Life can be pretty busy sometimes. last semester didn't leave me with a lot of free time. Now it's almost time for school again, and I still have a few things I'm trying to do before then. I'm trying to find a part time job, also working on making a tabletop RP for a group of friends of mine. I'm hoping that getting a job will be able to help with some living expenses and I can still have time to work on my projects.

Ideally, I can get the tabletop RP good enough to present to someone to sell, and I can make money off of it. then I could use that money to fund making my fursuit, If I like how that turns out, maybe start making and selling fursuits on the side. That would help with paying off school loans when I finish. I also could get a job with the college, and have a career before even finishing with my schooling. I doubt things will work out like that though, But I think I can pull off the job with the college.

Just got a call from my parents that my dog died. Yesterday he got outside, there are little kids at the house, and sometimes he just slips past them. He must have eaten something bad, as he got really sick. He died last night.

He was technically my parents' dog, but he always was so happy to see me when I visited. I feel really bad that last time i visited, I was too busy to give him much attention.

Knowing that I will never see him again is hard on me. It hasn't really sunk in yet, but this is a really bad time to have to deal with this. I already have so many things going on right now, college starts in 3 days.

He was the animal I was closest too. I saw him grow up, taught him tricks, treated him when he lost a toenail. He would start looking around for me when I would skype with my brother. I can probably handle it until I go to visit my parents again. But this isn't an easy thing for me.

I really hope the next few weeks go a lot better then these last few.

I've been a bit busy this summer, so haven't had a chance to really update here. so let's see. where to begin? I'll just list off a few things that have happened this summer.

went rafting twice
visited parents four times
parents visited me
helped a friend move to a temporary situation.
went to a zoo (I really need to post the pics I have from that)
gotten back into an old hobby
started a new hobby
one continual neighbor problem
several continual family problems
drew a panda
saw a moose in road while driving at night

There are several more things that I either can't think of or don't want to talk about.

School will be starting up again on the 26th. Not really sure what this semester will have in store, other then $400 in books. But I don't have to pay for a dorm room I'm not going to use.

I never know how to end these... So I'll just end here.

It's finals week here, and things are moving smoothly. College is a lot harder then I expected, but I'm managing. I'm finding that having a relationship, going to school, and having a social live is hard with college. But it's worth it. I'm learning a lot about myself, and what I can do. The next few years should be interesting.

So yeah, for people that don't know, which likely won't be anyone that reads this when it's posted, I'm in college. I'm working toward becoming a research psychologist. Last week was midterms and that was a lot of work, I still have a couple assignments to take care of before the end of this next week.

In other news, I'm working on a fursuit once a week, I'm going to try to post updates about it, but I don't have a very good camera. I like how it's coming along, but progress is slow.

My mate and I will be heading to Cali in about 2 1/2 months. But more on that as it gets closer to the end of November.

The last thing I want to mention here is that I'm finding that I tend to feel uncomfortable around people of common interests because I tend to fall into a smaller group within it. For example, I'm a very liberal Christian relative to most Christians I'm around. But I'm a very conservative homosexual relative to most homosexuals I'm around. This makes it hard for me to be able to be who I am inside. I have to bite my tongue a lot in conversations. I also have very strong, specific beliefs about many controversial topics, and when you get a group that is generally one political party or the other, they have a tenancy to bash entire concepts or groups when they feel everyone around them agrees.

Would it be better to stand up for what I think, and not care what people around me think, or should I try to look past it to have more friends? I don't want to be the person no one wants to be around because I'll push my beliefs onto them, but I feel like everyone already does that to me.

I hope time will solve these issues.

Well, I've been thinking a bit about where I am in life. I am waiting on my dad to take care of some things so I can get financial aid for college, which starts in less then a month. I know it's a bit close, but I couldn't do it any earlier due to events going on and the fact that i only established residency in may. Then orientation messed things up by changing my statues from future student to enrolled making the financial aid department not get my change in residency. Anyway moving on.

when college starts, I'm going to come up with some sort of schedule for doing what I need done, and make time to spend with friends and other desired activities. I'm hoping that I will be able to make time for drawing a bit. We'll see.

I have been having trouble a bit lately with trying to figure out some things in my past. I wonder if it's better to not remember some things, or if it's better to know who I used to be. I feel like part of me is trying to force my memories, where another side of me is holding them back, trying to keep them from me. I'm going to try talking to my dad about it some time in the near future, if I can.

On a lighter note, anyone ever feel like you have so much energy, but can't bring yourself to do anything? Ever feel like you have so much extra time in the day, but never can find the time to do things? I'm wondering if there is some way to get myself going.

in some ways, I feel like talking here is pointless, as there are only two people that I know read these. But then I remember that I have two other reasons for writing these. the first is for my own record that I can go back and read later. the other is for more people to read when I have some good enough stuff online that people read through my old stuff.

I'm really thinking about working on the comic that I was planning a while back. I think I'll work on that now actually. I'm going to keep it just drawing for now, but may color it later on.

Wish me luck in my endeavors.

RANDOM UPDATE


alright, so I was talking to a friend, and realized that I don't actually have that many close close friends. I do have a couple people I would say I'm close friends with, but neither of them are physically close. and a lot of my old friends from high school have sort of drifted away. even if I keep in contact with them, some of them aren't very close anymore.

I'm thinking that once college starts, I will be looking for some good friends that live near my room.


in other news, I may be moving out of this apartment I'm living in, into an actual house. although once college starts, I wont be there much.

I've also been stressed a lot lately, and keep being in a snappy mood. I'm thinking that once college starts, I'll get in the debate team, and that would help with relieving stress. especially since I know I would be good at it. I think through my arguments, and will argue when I see a flaw, not based on what my opinion is.


anyway, things are moving forward in life. and I'm not completely sure if they are all good changes. but only time will tell.

Most people that know about Rex Wolf don't know anything about the real Rex. Just third and fourth hand stuff put out there to slander him. What second hand info people have is usually from people that are obsessed with hating Rex for reasons that I can't understand.

Instead of going into what is false about what it said about Rex, I will go into the truth about him.

I met Rex online in the summer of 09. After talking for a while, I was getting tired of living with my parents, so planned to go for a trip. My first stop was to meet Rex. My memory is a bit foggy on what happened, but I believe we went to the movies.... Anyway when I got back from my trip, I went to visit Rex again. It was Halloween. We had fun. I stayed over there for about a week, and then went to my parents' house.

I noticed that at my parents' house, I didn't feel at home. After talking to Rex, we decided that I should move in. I moved in with Rex on the last day of November. I moved in with the agreement that I would keep the house clean, and I wouldn't have to pay rent. I did get food stamps, which allowed us to get some really good food. He let me use his laptop, and overall was very nice, even when I didn't keep up on the house. We did have a few arguments, though. Namely about me not keeping the house clean, or when one of us was stressed due to external things.

At one time, he had someone over to see if she would work as a replacement for me. He didn't tell me why she was there, just that she was going to visit. The moment she walked in the door, I knew something was wrong about her. She was all happy and nice at first, but the moment that Rex was out of the room, she would criticize me on how bad the house was, and how she would do a better job. This wouldn't have bothered me if it was true, but she had already done a load of dishes, and I had to wash everything again, because there was still food on the dishes. Later Mike asked me to do the dishes, and she jumped up before I could answer, She said she would do them and went to do the dishes. I tried to think of reasons to not let her, without telling Rex about her previous washing. I didn't want to be rude and criticize her for her work, even though it was worse then my work, and she did just that to me. I ended up getting so frustrated that I went for a walk to get out of the house. I ended up having several problems with her there, and I tried several times to be friends. But in the end, she just wouldn't really give me a chance. Rex got really upset because while she was there, I didn't clean anything but dishes. He didn't realize it was because she was there that I couldn't work. Later, this woman invited Rex to go to a convention. When she was there, she spent a lot of money on other people. So much that she didn't have the money to get home. She ended up being mad at Rex for not helping her get home, which wasn't agreed upon at all. They stopped being friends soon after. Rex thought about what happened when she visited and realized what happened. Now, anyone that knows Rex knows he's stubborn. He doesn't like to be wrong, and often wont admit it, I understand though. I'm the same way. But after this he came and apologized to me. The most heartfelt apology I've ever seen.

I know that he can come off as harsh. But if you really get to know him, he's a caring person. You can see it much more now then you could when I lived with him.

I eventually started to want to look for someone else to live with. Not because I wanted to move out of Rex's house, but rather to find a significant other. I did find someone I wanted to meet up with. I went to visit him for about a week, and when I got back, I was having some trouble keeping up with the dishes due to my job. I didn't have much free time, and I wanted to relax a bit so that I could get through the work day, and not just work all day at home, then go to work, and work all night. Rex got upset at me because of this. I was planning on telling him that day that I was wanting to move in with the person I met, but because I was upset with Rex, I started to pack the stuff I didn't need. While doing this, he saw what I was doing and got mad at me. I ended up packing all my stuff and leaving. I moved out that very day. I had to move in with some of my co-workers for a week before I was able to move in with my significant other.

While this was happening, Rex was trying to move. He was afraid that he wouldn't be able to survive where he lived much longer. He didn't have enough money so tried to take me to small claims court. I was unable to make it, and was unable to call because I have a really hard time with phones, so it defaulted to him. Most people would have been mad, or would have fought it, but I knew that something was up. I could just tell that there was something to it that neither of us saw. it took a while, but Rex got to a point where he needed money. He contacted me about coming up with something. When he contacted me, I knew I had two options. I could fight the case, and remove the debt by getting it thrown out, as there really wasn't grounds for it, or I could invest in a friendship. I knew that everyone else he had live with him ended up being less then expected, and that most of them turned around and hated Rex. I wanted to show him that even though I left on bad terms, I held nothing against him. This was a way to show that. We agreed to trade cars, mine was worth a lot more then his was, and that would settle the debt.

After a while, we started talking here and there. Not too long ago we started talking a lot more. and I eventually went to visit him. We got along very well. He's got a new outlook on life. He's not as harsh as he used to be, granted, a lot of that wasn't unreasonable with what he has gone through. Even if you have had some negative experiences with Rex, you should take a look again. People change. For better sometimes, and for worse sometimes, and Rex as a better person now.

To any friends of the people who started spreading negative things about Rex, do you really want friends that will talk bad about people to the point of stalking? I've seen accounts made just to harass Rex. Many of these people used to be friends of Rex. I wouldn't want a friend that has betrayed previous friends, and continues to harass them. It doesn't take much to see the potential for problems there.

Now, Rex has been through a lot, which leaves him in a state where he is paranoid, and tends to prepare for the worst. I witnessed some of these things myself. I've seen a judge break the law, I've seen him harassed by people for literally no reason. I've seen him threatened to be killed, I've seen people that were his friends turn on him, I've seen him discriminated by the people who are supposed to help him. All of this stuff, I saw first hand. I don't know of anyone that has the right to tell him that he has it easy. His life is harder then anything most people could handle. Yet, people still have the nerve to try to ruin his life further online. The ED page of him is an example. When someone says it should be taken down, the response people have is that it's just a site to create drama, people don't take it seriously. Yet when I say that the ED page is just that, people say that if he has an ED page, then he must have done something. This double standard, about what is serious and what isn't, makes the whole situation worse.

If you really want to know what Rex is like, try to imagine a person that had it all, lost it all, was kicked while he was down, then tried to help the people like him, the people that don't know him, and the very people that caused him pain. In the entire time I knew him, he never once did anything for personal gain. He did things to either help many people, or he did what he needed to to survive.

I will answer question sent by note, or in the comments.

I will be going to college in the fall. It's a big goal for me. I want to make a difference in the world, and to do that I need education. I can't really say much about my future plans right now. But with a little luck, there will be big changes in our world, and i want to be part of it. Not for my sake, but to better everyone.

So much pain in this world, I have several friends that seem dead inside. This world has drained the life out of them. I know that things can change. I know some of what needs to be done. But change will never happen as long as people aren't willing to fight the problems of today. I could make a list of all the things wrong with our world, but sadly the list of things right would be shorter. But, if only a few key things were to change, the rest would follow.

Right now, my SO are looking to get a house. It's slow going, but we will find one. We are closer then ever. ^^

My family situation is a bit different. last I talked to my dad, he won't even accept that sexual orientations exist. He believes that we are above nature, thus everything is a choice. He prays that one day I'll wake up and "realize I like girls" *sigh* I love my parents, but they don't realize that all of this is just hurting me. Due to circumstances, I can't argue against what he says. I think next time I take with him about my sexuality, I will bring out my recently acquired logic text book. Show him where his logic is falling flat in the argument. (namely that if something can't be disproved with the known information, then it must be true)

I will probably post another journal within a week or so. Something along a different subject line.

I feel like I need to be a bit more motivated. I'm going to start working on art a bit more, the comic I've mentioned before will be on hold until I am ready to actually make it.


As for the meet, it was nice. it's always a little hard talking to new people at first, but without doing so, no one would ever meet new people. I hope to get to know the local furs more in the future.

so lately I've been a bit busy with life. busy or distracted, maybe a bit of both.

I always feel like I should have something to say here, but I really don't. just posting to say I'm still here I guess.

I will be going to a local fur meet next monday, so there is that. I'll post something about that when it's over.

So I went to my family fro my parents' house for Christmas. It went well. I got a tablet that I'll be using soon. Namely that comic idea I have. I got home yesterday and spent the night with my man. ^^ He got me a set of dnd dice, and a cooling mat thing for my laptop.... not sure what it's called but it's great!

In other news, I am starting to find that I am drifting away from my family. My brother and I had an argument and he told me that I shouldn't expect him to change who he is, but I needed to change who I was so that he could deal with me. I can't even comprehend that kind of hypocrisy, that the reason I shouldn't expect him to change is the same reason why I should change. I didn't even want him to change, just to not get upset if I say the truth. I didn't even really get to spend any time with anyone else either because he wanted me to hang out with him the entire time. Luckily I had a friend with me, that made it easier to deal with things.

Done venting.

Now to finish on a positive note, I'll tell a bit about the comic I plan. First off, no sex. however there will be a lot of casual nudity. Both human and anthro. It's a tf story. It will be about two friends that go to a hidden forest in there sleep. I will have to type out a back story still. But I hope to get that done soonish. If this works out well, I'll make additional stories to the comic.

so, things have been slow.... very slow.

I've been thinking about what is going on with my friends, and for the first time in a long time, my life isn't moving, but my friends' lives are. at this point I'm just working on cleaning the house (it was a mess before I moved here) and getting a job.

in other news, my insomnia I had in me early teen years has come up again. I was in bed trying to sleep all night a couple days back, and fell asleep finally at around 6:30 am

once I get some money saved up, I'll get someone to make me a reference sheet. when I get a job I'll write up a detailed description of my sona's appearance. so looking forward to that.

and yeah... that's about it.

In a bout a week Idaho wolf season will begin, and hunters really have it out for wolves.

In most places this will last for 7 months! in two places it will be for 10 months. In the 2 locations that have the 10 month hunting season, a commission meeting decided to lengthen it above what was proposed by biologists. They have increased the season so that it will stay open through bear hunting season. (probably so that bear hunters will shoot any wolves they see while hunting bear)

They believe there are 1000 wolves and this is too much for them apparently. They will stop the season only if the population gets close to 150 wolves left. they are willing to kill off 85%.

in one of the only 2 areas in Idaho that has a quota the commissioner said "I want more for my area; a better hunt and to take out more wolves"

the wolf trapping season was also lengthened. and the price was reduced for non-residents from $186 to $32, to match mountain lion, and bear tags.

each person can kill 2 wolves per year, and trappers can kill 5. there are more hunters in Idaho then there are wolves!


one site states, as it's opening statement, "Idaho's new wolf hunting season rules have finally been approved." These people have so much blind hatred for wolves that they have been waiting for a chance to slaughter them.

luckily for wolves, hunters don't know how to hunt a predator. there sails are down from the previous wolf slaughtering..... errr um.... wolf hunting season due to "hunting and killing wolves is much harder than hunters originally anticipated." they stated that 1% of hunters that bought tags killed a wolf. granted that's still 300 hunters. the thought that 30,000 people wanted to kill wolves in the first season shows how much they want them dead, just for the reason of wanting them dead.

source: http://magicvalley.com/news/local/t.....cc4c002e0.html



now for myths

wolves are killing off the elk population-fiction
while elk is a normal pray animal of elk, wolves hunt from the bottom of the gene pool. they kill off the ones that are old, sick, injured, or of weaker genetic code. they aren't harmful to the elk population, they are rather helpful as they keep the gene pool stronger. humans on the other hand hunt from the top of the gene pool and harm the elk population much more by weakening them every time someone kills a healthy strong male.

wolves hunt cattle-fiction.
.0034% of the cattle in Idaho have been killed by wolves. not much. they only go after cows if the cows are in there territory. they don't go out looking for cows. and because of this .0034% we plan to kill 85% of them in Idaho? wtf

the wolves being introduced are a different, larger species then the ones that are native-fiction.
while there are very few native wolves left in Idaho, the wolves being introduced were actually native in all 48 of the continental states.


feel free to re-post

I was listening to some of my music and was thinking about what music is to me, and what it is to other people. for others, people seem mostly interested in the instruments, the beat, and the genre. for me, I like the words and the underlying meaning of the song. for this reason I don't care for most popular music. I remember when I was young the popular music was at least somewhat good, and listening to what was popular a long time ago, the songs were even better. I know that it's said a lot, but out music is going downhill fast. with the music industry, I wonder if it's the people's taste in music that has gone down, or if the industry is holding back the good music, of even if pirating is causing the good music to appear lower in popularity then it really is. in any case, next time you listen to a song you like, look up the lyrics if you don't know them and think about what the song is actually saying. you might be surprised at what you are listening to.

just some morning thoughts that I decided to type out.

I've been thinking about the great minds of the past. they weren't people who bowed to society, they didn't think how others thought. they followed there own path. but today's society is so focused on making now better, that they sacrifice the future.


I say we cut government spending, and raise taxes, and provide free health care. stop printing more money that waters down the worth, and make schools a priority. make collage free. and base level jobs accessible to those without job experience. one shouldn't need cash register experience to use a cash register. make laws that punish the employer for paying under the table, and hiring illegal immigrants. allow gay marriage, and put tighter restrictions on what churches can do in politics, as it is unconstitutional. if a teacher is accused of rape, don't put it on there record, or tell the students at the school unless they are found guilty, as kids will do this to get rid of good teachers. obviously don't let the teacher teach during the proses, but don't ruin their career if you don't know they did anything. let's regulate television more, but not stricter. we are the country that shows the most skin, but the least nudity, this causes people to grow up desiring this forbidden nudity that is also idolized by tv. child television should be educational, but most importantly, should stimulate them to think on there own. the shows when I was a kid did a great job at this. I would watch shows about everyday stuff, where the kid learned about normal everyday things. I could go on and on, but I will continue my point.

our government isn't the only problem here, it is us. the people of the united states are the 4th, and most powerful branch of government. we were given the right to protest, to tell our opinion, to make changes. if we all stood up and told the government what to do, they would either do as we told then, or they should be overthrown. and that is how our country was made, treason because they weren't acting on any one's interests but there own. the government has turned the united states into the decided states with partisanship. we have a choice that is greater then republican or democrat. we can make anyone president, but we respond to the money, and the lies that they tell us. when was the last time we had a president that fulfilled what they promised to us before the elections? I'll tell you. it was the last president that got shot. why? because, to make change we need to be bold! and this makes us targets. but don't you see, if someone is targeted like that, they are doing what more people should do. instead we fear what may happen.

I am willing to die for a change that will make the world better in the long run. to work through the hardships, the stress, and the temptation to fall into a complacent lifestyle. but sadly I will not be in a position to do anything, for I don't have the money to influence great numbers of people. and this will likely fall on the ears of two people.

my mind is great at solving problems and I can figure a way to fix most issues, big and small, that come around. but I find I cannot solve most problems that only involve me. my anxious, my laziness, and my lack of money. these things keep me back in the world, and dependent upon someone. I hate living off of people I care for, and I hate not having a job, or knowing how to even look for one.

I feel like when I die, I will have changed nothing. sure, I will have effected a lot of people in a small way, but with each year, those differences I made are less and less important. even the great people of America are recognized for the wrong things. Washington for being the first president, instead of his ideas to keep a country united. Lincoln for freeing the slaves, Kennedy for being killed, Columbus for finding America. they did great things, or had great things done to them, but we miss what is important. and that thing we are missing is the reason that my mind is such a waste. few have the mindset I have. the mindset that will always try to move forward. and I will always try to do something in this world, and never will give up, but so few people think like this, and they are so far apart, and surrounded by the rest of the world, that they will never see what a difference can truly be made.

I doubt this will reach many people, like I said, two people is what I'm expecting. but I have to try to let people know. it's just the way I am.

today I woke up in an odd mood. half sleeping throughout the night had me thinking about the positives and the negatives in my life.

I have a home, a bf, good friends, a caring family, and lots of spare time. but each thing has it's problems. the house s a bit of a mess, I don't get to spend much time with my bf, one of my good friends is going through emotional strain, the other is going to internal conflicts, my family doesn't approve of my life style, and I feel like I should be doing something with all the time I have.

I look and I see that everything in my life seems to have brought me here. every experience, every hurt, every complication, they way I think, the people I've known. how can I be upset at the people who have hurt me the most, when they were all factors in how I got here? on the other hand, how can I be happy at those that I love when they don't want to accept who I am?

my family doesn't know I'm a furry, and think I'm mistaken about being gay. but, they are willing to still care for me, no matter what happens. should I be upset? should I be happy? should I try to convince them that what they've believed all there life is wrong? should I cut the ties with them so I don't seek there approval? or should I leave things how they are?

part of me really wishes that everyone watching would respond. when I get a reply it makes me feel good. but then if I only get one or two replies, it feels worse then no replies. how do I take this? should I come up with a catchier name? should I keep the name relevant so that people don't read it if they have no interest in it? I know I tend to only read journals of people I know by name, and delete the ones I watch for just the pics. but I don't think my art is very good. so how many people watch me for my art?

may I ask how many people actually read these posts from me? I won't feel bad if it's not many. I just want to know. sometimes I feel alone in a world full of people. I'll probably have a few people that click this, and then leave after seeing how long it is. but yeah. just leave a quick message to let me know I'm not alone in the world.


~Gnik

I've had this one for a long time.... any suggestions on what it should be?

I was talking with a really good friend of mine, and an interesting question came up.

If you didn't have the restrictions of money or society, what would you do? any one thing.

I think we should ask ourselves this. Think about how we would live our lives differently.

my response to the thought, was I would go out and build a house for myself in the woods, live off the land and my own hard work. however, I would have internet and use webcams to keep in tough with those I love and care about. friends, family. they would be the only ones I'd have contact with, and I would probably always keep an eye out for new friends.

I know. kind of long, but yet still simple.

what would you do?

I moved a while ago, and I'm still getting used to things. Need to find a job still. I moved in with a friend... ok, we're a bit more then friends. I hesitate to say we are dating, but we are.

in other news, today is my birthday. I'm 20 years old now.

not too much has happened since I moved, but I'm a lot happier to have someone, even if my family doesn't like him, and they haven't met him yet. *sigh*

I'm going to try and get back to working on art, I've let my skills slip, and they weren't the best to begin with... Hopefully you'll be seeing more from me.

it's currently almost 2 am right now and I'm wide awake. no one is online. my roommate went to bed several hours ago, and he's a light sleeper so I can't use the tv for anything. I also ran out of things to look at online that are of interest to me. yes... definitely ran out of interesting stuff online. I'd read a book, but I'm in the middle of one that I left in my roommate's car, and I don't have the key to it, and it's icy outside... anyway I am going to be working graveyard for Christmas this year. both the night into Christmas and the night out of it. as well as the night previous and following nights. I still need to go Christmas shopping though because I will be going to my parent's place for Christmas and haven't had time to shop yet.

in other news I want to wish everyone a happy holiday season.

now I will go and find something less boring to do then nothing.

so.... yeah I'm going to fight this ticket. there is no basis behind it. my car drifted into the other lane, so I corrected it and my car spun. I corrected it again and it went forward into the snow bank. no damage done to anyone or anything. now into detail:

I'm an inexperienced driver. I have not have my license a year yet. and this is my first year driving during winter. on top of that, it was my first year on ice. it has been snowing for about a week now. it was warming up that day and the snow was melting. at night it started to freeze again. I wad already gone from my house, on my way to work, when the roads started to freeze. I figured that the snow plows had gone through and put de-ice on the roads during the day, knowing it was going to freeze at night. however, they did not. I was going between 40 and 45. my speedometer only marks every 10 mph, so I don't know my exact speed, but it was over 40, and under 45. I gave myself a half hour extra to get to work. so then it happened and there I was stuck in the snow, about 4 feet of it in the deepest part. I put my hazards on and tried to open the door... it wouldn't budge. so I got out the passenger side. I called my work, and my roommate. I walked around the car to see how bad it was, and there was no damage. at this time a car pulled up and made sure I was ok. at that point an ambulance came to see if I was ok. I stayed in there until the police showed up. I had to get my registration out of the car. at this point another ambulance came and the first one took off. I stayed in the second ambulance while they made sure I was fine.

so the cop comes in. he asks me how fast I was going. I told him I was going between 40 and 45 mph. He tells me that when there is an accident, that it's a ticket-able offense. he tells me that I was driving too fast for road conditions. so I asked him what speed would be ok, he tells me about 40 at best. My roommate shows up and makes sure I'm ok. later he told me that after he got there, he saw a truck putting de-icer down... great work there. wait until someone has an accident before doing your job that is supposed to keep people from dieing. we wait for the tow truck to come. druing this time I find out that the road that looked and felt clear of ice, was actually a thick layer of black ice. the tow truck pulled the car out. at this point the officer gives me back my driver's license and registration. he gives me the ticket. so, at this point I drive home.

in the morning I take a look at the ticket and I notice something. it says I was going 46 in a 45. I told the officer that I was going under 45. meaning that I did not commit what I am being charged with. I was going to take it to court anyway, but this makes it a cake walk. (btw, always challenge tickets. the state must prove you are guilty, thus you have an advantage.) if the judge wont dismiss the ticket because of this, I have a few other things to bring up, including that the police officer had a little trouble getting going once he was done. aka, the roads were worse then he thought.

some black friday, huh?

on a side note, why does spell check work on this text box, but not the title box?

ok. I will post links to images. let me know if you can tell me what could be seen as.... suggestive...


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so, I've been thinking a bit lately and I've got some things I want to say, but I never remember them when I can wright them down. so, I'll just type as things come to mind.

I want to start with this. I seem to think that things should work they way that I see as the best way. I can't seem to help it. now, don't misunderstand me, I'm not saying that everything is my way, or that it should be. I'm talking about things that are widely done a way that is inefficient. for example, I think that people that work at government jobs that are based around helping people should make helping people the main concern, as opposed to saving as much money for themselves as possible, like they seem to do now.

(as a warning, there is no correlation between one thought to the next.)

singing: words that are spoken with sounds held out, usually to some rheumatic sounds made from instruments. this doesn't include rap... this also doesn't include screaming and yelling the words. nor does it include a monologue to the beat of music. I also think that music should be about the words in it. I have heard songs that have a great beat, but I hate the words. I know that a lot of people don't agree with this, but this is what I think.
also, it seems to me that most songs are selfish in nature. this bugs me...

judging people: you should have to get some sort of license to be taken seriously when judging someone. too many people don't know what's going on and they start talking about the person and ends up making things horrible for that person, when that person doesn't deserve how people treat him/her. I like to think I'm a good judge of a person, but that is because I haven't been wrong for several years, despite me giving people a more then fair opportunity to prove me wrong before I act upon my thought about the person.

age/maturity: they are not the same!!! experience may come with age, but maturity can more then make up for it. if people would act mature, we would have a lot fewer problems in this world. also, just because someone is young, doesn't mean that they know less. I remember when I was young and would argue with adults on this or that issue, and they would throw out anything I said because I was younger then them, when in fact I was right in many of the arguments. and what's worse is when a person puts people down who are only a couple years younger then them. it's ridiculous, and it shows the maturity level, or in this can, lack there of.

on a different note, lets address the people that cause problems at my work,(a gas station) and how they can avoid these problems.

-never leave your wallet in your pants at home unless you plan to leave the house with that same set of clothes.
-never leave the house without your wallet.
-keep at least two forms of payment with you if your primary one is plastic.
-always have your ID with you. (is it that hard to bring your driver's license with you?
-don't be mad when asked for an ID, most places require that the employees card anyone who looks like they might be under 30.
-don't come into the store with a group of friends for one person to buy alcohol or tobacco.
-don't come into the store with your bf/gf to buy alcohol or tobacco when your bf/gf is under age.
-don't come to the store drunk and expect to buy alcohol. any other items are ok, in fact I find that drunk people help lighten the mood, as long as they aren't the aggressive type.
-don't be upset at the cashier when they are out of something. it is not their fault.
-do not get upset when they are out of coffee. chances are that they know and they are waiting for everyone to clear the store so they can actually get to work on it.
-never assume that the employees stand at the register all day. they are just required to be there when costumers are in the store to make transactions quicker.
-don't threaten to tell the manager, chances are that the manager would agree with the employee. this is because the customer usually doesn't know the situation.
-don't take off without paying because you didn't like something, and then come back and expect to be treated with respect.
-be nice to graveyard, they are tired, and they don't want to deal with your stuff.
-don't come into the store after 2 and expect to buy alcohol
-don't argue that it's not passed 2 yet because of your watch. they go by the clock on the wall, or on the register.
-don't try to bribe the employee to sell alcohol after 2. there are cameras, and you will either be turned down, of cause the employee to get fired. (all things related to alcohol are taken very seriously.)
-if you can't figure out the pump, check to see that the employee is busy before barging in and asking for help. if they are busy, try asking another customer at the pumps. they figured it out.
-your jokes have all been told before... all of them... and most of them weren't funny the first time.
-if there are a lot of customers behind you, don't start small talk. if you really need to have a small conversations then finish the transaction and start a conversation with one of the other customers, or wait until the other customers are done.
-if you want to prepay for gas, don't cut in line. you are not more important then the 5 customers that were in the store lined up to buy their product. if you are in a hurry, you should have brought a credit card, or left earlier.
-if you choose to pump and then pay, please have your wallet with you, or your purse in the passenger side of the car to insure that we know you aren't getting in your car to drive off.
-try to avoid arriving during shift change. at the stores I work at, this would include 7am-8am, 3pm-4pm, and 10pm-11pm. if you do, you will have to wait until the shift change is complete, which takes about 15mins.
-don't buy something for under $40 and pay for it with a $100 bill. this is a pain to do, especially during graveyard when we are not allowed to have much money in the register. we are supposed to have $50 max, and in $5's and $1's.
-during graveyard shift, $20's are annoying. since we don't have any $10's.
-if you bring in a $20, $50, or $100, we will check to make sure it is real. do not get annoyed at this. we have no way of knowing that you just got it from the bank across the street. even if we see you just walk out of it, you may have had a fake on you and walked in there and out to make it look that way.
-don't argue with policy. the cameras make it hard to get away with anything. don't ask the employee to make an exception.
-if you are carded for alcohol or tobacco, please take the card out of the holder.
-if we ask for an ID, one must be presented for the transaction to be completed. once we ask, we can't back down.
-never buy just condoms. if you do, it is really embarrassing, and brings a new meaning when we say "have a good one" as you are walking out the door. if you buy it with several snacks, it usually goes unnoticed.
-it doesn't matter how drunk you are, don't tell me how this or that employee makes you hard... (yes, people have told me this)
-don't buy porn if kids are in the store
-if you buy porn, don't talk to the employee about what is in it...
-if you buy porn, wait until you are out of the store, and in your car before opening it. no one wants to walk up to a store and see people looking at porn in plain sight.
-don't talk to people underage in, or right outside the store and then come in and buy alcohol or tobacco.
-before you press the "request assistance" key, check to make sure that their are more then one employee on duty, or that the store doesn't have customers in it. we cannot leave the till with customers in the store.
-leave your "dog" out side. it doesn't matter if it fits in your purse that go with your shoes. it's a dog, and you don't need it in the store. if you do need it, for an assistance dog, that is allowed.
-don't ask to use the telephone if there are more then one or two other customers in the store.
-don't talk about illegal activity in or outside the store, even if you are joking.
-if you wish to see the manager, they never work graveyard! come in after 8am. usually they take the morning shift.

wow that was long. I think I'll cut it short here. also, if anyone reads this whole thing, thanks. if not, and you just read parts of it, thanks anyway. if you get offended by something, ask about it and I may be able to explain it better as to not offend you. if you still are offended, oh well. I'm not here to please people.