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Posted a year agoLong time no see to many of you here
As some of you have seen, after many years of debating whether or not patreon would be a good move for my particular art style I have finally settled on opening up a way for people to follow my painting process on subscribe star
I'm hoping that this will bridge the gap between frantically making enough inventory for sporadic art shows. As well as making my artwork more available
https://subscribestar.adult/DobermanJocks
Naturally the struggle has been trying to navigate how to be a traditional artist among many other artists who are far superior at digital artwork as well as putting out artwork more consistently. It is fierce competition, and traditional artwork doesn't necessarily lend itself to being distributed easily
Here's to hoping I can create enough content, especially in winter when ventilation is a little hard.
Thank you for bearing with me as I take on a New and exciting artistic journey
As some of you have seen, after many years of debating whether or not patreon would be a good move for my particular art style I have finally settled on opening up a way for people to follow my painting process on subscribe star
I'm hoping that this will bridge the gap between frantically making enough inventory for sporadic art shows. As well as making my artwork more available
https://subscribestar.adult/DobermanJocks
Naturally the struggle has been trying to navigate how to be a traditional artist among many other artists who are far superior at digital artwork as well as putting out artwork more consistently. It is fierce competition, and traditional artwork doesn't necessarily lend itself to being distributed easily
Here's to hoping I can create enough content, especially in winter when ventilation is a little hard.
Thank you for bearing with me as I take on a New and exciting artistic journey
Oil painting COMMISSIONS OPEN
Posted 6 years agoOn April 25th I will be starting work on oil painting commissions as I head into mud season (a time between seasonal jobs)
$49 each +25 per additional character
For examples please see my gallery or my media folder on Twitter GarrouSterling for a more extensive gallery
I can do Paypal, and Google Pay at the moment
To reserve a slot Please DM me with a link to a reference sheet, and a short description of what you would like painted, where you can be contacted easily (or a place to get photos)
I will send an invoice when I have accepted
Contact me here or on Twitter GarrouSterling (I am more active on twitter)
what you get:
Oil painting on 9x12 canvas paper, free shipping
The process:
I will take 2 slots per day
Payment must be received before I start the sketch or give you a starting date
You will receive a picture of the sketch before I move on to painting
Painting will be done and I will post or DM a picture of the painting
Oil paint may take up to 2 weeks to dry
When your art has dried I will ask for your preferred shipping method and send the painting on the next business day
Expected completion time: 3 weeks Maximum from your starting date
I will inform you of any delays in service (current BLFC May 16-22nd)
What I will not paint:
baby furs, gore, vore, minors in compromising situations, diaper furs, (I will let you know if any other content is uncomfortable)
Thank you for coming by
Open dates
4/25
1)
2)
4/26
1)
2)
4/29
1)
2)
4/30
1)
2)
May dates TBA
$49 each +25 per additional character
For examples please see my gallery or my media folder on Twitter GarrouSterling for a more extensive gallery
I can do Paypal, and Google Pay at the moment
To reserve a slot Please DM me with a link to a reference sheet, and a short description of what you would like painted, where you can be contacted easily (or a place to get photos)
I will send an invoice when I have accepted
Contact me here or on Twitter GarrouSterling (I am more active on twitter)
what you get:
Oil painting on 9x12 canvas paper, free shipping
The process:
I will take 2 slots per day
Payment must be received before I start the sketch or give you a starting date
You will receive a picture of the sketch before I move on to painting
Painting will be done and I will post or DM a picture of the painting
Oil paint may take up to 2 weeks to dry
When your art has dried I will ask for your preferred shipping method and send the painting on the next business day
Expected completion time: 3 weeks Maximum from your starting date
I will inform you of any delays in service (current BLFC May 16-22nd)
What I will not paint:
baby furs, gore, vore, minors in compromising situations, diaper furs, (I will let you know if any other content is uncomfortable)
Thank you for coming by
Open dates
4/25
1)
2)
4/26
1)
2)
4/29
1)
2)
4/30
1)
2)
May dates TBA
Emergency YCH and oil painting auctions incoming
Posted 8 years agoMy computer of 6 long years has finally died.
So I'm opening up for YCH commissions and auctioning off my original oil paintings to help buy a new PC for digital work. First YCH will be open for a week.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/25335686/
In the meantime I will be opening for more traditional sketches and commissions once I get examples up.
So I'm opening up for YCH commissions and auctioning off my original oil paintings to help buy a new PC for digital work. First YCH will be open for a week.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/25335686/
In the meantime I will be opening for more traditional sketches and commissions once I get examples up.
Where to find me
Posted 9 years agoLike the tradition of FA downtime I have made arrangements to be available elsewhere.
Im not leaving FA but now with the deus ex mass exodus going on i figured those of you who are moving can at least still follow me to see all the fun new stuff i have been planning
My sites are:
www.garrousterling.com
https://beta.furrynetwork.com/garrou/
Im not leaving FA but now with the deus ex mass exodus going on i figured those of you who are moving can at least still follow me to see all the fun new stuff i have been planning
My sites are:
www.garrousterling.com
https://beta.furrynetwork.com/garrou/
Getting back into things
Posted 9 years agoIve been noticeably absent again with a ton of work. Luckily I now have time to get back to work here.
I do have a question, would you all like to see the non furry art I have been working on?
Expect to see a lot more professional artwork and all of these backed up commissions I have gotten but not posted.
Good to be back.
I do have a question, would you all like to see the non furry art I have been working on?
Expect to see a lot more professional artwork and all of these backed up commissions I have gotten but not posted.
Good to be back.
Back and headed to RMFC
Posted 10 years agoHello everyone, it has been a long summer and i am happy to say that i am finally coming out of hiding, so to say.
The job market out here is really not that great out here so the constant stress of the job search has turned out dry, so I'm pleased to say I may be opening art commissions soon.
In other news, I'm here to announce I will be at RMFC this year and I will be running a panel based on my college research again.
Ancient Anthropomorphism will be held at 2 pm in the Iris room on Saturday.
While I want this research to be made public and accessible to all furries, I will also be looking into publishing. However, to my knowledge there are no peer reviewed journals for anthropomorphic research that pertains to our fandom. Wish me luck on this as I seek out SofaWolf and other publishers.
Anyway, I'm happy to be back and make a little more time for everyone here with a few more surprises in store.
The job market out here is really not that great out here so the constant stress of the job search has turned out dry, so I'm pleased to say I may be opening art commissions soon.
In other news, I'm here to announce I will be at RMFC this year and I will be running a panel based on my college research again.
Ancient Anthropomorphism will be held at 2 pm in the Iris room on Saturday.
While I want this research to be made public and accessible to all furries, I will also be looking into publishing. However, to my knowledge there are no peer reviewed journals for anthropomorphic research that pertains to our fandom. Wish me luck on this as I seek out SofaWolf and other publishers.
Anyway, I'm happy to be back and make a little more time for everyone here with a few more surprises in store.
Graduated.
Posted 10 years agoWell about two weeks ago I finally graduated. I now have degrees in Environmental Studies and minors in Art, Exercise Science.
Now I'm off to see what I can make of myself.
I have been searching for some good jobs but I have only found weekend stuff. Not exactly what I call cream of the crop, but it will do.
In my extra off time I have been hitting the gym a lot and doing stuff for family.
I honestly can't wait to get out into the world, but honestly it scares me.
At the moment I am working to get Photoshop and AI CS6 so I can start working on some real art now that I am home.
Hopefully, I can gimp along with Photoshop Elements 7 and SAI until I can get some real programs on here.
I still have 5 really awesome pictures I am excited to upload and I will get to those as soon as I can.
Now I'm off to see what I can make of myself.
I have been searching for some good jobs but I have only found weekend stuff. Not exactly what I call cream of the crop, but it will do.
In my extra off time I have been hitting the gym a lot and doing stuff for family.
I honestly can't wait to get out into the world, but honestly it scares me.
At the moment I am working to get Photoshop and AI CS6 so I can start working on some real art now that I am home.
Hopefully, I can gimp along with Photoshop Elements 7 and SAI until I can get some real programs on here.
I still have 5 really awesome pictures I am excited to upload and I will get to those as soon as I can.
Support for John Wolf in memory of Cherry <3
Posted 11 years agoI am hereby opening a fundraiser for 
johnwolf13. On Janruary 28th John was hit by a drunk driver. Despite his slim chances John has made it through the most critical time in his recovery. John was however was not the only victim in this crash. His beloved truck, Cherry, gave her life to defend the man who had cared for her so greatly. John had dumped thousands of dollars into making this truck a masterpiece and now she is gone.
John is one of the most loving men in the world but life has not been kind to him.
As soon as he could John escaped his home to join the army. His self given mission was to protect others while serving as a 91B wheel vehicle mechanic. While on tour in Afghanistan John was hit by a mortar round which caused long term damage to his legs. He toughed it out and still came home and served the rest of his time as best he could.
A few months ago we found out that John suffered a stroke which left us in a scare.
Now I ask for everyone's help in this time of need to help a man who has helped the furry fandom in so many ways.
Now it is our time to help him.
Please go to http://www.gofundme.com/l8uyks to help us donate and help out John in any way we can.
To all of his sons, pets, masters, friends and family: Please help by spreading the word. I cannot fight for John alone. I need you and this fandom to work as a team.Holiday wishes
Posted 11 years agoI hope everyone out there is having a fantastic holiday season, from dancing naked outside on the solstice, to lighting candles, Decorating those damned trees that dare oppose us, or drinking until you are plastered. Enjoy it all and see you next year.
AFC con report: Panels and pawesomeness
Posted 11 years agoAs many of you did not know, I had the great pleasure of attending Arizona Fur Con thanks to 
who fed me and provided a nice place to sleep.
Friday offered a slow start as it was Halloween. I arrived a little late after a fairly sleepless night due to a roommate bringing over drunk and rather rambunctious friends over the night before. The con included a little trick or treat time in which I dressed as a starving artist. It wasn't exactly a "costume" but it was the best I could manage with the resources I had. Other than that Friday was a seemingly dead night.
Saturday rolled around and this is where the fun began. Early in the day I had a panel planned. If you do not remember, I had been working on a senior thesis involving the Furry fandom. My research has focused on investigating anthropomorphism in ancient artwork, and more importantly finding any significant links between art and culture. What I found was that depending on how a an anthropomorphic or furry looking figure is portrayed, determined how a culture treats its environment, and how it interacts with other cultures around it. My expectations were rather low. While I wanted a big turnout, I thought that only about four people might be interested in the research. I was shown quite the opposite as roughly 20 people, including two of the guests of honor showed up. After presenting the vast bulk of my research we had roughly 35 minutes of really interesting and in depth discussion, question answer and feedback time.
I must say, the support from the group was invigorating. I will most definitely be continuing this research and looking to other cons to present my research with financial support from my college. In order to bring this to other people and conventions for the entire fandom to see. Thank you to everyone who came and gave me additional resources to look up.
The day went on with other activities, ending with the comedy shows of Who's Lion is it anyways?, Uncle Kage, and 2 the Ranting Griffon.
Sunday was that sad wrap up day. Despite the dance competition, gaming, and closing ceremonies the final day of a con is always bittersweet inevitably ending with a long drive home.
Over all I met a lot of fantastic people. I didn't spend as much time with some friends as I would have liked but over all it was still an awesome con.
The report will be uploaded here after I send it through a little more editing in order to ensure that it is coherent and better suited to the fandom.
who fed me and provided a nice place to sleep. Friday offered a slow start as it was Halloween. I arrived a little late after a fairly sleepless night due to a roommate bringing over drunk and rather rambunctious friends over the night before. The con included a little trick or treat time in which I dressed as a starving artist. It wasn't exactly a "costume" but it was the best I could manage with the resources I had. Other than that Friday was a seemingly dead night.
Saturday rolled around and this is where the fun began. Early in the day I had a panel planned. If you do not remember, I had been working on a senior thesis involving the Furry fandom. My research has focused on investigating anthropomorphism in ancient artwork, and more importantly finding any significant links between art and culture. What I found was that depending on how a an anthropomorphic or furry looking figure is portrayed, determined how a culture treats its environment, and how it interacts with other cultures around it. My expectations were rather low. While I wanted a big turnout, I thought that only about four people might be interested in the research. I was shown quite the opposite as roughly 20 people, including two of the guests of honor showed up. After presenting the vast bulk of my research we had roughly 35 minutes of really interesting and in depth discussion, question answer and feedback time.
I must say, the support from the group was invigorating. I will most definitely be continuing this research and looking to other cons to present my research with financial support from my college. In order to bring this to other people and conventions for the entire fandom to see. Thank you to everyone who came and gave me additional resources to look up.
The day went on with other activities, ending with the comedy shows of Who's Lion is it anyways?, Uncle Kage, and 2 the Ranting Griffon.
Sunday was that sad wrap up day. Despite the dance competition, gaming, and closing ceremonies the final day of a con is always bittersweet inevitably ending with a long drive home.
Over all I met a lot of fantastic people. I didn't spend as much time with some friends as I would have liked but over all it was still an awesome con.
The report will be uploaded here after I send it through a little more editing in order to ensure that it is coherent and better suited to the fandom.
23
Posted 11 years agoYeah, it's that time again, Another year spent and quite a year it has been.
Thank you to everyone who topped by to wish me a happy birthday.
I love you all and now I'm looking forward to another fantastic year.
Thank you to everyone who topped by to wish me a happy birthday.
I love you all and now I'm looking forward to another fantastic year.
What to do for Depression?
Posted 11 years agoSo I'm afraid that I have a little dilemma. The other day my cat got chased by my neighbor's pitbull from my house to my other next door neighbors house, and had to see refuge on their shed.
Since then, she has been too depressed or scared to go outside. It wouldn't be an issue, except she has hardly gotten out of her bed and doesn't even play in the house. Has anyone else ever had this issue with cats and if so what can I do to help her come back to her old self?
Please help soon, the fucking chipmunks are going rampant.
Since then, she has been too depressed or scared to go outside. It wouldn't be an issue, except she has hardly gotten out of her bed and doesn't even play in the house. Has anyone else ever had this issue with cats and if so what can I do to help her come back to her old self?
Please help soon, the fucking chipmunks are going rampant.
Time to Say Goodbye
Posted 11 years agoSome of you may already know that my boyfriend Maurick or 
GermanShepherd69 will be heading down to San Antonio, Texas for basic training in the air force. I've been spending this last month trying to spend every last moment I can with him. Now it is time for us to part ways for a little while and become stronger people.
Something about a goodbye, even if it is temporary is painful when it is for those you love. The resulting loneliness is my test to ensure that our love is enduring without him.
I'm taking up training of my own, that way in some small way I might feel closer to my mate. We will both come out better people in the end.
As for you babe, I'll miss the hell out of you, and I'll see you on the other side.
GermanShepherd69 will be heading down to San Antonio, Texas for basic training in the air force. I've been spending this last month trying to spend every last moment I can with him. Now it is time for us to part ways for a little while and become stronger people.Something about a goodbye, even if it is temporary is painful when it is for those you love. The resulting loneliness is my test to ensure that our love is enduring without him.
I'm taking up training of my own, that way in some small way I might feel closer to my mate. We will both come out better people in the end.
As for you babe, I'll miss the hell out of you, and I'll see you on the other side.
18+ only. New adult novelty ideas.
Posted 11 years agoFor those of you who may enjoy some big time fun, I encourage you to check out this idea from johnwolf13
For those of you interested please visit the image posted below to view the picture. You will also find a link to a poll so you can give your opinion on the new ideas for goodies.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14163997/
johnwolf13For those of you interested please visit the image posted below to view the picture. You will also find a link to a poll so you can give your opinion on the new ideas for goodies.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14163997/
Commissions may be opening soon.
Posted 11 years agoHey there everyone!
It has been one very long time since I have done this,
but I am thinking it is time to open commissions.
With not a job in sight and one more semester of college to be paid for It
appears that I must stick to my bearings and bust out commissions of all
sorts to keep myself fed.
Keep an eye out i'm trying to finish a few old projects and then it is off to the commission factory for me.*Important announcement* Senior project, help needed.
Posted 11 years agoHello everyone. it has been quite some time since my last update. It is finally time to reveal what I have been doing with my time. This college semester I have been working on my senior project, a massive academic research paper. Most of all I hope to give the anthropomorphic community and subculture a bit of a better standing among the academic community and reveal what findings I uncover this semester. Please help if you can and spread the word.
We all know that historically, the anthropomorphic art-form is among one of the oldest known genres in the art world. I intend to investigate cultural significance of anthropomorphic, human-animal hybrids through history. Additionally I intend to find out how anthropomorphism has influenced the relationship between humans and non-human animals.
The purpose of my study is to understand if the cultural context of anthropomorphism within a society can be used to help the environment.
This is how I need your help. Please write comments below.
What anthropomorphic figures are depicted in a writing, sculpture, art etc. throughout all cultures around the world? I an using everything form paleolithic figurines and art to the modern day.
I need everyone's help in pulling together a listing of as many human-animal hybrids as we can find. In order to have conclusive results I need to have a large sample size. Some of these have names and some are known by the name of the creature, like Anubis and a minotaur respectively. The modern figures are going to consist of mainstream stuff like tony the tiger. As much as I would like to have everyone in the fandom documenting their characters that is not within the scope of my research this time around.
I need as many of these mythological figures as we furries can muster as a community. I know this community is capable, and extends around the world. With that wealth of knowledge worldwide I hope to catch all of the figures I may otherwise miss.
I will make a journal to be linked here containing a listing of all of the figures we can uncover.
Thank you for the help. Please send out a journal to publicize this or tell your friends, or send a link over skype.
We all know that historically, the anthropomorphic art-form is among one of the oldest known genres in the art world. I intend to investigate cultural significance of anthropomorphic, human-animal hybrids through history. Additionally I intend to find out how anthropomorphism has influenced the relationship between humans and non-human animals.
The purpose of my study is to understand if the cultural context of anthropomorphism within a society can be used to help the environment.
This is how I need your help. Please write comments below.
What anthropomorphic figures are depicted in a writing, sculpture, art etc. throughout all cultures around the world? I an using everything form paleolithic figurines and art to the modern day.
I need everyone's help in pulling together a listing of as many human-animal hybrids as we can find. In order to have conclusive results I need to have a large sample size. Some of these have names and some are known by the name of the creature, like Anubis and a minotaur respectively. The modern figures are going to consist of mainstream stuff like tony the tiger. As much as I would like to have everyone in the fandom documenting their characters that is not within the scope of my research this time around.
I need as many of these mythological figures as we furries can muster as a community. I know this community is capable, and extends around the world. With that wealth of knowledge worldwide I hope to catch all of the figures I may otherwise miss.
I will make a journal to be linked here containing a listing of all of the figures we can uncover.
Thank you for the help. Please send out a journal to publicize this or tell your friends, or send a link over skype.
It's been a long time
Posted 12 years agoWhat can i say, this last semester was certainly a rough one. Now I'm back and feeling art calling me again.
sorry i haven't been on much at all. It is time to fix this with art I haven't posted yet and restarting on my commissions queue
sorry i haven't been on much at all. It is time to fix this with art I haven't posted yet and restarting on my commissions queue
Help me win! Need your vote everyone.
Posted 12 years agovote for me over in this journal http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5183547/
This is a competition to attain a special character from my bro. Naturally I would rather see one of his characters fall into the hands of some one he knows face to face.
I'm very behind though.
I need your votes everyone. Just post my username in the comments. Simple stuff really.
So come on down guys, lets beat these guys! Thank you everyone!
This is a competition to attain a special character from my bro
. Naturally I would rather see one of his characters fall into the hands of some one he knows face to face. I'm very behind though.
I need your votes everyone. Just post my username in the comments. Simple stuff really.
So come on down guys, lets beat these guys! Thank you everyone!
Oorah!Something new to squeeze on and BIG new surprise!!!
Posted 12 years agoSorry for being gone a lot guys. College life keeps a guy busy as hell. Especially this year, try getting a semester long project devoted to writing an academic paper on reducing CO2 emissions produced by electricity generation in the American western power grid.
If that flew right over your head, I don't blame you. My group was given the task to assist in solving issues of climate change.
Now to more exciting stuff. I need your help, anyone who reads this. I'm in the running to win a character from my favorite big dicked chimera. Please go and vote for me. http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5183547/
If you did click the link and vote, thank you.
and now for that big news.
that's right, a few days ago a cute little shep wandered into my life with a spunky attitude, cute rump and ran off with my heart. is my new boy and I really hope to be with him for a long time. Now it's FA official! :3
Love you babe
that wraps up the updates for now. see you all soon.
If that flew right over your head, I don't blame you. My group was given the task to assist in solving issues of climate change.
To sum it up, I have been working on solving the biggest problem in the world. Now to more exciting stuff. I need your help, anyone who reads this. I'm in the running to win a character from my favorite big dicked chimera. Please go and vote for me. http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5183547/
If you did click the link and vote, thank you.
and now for that big news.
I have a boyfriend!that's right, a few days ago a cute little shep wandered into my life with a spunky attitude, cute rump and ran off with my heart.
is my new boy and I really hope to be with him for a long time. Now it's FA official! :3 Love you babe
that wraps up the updates for now. see you all soon.
Sept. 11 a day of bad memories.
Posted 12 years agoSometimes I am asked what I was doing that day, that morning. Like everyone I do not look upon 9/11/2001 with fondness. I know i did not suffer as others did, but my day was still extraordinarily stupid. Let me explain a story from my childhood from a young naive child and my story of that day
That morning I was woken up very early. As always I turned the tv on to watch my morning cartoons and get ready for school. Back then I believe pokemon would have been on around that time, way back when it was a morning cartoon. Instead my shows were interrupted by the news and my shows weren't on. I didn't pay much attention to the tv, nor could I really understand what was going on anyway but yes I was watching as the towers collapsed live. The adults of my family were talking, this and that and I half paid attention to their conversations.
Now, there is a building in my home town called the "Trade Center." As I went to school the bus drove past it. You see Mountain standard time (MST) is 2 hours behind and school started at about 8 am. Therefore, by my calculations the building I drove past would be blown up while I was at school, 46 minutes after I drove past it. This then meant that someone was going to blow it up at 6:46 am, but due to some difference in time the building wouldn't be blown up until 8:46.
Well I thought everyone was saying the Trade Center had been blown up already. I was all, "guys we rode past it this morning, it's still there. Oh did you guys see that really cool demolition job in New York City on the news this morning." With those comments I crossed the line without even knowing it. Let's just say things were not all too pleasant after that. I got into enormous trouble. I spent all day assuming that the adults were just stupid.
You see, none of the reports I heard that morning were using the word "world" with "trade center." I did not know that there was even a place called the World Trade Center in New York City as well. Everyone just said "The Trade Center! The Trade Center!"
I remember something about me saying. "Well of course it was planned. since we knew about this since earlier everyone should have been out of the building. And why am i in trouble for this?" Logically, why wouldn't you evacuate a building before a demolition job? Right? (Keep in mind that I would not have known that the pentagon had been hit, nor that a fourth plane that crashed into the ground.)
I made it look as though there was a planned attack for Colorado or at least several other places still in progress. This was all going on as there were still a few planes in the sky. The grounding order may have been issued but it still took time to get all the planes on the ground.
Gradually, I learned the real story bit by bit as I grew older. That day, I learned that the world was not as happy as I had once thought it was.
So that is my memory of that day is tainted by a severe misunderstanding. Sadly that was not the only story I have like that from my childhood.
That morning I was woken up very early. As always I turned the tv on to watch my morning cartoons and get ready for school. Back then I believe pokemon would have been on around that time, way back when it was a morning cartoon. Instead my shows were interrupted by the news and my shows weren't on. I didn't pay much attention to the tv, nor could I really understand what was going on anyway but yes I was watching as the towers collapsed live. The adults of my family were talking, this and that and I half paid attention to their conversations.
Now, there is a building in my home town called the "Trade Center." As I went to school the bus drove past it. You see Mountain standard time (MST) is 2 hours behind and school started at about 8 am. Therefore, by my calculations the building I drove past would be blown up while I was at school, 46 minutes after I drove past it. This then meant that someone was going to blow it up at 6:46 am, but due to some difference in time the building wouldn't be blown up until 8:46.
Well I thought everyone was saying the Trade Center had been blown up already. I was all, "guys we rode past it this morning, it's still there. Oh did you guys see that really cool demolition job in New York City on the news this morning." With those comments I crossed the line without even knowing it. Let's just say things were not all too pleasant after that. I got into enormous trouble. I spent all day assuming that the adults were just stupid.
You see, none of the reports I heard that morning were using the word "world" with "trade center." I did not know that there was even a place called the World Trade Center in New York City as well. Everyone just said "The Trade Center! The Trade Center!"
I remember something about me saying. "Well of course it was planned. since we knew about this since earlier everyone should have been out of the building. And why am i in trouble for this?" Logically, why wouldn't you evacuate a building before a demolition job? Right? (Keep in mind that I would not have known that the pentagon had been hit, nor that a fourth plane that crashed into the ground.)
I made it look as though there was a planned attack for Colorado or at least several other places still in progress. This was all going on as there were still a few planes in the sky. The grounding order may have been issued but it still took time to get all the planes on the ground.
Gradually, I learned the real story bit by bit as I grew older. That day, I learned that the world was not as happy as I had once thought it was.
So that is my memory of that day is tainted by a severe misunderstanding. Sadly that was not the only story I have like that from my childhood.
Sept. 11 a day of bad memories.
Posted 12 years agoSometimes I am asked what I was doing that day, that morning. Like everyone I do not look upon 9/11/2001 with fondness. I know i did not suffer as others did, but my day was still extraordinarily stupid. Let me explain a story from my childhood from a young naive child and my story of that day
That morning I was woken up very early. As always I turned the tv on to watch my morning cartoons and get ready for school. Back then I believe pokemon would have been on around that time, way back when it was a morning cartoon. Instead my shows were interrupted by the news and my shows weren't on. I didn't pay much attention to the tv, nor could I really understand what was going on anyway but yes I was watching as the towers collapsed live. The adults of my family were talking, this and that and I half paid attention to their conversations.
Now, there is a building in my home town called the "Trade Center." As I went to school the bus drove past it. You see Mountain standard time (MST) is 2 hours behind and school started at about 8 am. Therefore, by my calculations the building I drove past would be blown up while I was at school, 46 minutes after I drove past it. This then meant that someone was going to blow it up at 6:46 am, but due to some difference in time the building wouldn't be blown up until 8:46.
Well I thought everyone was saying the Trade Center had been blown up already. I was all, "guys we rode past it this morning, it's still there. Oh did you guys see that really cool demolition job in New York City on the news this morning." With those comments I crossed the line without even knowing it. Let's just say things were not all too pleasant after that. I got into enormous trouble. I spent all day assuming that the adults were just stupid.
You see, none of the reports I heard that morning were using the word "world" with "trade center." I did not know that there was even a place called the World Trade Center in New York City as well. Everyone just said "The Trade Center! The Trade Center!"
I remember something about me saying. "Well of course it was planned. since we knew about this since earlier everyone should have been out of the building. And why am i in trouble for this?" Logically, why wouldn't you evacuate a building before a demolition job? Right? (Keep in mind that I would not have known that the pentagon had been hit, nor that a fourth plane that crashed into the ground.)
I made it look as though there was a planned attack for Colorado or at least several other places still in progress. This was all going on as there were still a few planes in the sky. The grounding order may have been issued but it still took time to get all the planes on the ground.
Gradually, I learned the real story bit by bit as I grew older. That day, I learned that the world was not as happy as I had once thought it was.
So that is my memory of that day is tainted by a severe misunderstanding. Sadly that was not the only story I have like that from my childhood.
That morning I was woken up very early. As always I turned the tv on to watch my morning cartoons and get ready for school. Back then I believe pokemon would have been on around that time, way back when it was a morning cartoon. Instead my shows were interrupted by the news and my shows weren't on. I didn't pay much attention to the tv, nor could I really understand what was going on anyway but yes I was watching as the towers collapsed live. The adults of my family were talking, this and that and I half paid attention to their conversations.
Now, there is a building in my home town called the "Trade Center." As I went to school the bus drove past it. You see Mountain standard time (MST) is 2 hours behind and school started at about 8 am. Therefore, by my calculations the building I drove past would be blown up while I was at school, 46 minutes after I drove past it. This then meant that someone was going to blow it up at 6:46 am, but due to some difference in time the building wouldn't be blown up until 8:46.
Well I thought everyone was saying the Trade Center had been blown up already. I was all, "guys we rode past it this morning, it's still there. Oh did you guys see that really cool demolition job in New York City on the news this morning." With those comments I crossed the line without even knowing it. Let's just say things were not all too pleasant after that. I got into enormous trouble. I spent all day assuming that the adults were just stupid.
You see, none of the reports I heard that morning were using the word "world" with "trade center." I did not know that there was even a place called the World Trade Center in New York City as well. Everyone just said "The Trade Center! The Trade Center!"
I remember something about me saying. "Well of course it was planned. since we knew about this since earlier everyone should have been out of the building. And why am i in trouble for this?" Logically, why wouldn't you evacuate a building before a demolition job? Right? (Keep in mind that I would not have known that the pentagon had been hit, nor that a fourth plane that crashed into the ground.)
I made it look as though there was a planned attack for Colorado or at least several other places still in progress. This was all going on as there were still a few planes in the sky. The grounding order may have been issued but it still took time to get all the planes on the ground.
Gradually, I learned the real story bit by bit as I grew older. That day, I learned that the world was not as happy as I had once thought it was.
So that is my memory of that day is tainted by a severe misunderstanding. Sadly that was not the only story I have like that from my childhood.
22...a year older
Posted 12 years agoand supposedly a year wiser.
shall we test this out tonight? free birthday shots! hmmm maybe not.....
This year I have accomplished quite a lot, I also lost quite a lot. For that I am pissed at the universe and I will reclaim my losses soon enough.
I'm feeling old, and I'm not liking it...
shall we test this out tonight? free birthday shots! hmmm maybe not.....
This year I have accomplished quite a lot, I also lost quite a lot. For that I am pissed at the universe and I will reclaim my losses soon enough.
I'm feeling old, and I'm not liking it...
How I want to love him.
Posted 12 years agoI am fine now. I have things mostly resolved. Turns out my boy was afraid our relationship was moving to fast. I did not realize it at first but the way I loved him was only going to hurt the both of us.
I remember a metaphor from some book, I think it is called Like Water for Chocolate. Passion and lust make act like a hot fire, they consume everything quickly. Soon there is nothing left but ashes.
However if a fire were slow enough it could conceivably go on forever.
I'll admit, when it comes to him yes I want him, but if we become sex hungry beasts now and suddenly we hate each other. What kind of long term relationship is that? It is exactly what I have become infamous for, a quick lay. Here is the thing about obsidianfox6336, I do care for him.
What did I learn this summer? Well let me explain it like this. I have worked for may years researching wolves and understanding them. I swore to myself years ago that I would one day work with wolves. It took me at least four years to make it. I have loved every minute of my summer working with wolves. My goal was done and I felt empty. It took a long time but it was worth it.
Now I also found this awesome fox who I fell for, and when I got to meet him face to face I fell hard. Now he did not tell me this right out, although I wish he would have. When we spent our one night together it was cute, but he was right, I was wrong. I made the wrong assumptions and we both surpassed the boundaries of what we should have done.
Thing is we both started going on a path that would have led us into lust, and then tragic loss.
He saw this before I did and preemptively acted completely shutting me out. The thing is, until I had time to reason this out I was acting too desperate. We were desperate to settle our sexual urges but defining a long lasting relationship with sex is stupid.
The thing is, with
I don't want sex, I want the man. He is everything I could ask in a mate. I'll admit I now share his fear of moving too fast. I don't want to hurt him and I don't want to loose him. Yet I refuse to be his lust driven stalker. If he'll have me, I could have him in my life indefinitely. To be blatantly honest I could see him being my husband in the future, and I feel really silly saying that.
I can only hope he feels the same. I hope that he does.
I will have to treat this like i did for attaining my job with the wolves. It will take a lot of time and a lot of work to span the distance between us. It gives me a good long time to work on myself (my body, my life, my work, ect.). I truly do want to be the man he deserves.
Should he ever see this, i hope he understands.
From what I can tell he, wants to go further and he has not given up on me. Rather, he is afraid of wrecking what we have. Why? I hope it has all the happy implications but as of now I do not know.
Yes communication is key to a relationship, but as far as I can tell he has not given up on me. If he does, he needs to grow the balls to come and tell me directly and not hide behind blocking. I am forced to assume that he means the best.
Like he asked, I will take this slow.
Even though he has blocked my communication with him, please do not message him or send this journal as a note this time. If anyone does notes or shouts this to him I will personally spay, or neuter you, then he will hunt you down and burn you. He needs needs the time to sort this out himself.
I am only sad because I did not get to ask him two questions seeing as I was packing and moving to college.
Nið, Do you care for me? Do you want to love me? I trust as my friend you will find this and see it yourself, and answer truthfully. If you do not care you will ignore this and never see it, and never respond.
Oh and Nið, just to let you know. All of those notes and shouts were not me trying hard. One day I'll tell you what I would have really done if I was trying. Regretfully, I was just desperate to get you to tell me why you ignored me. Though, next time please find a more mature, less abrupt way of getting some space. It really did sting.
but now i am off, Thank you friends for all of your help and support during these dark days. I know the role i must play, ad rest assured that he is still my goal in life. All we did was take our relationship a few steps back and one day I hope I can hold my fox again.
I remember a metaphor from some book, I think it is called Like Water for Chocolate. Passion and lust make act like a hot fire, they consume everything quickly. Soon there is nothing left but ashes.
However if a fire were slow enough it could conceivably go on forever.
I'll admit, when it comes to him yes I want him, but if we become sex hungry beasts now and suddenly we hate each other. What kind of long term relationship is that? It is exactly what I have become infamous for, a quick lay. Here is the thing about obsidianfox6336, I do care for him.
What did I learn this summer? Well let me explain it like this. I have worked for may years researching wolves and understanding them. I swore to myself years ago that I would one day work with wolves. It took me at least four years to make it. I have loved every minute of my summer working with wolves. My goal was done and I felt empty. It took a long time but it was worth it.
Now I also found this awesome fox who I fell for, and when I got to meet him face to face I fell hard. Now he did not tell me this right out, although I wish he would have. When we spent our one night together it was cute, but he was right, I was wrong. I made the wrong assumptions and we both surpassed the boundaries of what we should have done.
Thing is we both started going on a path that would have led us into lust, and then tragic loss.
He saw this before I did and preemptively acted completely shutting me out. The thing is, until I had time to reason this out I was acting too desperate. We were desperate to settle our sexual urges but defining a long lasting relationship with sex is stupid.
The thing is, with
I don't want sex, I want the man. He is everything I could ask in a mate. I'll admit I now share his fear of moving too fast. I don't want to hurt him and I don't want to loose him. Yet I refuse to be his lust driven stalker. If he'll have me, I could have him in my life indefinitely. To be blatantly honest I could see him being my husband in the future, and I feel really silly saying that.I can only hope he feels the same. I hope that he does.
I will have to treat this like i did for attaining my job with the wolves. It will take a lot of time and a lot of work to span the distance between us. It gives me a good long time to work on myself (my body, my life, my work, ect.). I truly do want to be the man he deserves.
Should he ever see this, i hope he understands.
From what I can tell he, wants to go further and he has not given up on me. Rather, he is afraid of wrecking what we have. Why? I hope it has all the happy implications but as of now I do not know.
Yes communication is key to a relationship, but as far as I can tell he has not given up on me. If he does, he needs to grow the balls to come and tell me directly and not hide behind blocking. I am forced to assume that he means the best.
Like he asked, I will take this slow.
Even though he has blocked my communication with him, please do not message him or send this journal as a note this time. If anyone does notes or shouts this to him I will personally spay, or neuter you, then he will hunt you down and burn you. He needs needs the time to sort this out himself.
I am only sad because I did not get to ask him two questions seeing as I was packing and moving to college.
Nið, Do you care for me? Do you want to love me? I trust as my friend you will find this and see it yourself, and answer truthfully. If you do not care you will ignore this and never see it, and never respond.
Oh and Nið, just to let you know. All of those notes and shouts were not me trying hard. One day I'll tell you what I would have really done if I was trying. Regretfully, I was just desperate to get you to tell me why you ignored me. Though, next time please find a more mature, less abrupt way of getting some space. It really did sting.
but now i am off, Thank you friends for all of your help and support during these dark days. I know the role i must play, ad rest assured that he is still my goal in life. All we did was take our relationship a few steps back and one day I hope I can hold my fox again.
Blegh
Posted 12 years agorough night for me. But I'm working things out. I'll let you all kow how it goes.
A reason to cry
Posted 12 years agoso i've been in a relationship with Nið or for about 3 months. I visited him about two weeks ago. So after quite a bit of silence i finally decided to give my boyfriend a shout after a few days. i freaked out a few days ago when he wouldn't respond to me. I came home and saw a shout i posted didn't seem to post. i knew it had posted, but now it was gone.
i came on and sent him a note that i was getting us a commission. and maybe sending him a bottle of my family's homemade wine
he has me blocked.
I'm crying. no trying to hold back tears because this was completely unexpected. I want to talk to him. I really do. I want to know what is going through his head, but he won;t respond.
Nið, man up and talk to me. please. this action truely truely hurts. Do you remember that loneliness you said you once had when we first met. you are an awesome guy and i did not mean to be clingy the other day. However these actions seriously hurt me. i wonder, was i not good enough for you. I wish to talk and at least be friends again. I wish to know the reason for your silence. Thank you, Gar. I love you for you, my tasty fox.
for about 3 months. I visited him about two weeks ago. So after quite a bit of silence i finally decided to give my boyfriend a shout after a few days. i freaked out a few days ago when he wouldn't respond to me. I came home and saw a shout i posted didn't seem to post. i knew it had posted, but now it was gone.i came on and sent him a note that i was getting us a commission. and maybe sending him a bottle of my family's homemade wine
he has me blocked.
I'm crying. no trying to hold back tears because this was completely unexpected. I want to talk to him. I really do. I want to know what is going through his head, but he won;t respond.
Nið, man up and talk to me. please. this action truely truely hurts. Do you remember that loneliness you said you once had when we first met. you are an awesome guy and i did not mean to be clingy the other day. However these actions seriously hurt me. i wonder, was i not good enough for you. I wish to talk and at least be friends again. I wish to know the reason for your silence. Thank you, Gar. I love you for you, my tasty fox.
