Hi guys!

I decided to make this account available for people to look at as a sort of archive.
That, and if people wanna find me, I'm making it easier to do so!

Here's my new account:

 MilkMistress
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Anyway, I will officially not be logging into this account ever again. Please enjoy the art, and if you want more recent stuff, find me above!

I have a new account: MilkMistress Feel free to watch me there.

I have two commissions I owe, and if you'd still like them, also feel free to note me there. If not, I'll probably get ahold of you instead.

If you have any questions feel free to ask me about them over there.

I'll probably never post on this account again, but I do plan on drawing Candice and stuff in the future.

Hi there! I'm going to start using my journals for... well, more journal-e purposes, and making feel good posts, along with some discussion ones and all that jazz.

So I thought I'd start with putting a smile on someone's (or many someones!) face!

So first up we have "Please use this song" by Jon Lajoie!

- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PuQ.....A&index=24

The second is also by Jon Lajoie! "Started as a baby"

- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fAWvvE9w6Po

The third is by WKUK, and it's called "Dinosaur rap"

- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L1SKf9YU4QQ

And the last is by Jonathan Coulton and it's called "Re: Your brains"

(bonus video by JC: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7se2MeHAc74 "I feel fantastic")

Let me know which one is your favorite!! Or even which one you hated the most, whatever xD Hope this makes someone smile! Or eve introduce someone to some awesome singers, haha.

Hello all!

So it's not much of a secret that Benedict Cumberbatch is my Husbando, but what -IS- kind of a secret is that... I own it (And even bought it the day it came out) but... I have not seen it.

So to those that HAVE seen it, is it good (Also why is it good?) I am hoping hearing your reviews will inspire me to watch it.

Hello my dear FA watchers.

Typically I am a very private person, and tend to just keep my demons and my pain to myself, but this time I just can't do it. Today, I want to share. Today, I want to feel like I am not alone with my feelings, and my safe haven of Furaffinity is the only place I can turn. I want to try to be more... open. So people can see who I am.

I've been battling with loneliness for the last good couple of months. It's part of the reason it took me so long to come back... I had to pick up the pieces when my best friend of 15 years just walked out and left. I still haven't talked to her and it makes me irritated to say I still miss her (Mainly because if it were up to me, we would be talking).

I am weird. I am unique. I am different. I will tell you exactly how I am feeling about something, and I am always honest. Only recently I have found that people say they want to hear the truth, but no one actually does. I can't be anything but... Me. I don't know how to lie, and I don't want to learn. I have an annoying ability to see people for who they are, and admittedly I kind of hate it sometimes. Who wants a friend who can see everything about themselves that they're trying to hide from?

I am kind, I am giving, I am compassionate, I am open-minded, I am understanding, I am honest. I am an alien on this planet. I can't... possibly be the only one, can I?

I'm sorry if this came off as whiny or whatever... I am just in pain, and trying to drain the wound. I need to know I am not alone in being... alone.

Thank you for reading.

Whoa nelly, it's been... Apparently almost exactly a year now.

So I am back officially, and with art to be shown. My art block has been defeated, and my life has taken a much more positive turn. I probably would have been back sooner, but I had to save up for a laptop, and I wanted a nice one so it wasn't super cheap.

I'm working on my commissions also, and have in fact finished half of them as of writing this.

Also I put all of my old artwork in my scraps because it is all outdated.

I was going to say a whole bunch more, but honestly I think that's pretty good.

Whoa boy, it's been a long time since I've posted, huh?

I'm sure everyone has questions, but for the sake of staying professional, I'll just kind of keep it vague. I'll also be noting my commissioners directly after I post this.

There were people in my life that were draining all my positive energy, and it made drawing impossible. I literally have not completed more than a sketch or a doodle in... Months. I haven't been drawing for myself, and it's been impossible to work on commissions if I can't even draw to make myself happy.

By no means am I making an excuse, just giving people an explanation of what kind of happened in the last... 5 months or so? I feel absolutely awful that I've been keeping people waiting, but my mental state has not been the best.

This is going to change. I have cut the negative people out of my life entirely, and now I am going to work on myself, and finish the commissions I owe.

I hope you guys can forgive me. I truly am not trying to run off with anyone's money... My life just kind of took a dark turn.

Hey guys, I'm not sure how to start this one so I guess I'll just start from the beginning.

I've been depressed for over a year, and I finally got the strength to leave my abusive boyfriend. I stayed with my brother for a week, but now I'm currently living with my mom.

My computer is not currently hooked up but hopefully it will be soon. Hopefully now that I am in a better state of mind art will come easier... Now that I'm out of that situation I feel my art juices flowing again.

Art will definitely be coming, I'm just not sure when.

Also I am okay, I just need a moment to collect myself. Thanks for being patient with me, guys!

I've realized that I want more of an online presence, and something to look back on later in life. I feel like to me, Furaffinity is my personal place. Only a few people I know in person know about my FA page, but I feel like a lot of people know me online. As sometimes I find it hard to chat (and I feel bad about that) I feel like maybe writing down my more personal feelings on my FA journals would be appropriate. I figure a good way to start would be by laying down my thoughts about something that's been on my mind lately.

I've noticed a lot of artists do not have high self-esteem. My guesses on as to way that may be is, perhaps they are anti-social (Like me) or perhaps they're loners or even outcasts. I see a lot of artists say they're art is terrible when it truly isn't, and also a lot of "I am not worth it".

I feel the need to stress I'm not talking about anyone specifically. It's just something I have noticed more often then I feel is deserved.

As an artist myself I know I could be better, but honestly I really like my artwork. It's been improving and I can see that, and sure there are places I could certainly improve more. I feel as though I have come to terms with the fact I'll never be satisfied, but that is the drive that I need to keep getting better.

You are always getting better as an artist. Try not to beat yourself up too much when you draw something. When you draw, you're drawing what you feel in your heart and soul. Try not to hate on it too much.

Feel free to tell me your thoughts on the subject if you have any.

Also, I'll probably make more discussion journals in the future, just because it's something I've always wanted to do but never really knew how to start. So bear with me here I guess, is what I'm saying. xD

Hi guys!

Today I wanted to ask you guys, my watchers, what you would like to see me post more of. It can be anything, from things that I do currently draw to things I don't. I really would love to hear your opinions!! Good or bad :) I'm always aiming to improve and step out of my comfort zone when it comes to drawing.

Hey all, it's been a minute hasn't it? I figured I would post a journal letting everyone know what's been going on with me lately.

A few weeks back I had some pretty intense relationship issues. It's all better now, but for almost two weeks my life kind of screeched to a halt. After that mess, I took some time to study my art a bit more and I'm happy to say I've learned some new tricks that I'm excited to use more often. Once I have some time, I'll probably scan some of my sketchbook pages to share them with you all!

As for the requests, I still plan on doing them. I realize that I've gotten out of the habit of actually posting things, and I'm going to try and fix it. Maybe I'll post some sketch pages or some shit to fix that?

Anyway, just figured I'd let everyone know where I've been!

Well I got rid of Asphyxiation October to bring you... No-breath-November! (I'm so hoping I coined this term, haha) So, for anyone out there who wants them some foot and breath-play action from me... Now's your chance!

Anyway, I'm going to be taking requests! This time they will have two running themes: Breath-play and feet. and I will be taking only 5. The rules are as follows:

-Your request must contain the combination of both feet and breath-play. No exceptions.
-You must provide me with reference(s), and they must be both accurate and clear.
-When your making your request, please give me a small description of what you want.
(Please note that I will be having my way with your idea. You get what you get.)
-I will reply to your comment and add you to the list if you get the spot.
-You may ask for your own characters, as well as any of my own.

Okay so if you have any questions, let me know!

Slots:
1. KateAlphaXRyanInLove
2. DamnedNDelirious
3. leshana
4. darkchum
5. katkashi

Edit: I'll wait until tomorrow to pick the last slot. Just in case more people might be interested in getting a request who hasn't had a chance to before :3

I'm mainly asking because... When are they going to change the banner for the BETA?

I have no idea what the resolution is, or even how getting your banner featured works anymore. I noted Dragoneer with no success, but maybe he's just not in charge of that stuff anymore?

Anyway... If anyone could give me some info, let me know! I kind of want to try my hand at a banner! Even if it's not me, I would still like to see a new one!

Hi guys!

First things first, I'll get to the "requests". I'm sure you guys remember a few years back when I did Asphyxiation October? Well, I'm gonna be doing it again this coming October! I'll probably make a new journal when it comes to taking the actual requests, though. I figured since I was finishing up my commissions, I would take a break by doing some art for my erotic fanbase! :D So keep a look out for the request journal, 'cause I don't know how many I'll do!

So the second thing, commissions. Right now I am unable to use my Paypal (but it should be working soon) but I was thinking, what would you guys think about just buying things on my Amazon wishlist instead of paying me outright? Like I said, it would only be a temporary thing, but I'm itching to do more commissions, and I know some people have been itching to commission me! Obviously I'd have to think up some way to protect the customer and myself but... It's a work in progress!

ALSO, I've been working on the remakes of Don't Scream and Just a Normal Tuesday... So watch out for those as well! (And a few other Asphyxiation related things you guys don't know about...)

Hi guys! I've made a lot of improvements as an artist in the last few months or so, and I figured another thing I could improve on is finishing some old sketches! So I decided I'd throw up a poll to see what you guys want to see completed most! I do plan on finishing them all eventually as well! Polls for everybody!! :D

I will have two polls, one for completing an old sketch, and the other will be to redo one of my older pictures.

SKETCH COMPLETION POLL:

Candice just ain't right
Candice WIP
Don't Scream
You are very short, Candice

OLD ART REMIX:
Candice sittin' on a waffle
Just a normal Tuesday

Vote now!! :D Or don't, totally your call brah o:

I recently started playing it, and was wondering if anyone who is watching me also has an account? :D

I'm also trying to open an art shop over there too, so I can sell some of my arts for treasure! o:

I am very excited to announce my homecoming to FA. The art block I had been experiencing forever has finally lifted, and I couldn't be happier for it. I know some of you might have been wondering if I was going to come back, but wonder no further!

I've learned a lot about art in the past few months and my art has greatly improved since the last time I posted. I hope this will make my current commissioners happy, and of course, all my fans. I know you're out there, even if you're only lurking.

Expect so much more work from me. I have a lot of things to share, but I will space out my uploads a bit. I hope you guys enjoy what you see!

Also, expect more hanging in the future... And surprisingly a little bit more porn... Sometimes a girl feels raunchy!

I've missed you FA, and everyone here <3

Hey guys!

I'm looking to exchange friend codes to play Pokemon X and Y and what not with someone! I'm kind of looking for a buddy of sorts, someone to talk on Skype with while trading or battling, or even just to chat!! I'm super friendly AND I LOVE LAUGHING and I ALSO LOVE VIDEO GAMES! What's not to love?!

But seriously, a Poke buddy would be cool 'cause I ain't got none.

Add me on Skype for my friend code! butterfly_murder (or find it on one of my old journals lol)

Wow, sorry about my... extreme lack of being on FA/Skype, and everything else.

My life has seriously taken a dramatic turn; no ones dead or sick or anything, just most things in my life are very, very erratic right now. In short: Having issues with my roommate, I can't use my Paypal for the time being, and stuff is going on within my family.

I fully intend to complete my commissions, and I am very sorry for how long it's taken me to complete them. It's definitely ridiculous and I plan to do something for everyone who's been waiting (Once the commissions in question are actually DONE first, of course).

I just wanted to make a journal so people would know what's going on, and obviously, if anyone has ANY questions, please feel free to ask.

Also: I SHOULD be back online in the coming week... I'll definitely update everyone by then, as well.

Thank you for your patience, and I am very sorry for the wait.

So I noticed FA fixed their word wrap on the comments?

I'm probably a little too excited about this.

I realize I've been kind of slacking around with my commissions lately and I wanted to apologize to everyone about it. I'll be honest, all of the deadlines I'm making for myself are stressing me out to the point where it's almost impossible to work on them.

I realize this is pretty much my own fault, but I'm also going to try and fix it by taking the rest of the day to... unwind, and not worry about them before coming back to them.

I'm sorry about this, because I didn't really intend for any of this to happen. I'm usually pretty good at finishing commissions in a timely manner, but lately it's been difficult.

I apologize for the inconvenience of this causes any.

So this was just a discussion topic I was thinking about that I figured I'd share!

Looking on myself as how I work as an artist I feel that sometimes I can be a bit slow. I try to keep people in the loop as best as I can and as often as I can if there's any kind of delay (which in retrospect, I feel I don't do enough of either). I feel like that makes up for it a bit, but I'm kind of wondering if others feel differently?

So I guess what I'm asking here is, what kind of things do you like to see when it comes to the community service aspect of commissioning?

I feel like if I get updated once in a while, I'm happy. I know sometimes art is a fickle thing and cannot be rushed.

Sorry about... well, kind of being slow about my commissions.

My glasses got broken, so that made it impossible to draw. But, now I'm back to working on them!!

Hey guys, I know not ALL my commissioners will see this, but I'm writing this to let people know that there's going to be a delay in working on my commissions, because today I have to take my girlfriend to the hospital. I'm not sure how long this is all going to take, but I'll keep everyone updated! Shouldn't be more than a few days!

Sorry about the inconvenience.

I figured I'd just throw my two cents on the matter because why the hell not?

I heard about the incident when it happened many years ago, and I was pretty shocked. When I heard about him becoming an admin, (Though he's not on the FA Staff page? Maybe just not yet, or something?) I was once again, pretty shocked, but to be honest, I don't really care anymore.

As a victim of something similiar, I can understand why people are.. upset, to an extent. After much thought, I'm one of the people who don't actually think Zaush is a rapist.

If I were going to tell someone I was raped, I wouldn't go to the admin of a site the person was on, even if it's one we both go on frequently, and expect something to be done about it. I won't go and say the woman was lying, but I do think it's a little odd that she decided the best course of action were to go to the Administrator of a furry website and expect something out of it.

I think it's a bit rash for people to just up and leave, but I don't fault them for their morals, because they're doing what they think is right, and that's just fine with me, though I am sad about it.

I personally won't be leaving over something that's none of my business anyway. I love FA, and it's many flaws, and I don't see that changing any time soon.