So everything for my growth as an artist is in yhe works. At the start of the year, my new Youtube channel, Gaitsu fails at art, will start. I will be doing an hour long recording each day, nix Fri-Sun, as I work those days, of me drawing, simple things, fan art, showing my aweful free form, as well as showing off others music and stories (with permision of course).

I will also be doing interviews of artists, musucians, writers, and game creators. In fact, I already have plans to interview the creators behind Winging it: Love is such a dragon, once they have a working demo/and/or the finished game itself.

Hello everyone. Have you ever had a moment in your life that changed everything? It could be something as small as eating your favorite food for the first time, or something as big as someone important to you passing away. Well, I recently had a moment that changed everything for me.

Until recently, I've been doing gaming let's plays on Youtube. I've always enjoyed playing games, and I've always loved going back to the games that helped me grow as a gamer....but something just wasn't right. I had the start of everything I thought I wanted, recording software, a plethora of games to play, friends to do collaborations with, and even started making friends from all different walks of life, simply because of my channel, but something inside still yelled at me, asking why.

You see, I've always had a love of art, I can look through art forums all day, every day, and never get bored. Back in school, I loved art class, and some of my best memories were the times I was hunched over a piece of paper with a pencil, some color pencils, and just went at it. I've never been good at drawing, just good enough to get the gist of what I was trying to portray out, and it always left me feeling empty, knowing that I had all these ideas just waiting to spring to life, but no talent to make them a reality.

I took a darker path, tracing other people's work, which helped me understand the method of how to make art that worked, but never the why. All the tracing, and even the progress I was making as a drawer, it didn't matter, because I wasn't doing things legitimately. I was only putting other peoples ideas to paper. No matter how good I got at that, It just didn't matter to me.

None of the pictures I drew for myself ever turned out how I saw them in my mind. No matter the vivid details I saw, I just couldn't put it down on paper, it became lost in translation. So, I gave up. "I'll never be as good as I want to be, so what's the point." I decided to just help others by critiquing their art, and telling them what I saw that could be worked on, knowing deep down that each one had more talent than I ever would.

So that brings us to the present day, I've picked up a pencil a few times, and can't draw. Even the things I used to be able to trace without sticking the paper underneath, just didn't come out anymore. I thought it was all for the best, because I would be able to focus on my channel, but every time I started recording, my mind wandered. Wandered to the friends I have who love art as much as I do, and have the talent to put their pens and pencils to paper and make magic happen.

I am tired of not being able to draw. I'm tired of the continuous hatred I have for my situation. I am tired, and all I want to do is make things work. So, instead of crying about my past, instead of wondering why so many have natural talent, instead of getting angry at a channel that doesn't have my full love....I'm going to draw. I'm going to practice, and I'm not going to stop until I am proud of what I am making.

Please, join me on my journey. Give encouragement, criticism, direction, whatever you can to help me reach my goal.