of the constant online DRM thing.
I knew the idea of having the bulk of the game data being processed on a server and sent back just to play a single player game was stupidly inefficient to begin with but damn. I didn't think EA would mess it up so badly that literally no one can log on and even play properly.
Now it's a question of whether they can even fix the problem or not because from where I see it. It'll probably cost them more to buy and maintain additional servers in order to make the game playable than if they just let the few pirate get away with stealing a few copies.
Congrats, It's no surprise EA's going bankrupt.

Unbelievably both my youtube and my hotmail linked to my youtube login have been locked for no particular reason. It seems google is transitioning everything to a google login and my stuff got lost along the way.
Now I can't recover either acounts because my youtube is linked to a locked email. and my email is locked and is asking me to fill out a questionaire about my personal information. Which is the last thing I want to be giving away.
So Now I gotta create a new email and create a new youtube login. Fortunately I didn't have anything important on either but Goddamn, I could do without this bullshit at 2am in the morning.

The hardest task is for me to not forget this new account because for some reason google still remembers my old one exists.. it just doesn't want to let me log into it.

altern8artisan

You know what, I'm sick of being lethargic and out of shape, I'm sick of being unable to sleep at night and I sure as hell am sick of being pasty white under the collar and weighing 215lbs Hell, this makes my 2008 self look slim in comparison.

Over the next few weeks I am putting my foot down (yes make fun of that) and committing myself to a weightless plan.

It's hard for me to put these into words but. I finally realised today what I've been trying to ignore for 4 years now. I'm not cut out for uni. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it all. Studying. assignments, tests. I've lost all motivation for it, and even for the simplified university entrance pathway which I've been trying to do for the past 3 years.

I have wasted 4 whole years of my life for something I knew from the start was a risky bet. And despite what my parents think I am not capable of doing it. whether I ever was to be honest, I don't want to think about.

The fact of the matter is, the only reason why I wanted to get into university and get a bachelors done was to satisfy my parents and impress DripDry. Well.. both motivations have more or less faded into obscurity. I just want out.

4 years of living house to house, jumping through hoops with commute, spending money on subjects that I have no interest in and lying through my teeth to my parents every time they ask me "how are you doing?"

My situation now has hit a new low. I have literally failed every single class I enroled for this semester. The shame is utterly unbearable. I can't even find enough things to lay blame on but here it goes.
:The lack of personal motivation

:The horrid housing conditions leading to sleepless nights and FUBAR sleep cycles. I don't want to sound racist but I am NEVER sharing a house with Indian people again. These housemates are noisy and stink up the house with the smell of curries every second night, But at least they clean up after themselves.
I am also never getting a room without a window again.Right now it feels like living in a prison cell.


:A bus network that refuses to arrive on time either showing up 10 minutes late or 5 minutes early or not at all. I lose over 3 hours a day to travelling just a measly 10km or so. Too far to walk but busses never cooperate with me.
Oh did I mention I am completely incapable of doing anything while in a moving vehicle!
Something as simple as reading would induce so much nausia in me that I would just about throw up in about 2 minutes flat.


:My nose is constantly blocked for god know what reason and the only way to releave it is to use an addictive nasal spray which has withdrawl symptoms. No other treatments are available save jamming breathing tubes up my nose when I lie down.


:Being unable to sleep when I want to and too tired to get up every day is the key reason why everything is falling apart. I lie in bed for hours tossing and turning at the slightest discomfort, then when I finally do get to sleep I it's daylight. and I wake up at around 3-5pm feeling like shit. Forcing me up any earlier would leave me in a catatonic state where information just goes in one ear and out the other.
It's no supprise I am failing at the course because of this alone.


: Oh and I also have my biiiig secret to keep. Cant breath a word of it to my parents or all hell is going to break loose. I have to lie to them about why I need nearly $1000 every 6 months. And them being curious bastards, I have to make up fairy tales about how peachy things are over here when really it feel like solitary confinement 16 hours a day.


: I also blame this god damn town. Even if it's the nations capital it's literally THE boringest place I've ever lived in, and the part of town I live in is right on the edge of the suburbs which is the boringest part of the boringest town in australia. I have nothing to do but sit at my computer every day getting fat and overstimulating my mind so I can't sleep at night. It's either that or spend 3 hours travelling on the fucking busses back and forth to a gym or something.


2012 has for me been both a lost year and a wakeup call. Today I've set into motion a plan of action that will end this pathetic rutt.
I am moving out of this dump I am living in.

Changing my course from achademic to something purely practical so I at Least have SOMETHING to show for 4 years of my life.
Getting a fucking drivers licence and a car.
Getting nasal clearence surgury done, I don't care if they have to cut a chunk of bone out of me to fix it.

I think the hardest part of it all would be admitting it to myself that I have failed. I was dilusional about my abilities and just in denial uptil now.
In the short term I don't know what to do. Semester 1 of 2013 doesn't start until mid january and I still have till then to mope about my situation. And yes. I still have to keep that secret to my parents because I don't see the point of sharing the shame.

Okay, I am going to take a break for a while from making poses and pornz to expand on something more technical. As of now I am trying to figure out how to export my models into Secondlife. I hear it's a somewhat lucritive market.
So yeah. for the next week or so, expect to see little activity as I wrestle with code and compatability issues.

Heres the highlights of all the things that happened between the 27th to the 30th of April, ~

The plan: Having thuroughly deciding against attending the con for several weeks in advance under the prestense that it would clash with class timetables and burn a hole in my budget. I made a rash change of mind with 36 hours to spare. Turns out, I had been granted a large sum of money in the form of a belayed birthday present from my parents. This changed everything.
upon checking my timetables again, it turns out FurdU does infact only sit right at the edge of my mid semester break. Cutting only into the first monday of the first week and we all know nobody attends the first day after a holiday anyway. So the decison was made.

The excuse: Now normally my parents would have a fit if they found out I spent all that money in one go on something non-study related And cut into classtime with it. But to my fortune, both of them were not going to be in the country for the duration of the con. Well. my mother was still in the country uptil 6pm on the first day of the con which would be a problem- But some clever story spinning convinced her that I will be at a 'party' for the day and won't be back until After she has left the country.
Little does she know for most of the day when she called up on the phone, I was in another state.

The trip: One thing that put a serious strain on the whole trip was airport security. Utterly bullshit. On the way in, I nearly missed my flight because I had to fumble around when it turned out I couldn't carry my fursuit head in carry-on luggage, Apparently metal parts in the frame and bungie cord hair is Somehow a security risk. To further the bullshit, because of these last minute changes any modifications to my flight plan would incur an additional $70 surcharge which would probably be the cost of making the damn suit head.
As a result I had to almost destroy my fursuit head by pulling out 40m worth of cord-hair and snapping off the horns. Fortunately the horns were made to be detachable.

The weather: Sunshine and surf was the description of the region where the con was being held, but it was monsoonal rain for 2/3 of the days I was there. Not that it bothered me much since the con was all indoors. Hell, it even lead to awesome activities such as "spaing-in-the-rain-con" where 15 odd people sat in the outdoor hot tub tossing ping pong balls at each other while it bucketed rain. Surprisingly I did not get concrud doing this!

The luck: What really made this little outing awesome was the fact that I essensially got a hotel room for free as a good friend just happened to have a spare bed in his hotel room when the person set to fill it bailed at the last moment. And even though I had sunk $60 into a backpackers as a backup. This still meant I got to stay in the con hotel for virtually nothing.

The people: It really is a small world, Or maybe it's just me having gone stir crazy for the past 2 months of being socially starved. Seems everyone knows everyone and it's just so pleasant when people can actually relate to you on topics. Furry cons aught to be a kind of social therapy. But I think the thing that truely made everything awesome was the room parties. on all three nights there were room parties up and down the hotel and everyone was welcome. I most enjoyed the layed back ones where people just chatted about random stuff in the fandom an internet memes, with the occasional gossip and technical discussion. All this just makes me wish the cons happened every month.

The outcome: Well now that the party is over and everyone has scuttled the way back home hung over and sore from dancing. It's time to refect, I have made notice that with my social demands satisfied, I am no longer suffering from 'cabin fever' and that is a relief. During the con, I've also managed to use random parts found in local supermarkets to craft the beginnings of a second fursuit, Which by the way is a jackal this time.

For all of you watching to stop me from looking like a total freak when I show my FA to people at Midfur, I am putting my more 'extreme' and fetish related works into my scraps- as well as bringing out my more mainstream works as unpopular as they are, out of scraps.

In the future, any fetish related/adult works will be put on display for a few days- weeks, before being sent to the scraps as a policy.

One day it's 40'C here and unbearably hot then the next, theres fog and it's 10'C in the morning. Australian weather is just nuts lately.

Holy crap, I just realised I've got 441 submissions lying in my gallery with absolutely no organisation or order and that does Not count the 100+ works I've stuck in scraps. , no wonder I have works that never see the light of day. FA's gallery system seems to be rather inefficent at keeping big volumes of very diverse works presentable so I figure I will probably have to make links to them on my userpage plainly visible, yup... thats 600 or so pictures to link to.
So I ask for feedback, do you think it's worth the trouble and get more watchers? or would it be just an allmighty waste of time?

I've never had so much strife with bits of code ever. Just last week, I was cruisin fine, making a scene in maya and when I was out on google looking for textures, Bam! I get this horrid virus from someone's portfolio website. and I tell you this one was a doozy.

It was as I later found out, a 'zero access rootkit' which basically installed itself onto my computer somehow just from me opening a webpage. Worse still, it installed a host of fake antivirus programs as well which I very quickly recognised to be fakes.

It also crashed maya and every other application that I was running (though I was fortunate to have saved my work a mere 5 minutes ago). And it also stopped me from being able to even open task manager. Obviously at this stage I did the natural thing and booted up kaspersky to try and hunt down whatever had just installed itself onto my computer and low and behold, as it ran a scan it closed itself and refused to start up.

Apparently this virus has locked me out of using antivirus programs on it. So I booted up Hijackthis and tried to figure out what the hell is got a strangle hold on my computer and flick the switch. and it too crashed and became inaccessable, this happened with spybotSD, unhackme and just about any tool that I used.

So. I stepped up the offensive and went to windows search function and looked up every file that was created within the last 1 hour or so. and found a host of suspicious looking files, like 3366541262.exe, ect. I tried to delete them, but ofcourse, you can't delete something that being used and I couldn't turn it off using task manager.

So. I rebooted on safemode and ran the search again and deleted all those suspect files, including what I believe to be the source of the virus. some kind of dropper exe. file with a fuzzed up noise texture for an icon. along with this thing called 'defender.exe'.

a note to all you guys. if you EVER get a hold of an exe. that has a weird looking icon that looks randomly generated do Not open it. burn it with fire and punch the person who gave you it in the face. or in my case, write an angry email to the person who's site I got it from. That being said, 'defender.exe' is also a fake antivirus program and you should do anything in your power to avoid running it because it probably tagteams with this virus.

anyway, I thought I was safe, so I rebooted again on normal mode and yes, I had taskmanager working again, I could boot up maya again, and Defender.exe is nowhere to be seen. But. this wierd 3366541262.exe thing was back, despite the fact I clearly deleted it during safemode. and worse still, it was Still breaking any program I was trying to hit it with. Worse still, I tried to kill the process on taskmanager but it tells me that I don't have the 'permissions', now that pissed me off.


I went online to learn more about my sitation and just as I punched into google a search and clicked on the first link, I got redirected to this "1dayoftheweek.com" site and then instantly redirected to some advertising page.... big supprise. not.

Ofcourse, with a bit of persuation in the form of selecting the address of the link google was supposed to send me to and manually punching it in, then hitting enter on it just as "1dayoftheweek.com" was being loaded, I could still view the intended site.

I was convinced that this virus was a serious security risk could cause all sorts of problems the longer I leave it untreated. I had a look around online for people who had similar symptoms on their PCs, and thats when I learned of it's name. Aha! got you now.

an hour of digging later, I found out that this virus hid itself in the registry files too. so I went after it with regedit and nuked all traces of it from my registry. I also figured out that if I compressed executable type antivirus programs into a zip and ran them from the zipfile, I can stop them from being broken.

Finally, It seemed that Hijackthis was functional again and I revealed the processes running that was supporting this undying, mystery exe. that was still running on my computer. Tried to kill it using Hijackthis, no luck. Tried to kill it using sysinternals, still no luck. I was certain at this stage that this thread will just keep reviving itself and all deleted data until I've gotten to the root of it and destroyed it once and for all.

I did not sleep well that night.

The second day, I woke up and my fears were confirmed, everything was still infected, the registries I deleted the other day were back as were the mystery files. and it took a stroke of luck that I found a youtube video of someone with the exact same symptoms on their computer. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=61f7Kp18mbk
Also note, the video also shows you the hell I went through (minus the defender.exe ordeal)
Apparently this trialware program 'hitman 3.5' could destroy this infection as was demonstrated on the video. So I gave it a shot. If it didn't work I fear I may have to reformat.... again.

So I grabbed a copy of hitman3.5 and ran it, the scanning took a while but the results were clear as day, this virus had infected not just the registry and added a few files, it infected a stack of dll.s in the driver cache as well as installed some hidden files somewhere which were so well hidden, Windows XP's own search function could not find them even though I had show hidden files turned on.

It would appear this virus saves over functioning files with it's infected files and uses them to back itself up every time it's main exe. was deleted. No matter, Hitman3.5 deleted those files and the problem was gone...

I rebooted my computer with fingers crossed hoping it finally uprooted this infection and to my relief, it had successfully cured my computer. But. I had a problem.

The moment I booted up maya, my main tool of trade, it gave me a 'license file could not be located' error. Easy enough, I'll just have to reinstall maya. So I went to program files, hit uninstall on maya2012 and boom. Error. What?! how can you fail to uninstall a program?

And ofcourse in my bullheaded attempt, I manually deleted maya and all it's constituents, and removed it from my registry as well. Which ofcourse meant, when I went back into the maya CD to reinstall it, the damn setup program thinks I still have maya installed even though my computer doesn't have a trace of it left. Even program manager admits maya was gone at that stage.

I bypass the setup GUI and manually go to the maya2012.msi file and boom. it tells me that there was an 'error applying transforms..." what the hell does that mean? I thinker with it, trying to pull it onto the desktop, trying to run as admin, trying to open up the install.ini and updated my microsoft installer version. nothing helped.

Well thats just peachy, all my work is inaccessable until I can get maya up and running again on this computer. And no. I will not let the virus win by reformating just to get maya to work.

I pulled some strings and asked if my landlord would let me use his computer to get fix something on mine, and secretly installed maya on his computer and copied all the files back over. This seemed to have worked up until I tried to run maya.. no luck. License file still missing.

I went back to hitman3.5 and looked up what files I deleted and found this thing called FlexLM.exe or something like that. I think thats was made maya work and the critical missing component. So I went back to the landlord's computer one last time. Copied the missing file, dropped it back onto my computer and re-aqauinted maya with it's license file. and with a stroke of luck, the damn thing finally kicked into life.

4 days later. after some bullshit bad luck, I am back.

So there have been problems, fleshwounds to the ego and stumbling blocks to progress, but time passes without even a care. So what is one to do? but take it on the chin and turn the other cheek, for tomorrow is another day.
Solutions will be found and insurmountables bypassed, whether one has to settle for less and compromise luxury or simply forego certain eccentric ambitions all together. "I'll find a way, sooner or later" I say to myself and I live by those words.
Idle worry solves nothing and so I get to work, and though my efforts could be better spent, it is all part of the grand scheme of things. 2 years late is still better than never at all, and maybe, just maybe, I'm the only one that cares.
So why worry, when life is comfortable and the future looks bright, I don't ask for much if anything at all- so there is nothing to take away. And the ego is just a spring, eagre to bounce back.

And in the end of the day, you look upon all that you have achieved, you realise, it's not a race, there is no real deadline, you do as you wish and the only consequences are those that you impose on yourself. Deep down you know what the right things are... and I have come to realise that giving is it's own reward.

whether that makes me magnanamous or egocentric it doesn't matter, it will all become a memory when I sleep and when I wake, it will be another day.




Edit- What the hell was I hopped up on when I wrote this... bleh.

You know, one thing that can REALLY ruin your day is when you're happily going about your merry way typing a comment to someone on Youtube and then all of a sudden your computer explodes.
I mean, Damn, for no apparent reason whatsoever, my PowerSupply just self destructed two days ago and knocked out my motherboard and my graphics card along with it. The graphics card is covered under warrenty, by I had to spend $240 to replace all the other wrecked components. All a while worrying that my hard drive is toast as well.

Fortunately, nearly 4 months worth of un-backed up work is still there- which I hastily backed up as soon as my computer was up and running again....

Farrrk.


Oh and one more unpleasent surprise, I just bought a firewire cable for my digital camera, and turns out the new motherboard for my computer doesn't have a firewire slot.
Bah-humbug.

Holy fuck. one american dollar is only worth 91 Australian cents? This is embarassing, whats going on over there guys?

Arrrgh, I don't know whats going on lately but my internet connection is flipping out constantly and it's driving me up the wall. I'm currently using the TPG unlimited ADSL down here in canberra and for the past month, it's been utterly useless for online games because of the outright rediculous pingspiking and packetloss.
Even australian servers while normally I'd get 30 or so ping, would bounce between 40 and 150 every 10 seconds. as well as get an average of 3% packetloss. I've tried everything to sort out this damn modem which leads me to wonder, is anyone else in australia getting shitty lag?

Seems like my luck ran out with a 'freebie' blackberry my dad found. After getting it reset and everything the blackberry model 9000 Bold. worked fine for 3 weeks. Had everything I could've wanted in a phone, and then one day when I let the battery run down, poof! the thing won't start back up again. I tried changing the battery and everything but all it does is blink it's power button and stay off. Checked online about the issue and I'm getting mixed messages about why it does this, some say it's an OS issue, others say it's hardware. and even if it is software, how on earth do I fix the damn thing if I can't even get it to boot up?

Oh well, easy come easy go. I got a new phone, $99 with all the same features.. except for one fundamental problem. the damn thing doesn't come with a USB connector to the computer, and like all phones, it uses some deformed USB plug so I can't just shove a standard USB2 cable into it.

Because of recent interest from several people I've taken it upon myself to consider starting a Maya Tutorial Class sometime in the future. Maybe at a fixed time and day each week. This Tutorial class will involve teach anyone who is interested the basics of maya for free.

So what am I saying?

Basically if anyone here has maya2011 and enough time and interest. Give me a hands up. and let me see how many are genuinely interested.

Well that just great, my $350 (at the time) geforce 9800GT has all but gone kaput on me. Right now it would crash playing even games from 2003, let alone anything fancier. Originally I believed it to be a software issue when on an increasing basis, my games would be interrupted by an NVLDDMKM.sys crash that basically killed anything I was playing and could only be fixed by resetting the computer.
As time went on I gave my games more and more leeway, by turning down the graphics, as well as opening the computer case to keep the card cool, but to no avail. as the months rolled by the breakdowns just kept advancing like a flesh eating virus until eventually I had to forgo using my videocard for important things like maya alltogether. Using my processor to view maya openGL wasn't efficient but it worked!
All a while I've tried to fix the problem by going online and looking up solutions, I've tried to reinstall my drivers and remove any kind of dust buildup on the card. as well as tinker with bios settings and use a variety of underclocking software. Invariably my card would still crash. So I was left with two possibilities. an incompatability with Vista, or a hardware failure. I recently ruled out the incompatability by switching back to XP.
So now what? I'm going to take my card to a shop and have it looked at, run a few tests and see if it's really busted. If it turns out the things is just had it, I'm just going t have to settle with a much cheaper replacement.

Goddammit.

I am sure I'm not the only one who has made the link between the creation of 'non-human' persona and 'trancendence from humanity'. And while it is somewhat of a stretch to consider the furry fandom to be anything more serious than a hobby, there are notable aspects of the fandom one can philosophise.

For instance, furries when they roleplay, may either take the role of a fictional character or project themselves as a fictional individual who is undoubtably non-human in nature. This in essence is in alot of ways similar to transhumanist ideals of becoming something, other than human.
Furries do so because for one reason or another, they share an affinity with this. non-human individual or wish to escape the limitations confered by the human form. Transhumanists, quite often wish to extend the capabilities of humans to superhuman or non-human levels, most notably, lifespan.
While furries rarely take into consideration the importance of radical life extension due to the 'in the moment' nature of furry activities. Still. the similarities in the emphasis on having non-human traits applied to the human persona is something to be reckoned with.

Like transhumanist, furries are often ostrocised for their unusual view, and sometimes their percieved misanthropy. And while it is not unheard of for furries to actually dislike humans, just like transhumanists. the majority of furries seek to further the human experience to non-human heights.
Speaking from a practical point of view, it is quite possible that the very first transhumanist will dabble in furry or furry like tendencies of becoming something 'other than human', taking on the form of an animal. History has shown that those given the ability to alter themselves even in a fictional sense, often gravitate twards some animal form. The minority of which twards a more abstract form, ie: elements.


While at the current state of things, tranhumanising proceedures are a long way off from being invented, made safe and made available to the general public. One can easly ponder the many possibilities, most notably, the ethical and philosophical implications of altering the human form.

Assuming technology for modifying the human form were available and the individual was able to be transformed into the creature of his choosing, it is highly likely that the now post-human's mind would be adversly affected by the shift of experiences. It is no unimmaginable that some may even degenerate to the point to becoming completely non-human due to the disconnection from the human experience.

In any respect, it maybe worth one's time to keep an eye on the development of transhumanism and it's related technologies. Some may think this maybe a case of furries going off into the deep end, but I argue.. What is the point of being into furries if your desires can never escape the realm of fantasy.

I've managed over 3 years to not favourite One picture, guess that pointless crusade has come to an end.

For future reference, this does Not make you more popular and does not attract any form of distinctions.
sigh.......

I've been on FA for maybe, 3 years or more and in this time I've tried quite hard to make an image for myself as an 'enlightened furry' who isn't all obsessesed with sexual stuff. As much as I like to keep that image intact it has greatly held back on my popularity. My guess is that there just aren't enough people out here on FA that are interested in non-sexual stuff... like weapons, aircraft and architecture.
This is not a real problem in that I Do have a vast amount of things (mostly paw related) that I keep hidden from public for sake of my credibility. And most recently I've been weighing up the choice of keeping those things hidden and releasing them to the public.

I've been pondering this for some time now and well, I finally made a decision.... Just don't be too grossed out at what you see.

I assume by now a fair number of people have become curious as to what exactly my chimera species is. I think it's about time I clarified it.

<Synopsis>

The chimera creature was my personalisation of an old creature concept from a PC game released in late 2001 called 'Fallout Tactics' which I aquired in 2003. The creature in question was the 'Deathclaw' which I had great fondness for and wanted to expand upon.
Unfortunately, the game was unpopular and didn't have a sequel, and the 'anthropomorphic deathclaw' concept could not be furthered. It took several years of 3D artistry before I attempted to model, by then, a 'classic' creature.
Their upright appearence and remarkably humanlike abilities were my main focus points, along with their bestial appendages. The first rendition of my chimera (which at the time was called the 'vesimanus') was released in around 2005.
The term 'vesimanus' roughly translates in latin into 'blade hands'
For a while it remained in the background as a 'not so popular' experiment. until one night in 2008 I came up with a eureka moment and decided to redo a fully anthropomorphic version of it.
At the time my reasoning was that by now, no one would remember what a 'deathclaw' was nor would care and I would have market dominance. Which I did...
Upon rehashing I renamed the 'vesimanus' (who's head was tweaked and reused on the contemprary chimera model) it's current name. The choice was deliberately ambiguous to avoid arousing suspicion.
The chimera model mk2 was constructed of a lightly tweaked 'Avalon' torso and tail, with custom modelled legs and hands.
All was well for the time being, when released to the public, the model got good ratings and compliments, I had even been asked on several occasions to RP with the character... which caused a problem.
At the time, I did not have even a name for my chimera, a quick set of criteria checks came up with "Serv" prounced 'serf' which was pretty much what I used him for.
After much 'dirtywork' Serv was almost about to fade into the background as my latest work the 'Anubis M' model was released.

~However, a chance meeting with my love 'Herro' inspired me to used Serv.. over and over and over. and each time, in ever more interesting ways. Her admittance for a fondness of the character was the key to his longevity.

In late 2008, Serv underwent several upgrades, first of which, an improvement in the anatomy of his feet (for obvious reasons). then a new rigging skeleton that allowed for more flexible movement. A set of deformation poses allowing facial expression and several texture retouches.

In early 2009, Serv had a major anatomy remodelling as well as a concept overhaul. He went from a 'hulking beast' to an 'agile predator' with a slimming down of his anatomy and remake of his furpattern.

To this day, Serv is complimented with an array of modifications and will not fade away for the forseeable future. Plans for a Serv Fursuit was conceptualised recently and attempts (in shameful secret) have been made to construct various components.

<Character Concept>
Serv's character concept was originally more accurate to the classic 'deathclaw' personality. Aggressive, simpleminded and predatory but capable of reasoning. However as the use of this character summounted, I began making him more and more like myself. or at least part of myself.
Upon meeting Herro, I made the concious decision to incorperate more of my own personality into the character, making him more articulate and passive aggressive. (as opposed to just being a pretty brute).
It was during the turn of the year 2008-2009 when I decided to incorperated part of the character into myself by making an active effort to get myself at least into good enough shape to deserve using such a character. (This was largely inspired by Herro's fondness of the character/creature).
More recently, Serv has become more and more publicised in various corners of my art as he had somewhat become integrated into my own personality. Future ambitions are to create a fully functional armoured Serv fursuit... Although... thats some years away.

<Storyline>
Serv doesn't have an official storyline since he had never really needed one. (due to the nature of his use) But an educated proposal is that he was one of the many leftover species of a long lost hightech civilisation. His species had reverted to a feral state albiet their incompatablility with any ecosystem.
Much like the original fallout deathclaw concept, my chimera species were originally created to be soldier/worker creatures to serve some greater power. But they were somewhat over-engineered and made more intelligent than required allowing them to survive whatever holocaust that wiped out their creators.
Presentday chimera wonder about the world as if their masters never existed, their ancient cities and weapons of war long since crumbled into dust.


<Species concept>
Although in many ways similar to Fallout deathclaws, they are completely different creatures.
General-
Egglaying
Has mammalries
Has coloured vision (although limited to only a few colours)
Speech capable
Orfactory organs on tongue (has no nasal cavity due to horn)
Warmblooded
Internally fertilised
Opposable thumbs
Plantigrade biped.
Skintone variation do exist. Ranges from pale yellow to dark brown.

Males- (Drake)
Height: 9-10ft.
Wieght: 700 - 900 pounds
Lifespan: 75 - 100 years
Diet: Omnivore, with a preference for meat
Age to maturity, 12 years
Average IQ: 95
Maximum physical output: 5 Hp
Lifestyle: Nomadic, huntergatherer.
Family unit: Single male with single female until eggs hatch and mature.
Habitat: Arid, subArid, mountanous or woodland.
Gender specific properties: Has large horns and significantly 'angrier' looking due to enlargened cheek bones.


Females- (Maidens)
Height: 8- 9.5ft.
Wieght: 550 - 750 pounds
Lifespan: 85 - 105 yeats
Diet: Omnivore, with a preference for meat
Age to maturity, 15 years
Average IQ: 100
Maximum physical output: 3 Hp
Lifestyle: Nomadic, huntergatherer.
Family unit: Mates depending on whim, although will insist male to stay and help raise young.
Habitat: Arid, subArid, mountanous or woodland.
Gender specific properties: Smaller horns, often paler skin and shorter fur. Presence of breasts and lactates.
Lays between 3 - 5 eggs per 2 years.

Hatchlings- (whelps)
Incubation time: 6months after fertilisation.
Height: 1- 1.2ft
Weight: 35 - 45 pounfs
Surivial rate (to maturity) 45%
Diet: Suckling until 2 years old, then largely indescriminate omnivore
Characteristics: Curious, playful, heavy handed, but very dependent on parents until maturity.



And thus concludes everything to date about the 'chimera' species,

You're a Military Fur if~

You're a furry and you've served in any branch of the actual military

Think there needs to be an anthropomorphic Army/Navy or Airforce

Wish there were more furries in games like COD4 or BF2

Think furries and guns make a nice mix

Want to see WW2 style propoganda posters featuring anthros

Want to see macrofurs used as a weapon

Think that furry geo-politics would be fun to simulate

Thinka furries and the various political 'isms' make an interesting mix

Want to bring down rampaging macros with Non-magical means.

Think that humanity needs to be taught a lesson in war by an anthropomorphic civilisation.

Think that having anthros or 'modified humans' in the military would be for the better.

Think it's inevitable the military industrial complex produces an anthropomorphic creature.

Find the idea of specie to specie xenocide intreguing

Draw furries with guns excessively

Design weapons and systems that only an anthro can use

Wish someone would make a war movie cartoon featuring anthros.

A time to look upon what I originally saught

A time to shun that disapproving thought

A time to reflect, upon past trials and past failure

A time to stand resolute, to steel one's composure

A time to look beyond what is at hand

A time to push forward to achieve all that one can

A time to plan ahead and plan to reach my dream

...and ~

A time to gather parts and pieces, to build myself that dream.

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Shut up. I know it's very effeminate to be poetic, lets just say, this was the right 'Time' for it.

Knowledge is power.


All men are created equal.


Labour disgraces no man.


From each according to his ability to each according to his need.


True happiness is found within.


A man who wishes to move a mountain, starts by carrying away small stones.


Change is inevitable

~Stances:

Gender: Assides from minor biological difference and upbringings influenced by 'cultural expectations'. a man and a woman are almost identical. There should be no reason as to why one gender can not fulfil the roles of the other provided there isn't a biological hinderance (ie: childbirth)

Personality: The 'personality' is in effect the product of a being's biological self, combined with the collective of one's past experiences. One in theory steer his or her personality into a positive feedback loop whereby one experiences most success and happiness just as some choose to steer their personality into a self destructive negative feedback loop.
Personality in short, is a set of behavoural rules defined by a being's lifestyle and biology.

Emotion: A reactionary thought pattern that may or maynot be influenced by one's personality, although one can control some emotions such as, anger, jealousy, sadness and or lust directly with negating thoughts, one can also configure one's self to become less affected by negative emotions either by mental thought processes Or physical means.
Emotion is not a unique thing, since it is quite understandable that anything with the ability to reason can have emotion.

Humans: A smart and very versitile creature, but a creature never the less. We reached the state we are at because it was the most beneficial for us. Being the dominant species on the planet one can see exactly why this was the case.
Negatives such as war, genocide, greed and hate are the byproducts of our ongoing evolution. Some would consider this fascist thinking but it is true that competition breeds champions, and those that Do win wars, reach the top and succeed are there for a reason Machivellian as it maybe.


Alturism: One of the many ways to achieve success is to recruit the aid of others, and when one thinks about it, almost all 'good' deeds are done to some kind of benefit. Even a purely selfless act could be construed as something done in the spirit of earning favour.
The ideal act of alturism is when all parties profit from an action, such as consensual love, or learning. An important factor of alturism is: one must consider the exact benefits of the said action from every party's point of view.


Creation: The universe operates as a closed system with a ney infinate number of events occuring. These events are not the result of some external intervention nor are they predetermined in any divine manifesto. Things occur through probability and simply put, for all we know, we occured by pure chance. for otherwise, we would not exist and would not realise the passing of time.

Conciousness: The conciousness maybe for all known reasons, the very electro-chemcial activity in the brain of the being. Hence were one able to clone one's self atom for atom, one will not live anew, although from the exterior, this clone will be in every way the same.
Speculatively speaking were all electo-chemical activity in a being's brain to cease to exist. the individual may cease to exist. However, it is also worth musing over the idea, that if an individual is able to meld minds with another individual, conciousness could be shared.


Death: A very difficult scenario to speculate, one's conciousness maybe lost until the end of time in the even of death, or one could somehow resurface if one's conciousness was revived in some means of synthesis. This man adopts a 'wait and see approach' and would rather not ponder death until it is inevitable: which according to his 'transhumanist ideals' won't be for a very very long time.

You might say I'm overhauling my lifestyle in a similar way.

Starting as of ... last month (30th of Nov 2008) I'm putting forward the ambitious goal of making myself a better person in all aspects.
This proposed plan will have an expected completion date on new years eve of 2013 and is as follows.

Objective1
Begin an excercise regime that will both shed unnessesary weight and bring my BMI back down to 'healthy' This objective has finishing date of at latest 1/1/2011
I should be able to meet these minimum standards-
-Run 2.4km in 12 minutes
-Pull a minimum of 20 situps in 1 minute
-be able to do pullups for at least 30 seconds.
Intensive gym work and dieting is recommended.


Objective2
1/3/2009- Aquire and familiarise with Autocad software.
Goal is achieve when I am able to model on Autocad as proficiently as I could with maya. Bonus points for becoming proficient with 3DsMax at this stage


Objective3
1/9/2009 - Aquire and familiarise with 3DsMax to the level of proficiency as maya.


Objective4
31/12/2009 - Be employed in some shape way or form by a commercial 3D graphics firm, OR make at least a reasonable profit as a 'freelance' artist.

Objective5
31/12/2010 - Complete Bachelors of VisualArts digital arts major 1 year ahead of schedual, through either exceptional achievement or accellerated coursework.

Objective7
31/13/2011 - Complete Masters of VisualArt digital arts major and graduate from university.- By this date with continued excercise and dieting, I "Should' be able to meet minimum fitness entry requirements for the RAAF.

Objective8
1/3/2012 - Try out for the RAAF, if successful ~Don't enlist, just walk away and gloat.

Objective9
31/12/2013 -, Somehow muster up the funds to meet Herro in person and shove credentials in her face. Then say "HA! my dick is bigger than yours!"