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π₯ I'm pregnant! β€
General | Posted 2 weeks agoHey guys,
I just realized I never actually shared the announcement here!
I am pregnant and expecting our third child at the end of February 2026 β€
I am overjoyed that after years of trying and rouh medical prognosis we have managed not only to have one, but soon 3 beautiful children!
I am facing a LOT of medical issues with this pregnancy sadly. None of them have been easy, but this one takes the cake.
Feeling completely lacking in energy, suffering from gestative diabetes, notorious UTIs that have to be treated with antibiotics and on top of that I have also lately received bloodwork suggesting that my kidneys would like to shut down. The baby happily is healthy and thriving, but I myself might end up in the hospital sooner than I would like to.
Taking it one day at the time and hoping for the best and to be able to stay home until February and the due date ^^
Because of this, all my personal projects and art has been put on hold indeffinitely, as for as long as I am able to work I need to focus on commissions and raising funds to have as much cash put aside as possible in case of an emergency and to help us bear through the rough initial few months when the baby arrives.
So sadly this means of course that my comic project 'Bubblegum' is put on hold for the next at least 2 years and has to wait until I will be able to not only get back to work but have enough time to once again devote time to things that aren't finance focused.
Thank you for all the well wishes so far, you've been nothing short of wonderful ^^
If any of you enjoy my art and would like to support me one-time to help with building up a safe reserve in case of an emergency, I would be most grateful and you can leave any amount you wish on my Ko-fi https://ko-fi.com/furlana
Or support me long time on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/c/furlana where I keep offering and posting commissions (at discounted prices) and working daily up until I can literally no longer sit to reach my tablet :D
Thank you to everyone who have supported me so far and I look forward to starting this new chapter of being a mom of three!
xxx Lana
π Commissions CLOSED~! π
General | Posted 2 months agoHey guys!
I'm opening 2 slots for a rendered thigh-up/fullbody commission <3
Completed this month. No background, fully custom or artistic liberty, however you prefer).
Communication preferably over Discord for easy wip sending :)
Will happily split into 2-3 payments.
Prices:
π thigh-up: 700β¬
π fullbody: 800β¬
(+ approx. 10% complex design or big wings)
Examples can be seen here: https://drive.google.com/drive/fold.....BU?usp=sharing
TAKEN 1/2 slots
I'm opening 2 slots for a rendered thigh-up/fullbody commission <3
Completed this month. No background, fully custom or artistic liberty, however you prefer).
Communication preferably over Discord for easy wip sending :)
Will happily split into 2-3 payments.
Prices:
π thigh-up: 700β¬
π fullbody: 800β¬
(+ approx. 10% complex design or big wings)
Examples can be seen here: https://drive.google.com/drive/fold.....BU?usp=sharing
TAKEN 1/2 slots
π₯ Slowing down works on the comic
General | Posted 5 months agoHey guys!,
I am not at all happy to have to say that I will need to slow down on working on the comic. I have been consistently trying to push forward and complete a page a week ever since I got back to working on the comic with chapter 2. Sadly it didnβt result in a raise in funding for the project and after months of trying to combine commissions and the comic pages I have finally hit a brick wall. I am exhausted and I canβt keep it going.
I can no longer put out the comic pages at this pace, because I simply have to focus on what pays the bills.
I will also be going back to the setup where my Patrons get a 5-6 pages early access to all comic pages, as I felt better when they were rewarded in this way.
For now I will try to only resign from 1 page a month, giving me a full week for commissions and Iβll see if this will do the trick. If it doesnβt then I will pull back to 2 pages a month untill I can find the funding I need to speed up.
For the next weeks I will be posting 1 public page for every 2 pages posted to Patreon. With this week out of the count, since I have fallen sick and realized that even a minor delay causes my entire schuedule to crumble.
Iβm very unhappy that I have to put my dream project into the fridge again (not entirely at least) as I was very happy with the pace I was able to keep up. But I just canβt keep this up.
If you enjoy my comic and want to see it keep being made, please do consider throwing in even just 3$ or even 1$ β€ If every person who reads it would support me with as little as 1$ I would be able to keep this pace up without having to worry about all the monthly expenses so much.
Of course, a huge THANK YOU to all my Patrons who have supported me so far.
I wouldn't be able to get this far without you and I appreciate you greatly! β¨
https://www.patreon.com/c/furlana 
π Publishing 'Bubblegum' plans and looking for opinions!
General | Posted 7 months agoHey guys!
I'm slowly starting to think about publishing what I have done so far of my 'Bubblegum' comic and I need some insight! Both from people who would potentially like to buy it but also if there's any of you artists who have already published independent work, I would be most grateful! :)
I was thinking of publishing the first tome after I wrap up chapter 3 and I think this will end up being around 130 pages give or take. If I wait and publish after chapter 4, then it will consist of around 200 pages, which makes it pretty heavy I think (but hey, maybe it will get some more spicy moments in ;D)?
I need your opinions on this :) How big do you think is better? I kind of hope to also feature some fanart and work on my characters from other artists on the back as well as maybe aa few concept sketches.
Do you think it's a nice addition to a comic book or should I maaybe publish a sort of 'concept artbook' later on and include the character concepts, comic characters art in general, comic related sketches and perhaps also some process of how I work on my comic pages? :)
I also kind of want to maybe throw in a poster I will prepare especially for this occassion... Maybe like signed copies and stuff, idk if that would be of interest to any of you? :O
I am pretty sure I will need to start a kickstarter campaign to make it happen so I will see what sort of extras I can offer :) But please also let me know what kind of extras would you be potentially interested in <3
Standees, stickers, keychains, posters, signed copies of the book?
Hard cover or not?
I will definitely also be DREAMING of making like a Rey plushie at some point, but for now it will definitely remain in fantasyland :D
All feedback is welcome! β€ I am just brainstorming ideas for now to know how to plan for publishing <3
Also just as a warning - this comic will eventually get explicit in its contents. It's not all drama, it has adult topics that relate to what I normally draw in my art ;)
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Thank you so much for your insight and for your feedback on my comic. I love reading your comments and see how differently everyone approaches each character and their interactions. I am very happy it raises mixed feelings toward situations and people in the comic! :) Thank you for your love and excitement for the new pages, it motivates me each week to push muyself to the limits to try and make it on time along with working on commissions, writing and editting the future content and still make it on time for dinner and an evening with my family. β€
And the biggest thank you to all my faithful Patrons who make the comic possible at all :)
Special thanks is due to Xionix and Zelmra, my wonderful proof readers, as well as the most engaged and active of supporters: SimtheLegend, Sylvar, Obsidian and Chee β¨
I am truly blessed and I can't thank you enough!
I'm slowly starting to think about publishing what I have done so far of my 'Bubblegum' comic and I need some insight! Both from people who would potentially like to buy it but also if there's any of you artists who have already published independent work, I would be most grateful! :)
I was thinking of publishing the first tome after I wrap up chapter 3 and I think this will end up being around 130 pages give or take. If I wait and publish after chapter 4, then it will consist of around 200 pages, which makes it pretty heavy I think (but hey, maybe it will get some more spicy moments in ;D)?
I need your opinions on this :) How big do you think is better? I kind of hope to also feature some fanart and work on my characters from other artists on the back as well as maybe aa few concept sketches.
Do you think it's a nice addition to a comic book or should I maaybe publish a sort of 'concept artbook' later on and include the character concepts, comic characters art in general, comic related sketches and perhaps also some process of how I work on my comic pages? :)
I also kind of want to maybe throw in a poster I will prepare especially for this occassion... Maybe like signed copies and stuff, idk if that would be of interest to any of you? :O
I am pretty sure I will need to start a kickstarter campaign to make it happen so I will see what sort of extras I can offer :) But please also let me know what kind of extras would you be potentially interested in <3
Standees, stickers, keychains, posters, signed copies of the book?
Hard cover or not?
I will definitely also be DREAMING of making like a Rey plushie at some point, but for now it will definitely remain in fantasyland :D
All feedback is welcome! β€ I am just brainstorming ideas for now to know how to plan for publishing <3
Also just as a warning - this comic will eventually get explicit in its contents. It's not all drama, it has adult topics that relate to what I normally draw in my art ;)
______________________________________________
Thank you so much for your insight and for your feedback on my comic. I love reading your comments and see how differently everyone approaches each character and their interactions. I am very happy it raises mixed feelings toward situations and people in the comic! :) Thank you for your love and excitement for the new pages, it motivates me each week to push muyself to the limits to try and make it on time along with working on commissions, writing and editting the future content and still make it on time for dinner and an evening with my family. β€
And the biggest thank you to all my faithful Patrons who make the comic possible at all :)
Special thanks is due to Xionix and Zelmra, my wonderful proof readers, as well as the most engaged and active of supporters: SimtheLegend, Sylvar, Obsidian and Chee β¨
I am truly blessed and I can't thank you enough!
Getting back to writing journals~
General | Posted 10 months agoHey guys,
I just read a very accurate journal from CherryBox who mentioned that Twitter has become somewhat unusable and I have to agree. Not only because of the negativity, but also it no longer even serves the purpose of findinf new artists or showing you posts from people who you actually follow. It became so so divisive and political it's insane.
Garnetto mentions that they will be making more journals to engage with the community. And I think I will try doing this too. I want to rest from the negativity in my life. I have had plenty in the past months and I need a breather and I want to let some fresh air in.
What's good with you guys? Has this new year been any good for you?
I have to say it's been rather hard on me so far.
But I have also so far been able to do a lot of what I had planned - I have managed to keep making my comic at the decent pace of a page a week, as well as I've been sketching a lot for practice! So this is making me very happy. There has been some heartbreak happening on a personal level for a while now, but I will recover. Not the first.
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If anyone is interested, I kindly invite you to my humble Discord server to chat :)
I will be in need of a new Moderator or two in a short while! I hope maybe I could find someone with prior experience to do it ^^ I will be offering insight into Patreon content β€
And I will be looking for 2 new beta readers for my comic β€ I want to have more perspectives than I currently do. Will also offer shortly!π Summary of 2024 and goals for 2025
General | Posted 11 months agoAs the new year approaches I always try to make a summary of my achievements and a plan for the next year. It helps me stay on course and it also helps me realize that despite it often feeling that way, I am moving forward, not standing in place or running in circles.
Sometime around 7-8 months ago my husband fijnally quit his job that he has loathed for years now. There was so much to do and take care of, like looking after the children, selling our car, fixing things at home and putting it up for sale, he ended up never having the time to look for a new one, which made me become the sole breadwinner in my family for 8 months now and going. On top of this, some 4-5 months ago I have finally mustered the courage and will to get back to working on my comic, which I had to ditch ever since my second son has been born, due to obviously lack of time and different priorities. I had to focus on commissions to make up for the income that was no longer coming from my husband and look after my baby at the same time being a nursing mother.
And I did a pretty insane thing and not only I've gotten back to working on the comic, but also I decided to push for completing 1 page every week, which is more than I ever did before. The best I did when working on chapter 1 was 2-3 pages a month.
We have sold our house and baught a new one. Thank goodness my husband stayed on top of everything and he took care of all the legal aspects as well as started packing our things and basically just do everything around the kids and the house (along with my mom who is here to help us too most of the time). I have been basically just working or taking care of the children all the time. No breaks, no vacations, so sick leaves this year either. I might collapse once I try and take a breather.
We are moving currently and we have the deadline of the 10th of January to leave the house. It's pretty intense and stressful but I am positive this will be a great start for 2025 in a new bigger house where I will finally have my own space for my office. My very own room for my stuff where kids are off limits! Yay.
All in all it has been a hyper busy year for me. I have completed over 200 artworks + done tons of sketches. Completed 25 pages of the comic I came back to around 4 months ago. Managed to almost hit 80k followers on Twitter that coincided with everyone fleeting the platform, leaving me utterly demotivated to start anew on a different one... I really don't like social media. I like working with people and drawing stuff. But I can't stress enough how much I despise building a following on social media and the entire concept of these platforms. It's depressing to me and it never made me feel anything positive. It's either anger, sadness or the feelings of being utterly inadequate and alienated. Bluesky doesn't feel any different to me in this regard, sadly.
My sons have grown, my older son is soon finishing kindergarden, so this is huge for me. And in 2025 my younger son will begin kindergarden as my older son goes to school.
I also managed to lose a lot of weight! Somehow... Not really sure how, cause I don't have time to do anything. But I guess I eat less when stressed. But at least I am back to feeling relatively comfortable with my body at the weight of 58 kg (I'm 158cm tall) so that is also an achievement!
Goals for 2025
β get back to drawing daily sketches (personal stuff: SFW, slice of life, erotic or explicit) and share with you guys. Since I am going to make the comic public, I will post these daily sketches as early access/exclusive content for the Pandamic+ tiers as a replacement for the early access comic reward β€
β improve on rendering, backgrounds and generally continue to strive to be better in what I do. Make another 200 artworks happen in 2025!
β Continue making at least a page of my comic weekly. I say at least, because I'm insane. I kind of wish I could do 2 weekly... But I don't think this is possible with 2 small children and as long as my husband is jobless.
β try to go on either keto or carnivore diet for at least 4-5 months to restart my metabolism. My homornes are absolutely screwed and I need to eat healthier and getting rid of carbs was the only thing that ever helped me
β moving to our new house and slowly spare funds to decorate it to look cozy and making it a home! I wish my tastes were cheaper, but I always seem to pick the most expensive shit even when I don't look at the prices :D
β finally go for a proper holiday with my family. Like going abroad somewhere, visit a new place and just try to enjoy it.
β go on dates with my husband regularly. We've been so busy this past year we have barely had time to enjoy our mutual company and it sucks so bad.
β baby 3...? I believe I also planned for it last year, but welp. No luck so far.
So here it is! That is a lot of goals actually... But I think I have a clear direction in life and that feels good.
Do you have any new year resolutions? :D Anything you are proud of achieving in 2024 that you want to share? β€ I'd love to hear of it!
Sometime around 7-8 months ago my husband fijnally quit his job that he has loathed for years now. There was so much to do and take care of, like looking after the children, selling our car, fixing things at home and putting it up for sale, he ended up never having the time to look for a new one, which made me become the sole breadwinner in my family for 8 months now and going. On top of this, some 4-5 months ago I have finally mustered the courage and will to get back to working on my comic, which I had to ditch ever since my second son has been born, due to obviously lack of time and different priorities. I had to focus on commissions to make up for the income that was no longer coming from my husband and look after my baby at the same time being a nursing mother.
And I did a pretty insane thing and not only I've gotten back to working on the comic, but also I decided to push for completing 1 page every week, which is more than I ever did before. The best I did when working on chapter 1 was 2-3 pages a month.
We have sold our house and baught a new one. Thank goodness my husband stayed on top of everything and he took care of all the legal aspects as well as started packing our things and basically just do everything around the kids and the house (along with my mom who is here to help us too most of the time). I have been basically just working or taking care of the children all the time. No breaks, no vacations, so sick leaves this year either. I might collapse once I try and take a breather.
We are moving currently and we have the deadline of the 10th of January to leave the house. It's pretty intense and stressful but I am positive this will be a great start for 2025 in a new bigger house where I will finally have my own space for my office. My very own room for my stuff where kids are off limits! Yay.
All in all it has been a hyper busy year for me. I have completed over 200 artworks + done tons of sketches. Completed 25 pages of the comic I came back to around 4 months ago. Managed to almost hit 80k followers on Twitter that coincided with everyone fleeting the platform, leaving me utterly demotivated to start anew on a different one... I really don't like social media. I like working with people and drawing stuff. But I can't stress enough how much I despise building a following on social media and the entire concept of these platforms. It's depressing to me and it never made me feel anything positive. It's either anger, sadness or the feelings of being utterly inadequate and alienated. Bluesky doesn't feel any different to me in this regard, sadly.
My sons have grown, my older son is soon finishing kindergarden, so this is huge for me. And in 2025 my younger son will begin kindergarden as my older son goes to school.
I also managed to lose a lot of weight! Somehow... Not really sure how, cause I don't have time to do anything. But I guess I eat less when stressed. But at least I am back to feeling relatively comfortable with my body at the weight of 58 kg (I'm 158cm tall) so that is also an achievement!
Goals for 2025
Now for he goals for 2025...
β get back to drawing daily sketches (personal stuff: SFW, slice of life, erotic or explicit) and share with you guys. Since I am going to make the comic public, I will post these daily sketches as early access/exclusive content for the Pandamic+ tiers as a replacement for the early access comic reward β€
β improve on rendering, backgrounds and generally continue to strive to be better in what I do. Make another 200 artworks happen in 2025!
β Continue making at least a page of my comic weekly. I say at least, because I'm insane. I kind of wish I could do 2 weekly... But I don't think this is possible with 2 small children and as long as my husband is jobless.
β try to go on either keto or carnivore diet for at least 4-5 months to restart my metabolism. My homornes are absolutely screwed and I need to eat healthier and getting rid of carbs was the only thing that ever helped me
β moving to our new house and slowly spare funds to decorate it to look cozy and making it a home! I wish my tastes were cheaper, but I always seem to pick the most expensive shit even when I don't look at the prices :D
β finally go for a proper holiday with my family. Like going abroad somewhere, visit a new place and just try to enjoy it.
β go on dates with my husband regularly. We've been so busy this past year we have barely had time to enjoy our mutual company and it sucks so bad.
β baby 3...? I believe I also planned for it last year, but welp. No luck so far.
So here it is! That is a lot of goals actually... But I think I have a clear direction in life and that feels good.
Do you have any new year resolutions? :D Anything you are proud of achieving in 2024 that you want to share? β€ I'd love to hear of it!
xxx Lanaπ Back to being more active on FA
General | Posted a year agoHey guys,
Decided it's time for a little update since I've been kind of away from this site for a while. But I wanna come back and hopefully I will submit at least 30% of what I've been working on.
For a while now I have completely shifted to working on Patreon commissions and offering single commission slots on Twitter and life has been so chaotic that I ended up only posting my art on Patreon and later on I just never find the time to post publically. I also sometimes post on Twitter, more often than here (cause it's easier and faster, only reason really).
But yeah, I want to come back finally. I miss the engagement on FA and I always got some really nice insight into my artworks here (horny and corny comments are also always weclome lol) :)
I also hope to open some commissions for you guys too, other than just auctions. So I hope I can do this after I finish my current workload.
I hope you've been doing well~!
XXX
Lana
Decided it's time for a little update since I've been kind of away from this site for a while. But I wanna come back and hopefully I will submit at least 30% of what I've been working on.
For a while now I have completely shifted to working on Patreon commissions and offering single commission slots on Twitter and life has been so chaotic that I ended up only posting my art on Patreon and later on I just never find the time to post publically. I also sometimes post on Twitter, more often than here (cause it's easier and faster, only reason really).
But yeah, I want to come back finally. I miss the engagement on FA and I always got some really nice insight into my artworks here (horny and corny comments are also always weclome lol) :)
I also hope to open some commissions for you guys too, other than just auctions. So I hope I can do this after I finish my current workload.
I hope you've been doing well~!
XXX
Lana
β οΈ WARNING: Scam alert - impersonator
General | Posted 2 years agoJust a quick and short note - there is an impersonator of me going around under this link https://www.furaffinity.net/user/~furlana/
They are sending notes to people telling them they were the winner of an auction of mine and are asked to pay random amounts of money. Please do not engage with this person, report them if you can and have time to do it and block them. Thanks so much!
I hope nobody will be fooled by this and acutally loose their money <3 Lots of love!
And to the impersonator - make something of yourself with your own work instead of trying to scam people and make money of someone else's effort. This kind of behavior is disgusting.
They are sending notes to people telling them they were the winner of an auction of mine and are asked to pay random amounts of money. Please do not engage with this person, report them if you can and have time to do it and block them. Thanks so much!
I hope nobody will be fooled by this and acutally loose their money <3 Lots of love!
And to the impersonator - make something of yourself with your own work instead of trying to scam people and make money of someone else's effort. This kind of behavior is disgusting.
β οΈ Mom 2.0 // Help me recover
General | Posted 3 years agoHey guys!
I'm dropping by only briefly to report the news to anyone who has not heard them yet :) I have welcomed my darling new baby boy to my family on the 6th of September! The road was long and difficult, it was easily the most difficult experience of myt enitre life so far, but it was worth the suffering. I have another little angel under my wing!
On a sadder note...
To anyone who would be willing to help us, we are in a very tight spot right now. I didn't at all consider the possibility that I will be put through a traumatic c-section and left with the need of attending both physiotherapy to help me recover physically and a psychiatrist to help me recover mentally. I was sure that the second delivery will be less complicated than the first one, but I was terribly wrong. I prepared for me to just deal with being unable to work so I have spare funds to help us cover the bills and put food on our table, but I sadly didn't make enough to have enough to make sure I'm taken care of in case there would be complications following.
Trigger warning: operation, giving birth, blood, trauma and all the fun things.
To anyone interested in how and why this happened, I will put my story briefly below. I want to also say that I am absolutely very grateful to the doctors that decided to do the c-section on me, they saved my child's life.
The pregnancy was more or less safe, much like the last one. I only suffered pregnancy diabetes which I was able to deal with thanks to a very restrictive diet that put me in the state of ketosis for 3 months (no carbs at all). However due to the diabetes I had to be scheduled to induce labor in the 40th week if I didn't naturally go into labor naturally. And of course, I did not and even though I experienced contractions for a few weeks, I have only developed a small dialtion of 2 cm (last time it was 5cm once I got the the hospital and I was ready to go).
I was kept at the hospital and experienced the wonderful 'Foley's balloon' thing, that I was given for an entire night to increase the dialtion. It was very unpleasant and caused me to suffer from painful contraction for the entire night I spent at the hospital. But it developed a nice safe dialation of 5 cm, so in the morning without much wait I was put on oxytocin to force the labor to begin. I was already very tired and in pain.
The induced labor went better than my first. I was doing really great and my husband was next to me the entire time, holding my hand and massaging my back and encouraging me to keep focusing on breathing. I was actually happy, the way it went. I didn'tr even scream at all, which I did all the time during my first labor :D I consider myself a real trooper. The labor lasted 5-6h and I was almost ready for the second phase of the delivery (so pushing the baby out) when suddenly his heart rate dropped drastically once he put himself in the birthing canal. It happened really fast from then on - 2 doctors came, my husband's hand was ripped from mine as he was asked to step aside. I was dizzy from the pain and the opiod-based medication I was given to help the dialtion speed up and I wasn't sure what was happening.
The doctor said that they have to perform a c-section. At the state I was in I asked him if he was joking. They said, no and more people came in, placed me on anothed bed and forced me to lay down. I suffered from another contraction then and my entire body started shaking, I had a huge panic attack. Everything went from fine and 'almost at the end' to my worst nightmares coming true. The thing I feared most of all was a c-section and an unplanned one was not even on my radar. I actually am crying as I write this, but I do want to share my story with anyone who might have gone through the same and is suffering in silence.
They transported me to the operation block and within seconds they gave me a shot in my spine and they were already cutting me open as I was layed down after the shot. It was the scariest thing I ever lived through. The lamp hanging above me, that shed light on the operation field for the doctors, reflected precisely how they were opening my belly and for a brief second I glanced there to see a huge hole in my body, lots of blood and my skin streched on hooks. This view was horrific, it accompanies me in my nightmares every single day for 3 weeks now.
The view was blocked by a doctor putting some documents in front of me and another giving me a pen in my stiff fingers, telling me to sign the agreement for a c-section. It was laughable really, since I was already having it. My hands were shaking so much that all I managed to do was not even readable as a signature.
They took my precious son out of me and I heard his cry, it was surreal. I didn't feel anything, I was so scared. I wasn't happy, I thought I was going to die. What they did didn't hurt, but it was terrible, unpleasant and to a degree painful. I could feel I have a gaping wound in my stomach. They showed him to me for literally less than a second and took him away. My mind was blank, I thought I started losing consiousness. I was cold, like never before in my life. My entire body shaking and I was naked and alone with doctors discussing their lunch plans as they started to stitch me back up. I was told the entire procedure lasted 20 minutes. They took my son out within 5 minutes of transporting me to the operation ward. It felt like a lifetime, it was absolutely horrific.
My son was given to my husband, who held him until I was patched back up and immediately they gave me my baby once I was in my room. I was in shock, I still am - three weeks later. I keep reliving this nightmare over and over, I keep trying to talk about it to everyone around me in hopes that it will make it go away or that I will finally feel better, safer. Nothing helps.
At the ward I wasn't treated too well. They kicked me out of bed to go to the bathroom 6h after the operation - at 2 am at night and forced me to walk. the pain was unbearable, I felt like my guts were about to spill even though I was given all the painkillers in the world. No wonder, 7 layers of my tissue, muscle and skin were ripped apart. Trying to take care of a newborn in that condition is nothing short of a miracle, yet I put myself second and responded to every cry my baby uttered, even though standing up to get him was hell.
I was let out to go home 3 days later, still in pain, still with a huge belly (which my doctors kept complaining about for being 'too big' as if I could have done anything about it). Anyway I'm home now, suffering every day. My belly still hurts, I still have problems sitting, walking and basically surviving each day. My condition is not the best, I have to attend physiotherapy to help my belly get back to the way it was, my muscles are spread too far, I got tons of water inside that just doesn't want to disappear by itself, like it's supposed to. My mental state is even worse than my physical state. I never had panic attacks before, now I suffer daily, randomly bursting into tears, confsuing my older son that I also have to now look after, even though I can barely look after myself. We are surviving, but it's hard. And I need professional help that I can't really afford.
The doctors aren't sure why my son's heart rate dropped once he went into the birthing canal, but they said they thing it's because his head was too large to fit (3cm bigger than my firstborn's head, which is A LOT in baby standards) and he would suffocate.
Anyway! I feel really terrible for asking, as I always try to manage things by myself, but I have little to no way out here - I could really use help. There is no actual financial goal I can set exactly, as this is an ongoing thing and I will need to attend both therapies for the next few months, so anything helps.
To my Patrons, thank you a TON everyone for staying with me and making sure I can push through one of the most vulnerable moments of my life.
I am now oficially a happy mom of 2 healthy lovely boys! I am sure I will get better with time, but for now things are very tough.
I'm dropping by only briefly to report the news to anyone who has not heard them yet :) I have welcomed my darling new baby boy to my family on the 6th of September! The road was long and difficult, it was easily the most difficult experience of myt enitre life so far, but it was worth the suffering. I have another little angel under my wing!
On a sadder note...
To anyone who would be willing to help us, we are in a very tight spot right now. I didn't at all consider the possibility that I will be put through a traumatic c-section and left with the need of attending both physiotherapy to help me recover physically and a psychiatrist to help me recover mentally. I was sure that the second delivery will be less complicated than the first one, but I was terribly wrong. I prepared for me to just deal with being unable to work so I have spare funds to help us cover the bills and put food on our table, but I sadly didn't make enough to have enough to make sure I'm taken care of in case there would be complications following.
Trigger warning: operation, giving birth, blood, trauma and all the fun things.
To anyone interested in how and why this happened, I will put my story briefly below. I want to also say that I am absolutely very grateful to the doctors that decided to do the c-section on me, they saved my child's life.
The pregnancy was more or less safe, much like the last one. I only suffered pregnancy diabetes which I was able to deal with thanks to a very restrictive diet that put me in the state of ketosis for 3 months (no carbs at all). However due to the diabetes I had to be scheduled to induce labor in the 40th week if I didn't naturally go into labor naturally. And of course, I did not and even though I experienced contractions for a few weeks, I have only developed a small dialtion of 2 cm (last time it was 5cm once I got the the hospital and I was ready to go).
I was kept at the hospital and experienced the wonderful 'Foley's balloon' thing, that I was given for an entire night to increase the dialtion. It was very unpleasant and caused me to suffer from painful contraction for the entire night I spent at the hospital. But it developed a nice safe dialation of 5 cm, so in the morning without much wait I was put on oxytocin to force the labor to begin. I was already very tired and in pain.
The induced labor went better than my first. I was doing really great and my husband was next to me the entire time, holding my hand and massaging my back and encouraging me to keep focusing on breathing. I was actually happy, the way it went. I didn'tr even scream at all, which I did all the time during my first labor :D I consider myself a real trooper. The labor lasted 5-6h and I was almost ready for the second phase of the delivery (so pushing the baby out) when suddenly his heart rate dropped drastically once he put himself in the birthing canal. It happened really fast from then on - 2 doctors came, my husband's hand was ripped from mine as he was asked to step aside. I was dizzy from the pain and the opiod-based medication I was given to help the dialtion speed up and I wasn't sure what was happening.
The doctor said that they have to perform a c-section. At the state I was in I asked him if he was joking. They said, no and more people came in, placed me on anothed bed and forced me to lay down. I suffered from another contraction then and my entire body started shaking, I had a huge panic attack. Everything went from fine and 'almost at the end' to my worst nightmares coming true. The thing I feared most of all was a c-section and an unplanned one was not even on my radar. I actually am crying as I write this, but I do want to share my story with anyone who might have gone through the same and is suffering in silence.
They transported me to the operation block and within seconds they gave me a shot in my spine and they were already cutting me open as I was layed down after the shot. It was the scariest thing I ever lived through. The lamp hanging above me, that shed light on the operation field for the doctors, reflected precisely how they were opening my belly and for a brief second I glanced there to see a huge hole in my body, lots of blood and my skin streched on hooks. This view was horrific, it accompanies me in my nightmares every single day for 3 weeks now.
The view was blocked by a doctor putting some documents in front of me and another giving me a pen in my stiff fingers, telling me to sign the agreement for a c-section. It was laughable really, since I was already having it. My hands were shaking so much that all I managed to do was not even readable as a signature.
They took my precious son out of me and I heard his cry, it was surreal. I didn't feel anything, I was so scared. I wasn't happy, I thought I was going to die. What they did didn't hurt, but it was terrible, unpleasant and to a degree painful. I could feel I have a gaping wound in my stomach. They showed him to me for literally less than a second and took him away. My mind was blank, I thought I started losing consiousness. I was cold, like never before in my life. My entire body shaking and I was naked and alone with doctors discussing their lunch plans as they started to stitch me back up. I was told the entire procedure lasted 20 minutes. They took my son out within 5 minutes of transporting me to the operation ward. It felt like a lifetime, it was absolutely horrific.
My son was given to my husband, who held him until I was patched back up and immediately they gave me my baby once I was in my room. I was in shock, I still am - three weeks later. I keep reliving this nightmare over and over, I keep trying to talk about it to everyone around me in hopes that it will make it go away or that I will finally feel better, safer. Nothing helps.
At the ward I wasn't treated too well. They kicked me out of bed to go to the bathroom 6h after the operation - at 2 am at night and forced me to walk. the pain was unbearable, I felt like my guts were about to spill even though I was given all the painkillers in the world. No wonder, 7 layers of my tissue, muscle and skin were ripped apart. Trying to take care of a newborn in that condition is nothing short of a miracle, yet I put myself second and responded to every cry my baby uttered, even though standing up to get him was hell.
I was let out to go home 3 days later, still in pain, still with a huge belly (which my doctors kept complaining about for being 'too big' as if I could have done anything about it). Anyway I'm home now, suffering every day. My belly still hurts, I still have problems sitting, walking and basically surviving each day. My condition is not the best, I have to attend physiotherapy to help my belly get back to the way it was, my muscles are spread too far, I got tons of water inside that just doesn't want to disappear by itself, like it's supposed to. My mental state is even worse than my physical state. I never had panic attacks before, now I suffer daily, randomly bursting into tears, confsuing my older son that I also have to now look after, even though I can barely look after myself. We are surviving, but it's hard. And I need professional help that I can't really afford.
The doctors aren't sure why my son's heart rate dropped once he went into the birthing canal, but they said they thing it's because his head was too large to fit (3cm bigger than my firstborn's head, which is A LOT in baby standards) and he would suffocate.
Anyway! I feel really terrible for asking, as I always try to manage things by myself, but I have little to no way out here - I could really use help. There is no actual financial goal I can set exactly, as this is an ongoing thing and I will need to attend both therapies for the next few months, so anything helps.
If you want and can help me, please consider supporting my α΄α΄α΄Κα΄α΄Ι΄ or buying me a α΄α΄-κ°Ιͺ.
On Patreon you will get tons of content I uploaded before going on maternity leave and on ko-fi I sadly can't offer anything in return. But I will be forever gretaful for anyone donating anything to help me recover.
Thank you, I am forever in your debt.To my Patrons, thank you a TON everyone for staying with me and making sure I can push through one of the most vulnerable moments of my life.
I am now oficially a happy mom of 2 healthy lovely boys! I am sure I will get better with time, but for now things are very tough.
β οΈ Mom 2.0 // Help me recover
General | Posted 3 years agoHey guys!
I'm dropping by only briefly to report the news to anyone who has not heard them yet :) I have welcomed my darling new baby boy to my family on the 6th of September! The road was long and difficult, it was easily the most difficult experience of myt enitre life so far, but it was worth the suffering. I have another little angel under my wing!
On a sadder note...
To anyone who would be willing to help us, we are in a very tight spot right now. I didn't at all consider the possibility that I will be put through a traumatic c-section and left with the need of attending both physiotherapy to help me recover physically and a psychiatrist to help me recover mentally. I was sure that the second delivery will be less complicated than the first one, but I was terribly wrong. I prepared for me to just deal with being unable to work so I have spare funds to help us cover the bills and put food on our table, but I sadly didn't make enough to have enough to make sure I'm taken care of in case there would be complications following.
Trigger warning: operation, giving birth, blood, trauma and all the fun things.
To anyone interested in how and why this happened, I will put my story briefly below. I want to also say that I am absolutely very grateful to the doctors that decided to do the c-section on me, they saved my child's life.
The pregnancy was more or less safe, much like the last one. I only suffered pregnancy diabetes which I was able to deal with thanks to a very restrictive diet that put me in the state of ketosis for 3 months (no carbs at all). However due to the diabetes I had to be scheduled to induce labor in the 40th week if I didn't naturally go into labor naturally. And of course, I did not and even though I experienced contractions for a few weeks, I have only developed a small dialtion of 2 cm (last time it was 5cm once I got the the hospital and I was ready to go).
I was kept at the hospital and experienced the wonderful 'Foley's balloon' thing, that I was given for an entire night to increase the dialtion. It was very unpleasant and caused me to suffer from painful contraction for the entire night I spent at the hospital. But it developed a nice safe dialation of 5 cm, so in the morning without much wait I was put on oxytocin to force the labor to begin. I was already very tired and in pain.
The induced labor went better than my first. I was doing really great and my husband was next to me the entire time, holding my hand and massaging my back and encouraging me to keep focusing on breathing. I was actually happy, the way it went. I didn'tr even scream at all, which I did all the time during my first labor :D I consider myself a real trooper. The labor lasted 5-6h and I was almost ready for the second phase of the delivery (so pushing the baby out) when suddenly his heart rate dropped drastically once he put himself in the birthing canal. It happened really fast from then on - 2 doctors came, my husband's hand was ripped from mine as he was asked to step aside. I was dizzy from the pain and the opiod-based medication I was given to help the dialtion speed up and I wasn't sure what was happening.
The doctor said that they have to perform a c-section. At the state I was in I asked him if he was joking. They said, no and more people came in, placed me on anothed bed and forced me to lay down. I suffered from another contraction then and my entire body started shaking, I had a huge panic attack. Everything went from fine and 'almost at the end' to my worst nightmares coming true. The thing I feared most of all was a c-section and an unplanned one was not even on my radar. I actually am crying as I write this, but I do want to share my story with anyone who might have gone through the same and is suffering in silence.
They transported me to the operation block and within seconds they gave me a shot in my spine and they were already cutting me open as I was layed down after the shot. It was the scariest thing I ever lived through. The lamp hanging above me, that shed light on the operation field for the doctors, reflected precisely how they were opening my belly and for a brief second I glanced there to see a huge hole in my body, lots of blood and my skin streched on hooks. This view was horrific, it accompanies me in my nightmares every single day for 3 weeks now.
The view was blocked by a doctor putting some documents in front of me and another giving me a pen in my stiff fingers, telling me to sign the agreement for a c-section. It was laughable really, since I was already having it. My hands were shaking so much that all I managed to do was not even readable as a signature.
They took my precious son out of me and I heard his cry, it was surreal. I didn't feel anything, I was so scared. I wasn't happy, I thought I was going to die. What they did didn't hurt, but it was terrible, unpleasant and to a degree painful. I could feel I have a gaping wound in my stomach. They showed him to me for literally less than a second and took him away. My mind was blank, I thought I started losing consiousness. I was cold, like never before in my life. My entire body shaking and I was naked and alone with doctors discussing their lunch plans as they started to stitch me back up. I was told the entire procedure lasted 20 minutes. They took my son out within 5 minutes of transporting me to the operation ward. It felt like a lifetime, it was absolutely horrific.
My son was given to my husband, who held him until I was patched back up and immediately they gave me my baby once I was in my room. I was in shock, I still am - three weeks later. I keep reliving this nightmare over and over, I keep trying to talk about it to everyone around me in hopes that it will make it go away or that I will finally feel better, safer. Nothing helps.
At the ward I wasn't treated too well. They kicked me out of bed to go to the bathroom 6h after the operation - at 2 am at night and forced me to walk. the pain was unbearable, I felt like my guts were about to spill even though I was given all the painkillers in the world. No wonder, 7 layers of my tissue, muscle and skin were ripped apart. Trying to take care of a newborn in that condition is nothing short of a miracle, yet I put myself second and responded to every cry my baby uttered, even though standing up to get him was hell.
I was let out to go home 3 days later, still in pain, still with a huge belly (which my doctors kept complaining about for being 'too big' as if I could have done anything about it). Anyway I'm home now, suffering every day. My belly still hurts, I still have problems sitting, walking and basically surviving each day. My condition is not the best, I have to attend physiotherapy to help my belly get back to the way it was, my muscles are spread too far, I got tons of water inside that just doesn't want to disappear by itself, like it's supposed to. My mental state is even worse than my physical state. I never had panic attacks before, now I suffer daily, randomly bursting into tears, confsuing my older son that I also have to now look after, even though I can barely look after myself. We are surviving, but it's hard. And I need professional help that I can't really afford.
The doctors aren't sure why my son's heart rate dropped once he went into the birthing canal, but they said they thing it's because his head was too large to fit (3cm bigger than my firstborn's head, which is A LOT in baby standards) and he would suffocate.
Anyway! I feel really terrible for asking, as I always try to manage things by myself, but I have little to no way out here - I could really use help. There is no actual financial goal I can set exactly, as this is an ongoing thing and I will need to attend both therapies for the next few months, so anything helps.
To my Patrons, thank you a TON everyone for staying with me and making sure I can push through one of the most vulnerable moments of my life.
I am now oficially a happy mom of 2 healthy lovely boys! I am sure I will get better with time, but for now things are very tough.
I'm dropping by only briefly to report the news to anyone who has not heard them yet :) I have welcomed my darling new baby boy to my family on the 6th of September! The road was long and difficult, it was easily the most difficult experience of myt enitre life so far, but it was worth the suffering. I have another little angel under my wing!
On a sadder note...
To anyone who would be willing to help us, we are in a very tight spot right now. I didn't at all consider the possibility that I will be put through a traumatic c-section and left with the need of attending both physiotherapy to help me recover physically and a psychiatrist to help me recover mentally. I was sure that the second delivery will be less complicated than the first one, but I was terribly wrong. I prepared for me to just deal with being unable to work so I have spare funds to help us cover the bills and put food on our table, but I sadly didn't make enough to have enough to make sure I'm taken care of in case there would be complications following.
Trigger warning: operation, giving birth, blood, trauma and all the fun things.
To anyone interested in how and why this happened, I will put my story briefly below. I want to also say that I am absolutely very grateful to the doctors that decided to do the c-section on me, they saved my child's life.
The pregnancy was more or less safe, much like the last one. I only suffered pregnancy diabetes which I was able to deal with thanks to a very restrictive diet that put me in the state of ketosis for 3 months (no carbs at all). However due to the diabetes I had to be scheduled to induce labor in the 40th week if I didn't naturally go into labor naturally. And of course, I did not and even though I experienced contractions for a few weeks, I have only developed a small dialtion of 2 cm (last time it was 5cm once I got the the hospital and I was ready to go).
I was kept at the hospital and experienced the wonderful 'Foley's balloon' thing, that I was given for an entire night to increase the dialtion. It was very unpleasant and caused me to suffer from painful contraction for the entire night I spent at the hospital. But it developed a nice safe dialation of 5 cm, so in the morning without much wait I was put on oxytocin to force the labor to begin. I was already very tired and in pain.
The induced labor went better than my first. I was doing really great and my husband was next to me the entire time, holding my hand and massaging my back and encouraging me to keep focusing on breathing. I was actually happy, the way it went. I didn'tr even scream at all, which I did all the time during my first labor :D I consider myself a real trooper. The labor lasted 5-6h and I was almost ready for the second phase of the delivery (so pushing the baby out) when suddenly his heart rate dropped drastically once he put himself in the birthing canal. It happened really fast from then on - 2 doctors came, my husband's hand was ripped from mine as he was asked to step aside. I was dizzy from the pain and the opiod-based medication I was given to help the dialtion speed up and I wasn't sure what was happening.
The doctor said that they have to perform a c-section. At the state I was in I asked him if he was joking. They said, no and more people came in, placed me on anothed bed and forced me to lay down. I suffered from another contraction then and my entire body started shaking, I had a huge panic attack. Everything went from fine and 'almost at the end' to my worst nightmares coming true. The thing I feared most of all was a c-section and an unplanned one was not even on my radar. I actually am crying as I write this, but I do want to share my story with anyone who might have gone through the same and is suffering in silence.
They transported me to the operation block and within seconds they gave me a shot in my spine and they were already cutting me open as I was layed down after the shot. It was the scariest thing I ever lived through. The lamp hanging above me, that shed light on the operation field for the doctors, reflected precisely how they were opening my belly and for a brief second I glanced there to see a huge hole in my body, lots of blood and my skin streched on hooks. This view was horrific, it accompanies me in my nightmares every single day for 3 weeks now.
The view was blocked by a doctor putting some documents in front of me and another giving me a pen in my stiff fingers, telling me to sign the agreement for a c-section. It was laughable really, since I was already having it. My hands were shaking so much that all I managed to do was not even readable as a signature.
They took my precious son out of me and I heard his cry, it was surreal. I didn't feel anything, I was so scared. I wasn't happy, I thought I was going to die. What they did didn't hurt, but it was terrible, unpleasant and to a degree painful. I could feel I have a gaping wound in my stomach. They showed him to me for literally less than a second and took him away. My mind was blank, I thought I started losing consiousness. I was cold, like never before in my life. My entire body shaking and I was naked and alone with doctors discussing their lunch plans as they started to stitch me back up. I was told the entire procedure lasted 20 minutes. They took my son out within 5 minutes of transporting me to the operation ward. It felt like a lifetime, it was absolutely horrific.
My son was given to my husband, who held him until I was patched back up and immediately they gave me my baby once I was in my room. I was in shock, I still am - three weeks later. I keep reliving this nightmare over and over, I keep trying to talk about it to everyone around me in hopes that it will make it go away or that I will finally feel better, safer. Nothing helps.
At the ward I wasn't treated too well. They kicked me out of bed to go to the bathroom 6h after the operation - at 2 am at night and forced me to walk. the pain was unbearable, I felt like my guts were about to spill even though I was given all the painkillers in the world. No wonder, 7 layers of my tissue, muscle and skin were ripped apart. Trying to take care of a newborn in that condition is nothing short of a miracle, yet I put myself second and responded to every cry my baby uttered, even though standing up to get him was hell.
I was let out to go home 3 days later, still in pain, still with a huge belly (which my doctors kept complaining about for being 'too big' as if I could have done anything about it). Anyway I'm home now, suffering every day. My belly still hurts, I still have problems sitting, walking and basically surviving each day. My condition is not the best, I have to attend physiotherapy to help my belly get back to the way it was, my muscles are spread too far, I got tons of water inside that just doesn't want to disappear by itself, like it's supposed to. My mental state is even worse than my physical state. I never had panic attacks before, now I suffer daily, randomly bursting into tears, confsuing my older son that I also have to now look after, even though I can barely look after myself. We are surviving, but it's hard. And I need professional help that I can't really afford.
The doctors aren't sure why my son's heart rate dropped once he went into the birthing canal, but they said they thing it's because his head was too large to fit (3cm bigger than my firstborn's head, which is A LOT in baby standards) and he would suffocate.
Anyway! I feel really terrible for asking, as I always try to manage things by myself, but I have little to no way out here - I could really use help. There is no actual financial goal I can set exactly, as this is an ongoing thing and I will need to attend both therapies for the next few months, so anything helps.
If you want and can help me, please consider supporting my α΄α΄α΄Κα΄α΄Ι΄ or buying me a α΄α΄-κ°Ιͺ.
On Patreon you will get tons of content I uploaded before going on maternity leave and on ko-fi I sadly can't offer anything in return. But I will be forever gretaful for anyone donating anything to help me recover.
Thank you, I am forever in your debt.To my Patrons, thank you a TON everyone for staying with me and making sure I can push through one of the most vulnerable moments of my life.
I am now oficially a happy mom of 2 healthy lovely boys! I am sure I will get better with time, but for now things are very tough.
β οΈ Christmas auction incoming!
General | Posted 4 years agoHey guys :)
No updates for a while, mostly because I have been very active daily on Patreon and Twitter and posting all updates there!
Anyway I will go straight to the point - I will be holding a YCH auction later today and lasting during the weekend. The only opportunity to get a fully rendered Christmas piece from me this year.
SB: 100β¬
Payment plans possible and up for discussion depending on the final bid.
Auction will end 24h after last bid, so you can be sure to give it some thought.
Hope you'll enjoy the pose I have in mind for this year! And certainly hope you've been good this year >:3
No updates for a while, mostly because I have been very active daily on Patreon and Twitter and posting all updates there!
Anyway I will go straight to the point - I will be holding a YCH auction later today and lasting during the weekend. The only opportunity to get a fully rendered Christmas piece from me this year.
SB: 100β¬
Payment plans possible and up for discussion depending on the final bid.
Auction will end 24h after last bid, so you can be sure to give it some thought.
Hope you'll enjoy the pose I have in mind for this year! And certainly hope you've been good this year >:3
β οΈ Summer girls series! Auctions starts Friday the 25...
General | Posted 4 years agoHey guys!
This year I am working on a series of summer girls YCHs~! There will be a total of 9!
2 of them will be available to win via auctions posted this Friday!
The remaining 7 will be posted on Friday as flat priced YCHs up on Patreon for all 15$+ Patrons to grab as first come first served.
I will be working on these the entire summertime, so they will be divded into batches of 3 (meaning I will work on 3 simultanously and I will start taking payment only for the first 3, then move on to the next batch after I completed the previous workload) to make work managable :) but once claimed, they remain claimed <3
I will be accpeting playment plans for up to 3 months for the flat priced YChs (the prices will be similar to what I offer on my commissions pricelist) and I will consider 6 month payment plans for the 2 auctioned pieces if the auction goes above 1000β¬.
The start bid will be as usual 100β¬.
I kindly invite everyone interested to get art from me to participate <3
The next time I open publically for commissions will be for the Halloween tarot card event ;)
This year I am working on a series of summer girls YCHs~! There will be a total of 9!
2 of them will be available to win via auctions posted this Friday!
The remaining 7 will be posted on Friday as flat priced YCHs up on Patreon for all 15$+ Patrons to grab as first come first served.
I will be working on these the entire summertime, so they will be divded into batches of 3 (meaning I will work on 3 simultanously and I will start taking payment only for the first 3, then move on to the next batch after I completed the previous workload) to make work managable :) but once claimed, they remain claimed <3
I will be accpeting playment plans for up to 3 months for the flat priced YChs (the prices will be similar to what I offer on my commissions pricelist) and I will consider 6 month payment plans for the 2 auctioned pieces if the auction goes above 1000β¬.
The start bid will be as usual 100β¬.
I kindly invite everyone interested to get art from me to participate <3
The next time I open publically for commissions will be for the Halloween tarot card event ;)
β οΈ Opening a commission auction in May
General | Posted 4 years agoHey guys,
Very long time I haven't been offering any commissions here! I am generally focused on developing my Patreon now, where Patrons have priority ordering sketch commissions and they have been claiming all the slots along with the YCHs before they reached the public so far.
But I am going to open a commission auction during the first week of May here for anyone interested in getting some art from me :)
It will be a full colored commission with an option for up to 2 characters with background depending on the bid.
What do I offer?
The best I have! A positive attitude and engagement in the process! Regular updates, offering my best ideas and suggestions to make the piece the best we can together, good communication and the best of my drawing skills. You will not be pushed down an endless queue. I work on a strict schedule where I never take more than I can chew, so the waiting time will not be long. My queues never consist of more than 3 artworks. I don't expect to take longer than a month after the full payment has been done to finish the artwork (unless it will be a very complicated scene, but even then you will be kept in the loop at all times and have regular updates sent). I offer accomodating payment plans, I can arrange anything that works for you. From 50β¬ a week to 100β¬ a month or any other combination.
Please take these few days to think, if you want to grab a commission from me and I'll see you when the bidding begins! :)
Very long time I haven't been offering any commissions here! I am generally focused on developing my Patreon now, where Patrons have priority ordering sketch commissions and they have been claiming all the slots along with the YCHs before they reached the public so far.
But I am going to open a commission auction during the first week of May here for anyone interested in getting some art from me :)
It will be a full colored commission with an option for up to 2 characters with background depending on the bid.
What do I offer?
The best I have! A positive attitude and engagement in the process! Regular updates, offering my best ideas and suggestions to make the piece the best we can together, good communication and the best of my drawing skills. You will not be pushed down an endless queue. I work on a strict schedule where I never take more than I can chew, so the waiting time will not be long. My queues never consist of more than 3 artworks. I don't expect to take longer than a month after the full payment has been done to finish the artwork (unless it will be a very complicated scene, but even then you will be kept in the loop at all times and have regular updates sent). I offer accomodating payment plans, I can arrange anything that works for you. From 50β¬ a week to 100β¬ a month or any other combination.
Please take these few days to think, if you want to grab a commission from me and I'll see you when the bidding begins! :)
π 30th birthday! An insight into my life...
General | Posted 4 years agoHey guys! It's been a while since I posted an update. My life has been on a very tight schedule lately and it's hard to remeber to stay up to date everywhere! :)
I'm writing this post becasue 2 days ago was my 30th birthday! I didn't have my hopes up when it comes to it, since well... Another lockdown just started in Poland and none of my friends are allowed to visit, not even my family (since we don't live in the same towns). I lost a court case on the 24th fighting the government that took away my maternity leave (becasue they do that to all working women recently. What a country to live in!). So I was down in the dumps for a while.
But on my birthday so so so many of you showed up to leave lovely comments and wishes! I've recevied more than a dozen wonderful PMs!
My husband gave me 3 presents, some earlier than the other. I got a wonderful new backpack, a plushy scrumbled egg (it's adorable!!!) and a new wallet! I really needed one, casue my baby actually bit off bits of my old wallet and it looked like a dog tried to steal it from me :D
At the beginning of the year I have made some resolutions. And I have to say that even thought it's only March - I have already managed to incorporate most of them into my life! I never thought it would be possible!
New year's resolutions done:
π¦ I focused on my comic and I am now creating a new page every week!
π¦ I'm making daily sketches and posting the on Patreon which greatly imrpoved my sketching skills already!
π¦ I managed to jump to using CSP instead of Photoshop! I still sketch in Photoshop, but I think in the next 2-3 months I will be able to abandon it completely! This means for every finished piece I always have a speedpaint video I also post to Patreon!
π¦ I am slowly getting back in shape even though I am still breastfeeding. I've been nursing for 17 months now and it brought me and my baby really close. It's our special time together and I love it.
π¦ I spend time with my family and work around 3-5h a day and I can somehow manage fulfilling all my commission and Patreon duties up till now!
Those are pretty much all of the resolutions guys! :D It's amazing!
What I achieved as a person within these 30 years?
I took a closer look at my life and I think I accomplished a lot! I have a family of my own, a loving husband and a wonderful healthy baby. But I also have my loving parents and I even get along with my parents in law. none of my family memebrs were struck by covid yet, so this is a huge thing too and I am ever so thankful for it. I have purchased a flat (taken a loan) and we finally have a place to call home and no landlord to fear. I have paid my student debt off, which is a huge relief. And I am able to financially support my parents as well as take care of my own family. When our car crashed, we even managed to buy a new (10-yo one but still!) one within 2 weeks and it didn't completely ruin us. So it's more or less stable now!
I have completed my education on a Master's level, which even if I am not working in the field of, I am still proud of. It wasn't easy and it wasn't cheap! But I am a Master of architecture and nothing can change that :) It's comforting to know that I have options to get other jobs if I need them!
Becoming a mother made me realize what matters most in life and I feel enlightened. I look at life much differently than I did before and I am greatful for everyone I've came into conntact with. Every single interaction made me learn and made me grow as a person. I reliazed who I need in my life and who is there for me when Iβm in need and who has my best interest in mind. I have a wonderful net of friends, both on the internet and irl. My life is colorful and my heart is filled with love.
I have a passion that I can pursue everyday β art. I am so lucky to be able to support my family with what I create and at the same time do what I love most. I find more and more time to draw personal art, I am already 14 pages deep into my comic and I no longer feel anxious about it. Iβm so happy many of you like it so much and I hope youβll stay with me as the story develops!
I am still battling postpartum depression and it's been very difficult on some days. I am however seeing a specialist about it and we're making progress to get the dark thoughts out of my head. More and more days are good ones and I trust that soon I wonβt need help to keep my head high.
Overall I think even though some days can be very bad, I am a very lucky person. And I hope that my 30s will let me learn to appreciate even the imperfections about my life. That they will teach me to live in the moment and to plan for the future. That they will bring me even more self-fulfillment and happiness. I already reached a satisfying level of balance in my everyday thoughts, but I still sometimes loose it. I hope this time will let me become more in peace with myself, who I am and what I do.
Iβm on the good way of becoming who I always wanted to be and to live my life to the fullest. I will keep on this track the best I can.
And thank you so much for staying with me on this amazing journey that is life. Thank you for your support, love, comments and advice.
Thank you,
Momma Lana joining the 30s team.
I'm writing this post becasue 2 days ago was my 30th birthday! I didn't have my hopes up when it comes to it, since well... Another lockdown just started in Poland and none of my friends are allowed to visit, not even my family (since we don't live in the same towns). I lost a court case on the 24th fighting the government that took away my maternity leave (becasue they do that to all working women recently. What a country to live in!). So I was down in the dumps for a while.
But on my birthday so so so many of you showed up to leave lovely comments and wishes! I've recevied more than a dozen wonderful PMs!
My husband gave me 3 presents, some earlier than the other. I got a wonderful new backpack, a plushy scrumbled egg (it's adorable!!!) and a new wallet! I really needed one, casue my baby actually bit off bits of my old wallet and it looked like a dog tried to steal it from me :D
Accomplishments and goals
At the beginning of the year I have made some resolutions. And I have to say that even thought it's only March - I have already managed to incorporate most of them into my life! I never thought it would be possible!
New year's resolutions done:
π¦ I focused on my comic and I am now creating a new page every week!
π¦ I'm making daily sketches and posting the on Patreon which greatly imrpoved my sketching skills already!
π¦ I managed to jump to using CSP instead of Photoshop! I still sketch in Photoshop, but I think in the next 2-3 months I will be able to abandon it completely! This means for every finished piece I always have a speedpaint video I also post to Patreon!
π¦ I am slowly getting back in shape even though I am still breastfeeding. I've been nursing for 17 months now and it brought me and my baby really close. It's our special time together and I love it.
π¦ I spend time with my family and work around 3-5h a day and I can somehow manage fulfilling all my commission and Patreon duties up till now!
Those are pretty much all of the resolutions guys! :D It's amazing!
What I achieved as a person within these 30 years?
I took a closer look at my life and I think I accomplished a lot! I have a family of my own, a loving husband and a wonderful healthy baby. But I also have my loving parents and I even get along with my parents in law. none of my family memebrs were struck by covid yet, so this is a huge thing too and I am ever so thankful for it. I have purchased a flat (taken a loan) and we finally have a place to call home and no landlord to fear. I have paid my student debt off, which is a huge relief. And I am able to financially support my parents as well as take care of my own family. When our car crashed, we even managed to buy a new (10-yo one but still!) one within 2 weeks and it didn't completely ruin us. So it's more or less stable now!
I have completed my education on a Master's level, which even if I am not working in the field of, I am still proud of. It wasn't easy and it wasn't cheap! But I am a Master of architecture and nothing can change that :) It's comforting to know that I have options to get other jobs if I need them!
Becoming a mother made me realize what matters most in life and I feel enlightened. I look at life much differently than I did before and I am greatful for everyone I've came into conntact with. Every single interaction made me learn and made me grow as a person. I reliazed who I need in my life and who is there for me when Iβm in need and who has my best interest in mind. I have a wonderful net of friends, both on the internet and irl. My life is colorful and my heart is filled with love.
I have a passion that I can pursue everyday β art. I am so lucky to be able to support my family with what I create and at the same time do what I love most. I find more and more time to draw personal art, I am already 14 pages deep into my comic and I no longer feel anxious about it. Iβm so happy many of you like it so much and I hope youβll stay with me as the story develops!
I am still battling postpartum depression and it's been very difficult on some days. I am however seeing a specialist about it and we're making progress to get the dark thoughts out of my head. More and more days are good ones and I trust that soon I wonβt need help to keep my head high.
Overall I think even though some days can be very bad, I am a very lucky person. And I hope that my 30s will let me learn to appreciate even the imperfections about my life. That they will teach me to live in the moment and to plan for the future. That they will bring me even more self-fulfillment and happiness. I already reached a satisfying level of balance in my everyday thoughts, but I still sometimes loose it. I hope this time will let me become more in peace with myself, who I am and what I do.
Iβm on the good way of becoming who I always wanted to be and to live my life to the fullest. I will keep on this track the best I can.
And thank you so much for staying with me on this amazing journey that is life. Thank you for your support, love, comments and advice.
Thank you,
Momma Lana joining the 30s team.
π Happy Holidays! + Summing up 2020
General | Posted 5 years agoHey guys! First of all I want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and a great Holiday season! Even if things are rough, I believe we can bare through it! I hope you and your familieis stay safe and warm and I hope you can spend this time with the people you love most, even if it's hard. Wishing you all the best in the upcoming year and let's hope 2021 has some optimistic news in store!
Overall this has been a good year to me, though it obviously could've been better. I have experienced post natal depression and I am now working my way out of it with professional help. It has affected me and my art a lot, but I am lucky enough to have a wonderful family and friends in my life that make it worth fighting. I suffered from my first ever large burnout, where I found myself completely unable to draw anything. I also strained my arm so bad I had to take over a week off creating when I had the best opportunity to work. And I also dared to draw my first lienless artworks! I believe I am slowly getting better. I certainly try my best, especially for my husband and child. My baby turned one this year, learned to walk and communicate with us. The ways he has to show affection are nothing like I have ever seen before. He is truly a blessing, although he can sure be a curse at the same time. I have sucessfully breast fed him ever since he was born, giving me 14 months of breast feeding so far and still going! I am very proud of that!
I have improved as a person a lot this year. Being a mom truly have opened my eyes to what is important. I have learned to be better as a human, as a mother and as a friend. I learned how to avoid toxic people and I have distanced myself from all the people that casued mayhem, damage and anxiety in my life. I am overall much more mature, I feel at home and I feel safe. I never want to go back to where I was before. This is where I truly belong! ^^
Overall I want to list the things I am proud of this year
β¨ 14 months breast feeding and going!
β¨ Pretty much made a PHD in babies
β¨ comic finally launched and reached my first goal on Patreon
β¨ created my first lineless artwork
β¨ in the process of recovering from depression
β¨ managed to get back to work (3-4 hours a day) without neglecting my baby :)
β¨ Reached 17k followers on FA and 22k on Twitter! WOO! At 25k and 30k on Twitter I will hold some sort of raffle for sure!
Plans for next year?
π¦ Focus on my comic mainly
π¦ Improve my art with studies and sketches
π¦ Switch to Clip Studio and Procreate as my main art tools
π¦ Spend time with my family
π¦ Get back in shape after I end breastfeeding
I hope I can accomplish at least half of these goals. Let's see what the future brings!
I am positive even if fighting depression I try to look at my life objectively and I can see a lot of good happening.
Having a family gave me a solid goal. I feel I know where I belong and when my judgement isn't clouded by depression and anxiety, I know this is where I want to be and what makes me happy.
Wishing you once again a wonderful Holiday!
Overall this has been a good year to me, though it obviously could've been better. I have experienced post natal depression and I am now working my way out of it with professional help. It has affected me and my art a lot, but I am lucky enough to have a wonderful family and friends in my life that make it worth fighting. I suffered from my first ever large burnout, where I found myself completely unable to draw anything. I also strained my arm so bad I had to take over a week off creating when I had the best opportunity to work. And I also dared to draw my first lienless artworks! I believe I am slowly getting better. I certainly try my best, especially for my husband and child. My baby turned one this year, learned to walk and communicate with us. The ways he has to show affection are nothing like I have ever seen before. He is truly a blessing, although he can sure be a curse at the same time. I have sucessfully breast fed him ever since he was born, giving me 14 months of breast feeding so far and still going! I am very proud of that!
I have improved as a person a lot this year. Being a mom truly have opened my eyes to what is important. I have learned to be better as a human, as a mother and as a friend. I learned how to avoid toxic people and I have distanced myself from all the people that casued mayhem, damage and anxiety in my life. I am overall much more mature, I feel at home and I feel safe. I never want to go back to where I was before. This is where I truly belong! ^^
Overall I want to list the things I am proud of this year
β¨ 14 months breast feeding and going!
β¨ Pretty much made a PHD in babies
β¨ comic finally launched and reached my first goal on Patreon
β¨ created my first lineless artwork
β¨ in the process of recovering from depression
β¨ managed to get back to work (3-4 hours a day) without neglecting my baby :)
β¨ Reached 17k followers on FA and 22k on Twitter! WOO! At 25k and 30k on Twitter I will hold some sort of raffle for sure!
Plans for next year?
π¦ Focus on my comic mainly
π¦ Improve my art with studies and sketches
π¦ Switch to Clip Studio and Procreate as my main art tools
π¦ Spend time with my family
π¦ Get back in shape after I end breastfeeding
I hope I can accomplish at least half of these goals. Let's see what the future brings!
I am positive even if fighting depression I try to look at my life objectively and I can see a lot of good happening.
Having a family gave me a solid goal. I feel I know where I belong and when my judgement isn't clouded by depression and anxiety, I know this is where I want to be and what makes me happy.
Wishing you once again a wonderful Holiday!
β οΈ My comic launched!!
General | Posted 5 years agoHey guys!
I have finally achieved my second Patreon goal and I can now guarantee at least one page of my comic a month! I have already started releasing the pages and I plan to post up to 3 pages monthly, if I have enough time! My comic becomes now my main focus.
If you want to have a month early access to them, please consider supporting me on Patreon!
If you haven't yet seen the intro, here it is!
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/28502583/
https://www.patreon.com/furlana
What additional perks do you get?
+ exclusive access to a monthly adult fanart poster
+ voting rights for the next fanart and many more topics
+ exclusive access to my sketches
+ early access to my YCH and the possibility to claim them before they become public (I doubt any of them reach public anymore, my Patrons grab them whenever I post them)
... and many more!
I hope you continue enjoying my work and consider helping me make a living of my art~!
I have finally achieved my second Patreon goal and I can now guarantee at least one page of my comic a month! I have already started releasing the pages and I plan to post up to 3 pages monthly, if I have enough time! My comic becomes now my main focus.
If you want to have a month early access to them, please consider supporting me on Patreon!
If you haven't yet seen the intro, here it is!
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/28502583/
https://www.patreon.com/furlana
What additional perks do you get?
+ exclusive access to a monthly adult fanart poster
+ voting rights for the next fanart and many more topics
+ exclusive access to my sketches
+ early access to my YCH and the possibility to claim them before they become public (I doubt any of them reach public anymore, my Patrons grab them whenever I post them)
... and many more!
I hope you continue enjoying my work and consider helping me make a living of my art~!
π A short but much needed break
General | Posted 5 years agoThanks so much for so many of your wondereful and supporting messages. It seems that I might acutally suffer from a burnout as well as depression due to too high expectations of myself. I hoped I was going to be hyper productive once I am able to get back to drawing and I didn't get under cosnideration that I could need an adjustment period and I definitely won't be as flexible as I used to be, due to lack of sleep.
All the positvie comments about my art lately have actually boosted my spirit a bit and I will try my best to be kinder to myself. I took a step back and looked at my improvement over the years and even though I am still not where I wish I was, I think I'm not that bad either. I suppose I can see the light and now I need to work to go in it's direction without any more detours. My husband has gone out of his way and slept on the sofa with Ambrose for a few days so that I can get some sleep and I already feel much calmer. He on the other hand... Well. He can survive at work I hope.
I have decided to take more or less a week off, to gather my thoughts, decide where to go and what to do. I have also decided to subscribe to a color theory course (I have not yet decided which so if you have any recommendations, please leave me a link!) to improve my understanding of coloring. Maybe later on I can do one on landscapes and scenery. These are the things I could really use some more knowledge.
I have picked up slow sketches, trying out new brushes without the urge for a perfect final result and it feels better. I am improving slowly.
Once again thank you so much for your positive feedback. I don't know where would I be without you in my life guys. It means the world to me to have such a wodnerful audience and friends.
And a special shoutout to
Aomori and 
Yasmil. My head is finally cleared from all the dark clouds. I am so happy to have welcomed you again into my life. I look forward to chatting more often and maybe after this whole terrible lockdown is over, to a meeting by the sea for some nice coffee!
And another special shoutout to my dear Patrons
and 
Thank you for being so kind to me and so positive. I am truly blessed to have such a solid bunch of friends!
Stay put, there will be sketches incoming to my Patreon soon. I hope we will all enjoy them!
All the positvie comments about my art lately have actually boosted my spirit a bit and I will try my best to be kinder to myself. I took a step back and looked at my improvement over the years and even though I am still not where I wish I was, I think I'm not that bad either. I suppose I can see the light and now I need to work to go in it's direction without any more detours. My husband has gone out of his way and slept on the sofa with Ambrose for a few days so that I can get some sleep and I already feel much calmer. He on the other hand... Well. He can survive at work I hope.
I have decided to take more or less a week off, to gather my thoughts, decide where to go and what to do. I have also decided to subscribe to a color theory course (I have not yet decided which so if you have any recommendations, please leave me a link!) to improve my understanding of coloring. Maybe later on I can do one on landscapes and scenery. These are the things I could really use some more knowledge.
I have picked up slow sketches, trying out new brushes without the urge for a perfect final result and it feels better. I am improving slowly.
Once again thank you so much for your positive feedback. I don't know where would I be without you in my life guys. It means the world to me to have such a wodnerful audience and friends.
And a special shoutout to
Aomori and 
Yasmil. My head is finally cleared from all the dark clouds. I am so happy to have welcomed you again into my life. I look forward to chatting more often and maybe after this whole terrible lockdown is over, to a meeting by the sea for some nice coffee!And another special shoutout to my dear Patrons
and 
Thank you for being so kind to me and so positive. I am truly blessed to have such a solid bunch of friends!
Stay put, there will be sketches incoming to my Patreon soon. I hope we will all enjoy them!
Creative hiatus
General | Posted 5 years agoI am in such a deep cave of despair and creative death I have to vent. I'm sorry, I don't usually need to do this, but as I tried many things before, maybe this will get it off my chest.
Everyone around me keep telling me 'it's fine, gtive yourself some time, relax', 'do it tomorrow', 'it'll pass' or my husband who is the absolutew worse liar 'it doesn't look THAT bad'.
For a month I have been suffering from the biggest artblock I have ever expeirenced. And I do not say this lightly, as I don't really believe there is suhc a thing as an artblock. I have so little time to sit and draw... 3 hours a day is my absolute top and... I can't draw. I feel like a complete fraud. I have taken in commissions and ever since I sketched them out I seem to be absolutely uncapable of rendering them. I start over and over and over forever and each time it's complete rubbish (I'm very sorry, my lovely commissioners, I promise I will keep at it until it looks good). I've deleted the results of so many hours by now I really feel like I'm on the verge of tears. I don't have time for this... I need to work, make money and actually complete my assignements and I have to pay my mom for her time when she looks after Ambrose for me during these 3 hours... And I feel I've beend drawing worse and worse for a month now. I study the works of the artists I admire most, I try to take a diferent approach, I use diferent techniques, different layer properties. I tried drawing on my iPad as well as on my Cintiq. I've tried Photoshop, SAI, Clip Studio and Corel. Jezus F.n Christ, enough is enough. I am running out of ideas and I really really feel like I've run out of creative juice. I'm dry af. My imagination is failing me, My sense of color is failing me, my sense of composition is failing me and most of all my creative ideas are drained.
I've been drawing for 20 years. 20 years, for many of these years it's been a daily activity. And I still hit a wall and it's a wall I can't seem to jump over. I'm stuck, oh god I'm stuck so bad. Looking at all the newest art from other artists is making me even more miserable.
Maybe I can't draw anymore? Maybe I need to stop and find something else to do with my time. I've felt like I am completely useless as an artist ever since I gave birth. I feel like I won't achieve anything more than I already have. Like this is the top of my possibilites and I can't even reach it anymore...
I love drawing, at least I used to. Now it's just making me anxious the longer I waste time on a piece that looks back at me and makes me want to throw my tablet out of the window.
I'm so angry at myself and at this point I have become super impatient and I feel like now I just do mistakes and draw shit just becasue I'm trying to rush it to see if the result is once again BAD.
I haven't slept a full 3 hours for a year almost and well, it doesn't seem likely to happen anytime soon. So I can't wait until it gets better.
Help. what can I do? Did anyone find any consistent way to get out of an art block this severe?
I was trying to make pizza dough today. And I got so impatient while trying to mold it into a pizza shape I actually threw the dough at a wall.
Wasting time, I'm wasitng time constantly. I don't have time. For anything. And the time I get I WASTE on doing things badly.
Sorry for ranting.
To all my commissioners, I assure you I will provide the best of my quality. and I won't finish until you and me are satisfied with the result.
Funnily enough the commissions I've done so far have been met with great appretiation. It's almost as if people don't see what I see. And that's what makes me feel like a fraud.
I was never happy with anything I made, I only sometimes liked the sketch phase and later on it was always a ride downhill for me. I've never been proud of any artwork at it's end result. It used to keep me going and motivate me to spend more time looking for answers, solutions and draw more and explore, but now it's got me stuck and hitting a wall.
Everyone around me keep telling me 'it's fine, gtive yourself some time, relax', 'do it tomorrow', 'it'll pass' or my husband who is the absolutew worse liar 'it doesn't look THAT bad'.
For a month I have been suffering from the biggest artblock I have ever expeirenced. And I do not say this lightly, as I don't really believe there is suhc a thing as an artblock. I have so little time to sit and draw... 3 hours a day is my absolute top and... I can't draw. I feel like a complete fraud. I have taken in commissions and ever since I sketched them out I seem to be absolutely uncapable of rendering them. I start over and over and over forever and each time it's complete rubbish (I'm very sorry, my lovely commissioners, I promise I will keep at it until it looks good). I've deleted the results of so many hours by now I really feel like I'm on the verge of tears. I don't have time for this... I need to work, make money and actually complete my assignements and I have to pay my mom for her time when she looks after Ambrose for me during these 3 hours... And I feel I've beend drawing worse and worse for a month now. I study the works of the artists I admire most, I try to take a diferent approach, I use diferent techniques, different layer properties. I tried drawing on my iPad as well as on my Cintiq. I've tried Photoshop, SAI, Clip Studio and Corel. Jezus F.n Christ, enough is enough. I am running out of ideas and I really really feel like I've run out of creative juice. I'm dry af. My imagination is failing me, My sense of color is failing me, my sense of composition is failing me and most of all my creative ideas are drained.
I've been drawing for 20 years. 20 years, for many of these years it's been a daily activity. And I still hit a wall and it's a wall I can't seem to jump over. I'm stuck, oh god I'm stuck so bad. Looking at all the newest art from other artists is making me even more miserable.
Maybe I can't draw anymore? Maybe I need to stop and find something else to do with my time. I've felt like I am completely useless as an artist ever since I gave birth. I feel like I won't achieve anything more than I already have. Like this is the top of my possibilites and I can't even reach it anymore...
I love drawing, at least I used to. Now it's just making me anxious the longer I waste time on a piece that looks back at me and makes me want to throw my tablet out of the window.
I'm so angry at myself and at this point I have become super impatient and I feel like now I just do mistakes and draw shit just becasue I'm trying to rush it to see if the result is once again BAD.
I haven't slept a full 3 hours for a year almost and well, it doesn't seem likely to happen anytime soon. So I can't wait until it gets better.
Help. what can I do? Did anyone find any consistent way to get out of an art block this severe?
I was trying to make pizza dough today. And I got so impatient while trying to mold it into a pizza shape I actually threw the dough at a wall.
Wasting time, I'm wasitng time constantly. I don't have time. For anything. And the time I get I WASTE on doing things badly.
Sorry for ranting.
To all my commissioners, I assure you I will provide the best of my quality. and I won't finish until you and me are satisfied with the result.
Funnily enough the commissions I've done so far have been met with great appretiation. It's almost as if people don't see what I see. And that's what makes me feel like a fraud.
I was never happy with anything I made, I only sometimes liked the sketch phase and later on it was always a ride downhill for me. I've never been proud of any artwork at it's end result. It used to keep me going and motivate me to spend more time looking for answers, solutions and draw more and explore, but now it's got me stuck and hitting a wall.
π Commission auction this Friday
General | Posted 5 years agoIf you're looking to get your hands on some art from me, get ready!
I will be hosting a commission auction this Friday. This wil be the only publicly opened slot for October and the winner will get priority in the queue.
I expect to open 1 slot for Patrons too, but as I can only take in as little, it can't be guaranteed if the interest is big.
The higher the bid the more detail and the wider the range of the commission available. Starting at a halfbody with an atmoshperic background up to a 2-character with a full background.
Payment plans available for payments larger than 200β¬ with at least 200β¬ paid after auction ends.
For anyone interested, please take your time to think if you'd like to take part~!
An YCH auction for Spooktober and 5 flat priced Dickember YCHs for December! Please note that all flat priced YCH are announced on Patreon first and the Patrons have an opportunity to snag the slots before they become public.
That's about it for this year!
I truly hope I could do more next year, but so far it doesn't look like I will have more time to work.
Stay safe everyone!
I will be hosting a commission auction this Friday. This wil be the only publicly opened slot for October and the winner will get priority in the queue.
I expect to open 1 slot for Patrons too, but as I can only take in as little, it can't be guaranteed if the interest is big.
The higher the bid the more detail and the wider the range of the commission available. Starting at a halfbody with an atmoshperic background up to a 2-character with a full background.
Payment plans available for payments larger than 200β¬ with at least 200β¬ paid after auction ends.
For anyone interested, please take your time to think if you'd like to take part~!
What comes next?
An YCH auction for Spooktober and 5 flat priced Dickember YCHs for December! Please note that all flat priced YCH are announced on Patreon first and the Patrons have an opportunity to snag the slots before they become public.
That's about it for this year!
I truly hope I could do more next year, but so far it doesn't look like I will have more time to work.
Stay safe everyone!
π¦ Monthly plan and commission openings
General | Posted 5 years agoHey guys,
I have more or less come up with a working schedule for my next few months. I have around 3-4 hours daily to work, 4 times a week.
Becasue of that the amount of work I can take in isn't too big and I still want to spend most time working on my comic. So I expect 1 auction monthly (every second month it will be a YCH or a general commission auction).
If I have additional time I will open for commission on my Patreon, with Patrons 6$+ getting the opportunity to place their orders and Patrons 35$+ receiving priority in the queue. I can't guarantee I can accept all applications I get, but I will try to slowly work through the queue when I can.
That being said, next month I have a commission auction about to take place which comes along with the priority in the queue! The higher the bid the more details and additional characters are possible.
The rest of the month I'll be working on my comic as well as the fanart poster which is currently being voted on on my Patreon :)
Thanks for your huge interest and constant positive messages during this hard time!
You make me smile everyday and I can't wait to go back fulltime whenever that might be possible!
For updates, please take a look at my Trello! https://trello.com/b/b7Q04nty/furla.....-queue-updates
I have more or less come up with a working schedule for my next few months. I have around 3-4 hours daily to work, 4 times a week.
Becasue of that the amount of work I can take in isn't too big and I still want to spend most time working on my comic. So I expect 1 auction monthly (every second month it will be a YCH or a general commission auction).
If I have additional time I will open for commission on my Patreon, with Patrons 6$+ getting the opportunity to place their orders and Patrons 35$+ receiving priority in the queue. I can't guarantee I can accept all applications I get, but I will try to slowly work through the queue when I can.
That being said, next month I have a commission auction about to take place which comes along with the priority in the queue! The higher the bid the more details and additional characters are possible.
The rest of the month I'll be working on my comic as well as the fanart poster which is currently being voted on on my Patreon :)
Thanks for your huge interest and constant positive messages during this hard time!
You make me smile everyday and I can't wait to go back fulltime whenever that might be possible!
For updates, please take a look at my Trello! https://trello.com/b/b7Q04nty/furla.....-queue-updates
π¦ Monthly plan and commission openings
General | Posted 5 years agoHey guys,
I have more or less come up with a working schedule for my next few months. I have around 3-4 hours daily to work, 4 times a week.
Becasue of that the amount of work I can take in isn't too big and I still want to spend most time working on my comic. So I expect 1 auction monthly (every second month it will be a YCH or a general commission auction).
If I have additional time I will open for commission on my Patreon, with Patrons 6$+ getting the opportunity to place their orders and Patrons 35$+ receiving priority in the queue. I can't guarantee I can accept all applications I get, but I will try to slowly work through the queue when I can.
That being said, next month I have a commission auction about to take place which comes along with the priority in the queue! The higher the bid the more details and additional characters are possible.
The rest of the month I'll be working on my comic as well as the fanart poster which is currently being voted on on my Patreon :)
Thanks for your huge interest and constant positive messages during this hard time!
You make me smile everyday and I can't wait to go back fulltime whenever that might be possible!
I have more or less come up with a working schedule for my next few months. I have around 3-4 hours daily to work, 4 times a week.
Becasue of that the amount of work I can take in isn't too big and I still want to spend most time working on my comic. So I expect 1 auction monthly (every second month it will be a YCH or a general commission auction).
If I have additional time I will open for commission on my Patreon, with Patrons 6$+ getting the opportunity to place their orders and Patrons 35$+ receiving priority in the queue. I can't guarantee I can accept all applications I get, but I will try to slowly work through the queue when I can.
That being said, next month I have a commission auction about to take place which comes along with the priority in the queue! The higher the bid the more details and additional characters are possible.
The rest of the month I'll be working on my comic as well as the fanart poster which is currently being voted on on my Patreon :)
Thanks for your huge interest and constant positive messages during this hard time!
You make me smile everyday and I can't wait to go back fulltime whenever that might be possible!
π Life update and plans for the future!
General | Posted 5 years agoHey guys!
Ambrose soon will be 9 months old, I'm so happy and proud. I'm doing better and better with each day now, I'm still breast feeding so my liveliness isn't what it used to be still - it really makes you perpetually tired and he is one hungry pancake π₯β€οΈ
He doesn't sleep too well, we wake up every hour or 2 and ultimately get up at 5 am...
We are now actively searching for help with taking care of him from 3-5h daily, so I can slowly get back to work. But I've also used every opportunity I get to draw and develop my comic and I'm finally sketching the first chapter, so you can expect to see more of me around, as I'm sure you've noticed. All the panels are set, the cover is coming soon π all the character concepts for the chapter are done and the interior models are being worked on for faster background drawing π
My time for art improved ever since I switched to using my iPad as the main art medium. I continue to develop skills to use procreate as my main tool now and I will be making the comic in it too! I'm really eager to get back to drawing on a daily basis! πͺ
Patreon news
I'll focus on the comic but you'll be able to grab a sketch commission or a ych from time to time with priority in ordering going to Patrons if the 15$+ tier β€οΈ
If you want to snatch a commission slot,
I mostly open slots for my Patrons now as I don't have a lot of time in my hands.
Im also thinking of creating a tier for tutoring, if anyone would be interested in sending me their work, sketches or anything else and I would, to my best knowledge prepare for an hour weekly meeting on discord and share what I know to help you improve, as well as help fix or redraw what you send me, while sharing guidelines of how I work and what would I change etc.
Some people have been asking for it, so I'm considering it π
Thank you so much for sticking with me!
I'm sorry I have been less active here on Fa, but it's hard when I don't really have any new content to post. This week I hope to update my gallery a bit with my latest sketches and commissions that aren't here yet!
Hope you've been well β€οΈ and a warm welcome to all my new watchers! Thank you so much for your constant support! You're awesome ππ
β οΈ Adoptable base SUGGESTIONS NEEDED!
General | Posted 5 years agoEDIT
Becasue there are so many amazing suggestions and it would be really hard to fit this all into one base - I propose a solution.
I will create one universal base (with relatively small amount of body shapes etc. as it's just super hard to do and at the same time make them fit all heads, species and accessories) and create themed addons for that base (such as for ex. 'farm' addon extending the species to all farm animals, 'mystic' addon with more dragons, driards, centaurs etc.).
I will also create separate bases for certain species - such as a separate base for felines with more body type ranges and generally more focused on the species itself, than on the variety.
This way everyone could invest in what they preffer :)
Who wants more species in one, could buy the large base with addons. And who preffers a certain species, they will be able to purchase a smaller base, but focused on one type of animal! Of course these will be cheaper than the large base, so I hope I can meet everyone's taste this way :) These smaller bases will probably also have a muzzle close-up! :)
I also sort of want to create a base for clothes... And this would be a whole separate base (chibi!) with just a basic body with and without boobs (you'll be abloe to modify these yourselves, since it's too much redrawing for each breast size than it's worth it and this way i can focus on more clothing options and designs). I'm aiming for a set of bases where you could get all and they would be complimentary and you could create your own bigger or smaller ref sheets :)
Hey guys!
After I am done with my current commission batch I want to create a new adoptable base!
I will create separately one feminine and one masculine base - becasue it's easier for shapes and proportions. Both bases will have NSFW elements both male and female genitalia.
I kindly ask that you suggest what species and features you'd like to see represented there!
Feel free to list more than one :)
By features I mean for ex. monster paws, kinds of wings, additional limbs, tails etc.
All ideas will be considered, so don't be shy!
Becasue there are so many amazing suggestions and it would be really hard to fit this all into one base - I propose a solution.
I will create one universal base (with relatively small amount of body shapes etc. as it's just super hard to do and at the same time make them fit all heads, species and accessories) and create themed addons for that base (such as for ex. 'farm' addon extending the species to all farm animals, 'mystic' addon with more dragons, driards, centaurs etc.).
I will also create separate bases for certain species - such as a separate base for felines with more body type ranges and generally more focused on the species itself, than on the variety.
This way everyone could invest in what they preffer :)
Who wants more species in one, could buy the large base with addons. And who preffers a certain species, they will be able to purchase a smaller base, but focused on one type of animal! Of course these will be cheaper than the large base, so I hope I can meet everyone's taste this way :) These smaller bases will probably also have a muzzle close-up! :)
I also sort of want to create a base for clothes... And this would be a whole separate base (chibi!) with just a basic body with and without boobs (you'll be abloe to modify these yourselves, since it's too much redrawing for each breast size than it's worth it and this way i can focus on more clothing options and designs). I'm aiming for a set of bases where you could get all and they would be complimentary and you could create your own bigger or smaller ref sheets :)
Hey guys!
After I am done with my current commission batch I want to create a new adoptable base!
I will create separately one feminine and one masculine base - becasue it's easier for shapes and proportions. Both bases will have NSFW elements both male and female genitalia.
I kindly ask that you suggest what species and features you'd like to see represented there!
Feel free to list more than one :)
By features I mean for ex. monster paws, kinds of wings, additional limbs, tails etc.
All ideas will be considered, so don't be shy!
β οΈ Adoptable base ON SALE this week!
General | Posted 5 years agoMy adoptable base is on sale this week! Get it for 25$ now~
https://gumroad.com/furlana
https://gumroad.com/furlana
https://gumroad.com/furlana
Sale ends 15th of May :)
https://gumroad.com/furlana
https://gumroad.com/furlana
https://gumroad.com/furlana
Sale ends 15th of May :)
πΌ&π¨ Update on commissions and life
General | Posted 5 years agoHey guys!
I decided I should post a little update as to what is happening, when will I be back, when and how to get a commission from me...
Truth be told it's super hard for me to find time to work even after half a year has already passed since I gave birth to the joy of my life - Ambrose.
I still can only work weekends and it's not like I have a full day on my hands. My husband takes care of Ambrose for a few hours and then he moves on to cleaning, cooking and generally trying to keep out house in one piece, so I have around 4-5 hours tops on Saturday and Sunday that I can dedicate for work. And sometimes Ambrose is just on a rampage and he doesn't accpet anyone else than mom... So my husband really isn't an option :D ONLY MOM. So I end up with the little koala bear clinging to me for an entire day. The rest of the week is pretty much the same.
I got a real treat of a baby. He grows super fast and is really wonderful to be around. He smiles and laughs a lot, but he needs an active caretaker to be this way. There is simply no option in putting him away and trying to do anything esle. It's understandable, becasue babies this small don't get the concept that after you vanish from their view, you didn't cease existing. So he basically fears I abandoned him and I can't have him think that for a second! My maternal instinct is super strong and any squeal he makes gives me an instant headache...
I still barely find time to eat and I have to take him with me to the bathroom!
He still eats around 10-15 times a day and needs changing at least after every meal or even more often :D Fun times! The good news is I gotten so good at both of these things, I can basically do them without thinking now. And I gained the super-human skills of every mom where I can eat, pee and play with the baby at the same time. While talking on the phone!
And well... Feeding got a bit difficult recently, becasue Ambrose just grew his first tiny tooth! And is biting the hell out of me to get some relief... So that's not fun. But we will start to soon expand his diet, so... Not much will change at first, but let's hope he will reserve the chewing for the veggies!
I am however super happy with my new life and my family is the most important thing in the world to me right now! I didn't feel this happy before or this fulfilled. Being a mom truly is my purpose in life. But also I want to be an active artist... But family comes first :)
I don't accept any larger commissions or any background work. It needs too much time to focus and I generally keep being interrupted every 10 minutes, so I can only work on things that don't require much focus, so that I don't spoil the artwork with trying to hurry it up.
I sadly can't specify when will this situation change, as my baby really suprised me with how much attention and constant care he needs from me.
My patrons of tiers 15$+ have priority ordering my commissions. To them I occasionally offer fullbodies and thigh-up commissions.
And other than that I only offer headshots commissions via Twitter!
Here are examples of what they look like: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35301044/
I try to open a few slots every weekend. Sometimes I can get them done within a week, sometimes two. Sometimes three, but that is an extreme situation for now.
You can check all my updates and current queue, as well as where to grab slots and when on my trello!
I hope you understand my situation and keep supporting me in this struggle to juggle between family and work! I am trying my very best and with the current COVID situation, I need to try and help my husband support us best I can, becasue it's been rough on his side of the plate.
I decided I should post a little update as to what is happening, when will I be back, when and how to get a commission from me...
Truth be told it's super hard for me to find time to work even after half a year has already passed since I gave birth to the joy of my life - Ambrose.
I still can only work weekends and it's not like I have a full day on my hands. My husband takes care of Ambrose for a few hours and then he moves on to cleaning, cooking and generally trying to keep out house in one piece, so I have around 4-5 hours tops on Saturday and Sunday that I can dedicate for work. And sometimes Ambrose is just on a rampage and he doesn't accpet anyone else than mom... So my husband really isn't an option :D ONLY MOM. So I end up with the little koala bear clinging to me for an entire day. The rest of the week is pretty much the same.
I got a real treat of a baby. He grows super fast and is really wonderful to be around. He smiles and laughs a lot, but he needs an active caretaker to be this way. There is simply no option in putting him away and trying to do anything esle. It's understandable, becasue babies this small don't get the concept that after you vanish from their view, you didn't cease existing. So he basically fears I abandoned him and I can't have him think that for a second! My maternal instinct is super strong and any squeal he makes gives me an instant headache...
I still barely find time to eat and I have to take him with me to the bathroom!
He still eats around 10-15 times a day and needs changing at least after every meal or even more often :D Fun times! The good news is I gotten so good at both of these things, I can basically do them without thinking now. And I gained the super-human skills of every mom where I can eat, pee and play with the baby at the same time. While talking on the phone!
And well... Feeding got a bit difficult recently, becasue Ambrose just grew his first tiny tooth! And is biting the hell out of me to get some relief... So that's not fun. But we will start to soon expand his diet, so... Not much will change at first, but let's hope he will reserve the chewing for the veggies!
I am however super happy with my new life and my family is the most important thing in the world to me right now! I didn't feel this happy before or this fulfilled. Being a mom truly is my purpose in life. But also I want to be an active artist... But family comes first :)
Commissions
I don't accept any larger commissions or any background work. It needs too much time to focus and I generally keep being interrupted every 10 minutes, so I can only work on things that don't require much focus, so that I don't spoil the artwork with trying to hurry it up.
I sadly can't specify when will this situation change, as my baby really suprised me with how much attention and constant care he needs from me.
My patrons of tiers 15$+ have priority ordering my commissions. To them I occasionally offer fullbodies and thigh-up commissions.
And other than that I only offer headshots commissions via Twitter!
Here are examples of what they look like: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35301044/
I try to open a few slots every weekend. Sometimes I can get them done within a week, sometimes two. Sometimes three, but that is an extreme situation for now.
Commission updates and queue
You can check all my updates and current queue, as well as where to grab slots and when on my trello!
I hope you understand my situation and keep supporting me in this struggle to juggle between family and work! I am trying my very best and with the current COVID situation, I need to try and help my husband support us best I can, becasue it's been rough on his side of the plate.
