so didn't really work out unfortunately but you know what i say screw it, im not gonna act all moppy just cause i haven't found the right guy who i can just lay next to him at night and just feel like everything's gonna be alright even when there's no words being spoken. but not going to get into the whole my ideal of love and such. all i know is that im not going to really fall into the romantic comedy sketch where the guy or gal crys and just lays eating 10 gallons of ice cream all night long, although i do need the weight, just not going to be depressed ^O^

in a great mood, met this dude who i actually feel well like this song i guess

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today i heard the n word 57 times oh wait im sorry 37 times it was the n...ah version so technically it's "not racist" ..... bloody ugh. so i go to this school with 90 minute periods and i just feel worn out, fell asleep a little while ago for 2 hours so kinda annoyed cause i feel like i might of screwed up my sleep schedule >.> met some great people must most of the kids at my school are loud obnoxious and half of em either play the worst repetitive beat with no rhythm rap song or start singing rap in the hallway".. they aren't very good. i guess i wouldn't mind if i wasn't so tired, but hey got my mp3 got my ear phones might as well full blast during the breaks and such. so even after this shit storm i guess and being completely worn out "my body tells me no, but i won't quite cause i want more" http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&a.....;v=qQYpF2pCkLI love that song

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"i'm loosing my mind loosing my mind loosin control"

"for the man under you'll take ever thing he's got"

so im up for a chat or two, been busy ever since ive gone through classes and such but still want to chat round and such, so my msn is ForsakenFrequency[at]yahoo.com if you'd like

like the beginning but not sure bout the vocals

thought i'd give an update, not going to say how much or what i've been doing or eating. but showing significant improvement over the first pic. bout to go back into swimming so that will help a ton with everything. art wise sorry haven't been drawing lately, kinda neutral with everything right now not really inspired or discouraged at anything

listening to: The Vaccines - Post break up sex

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listening to: Regina Spektor - Us

so i'm starting this campaign on blogs deviant art fur affinity and other places depending if it branch out or not. the concept is for me to gain weight not lose weight. i have marfans syndrome which is a heart condition where one of the symptoms is a connective tissue disorder. the range this condition effects is different for every person, i have a very mild case of marfans syndrome. the main characteristics that i have are the connective tissue disorder, dilated aorta, arachnid fibrosis, very little skeletal features, and the affected gene of course, the only other one is my left eyes lens is a tad loose but it's nothing too bad. i'm currently 6'7" and 148 pounds which is actually really underweight. because of the extreme growth rate someone with marfans goes through many times they whether from a high metabolism or the body needing constant nourishment from growing so much we tend to be able to eat quite large amounts of food without suffering from weight gain as much as the normal public. this si somewhat good and somewhat bad for me and not saying for people with marfans as a whole but i've been eating whatever i wanted, just today had a bowl of ramen, 13 mozzarella sticks, 2 turkey toasted sandwiches, and 3 things of water and i've cut down mainly cause i've been a bit lazy over the summer to really eat anything good or substantial. it's not exactly healthy for me to be eating this type of stuff, i mean even though i can eat it and not really even gain weight it still can have other unhealthy effects to my body. so starting tomorrow the 1st of july i will be posting progress pics and having descriptions on what work out routines i'm doing how to proper do them to get max effectiveness out of em what foods im eating and prepping and pic of my chest and back somewhat as a progress pic. if anyone has any questions feel free i don't mind and i wont be offended if you're wondering bout the condition.

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sorry somewhat did this song of the day so i guess ill just startout with a new song every day this one's arcade fire- antichrist television blues

so  Wolf95 is streaming for and he's somewhat new so would love your guys support come on out chat ect http://www.livestream.com/wolf95 - stream