So like.. I want to figure out a healthier diet that is affordable because, currently, my diet does consist of mostly frozen vegetarian food and chicken nuggets. As for exercise, I am curious what you guys would recommend for someone with a fucky back and janky legs. Both my mate and I are overweight and want to lose weight. >w>;

Covid, especially, didn't help with the weight gain and not being able to do much for weight loss is just frustrating. Most I've been doing as of the past 3-ish years was sit around and walk a bit in a cluttered room.

I feel like artists should stop using Twitter or any other widely known and widely used sites so that there is a much lower chance of them getting their art ganked by environment destroying assholes. Either way, I'll just say it here: Crytocurrency has been and always will be a massive problem. It's a major contributing factor as to why computer parts have skyrocketed in price, as well as why the Earth is dying and why MMOs such as FF14 are struggling to keep their servers open. It's also a fucking pyramid scheme type of deal, like... it's a fucking scam and people need to realize all of this before it's too late...but sadly, that will never happen, people would rather be selfish pricks than to have a future where humans can still survive and enjoy this planet. I, honestly, pity any planet humans end up inhabiting because it'll just get destroyed by them at some point.

Calling people who make their sonas intersexed in any way "fetishizers" is just dumb, most people who do that are either A. intersexed themselves, or B. trans/non-binary and use their intersexed sona to help cope with dysphoria and whatnot. These people never, ever fetishize the trans and intersexed community and are part of said community themselves.

Seriously, I absolutely hate people who insult or talk down to others like they know better. Just.. fucking stop with that shit. Let people enjoy themselves, let them use their sonas as a coping mechanism, don't try to take away what could be essential to helping their dysphoria.

SJWs became a problem back in the early 2010's, let's keep that shit IN the 2010's, shall we? People should be allowed to do or say anything they want without some dimwitted jackass policing everyone. And if you're a SJW and you don't attack people for dumb shit, then good for you, that means you're not a SJW and are just a genuinely decent person.

It's pretty minor, but the latter is more annoying and way less minor and that is: People confusing my sona for being a female and/or people downright not acknowledging not only intersexed people but trans people as well and just saying that my sona is "just a flat-chested female"

Scientifically and genetically, it is possible for a person to be born intersexed, however, it is a somewhat uncommon occurrence. There are many different ways someone can be intersex. Some intersex people have genitals or internal sex organs that fall outside the male/female categories — such as a person with both ovarian and testicular tissues. Other intersex people have combinations of chromosomes that are different than XY ( usually associated with male) and XX (usually associated with female), like XXY. And some people are born with external genitals that fall into the typical male/female categories, but their internal organs or hormones don’t. Basically, your body was a wee late on deciding whether or not it wants to be male or female, so it either said "FUCK IT, LET'S GO WITH BOTH" or decides that you're a male, even though you have girl bits or a female, even though you have boy bits

Ohs, I just remembered my Ko-fi, I updated it and stuff. If anyone wants to donate, you can, it's mainly there if you just like my art and stuff, I might do more with it in the future once I can figure out what to do with my Youtube.. :u


https://ko-fi.com/fluffoftime

So, after much thought, I decided to completely scrap the Androsians/Synterians and start over fresh. I mainly wanted to do this since I wasn't really enjoying the old version, so... welcome the Chikori. :3

I made two documents this time, one for SFW and one for NSFW:

SFW: https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....it?usp=sharing

NSFW: https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....it?usp=sharing

I know some of you that follow me are my friends, so, I just want to ask a favour and that is to..

If you feel ignored or anything, I don't mean to, I just highly prefer being messaged first and feel like a bother if I message people. I am not, purposely, trying to be the shittiest friend I could be to you and I am sorry for that. Just message me if you ever want to talk, that is all.

I don't want to get into another fight with another friend over this, so please, if you feel like I don't care about you over the lack of communication, I actually do care just please, message me. That's all it takes.

I REALLY wish people would stop getting on my case for being ace about the fact that I draw lewd stuff and have a lover. It's really fucking annoying and not only that, but it's rude as fuck too. If you assume ace people don't want anything to do with sex or romance AT ALL, you clearly don't understand asexuality at all. There's people who'll straight up shove words into my mouth saying I am gay and not Ace, and all I have to say to those people is "Shut up, and fuck you." You're not me, and you'll never be me.


And the thing is, I can link a youtube channel that'll explain that shit leagues better than I ever could, If you don't know something about a thing, look it up, we're in the age where all of human knowledge is on your computer or cellphone, anything and everything can be searched if you want to know what it is and if you still don't know, Youtube's there to bring you even more answers. Yes, I am aware that people can lie about shit and/or be bullshitting, but you're an adult, you can figure out who is telling the truth and who is not.

Either way, here's that youtube channel, if anyone's curious:

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCy.....aw04h1vi5EnmlA

The Entire Everquest Series - Both Everquest 1 and 2 are ancient and Everquest 1 was the most, if not, one of the most popular MMOs in the VERY late 90's - early 2000's. The series suffered a severe drop in popularity not long after SoE changed their name to Daybreak. The name change isn't the main factor but could be a small reason why it happened, other reasons was probably due to them not advertising for either game after 2009 or due to the expansions after Age of Malice for EQ2 being total dogshite.

Mabinogi and Maplestory - This.. is pretty self-explanatory as to why both died in popularity sometime in the 2010's. Nexon's a shite company. Company greed was one of the biggest issues for this. Mabinogi and Maplestory, both, are unique in their own right as a MMORPG, but Mabinogi is probably the most unique MMORPG there is due to their interesting mechanic like the rebirth and aging mechanics, albeit, janky, I've never seen it in any other MMO/MMORPG. Maplestory did get a sequel, but it shut down a year after it's release, probably just due to bad timing and the fact it felt more like a Diablo rip-off than a sequel to Maplestory, honestly.

Dragon Quest X (For Remake) - Yeah, I am aware it's Japan-only but if they were to release this to the US now, it'll die as quickly as Maplestory 2 did due to many factors, like the dated graphics and mechanics. Knowing how the younger generation is about graphics, DQX would not last long in it's current state, sadly. I will say that, to the younger audience: Graphics DON'T make a good game. I've seen many pretty-looking games that were total dogshite. Story makes the game.

World of Warcraft (For Remake...By a different company) - This is for VERY obvious reasons, I don't need to explain but I will give a short summary: Everything's outdated, the company is literally one of the worst there is. Basically, the company is, currently, under fire for sexual harassment and abuse, even did some really underhanded, scummy shit to make themselves look better, such as shredding any evidence of them treating their employees like shit. Workers are on strike right now and plan to sue to company for everything it's got. I may not be a fan of WoW, at all, but I know a lot of people are going to miss that game once it's gone.

Ragnarok Online - I think there's an actual good sequel coming out for this one, if you're not sure, I'm not talking about the failure of Ragnarok Online 2, but I'd love to see this game be remade as it's.. pretty much dead. My boyfriend talks about it all the time like how it has a large selection of classes to choose from and lots of advancements as well as some quirky stuff like how you can heal people by bonking them if you wanted. I am very interested in it, but it has some things that are dealbreakers for me.

((Can list your own you can think of in the comments if you want))

Soooo.. both my mate and I have been dealing with literally everything being thrown at us. The house we live in (with his mum) is a 116 year old house with more problems than you can possibly imagine, it is literally holding on by the thinnest of threads as it's practically falling apart. The floor is slowly collapsing, the ceiling gets worse and worse every day, his mum has a hoarding problem (which she is trying to beat that habit) annnnd.. we don't have the money to fix this house at all, it would probably cost way more to fix this house than it would to just... move to a new one and we don't even have money for that. It's a shitty situation to be in but not really much can be done about it, right now.


It's like... honestly, I don't really know what to fuck to do, because I know GoFundMe won't work as I've tried for other really shitty situations I was in and never had any luck with it because, when I lived in Texas and was under the threat of being kicked out (unfairly) I formed a GoFundMe to help with getting enough money to secure a way to my mate at the time, but that didn't really work, didn't get anything out of it so I had to deal with being kicked out.

Just kinda makes it really, really obvious that Todd sees Skyrim as a cashcow and won't work on anything else BUT Skyrim. It's kinda sad, really, because Skyrim's predecessors are vastly superior to it. (mostly Morrowind and Oblivion)

Like, it would be nice to see Morrowind and Oblivion remade, but that'll never happen because Todd doesn't see either as worth it. lol

Soooo, all afternoon and evening yesterday, I had to deal with well... idiots, basically I made a post making it clear that being hateful towards people for being a fur or for being LGBTQ+ or for being any race is not acceptable and just..generally isn't cool at all.


And, man, chaos soon came, I wanted to make it clear that being an ignorant dick isn't okay on my channel and, of course, that happens.


Also, you know how many people assumed I was a zoophile for being a fur? Loooooots. Like....I hate that people are that stupid. 1. I am asexual, I would not be interested in banging an animal anyways, 2. Furry does not equal sexual attraction towards animals and 3. Most furs would fucking burn a zoophile at the stake if they could.

The good news is now I have less closed-minded people following me on there.

I made a Ko-fi earlier today and, probably surprising to you guys, I made it for my Youtube, not for my art since I want to focus on that as a career instead. I still plan to draw and stuff sometimes, but I never wanted to turn my art into a career, just more of a hobby.


But yeah, either way, you guys can donate on it if you want, don't have to, though. o3o

https://ko-fi.com/goatoftime



Also, I figured out that I am asexual last night and... I know that's weird to hear considering I draw nothing but lewd stuff, but... I don't exactly have any sexual interest in RL, and if I do, it's only towards my mate.

I know it's very weird for a NSFW artist to mention but.. to be honest, I wish being lewd with others wasn't normalized to a degree, I do really hate it when I can't even form a conversation with some people because they immediately try to get into my pants. It's very creepy/awkward.

I am fine with casually talking about lewd stuff but it creeps/weirds me out if a person tries to get into my pants, if that makes sense. I dunno if it sounds like I am contradicting myself or something but sorry for my poor wording, not really sure how to say it.

Basically, I enjoy drawing lewd stuff of my sona, and I don't mind talking about lewd stuff as long as it's not like.. directly flirting or something, but I am not okay with people trying to ERP with me out of nowhere and those people only wanting to ERP with me and nothing else. I hate that because I DO want to make friends but I can't be friends with someone who won't even talk to me for like.. 5-10 minutes and won't even bother to ask if it's fine to ERP.

My mate's been trying to help me break out of the worry of disappointing/upsetting people for turning them down on things and I still struggle with it sometimes

This is more on the serious side, so sorry if it bothers some, but.. The way I am is that.. I am very sensitive towards people and can mentally shut down from even the slightest of hints of anger or negativity since I am so used to being treated like absolute trash by people, I spent years and years of my life absolutely alone because no one wanted to be around me and when I did actually manage to make friends, most didn't stick around for long.

When I became a fur (around the age of 9) I still struggled a lot to have any sort of relationship as I'd be told countless times that I am annoying or bothersome and that I should shut up. I didn't have a real friend until I was 15 or 16 when I met Butlerdog13 and @MrMidknight, both of them treated me with lots of care and kindness even though I was and am a broken mess.

I still feel bad for all the times I asked them to draw me stuff back then even though both of them really don't mind. They're my oldest friends if you don't count my highschool friend who keeps popping in and out of my life at random times.

The friends I made around that time did eventually help me be more open and outgoing, which eventually got me to open up about my past. Which I'll summarize the best i can but... basically, my family was heavily abusive towards me, both physically and mentally, they were like super strict, would ground me over the smallest and I mean smallest mistakes by taking away everything that I owned for several months. My family would also drill it into my head that I am "useless", "worthless", "retarded" and a "sociopath", which.. the thing is that, all I know is that I am just emotionally and socially inept. I honestly believed I was a sociopath until well, a year or two after meeting Butlerdog13 and MrMidknight

Either way, my family sucked total ass and not only that, but I was groomed when I was a teen and they blamed me for it, calling me a perverted creep over it. Which, yeah, my family likes blaming me for anything that goes wrong in their life, from someone simply forgetting to flush the toilet to.. their meds and money going missing which eventually gave me the mindset that I should just blame myself for anything that goes wrong. When I met Demir is when it was at it's worst too, but Demir slowly made my life better and better, eventually getting me out of that shitty situation. Which, sadly, my family tracked me down and tried to convince his mum to kick me out by gaslighting me, basically saying that I am a: "Liar", a "Thief", a "Drug addict" and an "Abuser". I am none of these things. His mum gave me the benefit of a doubt and let me stay, which now, she does fully believe me.

I am still recovering from the amount of abuse and neglect I went through, but yeah..I am a nervous wreck, I tend to talk a lot, but I don't mean to annoy, I, apparently, overuse emoticons and I, apparently, act childish. And like.. I'd just say, I am just some anxious wreck that suffers from many things, I know I am not perfect but I'd just ask that you be patient with me.

So, I've been kinda just.. watching my youtube over the past week and, apparently, my videos have been being recommended to tons of people because my views went from like.. 10-20 to dozens of thousands and it surprised the hell out of me. My sub count went up by quite a lot as well, nowhere near as much as the view count but it went from 80 to nearly 2,000.

It, honestly, made me think that there's a possibility that I may be able to turn youtube into a career now or, at least, something to do as a small bit of income. I've always wanted to do stuff on youtube but just never had any reason to so I mainly just uploaded clips of stuff I was doing on games I enjoy. >w>;

Is what my Youtube channel is, it's called "GoatOfTime" and is the link: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCV.....J7Fqnzjots-Ppg

I'll probably post stuff that isn't DBFZ more often once I figure out what I want to do. o3o;

I was introduced to MMOs at a very, very young age so.. the MMO genre has always been my favourite due to that, however... My anxiety got worse and worse over the years thanks to many contributing factors, two of which being my family and the time I spent in Texas...soooo, I have a hard time with doing things with other players, even my own mate and I feel really bad about that.

It sucks because it's making me feel like the MMO/MMORPG genre is no longer for me.

Being non-binary is interesting since.. some people don't consider you trans even though, by all accounts, you are, just not what people expect. Non-binary is still under the category of transgender, whether people like it or not.

Am happy with being non-binary since, well, I don't exactly fit transfemale nor genderfluid, I just want to be kinda...well.. genderless? I don't like being see as male nor female, but I will say that I find it amusing when someone mistakes me for being a girl and I do think it's because my sona looks rather feminine, which is unintentional, just wanted them to look neither male nor female. x3

I just... deal with anxiety a lot and that was basically me having a breakdown from an anxiety attack. I do wish some people wouldn't feel the need to be assholes but it's something we all have to deal with, and for some of you, you probably have to deal with people like that constantly.


I feel terrible whenever someone expresses something negative to me and I, honestly, cannot handle negativity very well because I always just end up feeling like a bother or a failure. When I lived with my family, I'd get told constantly about how much of a failure and a bother I am to them and would tell me how much more successful my siblings are than me among.. a lot of other things my family would tell me and do to me that were downright horrible but.. yeah.. It's been engrained into my mind so I can't help but feel that way when something like that happens.

I know this may seem like an overreaction to some of you but I grow tired of being told that what I upload or update is annoying or bothersome, if I can't enjoy what I do then no one can. I just wanted to have fun with my art and use it to help cope with all that did happen to me over the years as well as show others my art in hopes of that they like it as well but no, I can't have that.


So... sorry that I am a nuisance, I hope you all have a great life.

As of the past few years, and.. honestly, My mate and I both want to aim for the Scandinavian region, I am mostly interested in the Netherlands while my mate's mostly interested in Finland. I dunno if and when my mate and I would be able to move to one or the other and I want to be able to do it before I hit my 30's because I really dunno how much longer I can stand being in this country. >w>;;


If anyone wants to suggest anything, I'd love to know. o3o;

And I just got finished typing all of this shit for the time being, I really hope you guys like it because, holy hell, it took all my energy to do this. x3

This is paired with my other species, the Synterians, so yeah.

https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....it?usp=sharing


And if you hadn't seen the Synterian docs, here's that:

https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....it?usp=sharing