It wasn't great, not by a long shot. I don't wanna disclose any information here, so just dm me if you're interested.

Wow... it's been a long time coming, eh?

Finally turning the big two one, it's quite the feat.

Let me take some time to reflect and update ya'll on my life so far:

So, first up, I wanna thank all the friends I've made on this journey, heck, all the people I've met, good and bad. If it weren't for all of you guys, I wouldn't be here now, maybe I'd be somewhere completely different. But, that's aside from the point. I don't really know what direction to take my life in. I want to please people, but I know if I try that, then I'll just want to quit and if no one's encouraging enough, I just freeze up, practically stunted. If I don't see results, I'll think no one wants what I'm making. So yeah, that's what that is.

Next, I finally have my own room after 21 years! Finally my own personal space to do what I want with! I may be happy with this, but I just feel somewhat... alone. Honestly, I want someone to cuddle, and plushies do the trick sometimes, but it's just... different with a person.

Then, there's the mental, someplace I often struggle to comprehend my own needs and put them below the needs of a friend or an acquaintance. An example of this is when someone wants a commission, is my friend, and can't afford it right now. Heck, I'd just do it free of charge cause that's what friends do! And when I somehow get those lucky raffle commissions and such, if I can't think of an idea, I just say to a friend, "Hey, if you were to get something from 'so and so' what would it be?", then I'd tell the commissioner the info and boom, gift for friend. But... I wonder if I'm too generous. I'm starting to go a little broke with the amount I spend making my others happy, less so for myself. I constantly get in these ruts of depression and thinking "I'm not good enough" or "I don't belong here", etc. It really wears down on me and... I don't know... I just wanna pretend I don't exist at times. Sometimes I don't wanna be myself. Mentally, I haven't really been doing so hot...

But enough of the sad slop I'm spilling everywhere!

Now then, some plans for the future here. I don't often post my art here at all, or anywhere else for that matter, except for twitter and bluesky. I have my own personal discord server I use for sharing art and stuff, but... yeah. Art is still a little side hustle I do to try getting my name out there, and I'm still quite small in comparison to everyone else. But I won't go into that, because comparison being the killer of fun and all. However, I like seeing results from art I do to make sure I'm actually improving, not being stagnant. In addition to that, I'm currently looking for a job to make some extra money for the switch 2, oh boy I'll need it... I wanna get back into writing again, but I haven't a clue where to start. I used to love writing way back when.

So... I think that's all. 21 years is a long time to be alive, you know? Sure feels like it anyways. Anywho, thanks for taking the time out of your day to read this, and I hope ya'll have a wonderful day :3

(also, comms open cause summer :3)

Beware of pamps and other art being posted here, or don't :3

The winner of the raffle will be contacted! Thank you for your participation!

Imma hold a little raffle on the 4th of January! The winner of this will get a fully colored piece from me! To enter, just comment anything!

As always, have a nice day and an even better new year!

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57725233/

Go here to join in a nice little raffle :3

Soooo, hey guys. I know it's been a while. I kinda need some cash for a new laptop, so I'm just advertising commissions and stuff. Sorry if I'm asking too much.

Thanks for reading

The winner of this raffle is the wonderful Blindfoldbill!
https://www.furaffinity.net/user/blindfoldbill/
I'll go and inform the winner that they've won :3

I just think sometimes no one pays any attention to me for art I'm genuinely proud of... and sure I like doing it... but it kinda hurts, you know? All I want is a favorite and maybe a comment. I know most people who like the dumb art I do don't like commenting and stuff, which is understandable, but still...

Sorry about my rambling and stuff. Just popped into my head at about 4:30 in the morning and thought I'd write something about it to get it off my chest.

Thank you for reading through that. And for a little promotion, everyone that reads this all the way through gets entered in a little art raffle where the winner gets an art request with all the fixes. Just comment and you can enter. If you make a journal, you can up your chances at winning the raffle. It will end on the 10th and results will be posted on the 11th, where I will spin a wheel and decide the winner.

Again I say, thank you for reading. I really appreciate it.

Commissions are open :3

Prices are 10$

There are 3 slots open, get them while they're here. Be as specific as you can about what you want from me. I have the right to refuse service to anyone.

Slot 1 (open)
Slot 2 (open)
Slot 3 (open)

Today is my birthday! Turning the big 20 :3

But aside from that, I've been reflecting on things from year's past. I've grown as a person and an artist, even if it's just a bit. I'll let this new year of my life be a place to grow and make some new friends in this space! ^^

After I have done your request, please don't ask for changes. I took the time to do it the way I wanted to do it.

So yeah, no changes. Under no circumstances.

So yeah, I'm promoting my twitter! What about it?

So here's a link if ya wanna support me! https://twitter.com/SmollestP

You read the title, so now you gotta suggest stuff

Gimme characters from an obscure or new series to put in pamps :3

Be as detailed or as plain as you want :3

Just leave em here :3

Be as detailed or vague as you want :>

Have fun! :)

My discord is .kendex if ya wanna talk there too ^^

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56440660/

Go check out this wonderful person

I am in fact https://www.furaffinity.net/user/smolpamps

I just wanted to get a second chance at everything

I recently got scammed out of about $450 on twitter. So i'll be opening commissions. Don't worry, you can pay what you want for this. I don't really know what to do about set prices

Anywho, follow me smollestP on twitter, my new account

Would any of you tune in to watch me do an art stream?

Ask me anything and I'll answer! (Eventually)

If you have an idea for stuff you want me to draw, then post em here!