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General | Posted 3 years agoWell as some of you may've noticed I've got 
howling2themoon 's story done! Now onto 
theanon 's story.
Sorry for the length of the wait. Work'n life balance went a bit... wonky. Got some new titles dropped on me and I'm trying to figure out just what I need to do for said work titles. I'm working on the thrid chapter of the Turing Asylum series so if you're enjoying that please stay tuned. After I'm done with the next story comish then I'm going to take a month or two off and try'n sort my stuff out. Thank you all for your patients and support ❤🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍
howling2themoon 's story done! Now onto 
theanon 's story. Sorry for the length of the wait. Work'n life balance went a bit... wonky. Got some new titles dropped on me and I'm trying to figure out just what I need to do for said work titles. I'm working on the thrid chapter of the Turing Asylum series so if you're enjoying that please stay tuned. After I'm done with the next story comish then I'm going to take a month or two off and try'n sort my stuff out. Thank you all for your patients and support ❤🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍
Update-ish?
General | Posted 3 years agoGood graces it has been a year since I've posted in a journal here! I've been away and try'n to fix myself. Had some help in sorting things out a tad.
I... started on howling2themoon's story but didn't get far. I still want to work on them though but I need a... body double. Kind of like a stand-in to watch me work? It's a bit odd but having someone there keeps me on track for the most part and I don't get so easily sidetracked by small things. So here's what I'm going to do: If you've got a commission slot from me I'm going to work on getting a date that you'n I can get together'n I can work on the story you'd like! So you can get to watch and mold the story as you please. So expect a note from me soon to discuss things since my days off are a bit wonky at the moment.
Speaking of stories I'm going to continue with the Turing Asylum series it's just taking a tad for the creative juices to fully form ideas and plots. Once I get the stories that're owed I'll wait a bit and open again.
In other news. I'm kinda bummed! I ordered some ink cartridges for my pen so's I could write down thoughts and such in my personal physical journal only to find out the daggum things didn't fit properly! My bed is slowly becoming more and more a place of soft, supple, comforting pressures from large plush animals that have taken up residence in my bed now. I've not gotten much time to go out'n explore my area since moving but with me learning to drive that'll soon be a thing of the past! Maybe! I don't know it's just kind of up in the air at this point as to what is what. All I know for certain is that more and more I'm choosing things that are plush, soft, fuzzy, and comforting to me like soft shirts and plush fuzzy blankets... and the small, but growing, army of plush animals occupying my bed at the moment!
I... started on
howling2themoon's story but didn't get far. I still want to work on them though but I need a... body double. Kind of like a stand-in to watch me work? It's a bit odd but having someone there keeps me on track for the most part and I don't get so easily sidetracked by small things. So here's what I'm going to do: If you've got a commission slot from me I'm going to work on getting a date that you'n I can get together'n I can work on the story you'd like! So you can get to watch and mold the story as you please. So expect a note from me soon to discuss things since my days off are a bit wonky at the moment.Speaking of stories I'm going to continue with the Turing Asylum series it's just taking a tad for the creative juices to fully form ideas and plots. Once I get the stories that're owed I'll wait a bit and open again.
In other news. I'm kinda bummed! I ordered some ink cartridges for my pen so's I could write down thoughts and such in my personal physical journal only to find out the daggum things didn't fit properly! My bed is slowly becoming more and more a place of soft, supple, comforting pressures from large plush animals that have taken up residence in my bed now. I've not gotten much time to go out'n explore my area since moving but with me learning to drive that'll soon be a thing of the past! Maybe! I don't know it's just kind of up in the air at this point as to what is what. All I know for certain is that more and more I'm choosing things that are plush, soft, fuzzy, and comforting to me like soft shirts and plush fuzzy blankets... and the small, but growing, army of plush animals occupying my bed at the moment!
Chanticleer
General | Posted 5 years agoJust raise that sun up please Mr Chanticleer. I ain't yet awake you see.
So much to do and so little time to do it and yet today I feel has been an absolute mess. The morning started off with an absolute bang! Pissed my bed! What a lovely sensation to wake up to. Luckily I woke up quick enough to only have a small puddle to deal with... So I get up, tear everything off my bed, strip out of my wet clothes, get baking soda on the bed to help absorb what it can and put my sheets into the laundry. Afterwards I make breakfast, eat some granola bar since I can't eat eggs and didn't want to make oatmeal for the 1000th time, and then take care of the dishes. I play a bit of GTA as I wait for my bedding to wash'n dry then decide after that's all done'n settled to go out and deal with the leaves underneath the orange tree with a broom. the housemate comes out asks me if I'd rather use the leaf blower to which I reply with "I'm OK I'll deal with it this way thank you." he goes in and then out pops the bf with the leaf blower not too long after the housemate disappears into the house. They want me to use the blower to blow the leaves into a pile, which I begrudgingly do since I said I was OK with doing it with a broom... I begin to sweep with the blower as I'd done dozens of times before with something more volatile than orange tree leaves. Apparently they were under the assumption that I wanted to do it quickly which I was fine with just zenning out sweeping up the leaves but it is what it is.
It was an old broom that I'd been using and now... now due to my temper that old shitty thing is in the trash so bleh. I was prepared to get sweaty, dirty, and nasty and shower afterwards.
You'll have to forgive any errors in grammar or spelling that happen to pass by Grammarly as I'm fairly drunk at this point in the day. I hate telling people one thing to have them try to push me to pursue their own avenue to get things done.
So much to do and so little time to do it and yet today I feel has been an absolute mess. The morning started off with an absolute bang! Pissed my bed! What a lovely sensation to wake up to. Luckily I woke up quick enough to only have a small puddle to deal with... So I get up, tear everything off my bed, strip out of my wet clothes, get baking soda on the bed to help absorb what it can and put my sheets into the laundry. Afterwards I make breakfast, eat some granola bar since I can't eat eggs and didn't want to make oatmeal for the 1000th time, and then take care of the dishes. I play a bit of GTA as I wait for my bedding to wash'n dry then decide after that's all done'n settled to go out and deal with the leaves underneath the orange tree with a broom. the housemate comes out asks me if I'd rather use the leaf blower to which I reply with "I'm OK I'll deal with it this way thank you." he goes in and then out pops the bf with the leaf blower not too long after the housemate disappears into the house. They want me to use the blower to blow the leaves into a pile, which I begrudgingly do since I said I was OK with doing it with a broom... I begin to sweep with the blower as I'd done dozens of times before with something more volatile than orange tree leaves. Apparently they were under the assumption that I wanted to do it quickly which I was fine with just zenning out sweeping up the leaves but it is what it is.
It was an old broom that I'd been using and now... now due to my temper that old shitty thing is in the trash so bleh. I was prepared to get sweaty, dirty, and nasty and shower afterwards.
You'll have to forgive any errors in grammar or spelling that happen to pass by Grammarly as I'm fairly drunk at this point in the day. I hate telling people one thing to have them try to push me to pursue their own avenue to get things done.
Sunday Stream!
General | Posted 5 years agoStill don't know what bit my hand but daggum does it still kind of hurt when I extend it. Nothing I can't work through though I mean cripes I've had bruised ribs before and that only slightly slowed me down.
In other news, I got recognized for my work at organizing and sequencing the overhead space, pallets, and all. Recognition is great but it comes with a big caveat that I am seen. It's not that I've gone un-recognized during the five years, well not the most recent years anyhow, but now I'm being seen for what I can do and have a lot of people going "Hey you're the man with the plan!". I know what I'm doing. I know what I can do and how it best works for me. I can't say that my method won'twork for other people but the thing is that the other people need to be willing to try which I'm not saying they aren't willing to do. The issue that's going unanswered is communication between departments and management. I need to figure out a way to get both groups on the same page and to stay on that page.
Speaking of pages, with my new schedule it should open up early morning time to write and stream. This should also help me iron out things at home and streamline things with time. My garden and the house in general just needs to get readjusted and have the pipes cleaned a bit.
In other news, I got recognized for my work at organizing and sequencing the overhead space, pallets, and all. Recognition is great but it comes with a big caveat that I am seen. It's not that I've gone un-recognized during the five years, well not the most recent years anyhow, but now I'm being seen for what I can do and have a lot of people going "Hey you're the man with the plan!". I know what I'm doing. I know what I can do and how it best works for me. I can't say that my method won'twork for other people but the thing is that the other people need to be willing to try which I'm not saying they aren't willing to do. The issue that's going unanswered is communication between departments and management. I need to figure out a way to get both groups on the same page and to stay on that page.
Speaking of pages, with my new schedule it should open up early morning time to write and stream. This should also help me iron out things at home and streamline things with time. My garden and the house in general just needs to get readjusted and have the pipes cleaned a bit.
Stream Tomorrow!
General | Posted 5 years agoWhat a week, what a week!
Today was certainly a fresh reminder that some 50+ people can be dicks without care! Got bit by some kind of bug and got several people to get pissy with me due to either not having product or a plant or some such thing that they saw either in another store or on the website. I actually had to tell a lady about 4 or 5 times that I'd be with her before telling her the product she was asking about should be around the corner. She said "But it's not there." so I said, "Ok I'll be with you in a moment." "OK, that's fine." '..." Like really? All those other "I'll be with you in a moment" didn't register? UGH! Then I go down to help load a customer in our Pro area and after struggling to get the product on the tines of the forklift and load the product, I park the machine, get thanked, hop off of the machine, go to look at my phone that'd been ringing off the hook and get bit by some kind of bug. Nothing serious but ye-ouch that hurt badly before I flung whatever it was off to the moon. To round the day off I was so fuzzed and fried after being in the heat for like 3+ hours that I accidentally clocked out 15 mins early!
Tomorrow I'm probably going to be streaming the UltraKill demo and then some FFXIV to get further along and get some fresh new dungeons! Thursday will be spent writing and possibly doing some gardening depending on the weather since it's been storming almost on a daily basis over here. I need to get some mint as a ground cover to keep the pesky weeds out of the bed. I might even look into ground cover for the beds along the fence line just need to figure out what'd look best.
Anywho. Thank you for reading and keeping up the support! Love you all a ton! Don't forget to drop by my twitch and hang out if you can!
Today was certainly a fresh reminder that some 50+ people can be dicks without care! Got bit by some kind of bug and got several people to get pissy with me due to either not having product or a plant or some such thing that they saw either in another store or on the website. I actually had to tell a lady about 4 or 5 times that I'd be with her before telling her the product she was asking about should be around the corner. She said "But it's not there." so I said, "Ok I'll be with you in a moment." "OK, that's fine." '..." Like really? All those other "I'll be with you in a moment" didn't register? UGH! Then I go down to help load a customer in our Pro area and after struggling to get the product on the tines of the forklift and load the product, I park the machine, get thanked, hop off of the machine, go to look at my phone that'd been ringing off the hook and get bit by some kind of bug. Nothing serious but ye-ouch that hurt badly before I flung whatever it was off to the moon. To round the day off I was so fuzzed and fried after being in the heat for like 3+ hours that I accidentally clocked out 15 mins early!
Tomorrow I'm probably going to be streaming the UltraKill demo and then some FFXIV to get further along and get some fresh new dungeons! Thursday will be spent writing and possibly doing some gardening depending on the weather since it's been storming almost on a daily basis over here. I need to get some mint as a ground cover to keep the pesky weeds out of the bed. I might even look into ground cover for the beds along the fence line just need to figure out what'd look best.
Anywho. Thank you for reading and keeping up the support! Love you all a ton! Don't forget to drop by my twitch and hang out if you can!
Help a good doggo in need!
General | Posted 5 years agoSo I found an absolutely adorable artist! I've seen enough of their works to know they're quality is something else! Well, the artist posted a journal about needing help and if I know my readers they're always up for a good bit of art even if it's just to ogle at their gallery! Just give them a look over and see if you'd be interested in helping them out. https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9601611/
Also a small update! I've begun work on one of the stories I won't say which but I'm sure you will love it! I've also been watching some spectacular paranormal videos on youtube and I think I myself may be haunted. I know... how iconically ironic that a furry named Ghost who is a believer should find themselves haunted? On at least two occasions we've had unexplainable experiences happen here one being a bit untimely? Well, that's how I'd put it at any rate.
All three of us, my boyfriend, the housemate, and I were sat down eating dinner. Me'n the boyfriend were playing some Final Fantasy at the time and we'd left our computers up so that we could just hop back into the thick of it when we were done. The boyfriend's computer happens to be set to mute sound at the press of a button. Well, whatever is haunting me or this house, decided that it wanted to hear the action on the computer screen and turned the sound back on multiple times! I eventually just kind of gave the pleading look towards the computer of, please don't make him get back up,[I was uneasy around the housemate at that point and didn't want to be left alone near him] and it stopped switching back on. Thank whatever deity for that... then about a week goes by and I'm alone in the computer/entertainment/dining area and a book takes a tumble off the shelf near the archway to the kitchen. Luckily nothing was harmed and the shelf itself that had the book on it was pretty low to the ground but the thump roused the housemate who asked what that noise was so I had to explain that a book fell and I failed to put it back right, it fell another time after I got it semi situated again, and that was that.
Anywho that's all for now thank you for reading and please go show
toddlerpwincess some love'n support~!
Also a small update! I've begun work on one of the stories I won't say which but I'm sure you will love it! I've also been watching some spectacular paranormal videos on youtube and I think I myself may be haunted. I know... how iconically ironic that a furry named Ghost who is a believer should find themselves haunted? On at least two occasions we've had unexplainable experiences happen here one being a bit untimely? Well, that's how I'd put it at any rate.
All three of us, my boyfriend, the housemate, and I were sat down eating dinner. Me'n the boyfriend were playing some Final Fantasy at the time and we'd left our computers up so that we could just hop back into the thick of it when we were done. The boyfriend's computer happens to be set to mute sound at the press of a button. Well, whatever is haunting me or this house, decided that it wanted to hear the action on the computer screen and turned the sound back on multiple times! I eventually just kind of gave the pleading look towards the computer of, please don't make him get back up,[I was uneasy around the housemate at that point and didn't want to be left alone near him] and it stopped switching back on. Thank whatever deity for that... then about a week goes by and I'm alone in the computer/entertainment/dining area and a book takes a tumble off the shelf near the archway to the kitchen. Luckily nothing was harmed and the shelf itself that had the book on it was pretty low to the ground but the thump roused the housemate who asked what that noise was so I had to explain that a book fell and I failed to put it back right, it fell another time after I got it semi situated again, and that was that.
Anywho that's all for now thank you for reading and please go show
toddlerpwincess some love'n support~!Holy cow
General | Posted 5 years agoSo whilst working and doing my usual at work... near the very tail end of my shift I had one of the managers come'n ask if I was interested in full time! I said yea and now we're going forward with it! HOLY COW GUYS, IT'S HAPPENING! :D I'm so excited! I've been waiting 5 long years for a reasonable position to open up and this one is well within my grasp and the realm of reason for the most part. This settles a good deal of my anxieties mostly having to worry about going back a fair few steps or just not having enough money to cover bills.
As for commissions I still plan on doing them more as a side project and streaming will be affected not sure exactly how though. I might do early morning gaming streams! I've taken two stories so far and will be working out the details with the commissioners to get them the story they'd love. As for the time frame that these will be done in, I can't rightfully say how long it'll take me but there will be a week where I wait between stories.
In other news, I'm still in chastity and my keyholder flooded me with a bunch of images, videos, and gifs of chaste males and feet >.>; got me all riled up before bed lol
Commission Status:
1 - howling2themoon :: Not yet started
2 - TheAnon :: Not yet started
As for commissions I still plan on doing them more as a side project and streaming will be affected not sure exactly how though. I might do early morning gaming streams! I've taken two stories so far and will be working out the details with the commissioners to get them the story they'd love. As for the time frame that these will be done in, I can't rightfully say how long it'll take me but there will be a week where I wait between stories.
In other news, I'm still in chastity and my keyholder flooded me with a bunch of images, videos, and gifs of chaste males and feet >.>; got me all riled up before bed lol
Commission Status:
1 -
howling2themoon :: Not yet started2 -
TheAnon :: Not yet startedCommissions are closed for now
General | Posted 5 years agoBoth slots have been called :) Thank you for everyone's love and kind words! It felt really nice to get all that off my chest. Once the stories are done and bills have settled I'll probably open up for more stories :) Or you can catch me on a stream! I'll most likely be streaming both Sunday and Monday and working on stories when I have some downtime.
2 Commission slots have opened
General | Posted 5 years agoI'm going to be cautious about this
mostly because things have been topsy-turvey here and I'm not 100% on how my moods are going to be and how they'll impact my writing.I'll be opening two for now but if things go well I might make it 3 in the future. I will only accept payment at the end when the story is complete. The stories themselves will be 2-3 pages at $5 for each story.
In all honesty, I'm not really sure what to price my stories at. These past 24 hours have been kind of hard on my household. I mean I'm a good caretaker, in my opinion at least, but that just doesn't translate well to the household and I'm lost in what to do to fix things or alleviate mental stress. I don't want to seem like I'm bemoaning festering wounds but I feel like I'm just broken, trying to fix myself, and getting tossed bent screwdrivers and wrenches with missing adjustable jaws. These journals are just kind of an outlet for me at this point... mostly because the old journal I had when I was a kid, that I used maybe for a month[?], is missing and I can't find any of the old composition books I have besides the mini's that I use for work.
So do pardon my ramblings, please.
Things are getting frustrating and scary. Work has apparently got a slot open for full-time but it'd be a closing shift so that would be very hard on anyone that'd be giving me a ride from work... It'd be ideal if they had something open during the mid-shift that I KNOW I can do easily. At least I can do that without causing too much strain before I can get myself a means of transportation of my own. I mean I'm limited currently on my modes of transportation and I'm just kind of stuck here. There are times that I feel like I'm just a visitor here, hardly move out of my little corner, sometimes I don't eat either due to not feeling right or feeling like I'd be overstepping some boundary. To that end, I've been slow to request time off for my birthday. I mean... I only took a day off for my bf's birthday so I feel guilty for asking for 3 days off for my own. Work slapped me with two 16h work weeks for the day I asked off for that one occasion so... I just feel awful almost like I don't deserve all that time off.
I'm not good at verbalizing things and this has helped a lot. Thank you for reading and your continued support and love.
Possibly opening commissions
General | Posted 5 years agoSo things have been rather uncomfortably tight here with higher bills and such. I should be okay but I am pondering opening up for commissions. I'm being cautious about this though because right now with all that's going on with home'n the world, in general, I've been getting tossed about with some acute bouts of depression, or what I assume to be depression. It's made me slow to write and even slower to think of somethings to write.
I don't want to end up starting something that I don't finish and have it be put on the back burner for a period. Though I will admit that my latest writing foray has taught me to slow down when writing. These past two parts of the Nursery have been written then left to let things settle then I'd come back and proofread them myself or with the help of someone else. I'm thinking of doing one or two-page cheap stories with the possibility of possibly doing longer stories and setting up that 'shinies' thing or a Patreon thing. I'll have to think on this for a time.
Also I'd love to thank all those who've watched me recently! I'm still going to do my streams on my days off which the next one won't be until next Wednesday so be prepared for... something? I'm not sure if I'll play Minecraft or not since I'm still looking for that elusive wild onion in the modded game! Anywho enough of my ramblings! Thank you all for reading and thank you for the love!
I don't want to end up starting something that I don't finish and have it be put on the back burner for a period. Though I will admit that my latest writing foray has taught me to slow down when writing. These past two parts of the Nursery have been written then left to let things settle then I'd come back and proofread them myself or with the help of someone else. I'm thinking of doing one or two-page cheap stories with the possibility of possibly doing longer stories and setting up that 'shinies' thing or a Patreon thing. I'll have to think on this for a time.
Also I'd love to thank all those who've watched me recently! I'm still going to do my streams on my days off which the next one won't be until next Wednesday so be prepared for... something? I'm not sure if I'll play Minecraft or not since I'm still looking for that elusive wild onion in the modded game! Anywho enough of my ramblings! Thank you all for reading and thank you for the love!
Hello!
General | Posted 5 years agoHello from the other side!
Geeze'm Pete! 5 years?! It's been 5 years since my last out reaching journal? That oughta show you how good I am with consistency!
For real though I'd just love to thank you all for the absolutely massive flood of love for my latest story and all the other favorites my other stories have gotten! You are all a grand inspiration to keep writing.
5 Years is a damned long time for the last update. A helluva lot of stuff has happened since then'n there. I moved into an actual home! Not going to say it's been super ideal but it is what it is at this point. There are days that are good, some that are great, and days where my every limb seems to have a two-ton weight tied to them.
I have driven myself outwards to feel out kinks and such and as a result, I've gone out further into the ABDL community/scene and got a chat for local abdl's to chatterate'n just be social. I've also been streaming games! I have/had a youtube channel I was working on but I don't know if editing videos' is my thing just yet. I've also got twitters that I post semi-regularly too. I'll probably update my profile page here with all the relevant info'n such!
Speaking of ABDL... the story I'm writing the Turing Asylum Nursery story has been so incredibly long coming. I started it out as something of a personal story well back in 2018 and just kind of lost interest in writing for a bit. Recently though with all that's been going on around I've kind of delved into the story as a relief valve of sorts. Like I was saying on twitter my brains been on fire with need/want but to add to that this story has been a massive relief valve to get at least some of that energy out. I've also become a caretaker of sorts for two furs in the local scene which has also influenced my writing a bit. The third way is under... way. Mmm, no way to avoid that pun was there? It was holy unintentioned I assure you! I'm try'n to incorporate as many of my influencers into the story as much as possible so you may see character names that are very familiar. This is much more of a thank you to them for being there and offering guidance with certain things.
Now onto other things such as news and updates! I'll try to address these things in the same order that I mentioned them in the starting bit.
So yeah I moved! Me'n my partner were looking to get an actual house and we managed to get one! Its been a big change and to say that it was a smooth transition is not exactly truthful? Not sure if that's the right way to put things. We moved house in the midst of the hight of the pandemic so it was all wish wash with waiting for my transfer to be okayed to my new store and try'n to get things settled at the house.
The first day on the job at the new store was full of anxiety but after a few days and getting the tools I needed I fell into my place again and was back on my own two feet. I freely admit though that this store is a massive downgrade from my old. I'm still so used to having a deluge of customers and chaos that my brain kinda ticks in ways that just don't sit well with me lol. Like I want to push but I'm not one to push. I can make suggestions but it's up to the recipient to actually do anything with the suggestions. I'm working to get full time and hope that my seniority within the company will be looked at before anything else but I've been hoping they'd do that for a while and I've been looked over for so long. At least at this store with how slow things are I can do some actual work on the more important things that this store is lacking.
For the transition from apartment life to homeowner life... well it's been a tad rough getting used to having a new housemate? It was a massive monetary leap and a fairly tumultuous tumble downhill. Getting used to language and mannerisms of the housemate has been rough to say the least. Getting used to being alone in my own room hasn't been too much since me'n my partner had been sleeping separately due to worry about the virus. The only thing I can't really get used to is, and pardon me for being vague on this, my partner sleeping with the housemate. It's fairly complicated so I don't really want to go into the details and end up muddling them horribly. Just know it was a thing that was brought up before the move'n that it was agreed upon as an okay thing that we'd work on somehow.
The housemate himself well he could put a drunken weather-worn Irish seaman to shame with the language he uses on a daily basis to describe anything and everything. I don't think I've heard a single sentence that hadn't come out of him that didn't have some expletive in it. The language seems to flow in with his temperament which can be as bad or worse than the language at times. Needless to say, we've butt heads more'n a couple of times and it hasn't helped my depression (or what I'm assuming is acute depression at the most since I'm not a psychologist and haven't gone to see one! Yet.) It's gotten a tad better since things've settled but there are still bits and bobs that come up'n are put to the light that causes tensions to rise.
On a side note, I've put myself into chastity and made my partner my keyholder which has made playtime a lot more fun when we get to do that. Now, this doesn't go all the time meaning I'm not in chastity exactly 24/7 but when at home I usually have the cage on. There are days though that I have left it off and tell my partner and give my explanation as to why I don't have it on and he's very understanding about it. It's just sometimes it feels much more like a burden than a kinky fun time thing y'know? And to that point during the settling, there were times when we both felt uneasy here and just want to leave. I'd say more on that but I don't want to go any deeper into that just yet.
I've become a caretaker/Daddyfur! Of two wonderful littles in my state <3 both of whom I love equally with enough love for everyone else as well! Both of whom trust me and are very, very sweet and you might just end up reading about them at some point in the Nursery. I've found that the caretaker role is kind of natural to me? I feel at ease taking care of littles and apparently I can easily put people into littlespace or innocent mode with ease! During these times, especially in the states, it's been hard to feel at ease and just having someone to talk to that can ground you and make you feel safe or comfortable is something we'd all love and I feel like it's my goal to help put fears away while helping pick people up and help ease their worries. Just be aware that during these times some folks just need an outlet, someone to talk to, to listen to their worries and fears, they just need a relief valve to help get rid of the pent up energies inside. Or just be the shoulder to rest upon. Not everyone is handling this the same way and not everyone is impacted by this the same way just try to be there for one another y'know?
And onto the last bit of news! I have made a twitch.tv account where I stream games. Random games but games non the less! Sometimes I even have a mic running or music playing! I've been trying to stream on my days off, which are plentiful since I'm only employed part-time, when I'm not cleaning the house or something. Mostly things like Final Fantasy XIV or GTA Online, when I can get it to act decently since it seems to love eating up FPS when I go to stream, and other such things! Feel free to follow me over at twitch.tv/nybear87. As for the youtube thing, I think I'm going to hold off on that until I get a better grasp on editing and such. Or get someone who will edit it for me? Ha! I use OBS to stream and did use it for recording as well but I'm still working out the kinks and knots in the set up for recording.
To turn back a bit to the story bit. I'm not sure if I'd feel 100% with accepting commissions right now but when/if I ever do I'll be sure to post something alerting you folks :) Again I'd love to thank you all for the epic amount of love for the latest story and some of the older stories in this account! I am curious to hear though, what part of the stories you've all read did you enjoy the most? What images or feelings did I conjure?
Love you all and in the words of James A. Janisse "Be good people." <3
Geeze'm Pete! 5 years?! It's been 5 years since my last out reaching journal? That oughta show you how good I am with consistency!
For real though I'd just love to thank you all for the absolutely massive flood of love for my latest story and all the other favorites my other stories have gotten! You are all a grand inspiration to keep writing.
5 Years is a damned long time for the last update. A helluva lot of stuff has happened since then'n there. I moved into an actual home! Not going to say it's been super ideal but it is what it is at this point. There are days that are good, some that are great, and days where my every limb seems to have a two-ton weight tied to them.
I have driven myself outwards to feel out kinks and such and as a result, I've gone out further into the ABDL community/scene and got a chat for local abdl's to chatterate'n just be social. I've also been streaming games! I have/had a youtube channel I was working on but I don't know if editing videos' is my thing just yet. I've also got twitters that I post semi-regularly too. I'll probably update my profile page here with all the relevant info'n such!
Speaking of ABDL... the story I'm writing the Turing Asylum Nursery story has been so incredibly long coming. I started it out as something of a personal story well back in 2018 and just kind of lost interest in writing for a bit. Recently though with all that's been going on around I've kind of delved into the story as a relief valve of sorts. Like I was saying on twitter my brains been on fire with need/want but to add to that this story has been a massive relief valve to get at least some of that energy out. I've also become a caretaker of sorts for two furs in the local scene which has also influenced my writing a bit. The third way is under... way. Mmm, no way to avoid that pun was there? It was holy unintentioned I assure you! I'm try'n to incorporate as many of my influencers into the story as much as possible so you may see character names that are very familiar. This is much more of a thank you to them for being there and offering guidance with certain things.
Now onto other things such as news and updates! I'll try to address these things in the same order that I mentioned them in the starting bit.
So yeah I moved! Me'n my partner were looking to get an actual house and we managed to get one! Its been a big change and to say that it was a smooth transition is not exactly truthful? Not sure if that's the right way to put things. We moved house in the midst of the hight of the pandemic so it was all wish wash with waiting for my transfer to be okayed to my new store and try'n to get things settled at the house.
The first day on the job at the new store was full of anxiety but after a few days and getting the tools I needed I fell into my place again and was back on my own two feet. I freely admit though that this store is a massive downgrade from my old. I'm still so used to having a deluge of customers and chaos that my brain kinda ticks in ways that just don't sit well with me lol. Like I want to push but I'm not one to push. I can make suggestions but it's up to the recipient to actually do anything with the suggestions. I'm working to get full time and hope that my seniority within the company will be looked at before anything else but I've been hoping they'd do that for a while and I've been looked over for so long. At least at this store with how slow things are I can do some actual work on the more important things that this store is lacking.
For the transition from apartment life to homeowner life... well it's been a tad rough getting used to having a new housemate? It was a massive monetary leap and a fairly tumultuous tumble downhill. Getting used to language and mannerisms of the housemate has been rough to say the least. Getting used to being alone in my own room hasn't been too much since me'n my partner had been sleeping separately due to worry about the virus. The only thing I can't really get used to is, and pardon me for being vague on this, my partner sleeping with the housemate. It's fairly complicated so I don't really want to go into the details and end up muddling them horribly. Just know it was a thing that was brought up before the move'n that it was agreed upon as an okay thing that we'd work on somehow.
The housemate himself well he could put a drunken weather-worn Irish seaman to shame with the language he uses on a daily basis to describe anything and everything. I don't think I've heard a single sentence that hadn't come out of him that didn't have some expletive in it. The language seems to flow in with his temperament which can be as bad or worse than the language at times. Needless to say, we've butt heads more'n a couple of times and it hasn't helped my depression (or what I'm assuming is acute depression at the most since I'm not a psychologist and haven't gone to see one! Yet.) It's gotten a tad better since things've settled but there are still bits and bobs that come up'n are put to the light that causes tensions to rise.
On a side note, I've put myself into chastity and made my partner my keyholder which has made playtime a lot more fun when we get to do that. Now, this doesn't go all the time meaning I'm not in chastity exactly 24/7 but when at home I usually have the cage on. There are days though that I have left it off and tell my partner and give my explanation as to why I don't have it on and he's very understanding about it. It's just sometimes it feels much more like a burden than a kinky fun time thing y'know? And to that point during the settling, there were times when we both felt uneasy here and just want to leave. I'd say more on that but I don't want to go any deeper into that just yet.
I've become a caretaker/Daddyfur! Of two wonderful littles in my state <3 both of whom I love equally with enough love for everyone else as well! Both of whom trust me and are very, very sweet and you might just end up reading about them at some point in the Nursery. I've found that the caretaker role is kind of natural to me? I feel at ease taking care of littles and apparently I can easily put people into littlespace or innocent mode with ease! During these times, especially in the states, it's been hard to feel at ease and just having someone to talk to that can ground you and make you feel safe or comfortable is something we'd all love and I feel like it's my goal to help put fears away while helping pick people up and help ease their worries. Just be aware that during these times some folks just need an outlet, someone to talk to, to listen to their worries and fears, they just need a relief valve to help get rid of the pent up energies inside. Or just be the shoulder to rest upon. Not everyone is handling this the same way and not everyone is impacted by this the same way just try to be there for one another y'know?
And onto the last bit of news! I have made a twitch.tv account where I stream games. Random games but games non the less! Sometimes I even have a mic running or music playing! I've been trying to stream on my days off, which are plentiful since I'm only employed part-time, when I'm not cleaning the house or something. Mostly things like Final Fantasy XIV or GTA Online, when I can get it to act decently since it seems to love eating up FPS when I go to stream, and other such things! Feel free to follow me over at twitch.tv/nybear87. As for the youtube thing, I think I'm going to hold off on that until I get a better grasp on editing and such. Or get someone who will edit it for me? Ha! I use OBS to stream and did use it for recording as well but I'm still working out the kinks and knots in the set up for recording.
To turn back a bit to the story bit. I'm not sure if I'd feel 100% with accepting commissions right now but when/if I ever do I'll be sure to post something alerting you folks :) Again I'd love to thank you all for the epic amount of love for the latest story and some of the older stories in this account! I am curious to hear though, what part of the stories you've all read did you enjoy the most? What images or feelings did I conjure?
Love you all and in the words of James A. Janisse "Be good people." <3
RE: RE: RE: RE: RE: RE: RE: RE: RE: RE: RE: Happy New Years!
General | Posted 11 years ago
"It's not about how hard you can hit, but how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward."
To say that the last months of 2014 had been difficult for me would be an extreme understatement.
- Got fired and didn't get another job before missing 3 paychecks...
- Missed rent for nearly 3 months
- Fought a heavy on set of depression
- Broken promises
- Watched my money slowly drain away to nothing
- Felt the worries, stress, fears begin to overshadow me, I'd built up monoliths of fear around me... now I'm slowly breaking them down after eons of letting them determine what I was, who I was, and where I went.
I've fought now for 3 months to play catch up. I've been trying to structure myself, build up a fortress to conquer the monsters I'd made throughout my life. Like I said just after this had started and just after I'd landed my current employment: I've got giants to slay.
Like I said... I'm trying to structure myself better. I've got to many wants and to little needs. I have to switch that around. I've got a list of things to do... a quest log of sorts. As it stands I use my first day off of the week to get my house work done. I clean and tidy up the apartment and do my laundry... y'know that kinda tedious stuff.
Here's what I'm going to try to structure for this account here. I will post a weekly schedule of streams and updates. I'll have daily updates when necessary but until that time... For the few I owe... still wont charge you. For those who are wanting I will open up a few new things... scene commissions and descriptions for an ADD/ADHD stream that will be announced in the weekly schedule. Most likely the streams will be during the early evening or late afternoon.
For now, until I've got a price figured out for the scenes and description commissions, the streams will be pay what you want. Also like I said I don't want to rush on something and end up with a shit quality story or scene or description... So if I end up switching from one thing to something else mid stream please don't think I've stopped working on that previous work.
I will return soon. There is the possibility of a stream tomorrow.
I'm not looking for sympathy just understanding.Chastity for Charity! *title stolled from Moonfrost*
General | Posted 11 years agoSo here's the official 'start-up' journal for the Chastity donation event! The charity I've decided to donate all the proceedings to is The Wounded Warrior Project. I have friends and family that have been in the military, navy, and general armed forces. My grandfather, from my dad's side, was in the Korean war.
Anywho! Here's the donation info! Now this will be going on until December so you've all got plenty of time to donate :) All proceedings will go directly to the WWP to help our hero's get back on their feet! Here's the scheme:
$1 = One day without pawing or cumming :0 so the more you donate the more I wont paw or cum irl :P hehe
After the donations reach $50 then I'll put on a chastity cage'n wear it for a week and every $5 after that will be one additional week of cage time.
Now if you don't want to donate to the WWP that's fine :) Just comment with the group that you'd like to donate to when you donate :)
I'm using paypal right now for the donations because well... o.o why not? x3 hehe Anywho! Today's the first day you can donate :) Please if you do have a group that you'd like the money to go to don't feel shy!
Send the donations to DAmegalomaniac[at]hotmail.com and if this goes well then I do have a few other charity's I would love to do more events for! Maybe even have a short story stream for one? :) I'm open to ideas for things :D
**Donate @ Damegalomaniac@hotmail.com**
Anywho! Here's the donation info! Now this will be going on until December so you've all got plenty of time to donate :) All proceedings will go directly to the WWP to help our hero's get back on their feet! Here's the scheme:
$1 = One day without pawing or cumming :0 so the more you donate the more I wont paw or cum irl :P hehe
After the donations reach $50 then I'll put on a chastity cage'n wear it for a week and every $5 after that will be one additional week of cage time.
Now if you don't want to donate to the WWP that's fine :) Just comment with the group that you'd like to donate to when you donate :)
I'm using paypal right now for the donations because well... o.o why not? x3 hehe Anywho! Today's the first day you can donate :) Please if you do have a group that you'd like the money to go to don't feel shy!
Send the donations to DAmegalomaniac[at]hotmail.com and if this goes well then I do have a few other charity's I would love to do more events for! Maybe even have a short story stream for one? :) I'm open to ideas for things :D
**Donate @ Damegalomaniac@hotmail.com**
Details details! *Chastity Challenge*
General | Posted 11 years agoSo there has been quite a bit of interest in this. Here's some details! :D
Date for the event: Sept 1, 2014 until December 1, 2014
Donation details: [paypal info] DAmegalomaniac[at]hotmail.com
$1 = 1 day without cumming
When we reach the $50 dollar mark [which at this point seems a swift possibility :S :P] I will wear a chastity cage for one week.
Each $5 after that will earn me one more week of cage time!
Also in addition to my own time we've got another fur that has offered to join me in these escapades :D
moonfrost69 will be joining in on the fun. If this is as successful as I hope then I will do more like this! :D Maybe even let folks add stipulations ;3 lolBidding will start at Midnight on September 1st. Not sure if I should allow folks to donate prematurely... I suppose that'd be up to you? o.o
Small edit! This is mostly to help me pay bills but if you have a charity you'd like to help *since I'm crappy at chosing a single cause for stuff like this!* please note the charity you'd like to help :)Chastity Challenge??
General | Posted 11 years agoHello kiddies! I know I haven't been writing lately... *issa bad burr* :c sorry. Though I have been in a writing rutt! No real steam for my gears to grind away at good plot movement. On a separate note I have some questions. First is: I was considering having a YCH type of commission auction thing, though right now money's so tight I can barely pay attention! [hurrhurr..]. Who'd be interested in participating in that? Something like me paying for toiletbear to be used and abused at the paw of some of you guys! <3 I know how much you enjoy toiletbear hehe. :D
Also second question is I've been see'n a ton of these 'donate to change' things for characters and thought. "Psh... why not do more?" The more being... chastity irl :D I was thinking of maybe indulging my subby side and setting this up. Basically you'd donate whatever you want and for every dollar I'd go a day without cumming. Once passed the $50 mark I'd wear a chastity cage for a week and each $5 after that would add a week. Not sure how many of you'd be interested in that so... just kinda plopping that out! :P Might add different elements or donation things.
As far as stories go I'll try to write during the brief breaks between work and the comatose state that I wish to remain in during offtime. You see the thing is I don't want to rush. Rushing gets me no where and just leaves this muddled mess of a story that I feel just is not up to snuff by any standard. When I rush quality goes out the window along with the lust I have for that piece. I don't want to let you down but there's this nagging thing that's in the back of my head that pulls at me constantly telling me to rush or just quit. I don't want to listen to either. So please pardon the length at which the stories come.
I am willing to do the chastity donation thing and very willing to listen to any suggestions while I fight to form a plot that wont be absolute shit.
Also second question is I've been see'n a ton of these 'donate to change' things for characters and thought. "Psh... why not do more?" The more being... chastity irl :D I was thinking of maybe indulging my subby side and setting this up. Basically you'd donate whatever you want and for every dollar I'd go a day without cumming. Once passed the $50 mark I'd wear a chastity cage for a week and each $5 after that would add a week. Not sure how many of you'd be interested in that so... just kinda plopping that out! :P Might add different elements or donation things.
As far as stories go I'll try to write during the brief breaks between work and the comatose state that I wish to remain in during offtime. You see the thing is I don't want to rush. Rushing gets me no where and just leaves this muddled mess of a story that I feel just is not up to snuff by any standard. When I rush quality goes out the window along with the lust I have for that piece. I don't want to let you down but there's this nagging thing that's in the back of my head that pulls at me constantly telling me to rush or just quit. I don't want to listen to either. So please pardon the length at which the stories come.
I am willing to do the chastity donation thing and very willing to listen to any suggestions while I fight to form a plot that wont be absolute shit.
No Subject
General | Posted 11 years agoḭ̢̡̳͈̗̞ ̢̩͕̰̼͈̲͢S̵̬̘͇͉̲̻͓̜̜̬̮͔̳̯͕̲͔ḙ̵̢̫̝̤̯̺̳̗͎̳̰͇̦͓̱͇̦̥̕͢ę̨̧̬̗̝̟͖͈̦̪͕͉̥͟͜ ̧̡͙̠͙̱̬̦̯͈͙́͜Y̵̻̭̼͎̖͕͖͓͎̼̺̙͈͇̦̘͙͉̩͟͡͡͡o̶̡͎̦͈̦̲̘̬̺̜̙̳̲ͅu҉̷͉͖̹̦̦̥̰͓̺͇̤̯̦͉͢Sadly no stream today!
General | Posted 11 years agoSorry boys and girls! :c No stream today since it's mothers day'n all and who want's to dissapoint their mum on this day? o.o Ye'd be mean and mad to do so! O:< The streams shall return tomorrow! Promise! Oh'n for all that've had problems see'n the stream on the document all ya need to do is scroll downwards to the 'end' of the document ^^
Stream Switch-up!
General | Posted 11 years agoHello children,
So I must change a few things... streaming things. Instead of streaming on my days off only I will be streaming in the late morning and early afternoon. Mostly from 11AM-1PM every work day and on the days off I'll be streaming from 3PM-6PM. So that's the schedule hopefully it'll work!
I'll be working on moonfrost69's stories and after they are done I'll be writing for howling2themoon! After that maybe I'll open up for a few stories nothing to much this time... I was far to ambitious and hopefully this'll help.
So I must change a few things... streaming things. Instead of streaming on my days off only I will be streaming in the late morning and early afternoon. Mostly from 11AM-1PM every work day and on the days off I'll be streaming from 3PM-6PM. So that's the schedule hopefully it'll work!
I'll be working on
moonfrost69's stories and after they are done I'll be writing for howling2themoon! After that maybe I'll open up for a few stories nothing to much this time... I was far to ambitious and hopefully this'll help.Reboot v. 2.3
General | Posted 11 years agoHello, my dear watchers I'd like to apologize for the lengthy absence. I'm back. To make this short and simple I'll be wavering any payments for any stories that I owe. If I do owe you a story please tell me either in a note or a comment here.
If I owe you a story and you do want to pay upon the completion of the story you can pay whatever you feel the story is worth. If you feel the story is not complete then I will continue to work on it until you're happy with the story
I will be streaming on my days off either in the late afternoon or early evening.
Sorry for the wait children... Papa Bear is back.
** I won't be able to do icon commissions just yet sorry to say.
If I owe you a story and you do want to pay upon the completion of the story you can pay whatever you feel the story is worth. If you feel the story is not complete then I will continue to work on it until you're happy with the story
I will be streaming on my days off either in the late afternoon or early evening.
Sorry for the wait children... Papa Bear is back.
** I won't be able to do icon commissions just yet sorry to say.
Updates!!
General | Posted 12 years agoSo we got all moved in to the new apartment! Didn't sign the whole lease at first because we didn't get to see the apartment. So we went to see the apartment, shoddy work and bugs! Lots of German Cockroaches! We take our concerns to the management who is very willing to help us out and give us compensation for our time and efforts. A small side note is that if we hadn't taken care of the bug problem on our own or atleast get it under control... we had the option to move to a third story apartment [D: ew third story @.@].
Luckily we've got the bug problem under control and are able to actually eat from the plates we got! We're still vigilant for any stray bugs that might crawl from the dark depths of the building. We have noisey neighbors but can't really do much since... kids y'know the kind that will scream, run, roll'n play like the end of the world is tomorrow and there wont be any school.
Anywho yea moved in and battled the bugs who are now in retreat. Dunno yet though if we'll be having any stories worked on soon... I'm very super sorry to anyone that's been waiting :/ things are just... out of my paws atm as far as my scheduling goes.
Luckily we've got the bug problem under control and are able to actually eat from the plates we got! We're still vigilant for any stray bugs that might crawl from the dark depths of the building. We have noisey neighbors but can't really do much since... kids y'know the kind that will scream, run, roll'n play like the end of the world is tomorrow and there wont be any school.
Anywho yea moved in and battled the bugs who are now in retreat. Dunno yet though if we'll be having any stories worked on soon... I'm very super sorry to anyone that's been waiting :/ things are just... out of my paws atm as far as my scheduling goes.
Alright listen up cubbies...
General | Posted 12 years agoI'm gonna be moving. Not far but soon. It was really inevitable now that I have a job that wont run out of gas... atleast I hope it's not running out of gas. It seems that people are being hired in but no one is being let go. Huh...
Anywho just thought I'd let you know chiiillllldren! I sadly wont be working to much on comissions due to moving. Packing and stuff. :I Got a lot of packing to do lol all my crystals and coins and bottles! O:
Anywho just thought I'd let you know chiiillllldren! I sadly wont be working to much on comissions due to moving. Packing and stuff. :I Got a lot of packing to do lol all my crystals and coins and bottles! O:
Daggumit Paypal...
General | Posted 12 years agoPaypal has decided that until I prove I am the person I claim to be that there will be no moar money going INTO my account. Commissions will be put on hold for a time until I can show proof. D:< Daggumit! Of all the rotten luck.
I must apologize
General | Posted 12 years agoI have let this get out of hand... I never meant to neglect you guys like this... work has been running me ragged with worry that I may not have the money to put into what I NEED. Commission writing as it is... is sadly at a stand still until I have a steady set of days off. Luckily I have tuesday for this week and *looks at schedule and dies* grand... 9 fucking hours next week when that FUCKING LEACH... never mind... I have tuesday, wednesday, and thursday off in a row. Life... sucks...
D:!!!
General | Posted 12 years agoLP - Serious Sam HD: Clearing O Death[Kikoskia]
__________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________Just a quicky update! I've got more hours which means... most've my commissions will be on hold/ very very slow and any side projects are going to be shelf'd for now. :/ Try'n to get more money to move outta this cheaply built hole in the ground is hell... I'm working until midnight @.@ *flails*
If'n ya havent heard yet...
General | Posted 13 years ago
Hollywood Undead - S.C.A.V.A
__________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________I've got a job now! A good thing for money'n prosperity yet a bad thing cause I don't really know my weekly schedule ahead of time. There may be a dramatic slow down for a bit as I try'n adjust my writing schedule around my work schedule. Though through this new avenue I can gain a few greater independence's! I can move out of my parents house'n even get a means of transportation for myself! I just need to further figure out how to get said mode of transportation... Insurance'n such... and driving lessons... >.> I'd much rather have a bike but I suppose that'd have to be a secondary thought for now.
Ugh... I can't get the stink of pizza from me for the life of me! I'd rather smell Shywolf when he's free from work. Coffee smells so nice now you have NO clue. >.< Anywho... updates will be regular as I whim them. Again - Sorry to all my commissioners/customers for this near sudden stop. I will try'n get swinging at stories again! PATIENTS!!!!
