Guys please realize. We are a small team of admins on this website watching over literally thousands of users.

Stop getting so butt hurt that one of us happens to catch an AUP violation on your account.

Nothing we do is anything personal, we are just upholding the rules that are written down below! The same rules that you agreed that you have read when you registered for an account on the website!

*grumbles and goes to play some games.. a little annoyed*

I think his time as he is.... is done...

If im to keep the character... he needs an update in looks and such.

Ideas from any of you out there?

Badly right now.

Was an awesome con...again i forgot to write a con journal n shit

I will scan alot of images I havent scanned from last year and this year very soon and start posting guys!


Lifes been a bit of a roller coaster... im currently on a low low point. Depressed n such being lonely n crap like that and still having no job..

that will change i know but im just weary of it still being around like this....

And plans are underway!

Pre registered (albeit late heh)

ticket gets purchase tomorrow...

and ill be flying out ..

Who all is going to fau???

I need a badge for FAU I think.... *ponders ideas*

friend code all out??

This seems all too familiar.. *ponders this a moment before shaking his head*


5112-3431-3799

But I dont wanna...


Im older today *chuckles8 Birthday for me!

Mind blow guys..

Some fun commercials I came across wandering through youtube...Dunno what lead me to it though heh

Another V-Day spent alone. Beginning to wonder when Ill have someone to spend it with. Note I said "when" guys...

Least I got to sleep through this one.

Well off to work. Cheers all!
Happy show your loved ones you listened day!

Well for the next three weeks I will be working ridiculous hours. Ill be working overnight shifts probly 6 days a week.


So my activity will be very low on FA, IRC, Aim, Skype etc etc...on the internet. If you catch me great! If not...well Ill be back in three weeks.


Doing a renovation for Staples...and my manager recommended me to the reno team for one of the leads of the project. I accepted as the extra money will be nice.

See you all in three weeks give or take!

Second day of the year officially and everything I seem to say is upsetting everyone today....


Fuck January 2 2011.


If you want to find me you can note me and I may reply... Otherwise dont bother with me. I might upset you *rolls his eyes and storms off*

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1979276/

 NextStep is offering FC themed badges for well..FC!! Only 8 BUCKS!!

Go check him out guys!!!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1979276/

Why Ive been getting so depressed, so jealous, so easily upset.

I've lost touch with who I am. Who I made myself to be. Back when I first joined this fandom, I was a shy little geek looking for a place to belong. Started out with my local friends playing AD&D having a chuckle after discovering that I am a second generation D&D player. Well this lead me to find some interesting places when I got my hands on the internet. Starting out with, you guessed it, dragons. Just like most silly young kids looking to find others seeing their fantasies.

Fell into a chat site where I discovered Dragondale Inn. There I started to role-play and create characters. Exuradon was my first character I ever created for purpose of role-play online. Leading to Lord Dregan and finally landing Glaide into my lap. Back when I was young I found images of Glaide drawn by one Andrew Powell. Glaide ended up being the character that a kid creates that they want to be like. So I sought out to be more like Glaide!

I'm sure you are wondering where this story is going? Well thanks to Glaide, I grew up. I stopped being so shy, changed my bad temper and was more out going. I started to get alot more friends and was happy to go out and have fun anytime. So started my real social life that I had been dreaming of having.

One thing lead to another and I started meeting artists. Talking to people outside of role-play chats and gaining new types of friends. Started taking a little from everyone I met to cobble together a more up to date me. I always (to this day) take something home with me from a new friends person and add to myself.

Well at the young age of 17 I started traveling to MEET these online personas. I had been hanging out with some of the local folk first of course, but it was time to venture out into the world and actually find these people I had learned to trust. Started with a few private visits until I discovered conventions. What a way to meet new people!! My parents didn't care that I was part of this fandom, I suppose they thought it was good for me to be socializing more. So Anthrocon was my first convention. Worked to earn the money to pay for everything on my own and off I went. Sadly I didn't realize I needed to plan proper room space so I happily bed hopped to anyone willing to take me in. (Was surprisingly safe each time..guess I was lucky then?) This was also the faithful time that I happened to run into Preyfar (back before he became Dragoneer). Sat down on a couch waiting for people I knew...and sat down beside him without realizing it. Looked over to a sketch book he had opened and got excited since I recognized some of the art! Apparently he was looking for me as well having drawn probably my first or second official artwork of Glaide that truly belonged to me! He wasn't the only artist I had run into that had drawn art of me who had originals in hand waiting for me. I was shocked! Fell in love with the fandom even more, meeting such wonderful and awesome people. Making new friends where ever I looked!

Years passed and so did many conventions and even some private visits. I was deep into the fandom and couldn't see daylight anymore. I was happy where I was.

Well more recently I have noticed a change in myself that I did not foresee or plan. One I do not like at all!

I became a hermit.....

I slowly grew less social over the years. Yeah I would go out and hang out with people and friends. But I never held relations (as in friendships) Or relationships... Always just sat by and enjoyed the company from day to day. Like living from check to check. Yes I have my best friends I still hold dear, but I feel as though I have lost a connection with WHY I have friends at all.

I would hang out every chance I got. Here in cow-town where I currently reside, I would go to the ends of the city to meet up with people (bumming rides and busing it otherwise). Its become a sad realization that when I finally got off my ass and got my license, that the visits on both ends had become a rare thing. I had fallen away from the friendships I had forged. Leaving myself a lonely mess in the basement where I live. I dug myself a little cozy hole in a corner and now I'm having troubles crawling out.

I suppose this is a long winded way of saying. Glaide seems to have left me. I created Brent in recent years to actually more reflect ME as a whole. I'm happy with the persona that he is and that I....well that I was. But I have lost myself recently. I watch all these relationships flourish, friendships solidify. And realize...I'm just standing back and watching, not experiencing.

Guys I finally figured out why Ive been so unhappy in the last few years. I don't know what I can do about this. My social life I'm sure I can get back to....with some effort. Love life. Well I left myself unable to really meet new people anymore outside of conventions I still attend.

Who I am is lost guys. I dont know how else to say it. I have lost myself and am just a shell of my former self. I need help. I need a hug. I need people to drag me out and remind me that I am a friend still, that I am alive. I don't know where to turn anymore though...


Well this has been a very illuminating journal about myself and who I was and am now. I hope it bares fruit, knowing one of the big WHYs of my life. I have failed myself and who I am. All of this only stems from my own self leading me away from life.

Only time will tell I suppose, eh?

So an awesome person (*cough cough*) was awesome enough to give me his bonus PS3 DC Universe beta key since he had a PC code himself. Much to our dismay that we couldnt play cross platform yet.

Im curious if anyone else has a beta account. I wouldnt mind running around with someone if possible...


 ritts you are Awesome and thank you so much for this! Its a shame we cant play together.. Though depending on pricing I might get it and make sure I can play with yeah!

Yeah you heard me right. I got myself a twitter.

GlaideC if you wanna follow me... I havent gotten used to it yet...but maybe when I do itll be an interesting follow.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1891261/

Pimping an Iron artist who really needs more attention! Check out  slashersivi


http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1862424/ This is her Iron artist journal... Only $5 bucks each pic! Well worth it!

This guy hits the back of a truck riding on his motorcycle...only to do a full flip and land on his feet! He brushes himself off and walks back to his damaged bike as if he was a bystander.....Man I need to learn martial arts! Apparently they can save your life in more than just a fight!!!

Yeah. Here I am again pouting to the lot of you who are still listening. (Love all of yeah for listening by the way *chuckles*)

Well here I am another weekend spent alone. And for once I am not talking about companionship (which I still would love to have), no I mean company at all. Leaves me with bored unsure of what to do feelings all day. Days like this go by so slowly, yet they just seem to slip away and suddenly I'm out of time.

I don't know. I'm just feeling rather stale lately.

Also been dreaming again about doing things I've always wanted to learn how to do. Like dance! And normal dancing yes, but I really mean some of that more choreographed . They just amaze me and make me wish I could do something so neat and fun!

Well anyways Im done my little pout. Any of you out there wanna teach me to dance? *chuckles*

also

Smell Like a Monster

http://www.thegamerator.com/index.htm *drooooling*

God damnit... if i ever come into some money that i dont need worry about....this is now high on my list of things to buy...and you can add anything you want to it aswell!

Was a shitty day. hurting all around from working out and somehow buggering up my knee.

took a nap to sleep part of the day off...woke up...

and now im just feeling lonely. man this sucks that i cant shake this feeling for long *face palms n head desks*

Here is to shitty sundays!

Okay so here I am lookin about Youtube...checking out retro videos...and I click on a link.

For the next 7 minutes I sit here staring unblinking at my screen absolutely stunned at the set of animations i was watching. So much so that I NEED to share this with the world! Anyone know what it is..please... PLEASE let me know....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dabr.....4w&feature...

At the count of three. I want every one in the place to be to make noise if your down with me! One! Two! Three!














Hit me with the horns Fender!

when being angry is the only thing you strive to do anymore. feeling everything is a useless ploy.

yai for being left behind and forgotten (im not talkin everywhere)

And forgotten...

fuck this shit.