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Tired of being ignored and alone
Posted 6 months ago***
I just wanna end it all
Nobody wants me
I just gonna end it all
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I just wanna end it all
Nobody wants me
I just gonna end it all
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I just wanna end it
Posted 6 months ago***
I'm not the same person anymore.
I can't do shit.
The doctors won't help.
I just wanna end it all.
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I'm not the same person anymore.
I can't do shit.
The doctors won't help.
I just wanna end it all.
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I wanna be a dark goddess of depravity and sinfulness
Posted 6 months ago******
I wanna be a dark goddess of sin and ignominy... And I want you to become my ignoble children.
You'll need to present your goddess with an offering... Someone near and dear to your heart. You need to present them to me as an offering... And they shall be devoured by the goddess in front of your very eyes.
Then you will be massaging my belly, listening to your loved one being digested... For hours and hours. Then once the digestive process is done, you will dig a hole in the ground and watch as I deposite what was once your loved one into it~~~ There you will symbolically bury your previous life after I've laid a few fat stinky loafs into the ground.
You will then be unbirthed by your goddess... Transformed inside my womb and be reborn into a life of everlasting pleasure~ You will be baptised into a shower of my urine and fully accepted as my eternal servant~
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I wanna be a dark goddess of sin and ignominy... And I want you to become my ignoble children.
You'll need to present your goddess with an offering... Someone near and dear to your heart. You need to present them to me as an offering... And they shall be devoured by the goddess in front of your very eyes.
Then you will be massaging my belly, listening to your loved one being digested... For hours and hours. Then once the digestive process is done, you will dig a hole in the ground and watch as I deposite what was once your loved one into it~~~ There you will symbolically bury your previous life after I've laid a few fat stinky loafs into the ground.
You will then be unbirthed by your goddess... Transformed inside my womb and be reborn into a life of everlasting pleasure~ You will be baptised into a shower of my urine and fully accepted as my eternal servant~
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Early dementia
Posted 6 months ago***
I keep having moments of confusion and disorientation... Bits where I don't know where I am, what's going on or even who I am. Feels like the hallmark of early dementia.
I don't wanna end up like this... I don't wanna stop being me... I don't wanna end up clueless in an institution where I'm mistreated until I pass away.
Feels like I should end my own life while I still can... Go out of my own accord.
Man... I can't stop crying right now.
I love you... All of you, forever and every. The dragon mama will always be with you.
Promise you'll keep me in your hearts alright?
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I keep having moments of confusion and disorientation... Bits where I don't know where I am, what's going on or even who I am. Feels like the hallmark of early dementia.
I don't wanna end up like this... I don't wanna stop being me... I don't wanna end up clueless in an institution where I'm mistreated until I pass away.
Feels like I should end my own life while I still can... Go out of my own accord.
Man... I can't stop crying right now.
I love you... All of you, forever and every. The dragon mama will always be with you.
Promise you'll keep me in your hearts alright?
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Something is just wrong in my head
Posted 6 months ago***
Something got fucked up in my head and now I can't experience happiness anymore :(
I'm just so tired of it
I can't do shit anymore
I can't draw or write stories
I have no value
I just wanna end it
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Something got fucked up in my head and now I can't experience happiness anymore :(
I'm just so tired of it
I can't do shit anymore
I can't draw or write stories
I have no value
I just wanna end it
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I'm a complete failure and I hate my life :(
Posted 6 months ago***
I just dunno
I try
I truly do... To find a reason to live. Every day I just feel bored... and tired... and just...
No games brings me fun, nothing I watch brings any joy whatsoever. I was denied mental health services and I have no options left. It just feels like I'm waiting for the sweet embrace of death to finally take me.
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I just dunno
I try
I truly do... To find a reason to live. Every day I just feel bored... and tired... and just...
No games brings me fun, nothing I watch brings any joy whatsoever. I was denied mental health services and I have no options left. It just feels like I'm waiting for the sweet embrace of death to finally take me.
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I just wanna end it all
Posted 7 months ago***
I'm just so tired of suffering... So tired of the constant pain. I just want it to end.
I don't have a place in this world anymore. I hate myself, everyday I curse being how I am.
I just wanna be at peace... I just wanna rest....
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**Edit***
Feeling kinda better today. I'm really sorry about this... Its just so overwhelming when it comes and I dunno how to stop it when it does, but all your kind words help a lot **Hugs everyone**
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I'm just so tired of suffering... So tired of the constant pain. I just want it to end.
I don't have a place in this world anymore. I hate myself, everyday I curse being how I am.
I just wanna be at peace... I just wanna rest....
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**Edit***
Feeling kinda better today. I'm really sorry about this... Its just so overwhelming when it comes and I dunno how to stop it when it does, but all your kind words help a lot **Hugs everyone**
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I'm not sure who I am anymore
Posted 7 months ago***
I'm just not sure I feel like Ceres anymore. This has been a re-occuring feeling which isn't always present... But it kinda keeps coming back unfortunately.
I just dunno... I'm not sure I feel like Ceres anymore... But I don't know who or what I feel like at all.
Should I try to make a new character for myself and start from scratch? This account is called Goddess_Ceres... Should I just start a new account once again then? And what if people don't like the new me? I mean... Its happened many time before that I made a new character and people just didn't care for them. If I just make it how I want without worrying what others think... Will people still care about me?
I just dunno... I'm feeling confused and helpless.
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I'm just not sure I feel like Ceres anymore. This has been a re-occuring feeling which isn't always present... But it kinda keeps coming back unfortunately.
I just dunno... I'm not sure I feel like Ceres anymore... But I don't know who or what I feel like at all.
Should I try to make a new character for myself and start from scratch? This account is called Goddess_Ceres... Should I just start a new account once again then? And what if people don't like the new me? I mean... Its happened many time before that I made a new character and people just didn't care for them. If I just make it how I want without worrying what others think... Will people still care about me?
I just dunno... I'm feeling confused and helpless.
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i just wanna kill myself
Posted 7 months agoi just wanna kill myself
i just wanna kill myself
i just wanna kill myself
i just wanna kill myself
i just wanna kill myself
The only thing I truly want is...
Posted 7 months ago***
To feel your struggling, wriggling body slowly descent down my beastly esophagus and into the gooey, bodily depths of my digestive tract where you will be gradually stewed, sloshed, gurgled and process into... Nutriments for my body~~~
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To feel your struggling, wriggling body slowly descent down my beastly esophagus and into the gooey, bodily depths of my digestive tract where you will be gradually stewed, sloshed, gurgled and process into... Nutriments for my body~~~
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Friend in need of help
Posted 7 months ago***
Hey everyone. I'm sorry to have to call upon you yet again, one of my friend is in a dire situation, with his brother having thrown him out of the house unfairly. Unfortunately, because of Trumps and tariffs damaging the Canadian economy right now its very hard for me to help. I provided as much money as I could be it really isn't enough.
I would be eternally grateful for anyone who can help, even the smallest donation is deeply appreciated.
https://ko-fi.com/thewolfycreator/goal?g=6
or
https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/TheWolfyCreator
Thank you friend. I hope we all make it out of those dark times.
**Hugs everyone super tightly**
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Hey everyone. I'm sorry to have to call upon you yet again, one of my friend is in a dire situation, with his brother having thrown him out of the house unfairly. Unfortunately, because of Trumps and tariffs damaging the Canadian economy right now its very hard for me to help. I provided as much money as I could be it really isn't enough.
I would be eternally grateful for anyone who can help, even the smallest donation is deeply appreciated.
https://ko-fi.com/thewolfycreator/goal?g=6
or
https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/TheWolfyCreator
Thank you friend. I hope we all make it out of those dark times.
**Hugs everyone super tightly**
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Just trying not to freak out right now
Posted 7 months ago***
Just trying to calm down now
Its not easy
My mind just wants to freak out
Its not easy at all.
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Just trying to calm down now
Its not easy
My mind just wants to freak out
Its not easy at all.
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I just wanna end it
Posted 7 months agoI'm tired of everything
I just wanna end it all
I'm so tired
I just wanna not be in pain anymore
I just wanna end it all
I'm so tired
I just wanna not be in pain anymore
I'm freaking out
Posted 7 months ago***
I'm freaking out... I'm completely freaking out. I can't stop thinking about killing myself. I just can't stop thinking about it. Its in my head. I'm completely freaking out right now. :(
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I'm freaking out... I'm completely freaking out. I can't stop thinking about killing myself. I just can't stop thinking about it. Its in my head. I'm completely freaking out right now. :(
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My life is over
Posted 7 months ago***
My brain is broken. ADHD meds don't work for me anymore. Doctor say there's nothing that can be done about it. I cannot live like this. I cannot live my life without being able to experience joy.
It needs to end. I need to end my life.
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My brain is broken. ADHD meds don't work for me anymore. Doctor say there's nothing that can be done about it. I cannot live like this. I cannot live my life without being able to experience joy.
It needs to end. I need to end my life.
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Thinking about suicide a lot
Posted 7 months ago***
My life has been nothing but a downward spiral recently. Its been months and things just keep getting worse and worse. I went to the doctor and they say they can't help. My request for mental health services has been denied. I've exhausted all options, there is nothing else.
I think this might be the end. Like actually. There's nothing more I can do. Might as well just end my suffering.
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My life has been nothing but a downward spiral recently. Its been months and things just keep getting worse and worse. I went to the doctor and they say they can't help. My request for mental health services has been denied. I've exhausted all options, there is nothing else.
I think this might be the end. Like actually. There's nothing more I can do. Might as well just end my suffering.
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I just wanna give up
Posted 8 months ago***
it just feels like my life is comming to its inevitable end. I just dunno what to do, I feel so trapped
it just feels like my life is comming to its inevitable end. I just dunno what to do, I feel so trapped
having suicidal thoughts
Posted 8 months agoAm really not well tonight
Still pretty lonely
Posted 8 months agoI just dunno what to do at this point
Finding ways to remain involved with the vore community
Posted 8 months ago*** *** ***
Greetings.
I've been part of the vore community for 18 years now, and I'm not gonna lie, I'm kinda running out of steam. I've been finding it increasingly tough to remain involved with the community, to engage with others and in terms have them engage with me, and to meet new people and make new friends.
So then what's the deal? Lots of people tend to get less and less involved with fetish communities as they get older, so why is this a problem? Well the thing is, those people tend to have careers, families and overall a pretty normal life. This isn't the case for me, I'm disabled and unable to work, as a result I have little to no avenues to pursue social relationships in real life.
Not having a job means I don't have co-workers, no place to go and so forth, I also have very little money, just enough to afford the bare minimum of living... Which means I don't have any money to put into hobbies... Yet another social avenue I cannot partake into. So in short, involving myself in an online community is the only way I have to interact socially with others and to feel a sense of community.
>So how did I use to interact and involve myself with the vore community?
I joined the vore community when I was 19, at first I mostly just lurked, looked at art and silently observe others interacting. Then I began commenting, getting involved with discussions, and eventually, roleplaying. After about 5 years I began dipping my toes into content creations, first with rudimentary pics, and later with stories.
I can't really roleplay anymore, its been years. I try it again from time to time and everytime I'm reminded that I just don't have it in me anymore. As a pred, I'm basically expected to do all the work, while the prey remains passive and is kinda just an object to be acted upon. I just don't have the energy or motivation to do it anymore, now its basically just a big chore.
Because of my deteriorating physical and mental condition drawing pictures and writings stories is now incredibly difficult for me. I will never be able to draw or write as much as I used to, or even perhaps at all.
>So what can I do to keep involving myself with the vore community?
Honestly, I'm not quite sure. My ability to make content of any sort is seriously restricted, I don't enjoy roleplaying anymore and I have no money to commission others to make content for me. I have been dabbling with AI art creation, but AI generated images are banned pretty much on every site that host the vore community. I could try making very short vore stories where the setup, prior relationships and dialogues are greatly abridged and/or summarized... But I'm afraid that people might not pay attention to those. I know people have been praising me for the short story bits I usually include with my pictures, but I'm deeply skeptical people will bother with those if there isn't a juicy drawing attached.
So in short... I don't know... I really don't know. Any suggestions?
Thanks in advance **Hugs**
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Greetings.
I've been part of the vore community for 18 years now, and I'm not gonna lie, I'm kinda running out of steam. I've been finding it increasingly tough to remain involved with the community, to engage with others and in terms have them engage with me, and to meet new people and make new friends.
So then what's the deal? Lots of people tend to get less and less involved with fetish communities as they get older, so why is this a problem? Well the thing is, those people tend to have careers, families and overall a pretty normal life. This isn't the case for me, I'm disabled and unable to work, as a result I have little to no avenues to pursue social relationships in real life.
Not having a job means I don't have co-workers, no place to go and so forth, I also have very little money, just enough to afford the bare minimum of living... Which means I don't have any money to put into hobbies... Yet another social avenue I cannot partake into. So in short, involving myself in an online community is the only way I have to interact socially with others and to feel a sense of community.
>So how did I use to interact and involve myself with the vore community?
I joined the vore community when I was 19, at first I mostly just lurked, looked at art and silently observe others interacting. Then I began commenting, getting involved with discussions, and eventually, roleplaying. After about 5 years I began dipping my toes into content creations, first with rudimentary pics, and later with stories.
I can't really roleplay anymore, its been years. I try it again from time to time and everytime I'm reminded that I just don't have it in me anymore. As a pred, I'm basically expected to do all the work, while the prey remains passive and is kinda just an object to be acted upon. I just don't have the energy or motivation to do it anymore, now its basically just a big chore.
Because of my deteriorating physical and mental condition drawing pictures and writings stories is now incredibly difficult for me. I will never be able to draw or write as much as I used to, or even perhaps at all.
>So what can I do to keep involving myself with the vore community?
Honestly, I'm not quite sure. My ability to make content of any sort is seriously restricted, I don't enjoy roleplaying anymore and I have no money to commission others to make content for me. I have been dabbling with AI art creation, but AI generated images are banned pretty much on every site that host the vore community. I could try making very short vore stories where the setup, prior relationships and dialogues are greatly abridged and/or summarized... But I'm afraid that people might not pay attention to those. I know people have been praising me for the short story bits I usually include with my pictures, but I'm deeply skeptical people will bother with those if there isn't a juicy drawing attached.
So in short... I don't know... I really don't know. Any suggestions?
Thanks in advance **Hugs**
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Pretty lonely today
Posted 8 months ago****
I'm just not sure what to do... Feeling pretty lonely today... In fact very lonely.
I don't really know what to talk about with people. I don't have a lot of interests... And I don't RP.
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I'm just not sure what to do... Feeling pretty lonely today... In fact very lonely.
I don't really know what to talk about with people. I don't have a lot of interests... And I don't RP.
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A friend in need
Posted 8 months ago***
Hey.
I don't usually do this, but a friend of mine is in deep trouble right now. They're short on rent and at risk of homelessness at the moment. I know I already asked for donation previously this month for food money for myself, but it would mean a lot if you could also help out my friend.
You can donate to them through paypal:
https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/TheWolfyCreator
Thank you.
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Hey.
I don't usually do this, but a friend of mine is in deep trouble right now. They're short on rent and at risk of homelessness at the moment. I know I already asked for donation previously this month for food money for myself, but it would mean a lot if you could also help out my friend.
You can donate to them through paypal:
https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/TheWolfyCreator
Thank you.
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Kinda freaking out over money right now.
Posted 8 months ago***Edit:***
Thanks to some kind souls I have gathered enough to last until the end of the month. Thank you so much to those who helped, I cannot tell you just how grateful I am <3 <3 <3 You all give me faith in humanity back^^
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As many of you know, I'm disabled and can't work. I get money from the government.
Rent keeps going up, utilities keep going up and food prices in the last 2 or 3 years have significantly gone up.
And this months there's been another increase in food prices due to tariffs (I live in Canada).
I'm pretty much out of money right now. I've not spent money on anything but essentials this month. There's still 10 days left till I get more. I cannot draw, write stories or roleplay.
I just dunno what to say right now... Internally I'm freaking out but externally I've just kinda become numb. It feels like I should write more of an emotional plea right now but I just can't... It just feels like I'm dead inside. In the past I've felt great shame in asking for money... But right now I'm just so numb I can't even experience shame.
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Thanks to some kind souls I have gathered enough to last until the end of the month. Thank you so much to those who helped, I cannot tell you just how grateful I am <3 <3 <3 You all give me faith in humanity back^^
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As many of you know, I'm disabled and can't work. I get money from the government.
Rent keeps going up, utilities keep going up and food prices in the last 2 or 3 years have significantly gone up.
And this months there's been another increase in food prices due to tariffs (I live in Canada).
I'm pretty much out of money right now. I've not spent money on anything but essentials this month. There's still 10 days left till I get more. I cannot draw, write stories or roleplay.
I just dunno what to say right now... Internally I'm freaking out but externally I've just kinda become numb. It feels like I should write more of an emotional plea right now but I just can't... It just feels like I'm dead inside. In the past I've felt great shame in asking for money... But right now I'm just so numb I can't even experience shame.
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I would like to apologize
Posted 8 months ago***
I would like to apologize for the way I acted yesterday. Depression hit really hard and I once again failed to control myself. No matter how much I try to prepare or how much I tell myself I'm not gonna make a scene next time... When depression hits, it hits hard and comes very suddenly. Its like this overwhelming maelstrom of anger and sorrow and despair... It pops into my brain with such relentless force that it completely overtakes my mind... I just instantly forget any sort of plan or resolution and during that time I just can't stop thinking about despair and shitty things.
My brain is broken. Its not bipolar depression... It has no schedules... It just happens at random without any discernable pattern. Sometimes it is brought on by events that make me react negatively... But sometime it just comes out of nowhere without any causal event. Sometimes it just goes off. If I'm lucky it doesn't go off very much for a bit... If I'm not, it goes off many times in a short period of time.
If its any comfort, I've had this thing for over 10 years now and I've not seriously hurt myself yet... So I'll probably be alright, even if it feels like the end of the world at the moment, most likely its going to pass and I'll be alright.
Never the less, I deeply appreciate everyone who tries to help, who write supportive messages or reach out somewhere else. You lot are the real MVP.... Which, fun fact... I'm 37 and I only learned like last year that MVP stands for "most valuable player"... Yeah... Better late then never I guess!
Godspeed and may the force be with you.
(Dunno why I turned it silly in the end there X3 Just trying to lighten the mood I guess.)
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I would like to apologize for the way I acted yesterday. Depression hit really hard and I once again failed to control myself. No matter how much I try to prepare or how much I tell myself I'm not gonna make a scene next time... When depression hits, it hits hard and comes very suddenly. Its like this overwhelming maelstrom of anger and sorrow and despair... It pops into my brain with such relentless force that it completely overtakes my mind... I just instantly forget any sort of plan or resolution and during that time I just can't stop thinking about despair and shitty things.
My brain is broken. Its not bipolar depression... It has no schedules... It just happens at random without any discernable pattern. Sometimes it is brought on by events that make me react negatively... But sometime it just comes out of nowhere without any causal event. Sometimes it just goes off. If I'm lucky it doesn't go off very much for a bit... If I'm not, it goes off many times in a short period of time.
If its any comfort, I've had this thing for over 10 years now and I've not seriously hurt myself yet... So I'll probably be alright, even if it feels like the end of the world at the moment, most likely its going to pass and I'll be alright.
Never the less, I deeply appreciate everyone who tries to help, who write supportive messages or reach out somewhere else. You lot are the real MVP.... Which, fun fact... I'm 37 and I only learned like last year that MVP stands for "most valuable player"... Yeah... Better late then never I guess!
Godspeed and may the force be with you.
(Dunno why I turned it silly in the end there X3 Just trying to lighten the mood I guess.)
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I'm very lonely
Posted 8 months ago***
I have only very few friends and they're very busy. I'm always alone and I dunno what to do. Its been going on for years and I still dunno what to do about it.
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I have only very few friends and they're very busy. I'm always alone and I dunno what to do. Its been going on for years and I still dunno what to do about it.
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