Yes Mmm good yes.
Can we?

Maybe.. if um.. aaa..
Anybody knows one.. maybe! or something... hook me up

So earlier in the year I got a new PC etc etc but after a lil while I had to deal with the fan hub going weird, replaced that ... fine. All good.
Then in August there was the SSD killing Windows update scare that happened.. well I was fine... w/e good.

But now I have a dodgy case fan (one of the ones in the front) and it goes brrrr until I push on it a little and then its good for the rest of a session, only when I boot up the PC the next day do I need to repeat... again thankfully its only a case fan but still a pain- so I asked the peeps who made my PC if they could point me in the direction of getting a new one just for the sake of matching the rest- fine! They were kind enough to send me one and my tired ass this morning thought it would be a good idea to get started and try to replace it..

... in the process (in this order!)... I...
- Stupidly couldn't figure out how to get the front part of the case off and like a complete fucking idiot broke the clips that hold the grate that sits in-front of the fans, so now that just sits snug instead of clipped in (thankfully it doesnt come out...)
- Gave up on that and followed the cables from the fan to find a hole they were routed through! NICE ... fuck it I think I can get the plugs out .. just barely.. good enough lets do that ...
-Take out the fan after trying to find a screwdriver short enough so I could unscrew them from inside the PC and remove it! ... NICE Getting somewhere!
- ........ wait I dont have the right plugs/cables here to replace the ones that were plugged into the fan hub.... fuck.... uhhh well I have one of them... and a SATA power lead on the new fan, lemme uh... try that ....
- Hook that up, plug in PC and power on ..... colours or speed dont match and I can't change it to either. BUGGER.
- Get annoyed now I have to somehow get the old fan BACK IN ... which painfully I managed to do after struggling with cable spaghetti... and well....

Now I'm back at the start. I didn't fuck up anything more than the clips on the case and my PC is still good at least.. it was only a case fan afterall but fml... I still have to push on it to realign the bearing on boot up... at least nothing has changed... everything works still and I am back to square one.

I just had to send an embarrassing email once more explaining my situation and that the fan they kindly sent FOR FREE can't actually be plugged in because it didn't have the same stuff as the old one... aaaa... I hate this...

...also yeah sorry for the lack of anything here... I'm still all messed up and have zero motivation... :( Sorry....

No idea why just for fun :3 Bonus points if extra floofy and smoochable!

Bash your head against a wall but want to hug those who mean the most to you...
But there are rare times when it's hard to tell the two of those things apart... :/

I dunno just.... musing...

76 years rocking is a long time- it was one of those sad realities knowing that he didn't have too long left and it was a matter of when not if.. Parkinsons is no laughing matter and he was in the late stages of it but kept fighting to the last minute!
We'll be hearing a lot about it over the next few days/weeks for sure since he was such an influence.. :(

Pour one for Ozzy, maybe listen to an album or even just a couple of songs~
RIP Dude you were fucking awesome o7

Welp with Google cracking down on Ublock Origin and other adblockers I've had my hand forced to switch browsers- thankfully I can transfer everything over (including the custom ubo filters I have had set up for certain sites... including this one!) and I just gotta remember to sign into sites as I go~!

Kinda shitty that this is how things have to go, but I'm sure thousands others will be doing it too- not too much else to get used to really!

...don't know...

I've not really been posting a whole bunch.. aa..
My back has been a lil better now for a couple of weeks but on the bad flip side my tooth situation got pretty dire- it became more than just sensitivity and waking up on saturday at 2.30am in agony was the tipping point.. I had already had a lil ache and finally got something booked but it wasn't going to be until the 20th.. and I just couldn't wait anymore so I had to have an emergency appointment in the late morning instead.. :/
Turns out my tooth was a lil fooked shall we say... the choice was tooth out or save it and take out the nerve... I chose the latter and had an urgent root canal to deal with it...
Thankfully that has turned out well but it has been an expense to deal with, both money wise and mood wise :(

I am still cutting about the site though and I'm still sorry I haven't uploaded or even done anything creative art wise either.. bleh

Was fine yesterday morning, then last night Im in agony once more like it was at the of last year.. :/ just.. fml
Im in bed right now after struggling just to use the bathroom and I feel so fucking useless.. I couldnt even bend down to pull my underwear up without struggling for a couple of minutes..
Im gonna have to go get looked at again but I still dont know what to do..
:(
Hope you're all okay though..sorry about my stupid rant

Yeah I dunno anymore lol
Would like to play more stuff maybe- and upload shit.. I have stuff sorted I think with files but.. weeh...motivation as always
Today is a bit of a dud day really..

Anybody?

A shiny one specifically... mmmmm chocolate syrup

Motivation to do this kind of stuff has been hard the last few years to be honest.. partially laziness and other times just.. I aaaa..
I know I've plenty I gotta put up on here and I really do wanna try and get back into some kind of art stuff myself some time-

Didn't post about it but I was made redundant and lost my job- found out at the start of the year... yeah.. what a time to find out huh? A new year, new hopes and nope.. fuck that..
I've been jobless for a month now and time is a fuck, routine is out the window and I have been feeling hopeless :( Bleh...

BUT YOU DONT WANNA HEAR ABOUT THAT!......

TITS AND DICKS AND ... ASSES AND fuck..

:/ brain wont shut off

YOU ARE VALID
We shouldn't need to keep repeating this but we will... over and over and over AND OVER

Has me thinking about Rokume from Beastars again~ I love them :3

Boop

Like... on certain sites and stuff comes up and its nice but then you see other stuff and its irl (not that irl stuff is bad for the record) and you go down a rabbit hole of things/people better nicer than you and you feel like you'll never be like them and fuck asdasdfdfhgdfhdf

So I went to clinic after a rude phonecall response from my director at work who was a bit of a prick about the whole thing.. fuck you Rob >:(
Anyway- it certainly was an experience, lots of questions as usual- but the checkup itself involved the usual checks on legs and response- then I had to lay down and have a whole both of feeling done to me.. which uh happened ;P ... I can't lie I kinda enjoyed it BUT NOT IN THAT WAY YOU PERVS ..
anyway it turns out my spine is curved weird, and my pelvis is tilted down moreso on one side~ That would also explain my weird walking gait and slight limp at times~

Anyway after some rejigging and some blood flow things and also weird ultrasound which was fun (not painful though which was nice) I'll be going back in next week for a follow-up appointment same time.. Being tall is a bitch and I guess from asking and him doing some complex measuring (hand on the wall :P) I guess I am about 6'4 afterall..

But ye... the work stuff is shit and whatever but while I'm not in the building it aint my problem. They can make it one but fuck em

HOW HAVE YOU PEEPS BEEN

The last week or so I've been ailed with back issues, it started last Sunday evening and just got worse over the next 24 hours or so- I couldn't really move, turn, get up.. sitting was a task... etc
Had to take a week off work because ..well yeah.. and I even ran out of food and barely ate anything or even drank water until Friday when I felt a lil better enough to be able to leave the house and Mum's other half took me to supermarket to pick up some stuff- was a bit of a mood booster and I felt like things were on the up and I could get back into work ready for the next week (this week now) ...turns out today I'm back at square one because now I am in pain once again, I can barely move in place..even walking is painful..

I don't know what the hell to do because various pain killers didn't and still don't work, anti-imflam tablets aint doing shit... I was hoping to avoid any kind of doctor stuff but I dunno if I can avoid that now..

It's shit because things were looking up..I was starting to feel better.. and now I feel like a useless piece of shit :/
FFS...

Sheep things... fluffy things...kisses and things

...would she be all black wool~? hmmm

yeah

...and all you get are small tufts ...
THATS NOT PUBES D:<
GIMME BUSH DAMNIT

♥ Give us a kiss n a snug give us a kiss n a snug