Im honestly shocked i need to make this journal but just this week ive gotten three different people come to me and ask me to draw art or do art trades with them. So i want to make it abundantly clear that i am NOT AN ARTIST, i am a writer. All art in my gallery was commissioned, and the artist who drew it is linked in the bottom of every description, so please feel free to go ask them to draw you something if you like thier style, but im only a writer ^^

Thank you!

Hey guys, i've gotten some requests to make folders to bring some semblance of civilization and order to my massive and wild gallery, and I, your infallible emperor, have heard your plight! Starting tomorrow im going to start making folders for my most drawn characters, as well as one for comics, and possibly more.

Have a folder in particular you'd like to see? Let me know!

Hey everyone! So, i have like 8 reference sheets that need to be posted that ive been too lazy or too distracted to actually post, so im gonna be doing most or all of them tonight in one batch since i know most people dont find them that horribly interesting.

So apologies in advance for flooding all my watchers submissions pages with all my characters X3

I gotta start posting more story content for all you awesome folks! Thanks so much for coming around to my little corner of FA! Like wow I never thought I’d have even 100 watchers let alone nearly 1000!

There is a story... well more an idea that's been in my head for a very long time, something i've never developed on and probably never will. Two men of opposing force meet alone in the woods. They get into a fight until one finally gets the upperhand. In every version of the story, the winning man has every expectation to destroy the other man, whether they are soldiers of warring factions, or a monster and a monster hunter, or something similar. He sits there, knife or gun ready to deliver the final blow...
But he doesn't.

Unable to destroy each other, the two find themselves forced to spend a night in the woods together to survive. They talk to each other, learn more about each other, but they never quite trust the other. Morning comes, and they prepare to go thier seperate ways. The man who lost the fight leaves first, but being naturally suspicious, the victor watches, weapon in hand, for any attempt to catch him off gaurd.

The loser makes a sudden sharp move, the victor panics. A gun shot or a stab. Only after the fatal blow does the victor realize the man had just dropped something, be it a map or a compass, anything really. The loser dies, and the victor reacts to what hes done.

I say react, because to describe the pure emotion of the moment is exceptionally difficult. A stream of words on paper to encapsulate the inner workings of a good man after they needlessly murder someone who they used to hate. The day before they'd have felt no remorse in the killing, but now its unbearable. Kicking, sobbing, screaming, shock, horror, and crushing guilt beyond comprehension.

This is what lead to creative writing, this idea, the exploration and presentation of emotion, of stories great and small that romanticize the world we live in by delving into its darkest, most horrid moments, and coming out with something not always happy, or hopeful, but something. Emotion has always gripped me deeply, i've always been a very emotional person, and the emotion that fascinates me the most is sadness. Now i know how that sounds, but im not a depressed or sad person, quite the opposite, but im someone who likes to cry, who wants a reason to feel overpowered with emotion, to just... feel. Feeling is what i love in it's very core. I love all emotion, i enjoy every experiance, even fear and sadness, because it's what makes us humans.

This was what i wanted to paint in my early writing. Stories of extremely powerful emotion, tales that punch you in the gut as hard as they can, for better or worse. I wrote a few short stories in this short period, around my high school years. Many of them have been lost to time, as i rarely finished any, but i truly enjoyed writing them. Then came the hieght of that period, a short play i wrote, called "The Color of Roses." It was a simple tale of two american soldiers who get seperated from thier company during the Battle of the Bulge, and must hide in a small shack to escape discovery by the Germans. The story focuses on these two humans, sharing stories both good and bad, and the differences between them. They didn't really get along, but they had a connection that couldn't be broken. The, at the end of the play, they are at great risk of being discovered, so one of the soldiers runs, abandoning the other in the shack who was too scared to leave. However, he changes his mind soon after and comes running back, only to be shot by his own friend who in his panicked state mistook him for a german.

It's a very very sad story no? And this was the problem i had. I didn't want to show anyone what i was writing, i didnt want to share any of it because i was afraid of how it would impact the way they saw ME as a person, that they wouldnt be able to sepearate the story from the author. I wouldn't be the quiet but friendly theatre student i would be the depressing guy who writes sad stories. So i never did, but at the same time i never stopped writing them. I still enjoyed it, even if i was the only person to ever see the story. i never thought anything would become of them, and i didnt care, i liked my little private collection.

Then, in my last year of high school, i wrote my first furry story. I'd recently discovered i was in fact a furry, and decided to test my wings with a tale. However, this one wasn't like the rest. This one was simple, happy, and nonexpecting. There was no gut punch moment, no orchestra of emotion, just two otters shipwrecked on an island who developed a romantic relationship and fall in love. Against my better judgement, i decided to share this story with my furry friends, since it felt like something a "norma" person would write. I got my first feedback ever, and it was extraordinary positive.

And here began the fundamental change in my creative thought process. Suddenly, the real stories, the emotional ones i so deeply loved and dreamed about, were locked in my head forever, and my writing became furry. Exclusively furry. Basic but fun, nothing special. People loved it, they ate it up, told me how great i was at writing. SO i kept going. Soon i found out many furries REALLY loved sexual work, so i started writing mostly smut, then exclusively smut. Within a year, i'd shifted from deep, emotional, artistic tales, to generic furry smut.

For the longest time, i never saw anything wrong with it, i never even questioned this shift. Then, very very recently, i played a game called The Beginners Guide. The game spins a emotional story about a quiet game designer who's unique and artistic games were poisoned and manipulated by a friend, an outside source who didn't understand it so created his own image, his own idea of each game, to the point of actually physically messing with the games, in order to tell a greater story that wasnt there, all while the game designer began to go along with it since it made him and others happy, until he just couldn't anymore, and burned the bridge between them, and stopped making games forever.

It got me seriously thinking: Was this shift into furry writing hurting my creativity, locking away what i really enjoyed and wanted? Ive given up my true artistic identity for a brand new one right away simply because I knew people liked it, it was easy. All i cared about was that other people loved my writing without judging me as a person, created a wall between myself and my writing, and thats not healthy.

No, im not going to give up furry writing, because i do truly enjoy it. But i do want to begin to really sit down and focus on me, on what my artistic identity is and where i want to take it. I have no idea where i will go from here, but i promise one thing: I will still be the same person, the same Katauni you guys all know and love, becuase this is still me, i still love you all as a community and as friends, that will never ever change. I will still write furry stories and commission furry art, but now im going to start trying to tear down that wall and start making room for what i want for me.

So, thanks for reading through all this emotional spiel, hopefully you can understand that this doesn't mean i've changed at all, i've just realized im not reaching my full potentional is all. It's time to get creative, to try and fail and fail again. I'm not afraid anymore, because even if what i create turns out to be trash in the eyes of everyone else, its still mine and will always be mine. And who knows what could come of this, its quite exciting! I have always wanted to try to learn more about game design, i imagine my stories could really come to life in that way!

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ITS REALLY TRUE I WROTE SOMETHING AGAIN! IF YOU WATCH ME FOR MY STORIES GO GO GO!~ I SUPER HOPE YOU ENJOY THE READ AND LEAVE TONS OF CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM IF YOU HAVE THE TIME!

Seriously though im an adult i can handle you guys telling me if im doing something poorly or a part of my writing is lacking, in fact i WANT you too if you find it, because i want to improve constantly as a writer and the best way to do that is to get honest reviews by viewers like you, not friends and family who will certainly be slanted one way or the other!

Thanks a ton you beautiful people!

Hey guys! I just wanted to throw out a HUGE thank you to everyone who’s watching me! I’m almost to 600 right now and for a commissioner and writer like me, on the very bottom of the spectrum, that’s a big deal! You guys are all awesome and I hope you like all the art I’m getting and the characters I’ve created!

On another note, I know that my writing profile is super low, with only a few submissions here and there. I plan to change that soon. I’ve been suffering from severe writers block for a while now and I’m doing my best to break it! I hope to have a few more stories for you guys coming up in the near future!

Have a great month and thanks again!

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Check it out! :3

In an effort to clean up my gallery a little for you guys I'll be moving all my Ref sheets and adoptable images and whatnot to Scraps, so you don't have to wade through it too see my actual commissions x3

Also gonna upload a bunch of stuff right after so keep an eye out!

Hey guys, doing some community service here and spreading airwaves for
 Sketchmutt! He's a great artist that draws some seriously cute stuff for a really good price so go check him out and maybe shoot a Commission his way! He deserves more attention than he's getting :3

So im turning 21 this Sunday! *confetti* woo! I'm not gonna like post a wishlist or anything, but hey, 21 right? Hype! :3

I finally gotta around to updating my Awesome Artist list to include even AWESOMER and less known artists that deserve more love! So go take a look :3