My boyfriend and I have broken up after 17 months together. We agreed that our long distance relationship was putting too much stress and unhappiness on me, and that it was for the best that we split up.
Neither of us wanted to break up...but yet here we are now. I already wasn't looking forward to Valentine's Day and now I wish it never even existed. I've never been asked out on dates to the movies, or dances, or dinner.
I really wish someone would set me up (not right now of course, but eventually) with a really sweet local guy....so I can finally have my first kiss....my first date....and just hold hands with somebody I deeply love. I've never had any of that :(

I've never smoked a cigarette or pot.
I've never taken a drug.
I've never had sex.
I've never even had my first, real kiss.
You may say I'm too careful, but I am damn proud of myself for being this patient for so long. How many of you will be able to look your future child in the eye and tell them what is right, without being a total hypocrite?
I have no religion telling me I can't. Nobody is stopping me from doing any of these things. Stop and think. You'll feel so much better with yourself...
It's not like I haven't been offered these things before either. I've been offered drugs, cigarettes, pot and even sex. Each time I turned them down, because I knew that one day I would find the right person for me.
I would find them and be able to tell them about my patience. I know that some people will look at me and think, "She's never lived" but there are many others that will respect what I have and have not done.
Those are the only people I would ever be involved with.
I've witnessed the failed marriages of my mother, failed relationships and the regrets that people felt after them. I learned from THEIR mistakes and I would much rather not make my own.
I understand that I can't influence people like I wish I could...I'm not a God. I've always had to be the responsible, mother-like figure in my life. And I treat my friends like children.
I shouldn't...and I'm sorry.

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