Now back to our regularly scheduled insanity.

You were someone special
The only part of my inner inner circle
There's another brick in the wall
I've been trying to tear down
You left it here with your name on it

I thought we had something special
But you could throw it all away
And act like it didn't even matter
Maybe I just couldn't show you my love
Maybe I just couldn't hold it against you
But you were the one person I thought really understood

Now I'm just surrounded by my inner circle
Still outside my wall
Maybe it's natural that I still feel alone
It's probably my fault again
It's my wall, I need to tear it down
Or let them in, right?

But what if they're like you?
But what if they're not like you?
What if there are still pieces of you left in here?
Momentos
What if they find them?
Razor blades
What if they step on them?

There's a little window in my wall
I don't feel your warmth in here anymore
I don't even feel you or see you out there
All I have left is what you left inside
The warmth you left inside these things is growing cold
I still love you
I hate you for not being here

I want to see you through my window
Wave, and show me you understand
I don't even see you
I need you to show
I hate you for not being in sight

Why did you leave me here
Without a word of care
Are you really that heartless?
Do you really think I'm that heartless?
Isn't there one thing you have left to say to me?
Isn't there one thing you have left to feel for me?

I'm showered in ice water
I'm shivering
I'm cold
I'm alone

I don't know what there is left to feel
I don't know if feeling matters
I don't know if talking matters
I don't know if writing matters
I'm screaming inside

I want love
I don't need love
I just need to be understood


#Do you know me? Sometimes you just don't care if the cry is desperate anymore. I feel like I show myself every day but I'm almost never seen#