Hi... I've been gone for 9 months, but that friend of mine, Floofer Doo, told me he quit and asked if I could come back... he also taught me how to draw in his style and how to improve because people liked his style, definitely more than my style. So he's helping me get better so I can come back, but be better.. so... should I officially come back or am I better off staying away?

I'll be leaving... I talked with my friend and he says this site is stressing me out and I need to find a place where I won't be so angry and frustrated... the reason why I was doing requests and stuff because my friend saw my first submission when paying a visit out of respect for this site... he asked me via notes if I can take his place and spread happiness and compliments like he did, mostly because our sonas were very similar... well I'm not him so I failed and ended up causing pain to someone who doesn't deserve it... so yeah... I'll be leaving and finding happiness elsewhere.. but before I leave I'll be finishing a request that was given to me.. btw, I never revealed who this friend is.. some of you might know him WeebRoll. He misses this site and plans on coming back, and better than ever, according to what he says...

But yeah... after one final submission, I'll be gone.. if you still want to communicate then add me on Skype

1: My art style sucks
2: My content isn't even interesting
3: No one really cares about me or my well being
4: I just don't fit in
5: I don't upload very often
6: I can't even request or make commissions
7: All I ever do is vent or complain when, again, no one gives a fuck
8: I can't even do ych's
9: I'm not even a very interesting person
10: I literally have ONE fursona and I can't make another one for some reason...

yup... I got a skype like a loser...
it's on my page where social media and stuff is at...

I have a friend who's stressing out and saying hateful things towards... relationships... I know it sounds stupid, trust me... I think it's kinda dumb too... He told me a couple nights ago he's very lonely and it's agonizing and there's no one and this, that, and the other... Then earlier he said he thinks relationship and love is all bullshit and that he should never be with someone because he's "undesirable." I tell him there's someone out there for him but he says he's not lucky enough... This may sound like I'm being rude, but I don't know another way to put it... What do I say to make him shut up?...
I'm sorry to sound like a douche but it had to be said...

welp... talking to one person about my personal issues never worked... Guess I'm cursed with the inability to be cared for...
but here's why I'm so.. unhappy... and why It's hard to be happy

I have autism... and throughout to majority of my life, I wasn't treated like I was autistic... I was treated like any other kid. So I was always told to look someone in the eyes when speaking or spoken to, to not doze off/be in "lala" land, to listen and pay attention (despite my hearing problem). Then by society, I was taught that no one cares about what I have to say. My problems are meaningless, their problems are more important. Men shouldn't cry, crying is for wimps... Well... over the years it morphed me into something that cares too much, something that shows no sorrow, someone who shows too much empathy, someone who never properly learned to trust anyone... Whenever I talk to someone, they either don't understand, don't care, or choose to not listen because they are "so important." It was late high school I learned about my disability, but all it did was give me another burden... It was too late to repair what's been broken... When I "make a mistake" I yell at myself and scold myself, when I fuck up, I beat myself, when my mistakes go too far, I take things away from myself, whether it be games, phone, eating, and so on... I've came close to killing myself... I never told anyone what I would've done, but it's about time I said the truth... I hate messes, so I couldn't slit my wrists. I don't have something to hang myself with. But I had plenty of bags... But I chose to live... but now... I'm not sure...

For anyone who read this... go ahead... tell me... tell me how whiny I am... shoot me down.... you might as well

Was I wrong to join this site?... I hardly watch people anymore, I don't have many compliments, and I hardly ever upload things...

Yes, it HAS to be a DC character XD

Please give some moral support to  ledieuiciss
She's going through a hard time and she needs some help...

the lucky winner of my raffle is  Star-Eveline
Congrats to Star! :D

hopefully my next raffle will have more people XD

I'm sorry for what I said... I shouldn't have reacted the way I did... I just got frustrated for reasons I don't feel like talking about...
For anyone who hasn't seen it... It's best we keep it that way...
I'm not going to do what I said I was going to do... It's not worth it and it never is worth it...

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8570975/

Last day to join the raffle
Again, you're more than welcome to invite a friend to join :D

If you didn't get the chance, enter in my raffle and decide what I should draw, anything you want, I'll draw it if you win

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8570975/

If you want, send the link to your friends or other watchers, it's not limited to only watchers

I don't know what to draw, so I want you to tell me what I should draw

I know my skill is lacking... A lot... But I want you to choose for me. Should I do a ych and what of?