Check it out! Great opportunity for some great art!
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50349076/

Lali-ho! This is more towards my fellow Warriors of Light. I'm enjoying the heck out of posing, and am wanting to see if I can do things with multiple characters. If you're in the Crystal data center (until data center travel is up and running), feel free to hit me up, and we can do a couples or group pose.

I haven't been super active here, obviously. I'll definitely still be uploading art as I commission it, but I've been quite busy elsewhere. I stream on Twitch now (Monday, Wednesday, and Friday at 6PM Eastern Time, Saturday at 4PM). On a break from YouTube at the moment, but I'll be starting back up on uploads soon. I also have a discord channel set up to hang out, post announcements, and occasionally share gameplay over there. Come hang out, chat, and have a good time!

Twitch: https://www.twitch.tv/obscurejackal
YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCV.....F1nkUTClX0W2BQ
Discord: https://discord.gg/X6MfDXT

So, I've recently gotten into streaming more regularly on Twitch. I'm setting up stream alerts, and I want to commission someone to make some gifs that I can use.

I'll be looking around, but suggestions are appreciated.

If you want to check out my channel, or watch me play games, here it is: https://www.twitch.tv/obscurejackal

So, there was a shooting today in Virginia Beach, at the municipal center. 11 dead, 6 injured. The shooter was taken out by police.

My thoughts are with the friends and loved ones of the victims, and I hope those that were injured make a full recovery, physically, and as much of a recovery as they can, mentally. I know they'll never be the same.

Oh hey, look, I'm making a journal.

So, I figured I'd plug here, too. If anyone is interested, I'm streaming Link to the Past in about 10 minutes. It's a randomizer rom, so item locations are changed up, and makes for interesting game play. I also stream other games, like Winds of Change.

Weekday streams are usually at 6pm EST. I haven't decided a set time for weekend streams.

With all that said, my twitch channel is https://www.twitch.tv/obscurejackal

How? I'm sincerely amazed that I have that many watchers. It's not like I post that much!

Regardless, thank you all so much! Maybe one of these days I'll stop being a lazy doof and get back to writing and attempting art.

Hey everyone. Sorry I haven't been doing much, lately. Life's been crazy.

On the list of things, I fell victim to some political bullshit on my ship, and wound up in trouble. In light of the events, and seeing just how deep the political fuck-fuck games run, I'm not re-enlisting again. I have enough time to get my rank back, then I'm out.

On a more positive note, my appointment is coming up to determine my dosage for HRT, so I'll be starting on that soon.
I'm actually visiting my Mom, now, because I haven't told her about this yet. So, that's going to be an interesting conversation. It's actually mildly frustrating, because this is the first time in a while, off the ship, that I haven't been presenting as female. Blech.

And I had seen a bunch of people doing this Sarahah thing, and decided to do one myself. Just to see. If you'd like to leave a comment for me, mine is Imhara.Sarahah.com

I feel... lonely. This is new for me. Like, instead of my usual vague desire to meet up with folks and chat or whatever, I'm developing a legitimate desire to be in a serious relationship and settle down with someone. In the meantime, I've been feeling sad, because I want to have someone to cuddle with.

In other news, my creative spark seems to be getting quelled by stress. I tried to do some more drawing last night, but I just kind of... stared at the canvas angrily... I'm not doing so well, apparently.

So, I'm moved into my new apartment. Going to be busy for a while yet. Still have to get all my stuff situated when the movers bring it in, plus getting furniture, and various other things. Won't have internet there until Thursday. Which means I'm probably going to be delayed further from more drawing, which is unfortunate. However, I should have some time when on duty, so there's that. HAVE FUN!

So, I'm in Virginia now. I'll be trying to get more art done, but I'm still going to be busy for a while. Re-acclimating myself to ship life, going over the tech pubs for my system, etc. Unfortunately, I'm not going to have my own quiet space for a while, either, as I don't move into my apartment until the 16th, so I'll be stuck sleeping on the ship until then.

On a high note, though, I've gotten progressively better over the 3 headshots I've completed, and hope that trend will continue for the next 2. As soon as I've finished those, I'll open up some more slots, and they may be different. Like, busts, or maybe butts. Idk yet. Keep an eye out, as that set will be free as well.

On a side note, the free art will be for a limited time. How limited depends on my building a routine. When I get down to where I can complete little things in less than a day (with decent quality), I'm probably going to start charging. So get them while you can!

So, I've been working on the headshots. I really have. Maybe I should have posted a journal about this earlier, but I'm in the midst of a road trip to Virginia, going to a new duty station, and I'm visiting family and friends along the way. I haven't had a whole lot of time to do much drawing, so my work has been held up. It's still on my mind, and they will get finished, but it might be a little while yet.

I know they're free, but even so, thank you for your patience.

The very first picture I've drawn for someone else, actually. NOW FOR THE NEXT ONE!


...tomorrow...

Okay, so due to work, my work on the headshots got delayed. I've got  lexiegreywinds's sketch close to done now, so I am making progress, it's just slower than I had wanted it to be.

I need to practice heads. My heads are terrible. So I am going to practice them. Yes. This is the plan.

Anyway, gonna open 5 slots for now. Going to try to do one each day, but I can't guarantee the speed. Pretty much first come first served kinda deal here.

Slots-
1:  lexiegreywinds [started sketch]
2:  sff2k9
3:  shadowbane
4:  gorosaurus65
5:  quilliampen

So... yeah. Let's see how this goes.

Oh yes, and they will be flat colored. Maybe shaded.

Who the hell wants their computer to restart itself? Certainly not me. Kind of my own fault for not saving more consistently, but seriously, I just lost a good hour of work because of Windows 10 going "Oh, he stopped using his Surface Pro 4 for 5 minutes. Better restart and install updates."

Actually found the setting to where it won't do that anymore, but the damage has been done.

Drunk, waiting for Toukiden to finish downloading, and my Surface pro is done charging. Arbitrary scribble time! Whoo!

So, I got my Surface Pro 4. I haven't chosen what art program I'm going to use yet, but I wanted to use the basic program it happened to come with (Fresh Paint). Thing is, I finally have what I need to do the arting, and my brain just blanked. I don't know where to start!

So, I've got a Surface Pro 4 on the way, and one of the main things I'm going to be using it for is to start doing digital art. It's got pressure sensitivity and everything. Very neat bit of tech.

Anyway, my main question is, what would be a good program to start with? I'd like PS, but I really can't justify spending that kind of money, particularly considering my current lack of skill/practice, and the fact that I don't make money from arting. So, in lieu of that, what's a relatively cheapish program, that doesn't have too many bells and whistles? I'd rather not get overwhelmed with crazy functions right off the bat. ^^;

So, as I get more comfortable with myself, I've decided I need to start showing my 'true colors' more often. That said, after I get back from visiting my Mom, I'm going to be making some changes.

First, I'm going to start transitioning the kinds of clothes I wear. I've been using the same style since elementary school, and it's definitely time for a change, so I've chosen that change to represent my first real step towards eventually presenting as female in public, something I've nervously avoided for too long. With the help of a friend, I've gotten some clothes that are more androgynous than my current wardrobe.

Second, I'm going to sit down and seriously set myself a workout routine, something else I've really been needing to do. This will help me feel better, overall, and has the added benefit of letting me fit in my fursuit again.

Third, I want to be more active in the furry community. All of my posts recently have been pieces I've commissioned, and while that's all well and good, I'd like to put up some more OC. This means getting back into my writing, and working towards getting my Surface Pro 4 (which I started saving for in December), which will make it easier for me to focus on trying to draw things.

And finally, after reading some interesting articles on the subject, I've decided it's about time to really make the effort to quit smoking. For various reasons, I have decided that May 4th will be my drop date. I might try to cut down a bit in the meantime, but I'm not going to worry about it too much.

Anyway, that's it for now. We'll see how it all goes.

I don't normally do this, but she is a good friend of mine, and if she doesn't get some help, she and her fiance could lose their home. Please help them out.

Follow the link for more information:
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7301528/

I don't post enough. Here's a meme to break that little cycle.

Dear Ex:
I am sorry that I broke our relationship short. You're an amazing person, and you deserve happiness. More than I can provide with my lack of communication. If I hadn't been so focused inward, towards my own problems, maybe things could have been different.

Dear self:
You're lazy and un-motivated. Stop that. Get out more. Draw. Write. You can do it and you know it.

Dear mom:
I wish I didn't have to be so reserved with you. And I'm sorry, but once I begin my transition, if you can't accept who I am, I'll have to cut you out of my life. I hope that's temporary at worst, but I'm prepared to do it if I have to.

Dear dad:
You're an awesome person, despite your problems. I love that you're more worried about me being happy and safe, than you are about specifically what I do. But seriously, you need to talk to your other kids and I more.

Dear crush:
I'm sorry I'm not more forward. After another friend dropped me (and others) over a girl, I'm very hesitant to get into a relationship. I don't want to make the same mistake as he did.

Dear School:
Haha. I thought you were hard.

Dear siblings:
You're both absolutely amazing people. Brother, thank you for being so supportive of me when I let you know that I'm transgender. I'm still a little jealous of your talent and skill, but I know you work hard for it. That last part goes for you, too, Sister. You keep teaching those kids and loving life. The world needs the music that you bring.

Dear past me:
It gets better. It really does. And no, a relatively boring life is not a bad thing. It's a blessing. I wish you could see it as such.

Dear first love:
That was a long time ago... You're still a good person, and I'm sad we've lost track of each other.

Dear future me:
Keep motivated. Keep practicing. Keep learning. Do that, and everything will fall into place. It doesn't matter what other people think. If you think you look good, you look good.

Dear best friend:
Thanks for being so supportive, and I hope your project really takes off.

Dear future child:
Don't worry about your parentage. I will love you no matter what. Do what makes you happy, and I'll help you be successful.

Dear person I hate:
Go die. Seriously. Just fall into the ocean in the middle of the night. The world would be better off without you. You're a bully, and you don't deserve the position you've attained.

Dear person I love:
When I meet you, I will not let go.

Dear ex best friend:
You're an idiot. You don't drop your friends for someone you've known for less than 6 months. I'm still mad at you.

Dear people who hate me:
Meh. Your loss. I've been told I'm a fun person, and you're missing out.

Dear boy/girlfriend:
I'm not looking for a fling. If I invest that amount of time and effort into you, I'm expecting it to go somewhere. It's okay if it doesn't, because it does take effort to know whether we're really right for each other.


I've fallen back to lurking recently. That needs to change. I'm saving up for a Surface Pro 3 right now. When I get that, I'll really get on top of practicing art. I really want to do more with it.
Thankfully, money isn't a huge issue for me anymore. I'd like more, to do more things that I want to do, but I'm fairly happy where I'm at.
I started driving for Uber recently, and that's been a fun little boost in cash. Very interesting people. That'll continue once I get back to San Diego, as I don't have my car with me here in Colorado, and there's no way my dad's truck would qualify.

Okay. I think that's enough for now. I'm going back to enjoying my leave.

This fine individual needs a ride to the airport.
Go here for more detail: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:48048178

I am a 6 year veteran of the United States Navy. I've had hard times and good, late nights and early days. I work hard. At sea, I maintain systems to defend my brothers and sisters in arms, who fight for our freedoms. On shore, I help (indirectly) support my sick and wounded brethren, so they may fight another day.

Today, I give thanks to my brethren. To the ones far away from home, who continue to fight. To those who came before me, who sacrificed their time while I was still too young to do so. And most of all, I thank those who have given their lives, both in history and more recently, fighting on our country's behalf.

Happy Veteran's Day, everyone.

Undoubtedly related to the fact that I'm actually posting things, but I've had a sudden influx of favorites and watches.

To all my new watchers, and everyone that's favorited my stuff, Thank you.