I'm shy, I like to talk to people and I don't know what to say so I'm trying to get over that.

so I'm having a Q&A ask me anything and If I don't know the answer then I'll find it. it can be about me or anything else. feel free to ask, I'll be honest.

I finnally went to the zoo, pics will be put up when I a) have a computer b) get the film developed and get the cd and c) find the time

well, I found out through a friend that my dad thinks I'm gay ans has talked to my brother about it. my brother found out a couple days ago through a friend, with my permission. so now I'm going to get my dad's email address and tell him finnaly.

why on earth don't I have his e-mail address? since my phone is gone I have had no way to comunicate to him privatly. oh well, I'll let you know if I end up going through or chickening out at the end.

so as you know I had a... set back in phoenix. but that was 8 days ago, I'm getting ready to move on to the next relitive and continue on with my journy. I want to thatk you for the suport. I'm still waiting to see which family member can house me next, but I will be heading north. I plan to be back to my parents' house for thanksgiving. sometime (I'm thinking maybe at the start of summer) I will start looking for a place to settle down for a wial. by then I'll have my licence (and maybe a car) so I know that I'll be better prepared for what's ahead.

I'm staying with my grandma for this week. I'm bored a lot now. there is no food that I can make for myself here, and my only means of intertaining myself is playing cards by myself, FA or chating on yahoo messanger. most of my friends on yahoo are buisy or don't talk much, and I have been able to finish looking at things here in a few minutes so I end up sitting around since I don't know the area and my grandma can't take me anywhere becouse she has work to do. so I'm ocupying my time with writing thiss. if any one wants my yahoo send me a note, I'll be glade to talk. but I'm only able to be on from noon pasific time to 6pm pacific time

ok, so I'm in phoenix and I've been here all day. ready for a rant?

so I'm on this bus for 21 hours, during this time I get a text telling me that my brother's girl friend's sister lives in phoenix. I ask if they made arraingments for me to stay there. no answer.so later I arive in phoenix and I text my family, asking if they can tell me where a library near by is. becouse they would have internet. no reply. so I ask about my bro's gf's sis, and they send me a text saying that they called her and told her everything so it should work out. so I call and she gives me directions. the directions take me from the southeastern corner of Phoenix to the far north western corner. and she asks if I see the library. I say yes, thinking that it's a referance point, and ask where to next. she replys with " idk,idk where you need to go" so apperently my brilliant family explained "everything" by telling her to give me directions to the library. so now I'm sitting here at nearly 2 am with really sore feet thinking that the walk would be worth it when I have a nice warm place to sleep... not some empty parking lot. I've been up since about 10 am the morning before last and I think it's illegal to sleep anywhere around here. so I guess I still can't sleep. and I'm sore from walking for half the day with no fruit for my labor. and I'm too tired so, fuck spell check. you can live.

So I'm in Salt Lake City now. Staying with  TheBeastWithin,  ashdragonfire, and their roommates. not sure when I'm leaving yet but when I do I'll head south to Arizona. After that I'll head to California. However my plans can change if something comes up. But if not I'm going to go to San Diego.

that's where I am. I'm at a gas station waiting for... I just got the call I was waiting for. I'm hoping to get a ride to the next place on my way to SLC. so I may be there tomorrow or in a week. I don't know how much internet I can get on the way. but I'll try to keep you updated when I can.

so, yeah. I'm in boise, haven't had a chance to get on the computer. I'm thinking I'll be leaving on sunday morning. and I'll be on my way to Salt Lake City.

another update on my trip. I will make it to Boise on Monday. I'm excited, I am finally getting to be out of my small area that I've been in most of my life

• × • ALL | ABOUT | ME • × •

- Name: Daniel
- Single or taken: single
- Sex: male
- Birthday:the date or my age?
- Sign: sheep I think...
- Hair color: brown
- Eye color: brown
- Height: I forgot
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: bi... more gay then straight though

• × • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • × •

- Favorite place to shop for clothes?: no idea
- Favorite designer?: none
- What is your sexiest outfit?: wouldn't that be the ever so popular birthday suit?
- What is your most comfortable outfit?: anything
- What do you usually wear?: jeans and t-shirt

• × • S P E C I F I C S • × •

- What kind of shampoo do you use?: ???
- What are you listening to right now?: my dad's snoring
- Who is the last person that called you?: mike
- How many buddies are online right now?: 4

• × • F A V O R I T E S • × •

- Food: something good
- Girls' names: none
- Boys' names: none
- Subjects in school: art
- Animals: tiger or wolf

• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •

- Given anyone a bath?: yep
- Smoked?: nope
- Bungee jumped?: in the future I hope
- Made yourself throw up?: I must say I tried once but it didn't work so no
- Skinny dipped?: nope
- Ever been in love?: no D=
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: nope
- Pictured your crush naked?: n/a
- Actually seen your crush naked?: n/a
- Cried when someone died?: yes
- Lied: yes
- Fallen for your best friend?: no
- Used someone?: once, made me feel really bad...
- Done something you regret?: yep

• × • C U R R E N T • × •

- Clothes: pants and t-shirt
- Desktop picture: white tigers
- CD in player: none
- DVD in player: none

• × • L A S T | P E R S O N • × •

- You touched: Justice
- Hugged: Justice
- You IMed: brandon
- Talk to online: brandon

• × • A R E | Y O U • × •

- Understanding?: yes, very
- Open-minded?: would I be here if I wasn't?
- Insecure?: of course
- Random?: 3.14?
- Hungry?: a little
- Smart?: I like to think so
- Moody?: yep
- Organized?: depends
- Shy?: yes
- Difficult?: I try not to be, but I can be
- Bored easily?: yes
- Obsessed?: no
- Angry?: no
- Happy?: not normally, but recently I have been
- Hyper?: rarely
- Trusting?: I give people a good chance

• × • R A N D O M • × •

- In the morning I: was freezing my ass off
- Love is: out there... not here
- I dream about: nothing... I never dream anymore
- What do you notice first about a guy/girl: eyes

• × • W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R • ×

- Coke or Pepsi: pepsi
- Flowers or candy: I like them both
- Tall or short: tall, I guess

• × • W H O • × •

- Makes you laugh the most: I forgot
- Makes you smile: this guy  TheBeastWithin
- Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: no one yet

• × • D O | Y O U | E V E R • × •

- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: a few times
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: no
- Wish you were younger?: I wish I felt younger
- Cried because someone said something to you?: no

• × • N U M B E R • × •

- Of times I have had my heart broken?: for love 0. otherwise 2
- Of guys I've kissed: family 3, others 0
- Of girls I've kissed: family 2, others 0
- Of Cd's I own: a dozen or so
- Of scars on my body: 2 or 3

ok, so I started my journey. the first day I went to Lewiston and stayed there for a long time waiting for a friend that couldn't make it or get a hold of me. and my family found me. first they tried to talk me out of the trip, then they gave me a cell phone, then some money. after all that I go to the bus stop and head up to Moscow. oddly enough I met up with some furries... sorry sweetnightmare, you'll be the fist female fur I meet though, they let me stay with them for a couple nights. and tomorrow I'll be hitting the road. I'll take the bus back to Lewiston and then back home to pick up something I forgot. after that I'll start toward Boise. lucky for me, home is on the way there so there will be no delay from my trip!!!

I'm writing this just before I leave. I'm off on my trip. I'll give you updates as I go. take care! and I'll miss you guys while I'm on the road.

I've been planning on going for a very long trip, by long I'm thinking about 9 months to a year long. I will be leaving very soon, in a day or two, three tops. I don't have a whole lot of money and not sure where I'm going but I'm going on foot. (love being outside)
I'm going to first go to Boise and decide where to go from there. if anyone would would like me to visit them, let me know in a note, a shout, or in a reply. I have a lot of time so my only limit is that I'm not leaving the US. I'm excited. I'm taking my computer along so I can keep you updated as I go.

I know it sounds crazy but I'm up for it. the trip of a life time. if I'm lucky I might even find a place to settle down in.

so basically I'm going on a long trip alone, without a car or any other people. I have a limited budget so I'm going to camp most nights. if you can put me up for a night or two that would be appreciated, if you can, but I'm prepared to ruff it. also I'm making sure that I have everything I need. so here is my list of what I'm bringing.

non perishable food
water
shirts
pants
shorts
underwear
socks
shoes
toilet paper
knife
lighter
flashlight
computer
mouse
power cord
bug repellent
deodorant
soap
a pot
silverware
a plate
$$$(not cash, never carry mush cash)
a couple books
paper and other art supplies
coat
light bedding

if I missed anything let me know.

I got up this... afternoon and immediately went to take a shower. when I was about done I started to feel really dizzy and it was getting worse. I instinctive when on my knees because I thought I would fall, and then everything was black and I felt pain in my head. I think I was thrashing around or something because I felt my whole body moving. then it stopped and I could see again. I was laying face up in the shower and my head was hurting really bad. I tried to sit up but my limbs were numb. once I regained control of my arms I sat up and felt like I was going to vomit, thankfully I didn't.

I hadn't shone any signs of illness before this, and am feeling fine now. I believe it was low blood sugar. I've had problems with it before but not this bad. so lesson to be learned is eat before you shower.

the solution is to eat something high in sugar, then eat something high in protein. the sugar gets in your system and the protein stabilizes it.

I'm going to be going on a very long trip soon. I'm most likely leaving within the week. my first stop will be Boise, not sure the next place. any ideas?

noticed this is going around, and I'm bored


1. First thing you wash in the shower? hands and arms

2. What color is your favorite jacket/hoodie? black

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? never kissed someone, other then family

4. Do you plan outfits? only on special ocations

5. How are you feeling? every emotion known to man and sever unidentified ones

6. Whats the closest thing to you that's red? a blanket that I use as blinds for my window

7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having? I told my parents I was bi, and they kicked me out of the house. I ended up moving in with someone I didn't know

8. Did you meet anybody new today? no

9. What are you craving right now? making new friends

10. Do you floss? not with floss

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage? "patch kids"

12. Are you emotional? very, although I act reserved in person

13. Have you ever counted to 1,000? I've counted to 1023

14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it? lick :3

15. Do you like your hair? head and facial hair, yes

16. Do you like yourself? eh, indiferent

17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush? depends on who is paying...

18. What are you listening to right now? a fan

19. Are your parents strict? very (read question7)

20. Would you go sky diving? yes!!!

21. Do you like cottage cheese? nope, never have

22. Have you ever met a celebrity? I met a televangelist who is quite famous in Brazil

23. Do you rent movies often? no

24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in? yes, an empty, unopened, unpunctured soda can

25. How many countries have you visited? never left the US in my life.

26. Have you made a prank phone call? no

27. Ever been on a train? no

28. Brown or white eggs? neither

29. Do you have a cell-phone? no

30. Do you use chap stick? nope

31. Do you own a gun? not a fan of guns

32. Can you use chop sticks? yes

33.Who are you going to be with tonight? umm, my dogs sleep in my room if that counts

34. Are you too forgiving? no, I'm just right

35. Ever been in love? no

36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow? sitting at his computer

37. Ever have cream puffs? no

38. Last time you cried? at my brother-in-law's brother's funeral, in April

39. What was the last question you asked? why is this thing in the way?

40. Favorite time of the year? fall

41. Do you have any tattoos? no

42. Are you sarcastic? irl I am. I try not to be online unless it's obviouse

43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect? the movie, no

44. Ever walked into a wall? once but it was in an act

45. Favorite color? gray

46. Have you ever slapped someone? yes, it was an accident, but hilarious none the less

47. Is your hair curly? when it gets long

48. What was the last CD you bought? wow 2008

49. Do looks matter? they shouldn't, but they do

50. Could you ever forgive a cheater? yes

51. Is your phone bill sky high? n/a (read question 29)

52. Do you like your life right now? yes and no

53. Do you sleep with the TV on? no

54. Can you handle the truth? I'm one of the people who ask this question!!! yes I can

55. Do you have good vision? no

56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people? 4 people to be exact

57. How often do you talk on the phone? n/a (read question 29)

58. The last person you held hands with? my two year old neiphew

59. What are you wearing? shorts, shirt and underpants.

60. What is your favorite animal? too many to pick... I'll go with the tiger on this one

61. Where was your first human-self picture on FA taken? home, in my room, on the floor... I have no furniture

62. Can you hula hoop? yes, don't expect me to show it though

63. Do you have a job? no, but I will soon (hopefully)

64. What was the most recent thing you bought? a gallon of chocolate milk

65. Have you ever crawled through a window? all the time. it's how I confuse small children and some other people too!!!

yay, I got my computer back, I'm exited. I can do things like type out journals in less then 30 minutes. and see if I spell things wrong!!!

as you know, my computer is being fixed. I don't have another computer available. it's very warm in my room, but it's the only place I can get internet (on my PS3). I am working on art, but I take a lot of brakes. so any ideas on what I could do? I guess you can give me art ideas if you want, I'm not too good yet, and it will sit untill I get my computer back.

so after what seemed like an eternity, I never told them. I was telling them about it without telling them anything when my dad said that he thinks I shouldn't tell them. so the perfect solution came out. I'm not stressed, they don't know, and I, for some reason, will be going on some sort of major trip. if things turn out the way I want, the the trip will be Colfax WA, San Dago, SLC, home, and finally South Africa. seriously, my life just got awsome!!!

gaaa, waiting for my aunt to put my niece to bed. I'm freaking out!!! I took calms a minute ago and I hope they kick in soon. also since I'm moor gay then straight (about 85% gay, 15% straight I'm going to tell them that I'm gay because I think they will understand better. they thing that bi people are sex crazed, they think that about gays too, but bi would come across as sluty. I hope they still love me. and any quick advice? I could really use any tips right now, even tips to keeping calm.

I finally told my parents... that I have something to tell them... today... in private. hopefully the calms I took will be in my system by then... currently I'm shaking all over. but after today I wont have to worry about how they will react.

this would be a lot easier if I hadn't been raised to belive that gays and bis were people who "knew that it was wrong, but chose to live in sin" but I understand they think it's a choice.

I have a feeling that when I tell my parents that I'm bi that they will kick me out and disown me, especially since I'm more gay then staight. well I am tired of the feeling eating at me! it's worse then the worst possible reaction. so I will tell them tomorrow if I don't chicken out. I don't know how they will react, nor do I care any more. I'll let you know how it goes if I'm still alive. wish me luck, and give me support. I will tel then in about 18 hours because that is when dad gets off work.

after looking through about 600 new messages I am finally up to date. once I get my computer back I'll upload a couple new pics. I will be going on a week vacation... I don't know when though. I honestly think that I should start some sort of buissness because I see a lack of jobs everywhere. I first need to find what needs done to get myself going. I have high hopes for my ideas, but I'm realistic about it too. love all ya!!!

to remember this date, a plaque will be made.

I was telling him how I feared being condemned by mom and dad. he ask me what I would prefer: me losing my perants, or me losing myself. I choose to keep who I am.
I will most likely move by 2010. anyone know of a good place?