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Posted 4 years agoI have Thingiverse;
https://www.thingiverse.com/keythingiverse/designs
Thingiverse.
Edito: Also threw some stuff on Redbubble for stickers. I guess!
https://www.redbubble.com/people/me.....e=all-stickers
https://www.thingiverse.com/keythingiverse/designs
Thingiverse.
Edito: Also threw some stuff on Redbubble for stickers. I guess!
https://www.redbubble.com/people/me.....e=all-stickers
TWITTER RAFFLE
Posted 6 years agoTWITTER RAFFLE ENDING TOMORROW.
Posted 6 years agoMythSticks Charms NOW AVAILABLE
Posted 7 years agohttps://www.furaffinity.net/view/29652094/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/29652094/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/29652094/
Whee~ My first charms. I'm so happy AAAA. ;v;
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/29652094/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/29652094/
Whee~ My first charms. I'm so happy AAAA. ;v;
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Posted 7 years agoJournal
Posted 7 years agoJOURNAL
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I like Griffins.
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I like Griffins.
Life(lack of) updates.
Posted 8 years agoI turned 28.
I'm no longer a birdmom. Had to give them up, for no fault of my own.
Michael's Mother's gross Irish pothead fiance moving in.
Upped antidepressant dosage to maximum 40mg. Might try another type.
Still want to die.
I'm no longer a birdmom. Had to give them up, for no fault of my own.
Michael's Mother's gross Irish pothead fiance moving in.
Upped antidepressant dosage to maximum 40mg. Might try another type.
Still want to die.
I'm a birdmom!
Posted 8 years agoAfter much erring and having a cage sitting around for a while I finally made the leap and adopted two society/bengalese finch at the start of the week. They've settled in really well so far!
Dark boy is Zeiss and light boy is Leica. 8}
Here be video.
https://youtu.be/dx4bgurD5kQ
Dark boy is Zeiss and light boy is Leica. 8}
Here be video.
https://youtu.be/dx4bgurD5kQ
Aaaand another Birdday.
Posted 9 years agoI am 27.
I have achieved nothing. Oh well.
I have achieved nothing. Oh well.
Birdday.
Posted 10 years agoGah!
Why does this keep happening?
//Flaps//
Why does this keep happening?
//Flaps//
Goodbye pige.
Posted 10 years agoPigeon baby didn't make it, sadly.
Little thing just didn't pick up after yesterday and was struggling to drink and stand at all this morning. I imagine it had a virus of some sort, on top of the stress.
I'm not terribly sad because I did my best.
Made sure it got lots of comforting strokies before it passed.
Little thing just didn't pick up after yesterday and was struggling to drink and stand at all this morning. I imagine it had a virus of some sort, on top of the stress.
I'm not terribly sad because I did my best.
Made sure it got lots of comforting strokies before it passed.
I have a pigeon.
Posted 10 years agoSo... I kidnapped a poor not-quite-a-squab-anymore pige that was haplessly waddling and being blown around Cardiff yesterday.
It's around the 25- 27 day mark, can feed itself(now it actually tries to eat actual food rather than cigarette butts and inedible detritus)but can't quite drink or fly or acknowledge and move out of the way of people, risking getting stepped on or crushed by a car.
Attempted to just move it off the busy main street but it got attacked by magpies right in front of us, bah! So, reluctantly, we ended up taking it home. ;v;
Got it warm and fed (peas, sweetcorn, oats, apple and garlic mix).Mouth is free of growths. It's posture is still quite hunched and it's perpetually ruffled up when immobile but it's definitely much more lively when let to wander a little.
Hoping to release it nearby once it properly fledges, since our situation isn't exactly adequate to keep it.
It's around the 25- 27 day mark, can feed itself(now it actually tries to eat actual food rather than cigarette butts and inedible detritus)but can't quite drink or fly or acknowledge and move out of the way of people, risking getting stepped on or crushed by a car.
Attempted to just move it off the busy main street but it got attacked by magpies right in front of us, bah! So, reluctantly, we ended up taking it home. ;v;
Got it warm and fed (peas, sweetcorn, oats, apple and garlic mix).Mouth is free of growths. It's posture is still quite hunched and it's perpetually ruffled up when immobile but it's definitely much more lively when let to wander a little.
Hoping to release it nearby once it properly fledges, since our situation isn't exactly adequate to keep it.
Moving tomorrow~
Posted 11 years agoGot the new place, will be moving in tomorrow morning.
As norm' procedure; no internets for a fortnight(Not that it matters to anybody but myself really, hehe!).
Take care all~
As norm' procedure; no internets for a fortnight(Not that it matters to anybody but myself really, hehe!).
Take care all~
Yurp.
Posted 11 years agoWent up to Manchester with my gentlemanfriend for the week, for my 25th birthday- it was fun! I actually felt fairly consistantly comfortable and happy and I think I did pretty well coping with my anxiety considering I wasn't familiar with the area. Probably even better than I fare in my local area/ Cardiff, oddly enough.
We went out for dinner for my birthday. Calamari and Cookie lava cake at Bella Italia! <3
Aaaand I got a cute Jumper-vest-thingie from my mother, which I've always wanted one of. uvu
Also(s);
Have been discharged from Occupational Therapy for a few months now and am being scheduled to move into work-related stuffers soon(Tho' I'm pretty sure they're jumping the gun there...).
Have been offered a new council placement so might be moving soon.
Having a go at making a temporary head but may also be in the market for a Fursuit, now I have enough set aside.
That is all.
We went out for dinner for my birthday. Calamari and Cookie lava cake at Bella Italia! <3
Aaaand I got a cute Jumper-vest-thingie from my mother, which I've always wanted one of. uvu
Also(s);
Have been discharged from Occupational Therapy for a few months now and am being scheduled to move into work-related stuffers soon(Tho' I'm pretty sure they're jumping the gun there...).
Have been offered a new council placement so might be moving soon.
Having a go at making a temporary head but may also be in the market for a Fursuit, now I have enough set aside.
That is all.
I WENT TO THE MUSEUM.
Posted 12 years agoI had a good time!
As much as I love looking at the taxidermy and bones, I spent like a quarter of the time there in the geology section, much to the dismay of my OT. Haha!
&&& Lookit this beauty I took home with me~
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v.....biggerhint.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v.....ess/mybaby.png
I LOVE ROCKS OKAY?!
Looking at and handling rocks/agate/gem/mineral stones just brings me this great feeling of satisfaction and serenity. uVu
(I'm going to ignore the part where this guy walked past me and said "Arite lahv", while I was waiting at the top of the street and when I messed up at the bakers and embarassed myself. '_';) More lamentations(Same thing over and over basically).
Posted 12 years agoSeeing everybody boasting about their relationships is killing me. Seeing it all over the media. Seeing it all over the internet. It is ceaseless. I cannot escape it.
I don't know how to cope with the pain and the fear it brings me. How to go about my day seeing happy couples without breaking down. I tear up/ burn up and loose all focus inside every time.
There is so much to remind me of and make me wonder about all I will never know in life. Endless fuel for my depression and my self loathing and suicidal ideation.
I wish there was a guide or advice that could help people alike me but there is nothing- nothing that doesn't just end up tossing out another hunk of coal into the fires in itself.
(Also I'm putting on so much weight from my binge eating to try((and fail)) to cope. It's just one thing to despair about to another.)
I don't know how to cope with the pain and the fear it brings me. How to go about my day seeing happy couples without breaking down. I tear up/ burn up and loose all focus inside every time.
There is so much to remind me of and make me wonder about all I will never know in life. Endless fuel for my depression and my self loathing and suicidal ideation.
I wish there was a guide or advice that could help people alike me but there is nothing- nothing that doesn't just end up tossing out another hunk of coal into the fires in itself.
(Also I'm putting on so much weight from my binge eating to try((and fail)) to cope. It's just one thing to despair about to another.)
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Posted 12 years agoAt the start of the year I was filled with so much hope. I was happy.
I believed things would finally start to get better. I believed and fought with all my heart.
I tried so hard. Soso hard.
Now I'm back to praying for death.
I don't understand why. I don't understand what I did wrong. I did eveything people told me to. I never gave up. I picked myself up and tried over and over...
Why?...
Before I die, if I must die, please give me the strength, the words, the actions to make everyone smile. All the people I love and who love me and I have touched upon and hurt. To make them laugh or cry with happiness, just once. Let me be human, just for a moment.
I believed things would finally start to get better. I believed and fought with all my heart.
I tried so hard. Soso hard.
Now I'm back to praying for death.
I don't understand why. I don't understand what I did wrong. I did eveything people told me to. I never gave up. I picked myself up and tried over and over...
Why?...
Before I die, if I must die, please give me the strength, the words, the actions to make everyone smile. All the people I love and who love me and I have touched upon and hurt. To make them laugh or cry with happiness, just once. Let me be human, just for a moment.
First Furmeet.
Posted 12 years agoI went to the station, loitered for a bit then left.
I was expecting sort of a loose group of people, outwardly looking for other furs aswell as mingling, not the intimidating multiple small tight-knit-friend-like groupings that appeared to be present.
I'm soso regretful for running away. But I didn't know what to do. v^v24th year of existing!
Posted 12 years agoYupperee- I'm now 24 years old... With the mind of a thirteen year old... Hehehe.
I had a great day!
To start off my day, my beloved gentleman friend wrote me a poem. I got to wear my new bright green Jumper. I had two cards and two presents to open- My new bag from you guys(WHICH IS SO PRETTY I LOVE IT THANK YOU) and another new cuddle jumper from my mother which was such a lovely surprise(I cried, haha... ;V;)!
I went to Cardiff with my therapist(And it was pouring with rain, so nice and quiet out for me), stopped in at McDonalds and had my Mocha frappé(Again, courtesy of you wonderful people~) and then we wandered around looking in places that might sell purses, but they didn't have any I really wanted sadly!
My brother drew me an adorable "Bird Day" card, as he is away at university and couldn't be here to hang out with me today(I saved him a cake for the next time we visit).
Went for a drive with my Grandparents in the afternoon, we stopped and grabbed some yummy rolls for lunch and some cakes(I wanted to have a cake for the first time in many years, as my gentleman friend wished me to) on the way back. Sat and watched telebi together and then I gave them both a big hug and went home and spent the remainder of the evening eating a small serving of naughty chippy-chips with my mother.
So yes. Overall, the first birthday of my new life was a good one!
I am very thankful for everybody's help to make it so- Thank you very kindly everybody~ ^v^
(Now I'm tearing up again, hehe. I'm such a sap. ;V;)No longer a "Blood Virgin".
Posted 12 years agoHad my blood taken for the first time today, which surprised the nurse since I'm 23.
I'm getting a Bloodcount, Thyroid and a Vitamin D test done(Due to recommendations in comments here, in fact!).
I was so nervous due to my terrible past experiences with needles(Borked inoculations and ouchie finger prick tests and my brother spurting blood when he had some taken) and squeemishness about blood but this was nothing! ^v^
Next on my "MOT month" list; Optician, Hairdresser and mayyybe the Chiropodist. Dentist at a later date.
(My Psychiatrist did a runner, so now I'm having to wait until November 27th for my first session, which kinda sucks after waiting so long. Sigh.)I can't bear it.
Posted 12 years agoHaving to watch other people have everything I cannot.
The pain it causes me is unbearable. To the point I feel suicidal. But I cannot end my existence and be free of this endless excruciating pain. I cannot do anything but sit and watch other people live. Every day. Sitting and waiting and hurting.
Why am I so different compared to everybody else? Why do things never work out for me? Why can I not have anything everybody else has or has had or will have? Why is there nothing for me? Why am I empty? Why am I worthless? Why am I so ineffectual?
I don't understand what I am. I don't understand what is happening or why. Nobody can help me. Nobody has answers. Nobody knows anything. Nothing ever changes. Nothing I and others try ever works. It's too surreal. It's too unbelievable. It's too frightening.
I don't know what to do. I have no control. I have no power to effect. I cannot think. I cannot see. My head is so empty. I'm so empty. So much pain. In my head, in my joints, in my stomach, in my chest, in my eyes.
Why wont it end? Why is there no end?
The pain it causes me is unbearable. To the point I feel suicidal. But I cannot end my existence and be free of this endless excruciating pain. I cannot do anything but sit and watch other people live. Every day. Sitting and waiting and hurting.
Why am I so different compared to everybody else? Why do things never work out for me? Why can I not have anything everybody else has or has had or will have? Why is there nothing for me? Why am I empty? Why am I worthless? Why am I so ineffectual?
I don't understand what I am. I don't understand what is happening or why. Nobody can help me. Nobody has answers. Nobody knows anything. Nothing ever changes. Nothing I and others try ever works. It's too surreal. It's too unbelievable. It's too frightening.
I don't know what to do. I have no control. I have no power to effect. I cannot think. I cannot see. My head is so empty. I'm so empty. So much pain. In my head, in my joints, in my stomach, in my chest, in my eyes.
Why wont it end? Why is there no end?
FA meme because I am so zonked.
Posted 12 years ago1. Why did you join FurAffinity?
I wanted to branch out a bit from the monotony of DA. Since many people I knew were based here I thought I should give it a shot. I'm very happy I did.
2. What does your username have to do with you?
It's a "parody" of my real surname, I came up with for Dotty.
3. What is your current avatar of?
Dotty being chub.
4. How many watchers do you have, and how many do you watch?
292 Watchers, 157 Watched.
I'm so sorry- I keep forgetting to add people to my watch after I've perused and gawped at their amazing galleries. TvT
5. Do you have more than one account?
No.
6. Name 3 of your favorite artists on FA.
I... I can't choose. I'm sorry.
7. What artist do you admire because of their personality?
I'm too shy to name anybody, but I pretty much look up to everybody in different ways because I'm so inferior all over the board.
8. Do you comment, fave, or both?
I favourite. I'm shy so I do not comment very often.
9. What do you typically post on FA?
Gryphons and Burds. They make me happy.
10.What's your favorite submission in your gallery?
My pixelarts. I love animating.
11. What are the things you wish you could draw better?
Everything.
12. How many hours a day do you spend on FA?
On and off all day.
13. Are you a fast, slow, or medium typer?
Excruciatingly slow.
14. What is the most annoying thing people ask you?
Nobody has ever asked me anything I would consider annoying.
15. What is the most annoying/offending comment you've received?
Nothing yet.
16. What/who inspires you?
Anything/ Anybody. And cartoons.
17. Everyone has considered leaving FA once or twice. Have you? Why?
Nope. I don't think anything would make me consider leaving really.And now I've been on a train!
Posted 12 years agoI got caught in the ticket... uhh... "trap". SOB.
I just knew it would happen! If there is a cliché failure associated with a certain situation, in all likelhood, it will befall me no matter how "excessively" careful I am.
I nearly broke down into a sobby mess on the platform but, thankfully, I managed to pull myself back together.
I was really freaking out walking through Cardiff too(It was quite busy and there were street performers and music to additionally disorient me).
But otherwise it was fantastic- We had a great day out!
&&& I was rewarded with tastytasty calamari for dinner for being so brave. Yummy. ^V^I went on a bus.
Posted 12 years agoAn came back, on a bus.
I did itttt~
(Even did a little skip and a "Whoo~" arm flail gesture when I got off, hehe~)
Also I have breathing exercises to practice.
And we shall start positive thought conditioning next week. ^v^Nothing makes any sense to me.
Posted 12 years agoI don't understand why nothing is changing for the better, like people keep promising me things will. Keep telling me to believe in and hope for.
I'm trying so hard and nothing is changing. The only news I ever get is bad news. Failure and deprivation.
Why do people still tell me these things, when they have nothing but evidence to the contrary?
I have no idea what I am doing or going to do. And nobody can tell me anything. Nobody can tell me how they do the things they do and why I cannot. Why I have nothing. Why I am empty. Why I fail everything.
It all makes no sense. A mess of unanswered questions. I'm just existing, apart from the rest of the world, with no idea what is happening around me or what I am supposed to be doing.
I only have dreams.
I don't understand what or who I am. What my purpose is.
I just exist ineffectually. And it scares me. Everything scares me. Not knowing anything. Not functioning. Not being human.
I'm so afraid.
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Anyway, tomorrow afternoon I have my anxiety coping session. I'll be going on the bus for the first time in years, and walking from the bust stop to the centre, without my mother. I haven't even had a chance to practice due to my illness last week. Erk.
I'm trying so hard and nothing is changing. The only news I ever get is bad news. Failure and deprivation.
Why do people still tell me these things, when they have nothing but evidence to the contrary?
I have no idea what I am doing or going to do. And nobody can tell me anything. Nobody can tell me how they do the things they do and why I cannot. Why I have nothing. Why I am empty. Why I fail everything.
It all makes no sense. A mess of unanswered questions. I'm just existing, apart from the rest of the world, with no idea what is happening around me or what I am supposed to be doing.
I only have dreams.
I don't understand what or who I am. What my purpose is.
I just exist ineffectually. And it scares me. Everything scares me. Not knowing anything. Not functioning. Not being human.
I'm so afraid.
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Anyway, tomorrow afternoon I have my anxiety coping session. I'll be going on the bus for the first time in years, and walking from the bust stop to the centre, without my mother. I haven't even had a chance to practice due to my illness last week. Erk.
