And I instantly think vancoufur mascot Castor needs to make a video admitting to something...

I come back to find out I have to use a modern browser to get around the stupid CAPTCHAs on FA, and my favorite female boot artist disabled their account. Not helping my mental health at all when things change that I can't cope with.

Urgh... So I didn't go to VF 2025 because I bought a lemon iPhone 13 Pro Max at the end of February that ONLY NOW has zero remaining hardware issues.

This drained all of my funds and donations for 3 months straight.

Combining this with issues with poor food security due to negligence and I have not had any savings to put towards computer hardware upgrades to cope with my poor mental health or being out there to find new friends after losing everyone.

But now that I have a functioning phone, I now have a profile on Barq! Not expecting much from having a profile there but if I let my mental health take me over, I would be constrained by my negativity and cabin fever.

I was evicted on June 20th and am now crammed in a bedroom in a shared living situation that doesn't enable any growth. In fact my social worker has leashed me preventing progress under threat of more forced evictions. My mental health team in the city I was relocated to gave up because "You're not motivated" because my environment was hurting my mental health, and they didn't want to put the effort to fix it.

At Howloween 2024, NONE of my long time respected friends wanted to talk to me. It seems all of BC's important furs heard about fresh rumors about me and decided all to ghost me and not acknowledge I exist even if I was standing next to someone they are perfectly fine with in the same elevator.

I've lost pretty much every single local friend that had clout to fight for me. In trying to get in touch with my local politician about my eviction was illegal in a normal tenancy situation, they have not yet setup an office due to a fresh election and being freshly elected. A catchment issue yet again.

Now I only have $35 left for food until the 18th so I will be further unmotivated because I'm crippled due to lack of food.

I've had a major mental health crisis in the last 24 hours and it as finally resulted in important VancouFur staff finally ghosting me and cutting ties for good.

VancouFur 2024 was a disaster with staff interactions. With my cemented eviction date of June 20th confirmed multiple times by my social worker, and the loss of pretty much all local fandom friends, I want to be acknowledged.

My social workers have set a new eviction date of June 19th. This time it is a forced removal from my current place.

As if it was a self fulfilling prophecy, I have managed to lose more friends.

I was told by the site admins to tone it down but I have lost emotional restraint and am currently severely depressed.

Unfortunately I have received 3 months notice so I am being evicted.

I literally have no clue what I did wrong, but speckLaz has 100% ceased contact and decided to block me on everything and he's now continued to do it with a time delay, so this was not a mistake.

He will not tell anyone why, he's just blocking because of something he knows but nobody else knows.

Griffith Observatory is now forever cursed for me. It is now a source of trauma.

Farewell, size confused dragon. I never got to really know you.

https://furry.engineer/@JackRacc/11.....10519987132638

Looks like I am the last fursuiter ever to go to LTX, and the ONLY fursuiter to directly interact with Linus Sebastian.

So yeah... That happened.

I survived.

@JackRacc@furry.engineer

It hurts me to inform everyone that my parents have denied getting involved in a housing search and made it strict that they would never search housing for me for life. My social worker is painting a grim picture of an eviction notice by Dec 1st and eviction by Jan 1st. I have no fallbacks and will become homeless if no one is able to help.

Please Help:

Kofi: https://ko-fi.com/jackvancouver
GoFundMe: https://www.gofundme.com/f/moving-t.....monton-alberta

It is with a heavy and concerned heart that I report the sudden death of my landlord. I'm extremely unsure how to move forward and whether I have some form of security moving forward.

https://www.gofundme.com/f/moving-t.....monton-alberta

Any Kofi donations would also be appreciated.

This is my public statement on it on Twitter. It's how I saw it happen, and other accounts are heavily biased to heresay and gossip.

https://twitter.com/Jack_Y_Zhang/st.....63997925306374

I did my work. I was praised for my work. This was a side incident that happened in a hotel room that turned into a major drama incident.

Old picture on Weasyl was just updated because I have now lost my cat Mimi for good due to my new living arrangement.

https://www.weasyl.com/~furryjackma.....9/goodbye-mimi

I just lost my internet connection and am desperately making this on my phone's data plan. I was going to share good news in a few months time but that is no longer the case. My content creation career is over. I'm at a point worse than what prompted the good news I was holding off on. I have no choice but to step out of the public eye and focus on therapy, as the loss was extremely traumatic. This will be the case for a very long time.

Close friends are allowed to contact me through IRL means, but no one else. I am no longer ready to step into a post pandemic world of socializing.

Edit: and right on cue, my browser is no longer supported by Weasyl. Can't make any posts there. It just keeps getting worse.

So Insomniac Games revealed the mystery lombax's name is Rivet yesterday.

I thought, maybe people would change their submission titles to give her more support. So I searched her name on FA search.

In the end, I just had to see the one trolling shock piece that no community manager for a IP wants to be the first search result. FA also denied the claim it was hate speech or inciting violence on that IP's fandom since its "fictional."

Unfortunately, that wasn't the first. Today a sadomasochist post was made of the character threatening to murder her. From a artist that has had a free pass murdering several intellectual properties like a serial killer. INTENTIONALLY INCITING VIOLENCE.

Do you honestly want those to be your top search results?

And of course nothing is going to be done about it because it's "In the realm of fiction."

You know what else is in that? Cub art. Yet that gets more attention as it could translate into what some people believe is concerning IRL behavior...

Sadomasochism involving murder gets a free pass?

Edit: Second claim denied. Apparently it does deserve a free pass.

Edit 2: And the murder submission came right on cue. Claim also denied.

My grandmother, Yong Yan Yuan, has just passed away.

And I'm genuinely suicidal right now.

As a relevant metaphor, if you were thrown into the sea without a liferaft, and everyone else around you was taught how to swim, the only choice is to drown, because you were never taught to swim. With a dysfunctional family, you can't survive in society because it was all abuse. When you lose nearly everyone because you weren't raised with etiquette in mind, but rather abuse, each attempt at making things better, only to be met with unconditional failure, means you have no self worth left, and suicide becomes an option. Considering how much I genuinely hate myself, I genuinely don't deserve to live if I have nothing left in this world.

See, I left MLP because there were way too many trolls and this came to a headway today with the fandom exploding over a image made specifically (and commissioned) to troll people on sensitive topics.

And unfortunately I know MANY MORE people in the fandom that I left that will find the image outrageously hilarious.

People are getting super defensive as "triggering" content often does, and it makes me NOT second guess the decision to leave MLP because of trolls preying on people who are sensitive to being triggered on some topics. If it's not them objectifying someone having an emotional (IRL) episode, it's taking the episodes and gossiping and joking about someone's misfortune, because they presented themselves in a way that deserved ridicule in a hive mindset.

Where's the empathy?

In being honest about how bad 8chan actually is, where they have no problems threatening to unveil personal data, and in trying to stop hate speech about this fandom... I apparently deserved a ban to an online community...

I'm already not okay, my liquid cooler for my CPU on my personal rig failed just before I was about to start an editing job with a local Autism support group tied to the local hockey team. I needed to replace it to start my work, but my abusive mom just told me "Whatever you're doing there is worthless. Am I obligated to pay towards you completing a job that in the end will be absolutely worthless? NO. You're gonna have to say to them TOO BAD. I'm not helping you."

Now add on top this situation and I'm damn near suicidal. Definitely extremely depressed now that I've lost my personal rig to failing equipment, and the online community that I go to so I can cope has rejected me. It was genuine hate speech and stating of facts... yet it came off as a personal attack.

I am VERY unwell, and I can snap at any moment. I may not survive this month, so genuinely pray for me.

George has been called an RP Whore, a Mary Sue, a creepy commenter by more than one person now.

This means he is an unliked character and moving forward I may just abandon him because people don't like him.

I made a Micro Fox character to treat myself to submission, but it went nowhere, and made enemies.

I made a Macro Fox character to fursuit as a Fennec not tied to the character, but I wrote his character to be a hopeless romantic anyways.

At this point, the safest thing is for me to quit as a writer, because if nobody likes when I try to be creative, but are rather repulsed by the creativity, there's no reason to carry that forward.

George's last story, where he's stuck in limbo because of a villain zapping him with a raygun, is where he will remain.

My raccoon fictional branch is also cancelled.

I should not try to please people if my work ends up being repulsive.