I was told to announce when I'm on so people can talk to me. I'll be on until i fall asleep. So how are you all?

I FINALLY get a short break before bed. So how are you all? Anything new?

I was told to change my icon so i am

I would just like to let you all know that i am busy a lot and might not be on often. But i appreciate all that you all do, i am NOT leaving FA, i am just busy a lot.

Alright, so i have not been on my account since about 3 days after creating it, i came back on the other day.  gaydragonlover is my great friend, he's like a brother to me, and he has been on my account for pretty much the whole time. I want to say that i'm sorry if he has made any of you upset, mad, or annoyed, and i will try to get him to make up for it, i'll figure out how. But he is very timorous and is very self-conscious so he doesn't like to tell people much, but i'm surprised that he has made friends, but i hope all of you can still be his friend, and my friend, i would love to get to know you all. But if you can't be his friend, then i don't see how you were his friend in the first place, it doesn't matter age, it's the personality of the person. He has written many journals on my account, about his feeling, and i'm worried for him though, i already knew that he has been going through rough times, and that he has been cutting, i'm trying to help him stop cutting, and we're making progress.

So if you have any questions, comments, or concerns, then leave a comment or note me.

P.S. he told me that a few people were really nice to him, and those people are:

 MTT3
 Adam0800
 Bloodwolves
 Thebeardeddragonguy

if there is anyone else i forgot, i'm sorry, i don't have the best memory, it's all my schoolwork and job related "things" that is stressing me out, but i'm getting those resolved so it's becoming better!

And thank you for your cooperation and taking the time out to read this. I also want to say that i am NOT from darien, or live in darien, i don't want to let people know where i live, it's not that i don't trust anyone, i have just had a couple of "experiences" with that, but i live in Fairfield county, CT.

Alright, so i have gone through EVERY gay male watersports adult pic...and i'm not gonna lie, i'm kinda disappointed. I'm disappointed in how little there was. You see, i am REALLY into piss, not gonna lie or hide it, and i was like "aww man, that was a short browse" and i really expected more and would like more, it turns me on.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KtNY.....jI&ob=av3e

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7NJq.....eature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T23D193nCys

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lgT1.....WM&ob=av2e

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5anL.....mo&ob=av3e

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jpt7RJUGpdE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FMYc.....p;feature=fvst

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hx4RsCfL_fA

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2961969/

 Skizu

NOW TO FIND OUT!


If you have 00-10 ... write [I'm a goody-goody]
If you have 11-20 ... write [I'm still a goody-goody]
If you have 21-30 ... write [I'm average]
If you have 31-40 ... write [I'm a bad kid]
If you have 41-50 ... write [I'm a very bad influence]
If you have 51-60 ... write [I'm a horrible person]
If you have 61-70 ... write [I should be in jail]
If you have 71-80 ... write [I should be dead]
If you have 81-90 ... write [I got a ticket to Hell]

HAVE YOU...

[_] smoked
[_] consumed alcohol
[_] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
[_] kissed someone of the same sex
[x] had sex
[x] had someone in your room other than family
[x] watched porn
[_] bought porn
[_] tried drugs

TOTAL SO FAR: 4

[x] taken painkillers
[_] taken someone else's prescription medicine
[x] lied to your parents
[x] lied to a friend
[_] snuck out of the house
[_] done something illegal
[X] felt hurt
[X] hurt someone
[x] wished someone to die
[_] seen someone die
TOTAL SO FAR: 10

[x] missed curfew
[_] stayed out all night
[x] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[x] been to a therapist
[_] received a ticket
[_] been to rehab
[_] dyed your hair
[_] been in an accident
[_] been to a club (once)
[_] been to a bar (sports bars...?)

TOTAL SO FAR: 13

[_] been to a wild party
[_] been to a Mardi Gras parade
[_] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night
[_] had a spring break in Florida
[_] sniffed anything
[_] wore black nail polish
[_] wore arm bands
[x] wore t-shirts with band names
[x] listened to rap
[x] owned a 50 Cent CD

TOTAL SO FAR: 16

[_] dressed gothic
[_] dressed girly
[_] dressed punk
[_] dressed grunge
[x] stole something
[_] been too drunk to remember anything
[_] blacked out
[x] fainted
[_] had a crush on a neighbour

TOTAL SO FAR: 18

[x] had a crush on a friend
[_] been to a concert
[x] dry-humped someone; been dry humped
[x] been called a slut
[x] called someone a slut
[_] installed speakers in a car
[x] broken a mirror
[_] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
[_] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush

TOTAL SO FAR: 23

[_] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper
[x] seen an R-rated movie
[_] cruised the mall
[x] skipped school
[_] had surgery
[_] had an injury
[_] gone to court
[_] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping
[x] caught something on fire
[X] lied about your age

TOTAL SO FAR: 27

[_] owned/rented an apartment/house
[_] broke the law in the police's presence
[_] made out with someone who had a GF/BF
[_] got in trouble with the police
[x] talked to a stranger
[_] hugged a stranger
[_] kissed a stranger
[x] rode in the car with a stranger
[x] been harassed
[x] been verbally harassed

TOTAL SO FAR: 31

[_] met face-to-face with someone you met online
[X] stayed online for 5+ hours straight
[_] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight
[X] been to a fair
[x] been called a bad influence
[_] drank and drove
[_] prank-called someone
[x] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex
[x] cheated on a test

Total=37

Lol, i'm a bad kid

Alright, so you all, or some, know how I have been depressed and "evil" and all that, well that is MOSTLY gone! ^-^ so I had taken off the covering to my cieling light in my room, an it broghtened it up, and I feel so different oddly enough. I feel like the darkness and "demons" have been Scared out of me through my bright room. I now feel like a new person, like I can go and do stuff I haven't because I was scared. Well I also feel like I am a goo person, and imma change my attitude. So I am now officially gonna be a "good" person...but we all have darkness in us so I'm not going to totally be. Also, I wanted to say that I now feel like depression and anger has gone away! All this feeling from just a dark room becoming bright.

So I guess thatthe reason of all my feelings were pretty much because I lived ina dark dreary room a lot of my life. So expect like 80-95% less depression from me! Also, I feel like my confidence has become full of energy, I am gonna go out this week and be social, something I haven't done because of my social anxiety. And all my hope is back, so expect much compliments and -possibly- more artwork, both my own character and random gifts for people!

P.S. This does not change what I am attracted to or like, I still love dragons mostly!

Please comment about what you think! I love you all! *offers you ALL a hug, or two!*

I dont know why people don't love me,
If I ever met someone they would be,
Able to see that I am dedicated to a relationship,
And that I am not a a fucking dipshit.

"I just want you to know,
That I've been fighting to let you go."
Are lyrics to a song that I like a lot,
And means so much to me while my love rots.

I want it to revitalize and be fresh again,
But love isn't there for me when it should have been.
Why must it be hard to be loved romantically,
It seems so much different when you're passionate it seems so easy.

And the one I love doesn't feel the same back,
Which is like someone stabbed me with an axe.
I have told him my feelings for him,
But he still feels the same.

And that song Grenade by Bruno Mars,
Is how I feel about him and my heart is full of scars.
It is hurt enough to just fall apart,
I feel as though it will start.

How can you feel confident,
When you can't change what you meant,
To change and try to get your one love's heart?
It just makes my feelings feel extremely hurt.

So I have come to a conclusion,
That I will stop all this confusion,
By stop loving and looking,
And have my friends hooking.

Me up on blind dates,
I don't care how my fate is,
Now so I don't care much if he I a bitch,
It won't matter if he leaves stitches.

(obviously ive lost hope in love, not being able to get the one I love, and a couple of my friends are telling me they will find me a guy, and they are caring friends.)

So I know some of you think I'm weird,
That is something I very much feared.
I write these journals to vent,
And know that my messages were sent.

Out to the public as a way of knowing,
That people aren't alone and their hearts glowing.
With much appreciation and respect,
But there is hate and confusion I detect.

Why must people be so stereotypical,
It isn't their world to be so critical.
People have feelings all around,
So why be so mean and bury them in the ground?

All of you haters out there should just stop,
Because you're life isn't what you think, you're not on top.
So just stop being so mean and cruel,
And if you do then your heart will be fueled.

But as for me I just want to connect,
With the world as a matter of fact.
So leave me alone and stop being jerks,
And you'll feel better when nobody's feelings are hurt.

Why am I sitting here with nothing to do?
I'm writing this poem to open to all of you.
My mind is numb and I am bored,
I can't think of what to do, and nothing to afford.

To buy and use because I'm broke,
And I am too bored and it's not a joke.
I feel bored enough to just lie in bed,
And not do anything, my interests have fled.

I don't know what my mind craves,
Not drawing, reading, or playing videogames.
Not browse the web, not watch tv, or a movie
So I am sitting here with nothing to do or anywhere to be.

I wanna cry because I feel unloved and worthless,
But I know it takes time to find a mate and much stress.
But I can't handle it all,
I feel like I am gonna just fall.

Collapse of the stress in life and cry,
And feel like I want to die.
My mind is numb so it would be mentally painless,
But the pain I would cause adds to the stress.

So I still sit here with nothing on my mind,
Nothing to do and nothing to find.
Do any of you have any recommendations?
I am struggling to do something with intentions.

Will I ever find my mate?
The feeling of it would be great!
But I feel like I will never find him,
And it makes my life seem very dim.

I don't really get it,
Why doesn't my life get lit?
My passionate love is as hot as a flame,
But people don't see that within my frame.

I want to have love and security,
But I don't believe that it will be easy.
I'm ready to give up hope,
Cuz my life feels like a slope.

I don't attract any men,
They want The handsome of them.
What about the rest of us?
Why do we not get the trust?

I wanna just live life in isolation,
And get my life at a gas station.
Working minimum wage,
Not going onto the next life stage.

Should I give up and accept defeat?
I'm tired of the way that I get treated.
I am already depressed,
So why go through all this stress?

I know I will never get love while I live,
So imma stop being good and having friendship to give.
All my life I will be lonely,
Nobody seeing my personality, only the ugly.



Imma depressed again, leave comments if ya want, I don't care. All I know is that imma never have a mate in my life

English
A 15yr old child girl holds hands with her 1yr old boy.
The people call her bitch, because nobody knows she was raped with 13.

The people call another child fat.
Nobody knows he suffer from a bad disease that increased his weight.

The people call a man with scars in his face ugly.
Nobody knows, that he saved 4 people's lives from a burning house.

If you are against bullying post this message.

I bet 95% will not do it.


German
Ein 15 jähriges Mädchen hält die Hand ihres 1 jährigen Sohnes.
Die Menschen nennen sie eine Schlampe, weil niemand weiß, dass sie mit 13 vergewaltigt wurde.

Die Leute nennen ein anderes Kind fett.
Niemand weiß, dass es eine schwere Krankheit hat, die zu Übergewicht führt.

Die Leute nennen einen Mann mit Narben im Gesicht hässlich.
Niemand weiß, dass er 4 Menschen aus einem brennenden Haus gerettet hat.

Wenn du genau wie ich gegen Mobbing bist, poste das.

Ich wette 95% werden es nicht tun.

I just read this story by  StrikerSA

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6190962/

I liked it an felt like sharing it, so please read.

P.S. It is quite a bit of a read, so make sure you have spare time in your day, but it is a great read ;)

You are a Owl! (your score: 20)

Characters: Etar and Nathas in the Aspect of Crow trilogy

Powers: Human lie-detectors
Owls are keen, perceptive and skeptical. You're adept at getting to the truth, making you an ideal investigator or attorney. Your insights into the less honorable side of human nature can make you a bit cynical, but your numerous friends appreciate the dark sense of humor it brings.
Best matches: Hawks, Foxes, Spiders
Watch out for: Wolves, Horses, Otters

http://www.jerismithready.com/index.cfm/quiz/#

One of my good writer friends needs money, so can anyone please help him out? Either by commission or just spreading the word?

My friend is  Maximeph and here are his prices:

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2912060/

I know many people prefer artwork over writing, but think about it, how many people actually like to read? And it will be a story with YOUR character in it, I honestly think that that is awesome. Trust me though, I am not just saying that, I have imagined my own characters or years and having them on a story that the public can see!

He will do some adult writings, but not all, he lists what he will and will not do, so make sure ti check that out.

If you have any questions or comments, you can message him or me, I am always here for anyone!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2900380/

Help out a brother here who needs money, and you will get really awesome pieces of commissioned art. Just buy some people, they are cheap...really cheap!

Hey there members of FA, I am Gamma, and I want to say hey and I will be on almost every night, so if you want to chat, message me, and i will most likely be here from about 8pm-1am or 2am, and i will talk about anything you want, I'm even open for RPing!
So hit me up if ya want to chat.