Ah I miss him already. But he had to leave at 4 am today to get home on time for a party with his mom. I begged him to let her drive him to his dads after the party because I think he's going to be absolutely /exhausted/ from driving 10 hours down back to the states. @.@; He's going on another trip tomorrow by plane outside of the US so hopefully he'll be able to sleep properly at his dad's house tonight with /both/ his brothers there.

Ah, well what I learned from Chase being here is that he's a very beautiful person with an amazing outlook on life. He truly is an enlightened person, and I wish that his drive (he's still driving back home and probably won't be back until 4ish) is safe and barren of trouble from the slums he must drive through. He's so caring, and I find that he'd do almost anything for me-- that or he'd tickle me endlessly until I can't flail my limbs anymore for protection! Even my little kitten Jojo misses him D:
bah, we went on many walks to the park, taking many pictures (he let me take most of them too, he's so niiiiceeee aaaa....
and we went to like ... a lot of restaurants (how shameful of us aaaa) and we both gained a lot of weight. LOL time to have nothing but soup for the next month!

We also made a ritual out of eating chinese take out and watching b-rated movies together. Oh god, we watched Mobie Dick 2012, Mega Shark Vs Crocosaurus (we saw the first one together at his place like 2 years ago), 2 Headed Shark Attack, and Killer Clowns from Outer Space. Oh god they were all amazing : D

Chase also went to my dad's wake with me, which was about a week ago, and I am very glad he was allowed to come along. It was very heart breaking to see my dad's parents falling apart like that. Both of their sons have now died by way of suicide and they had no other kin, so I just hope they are able to keep themselves together. :c

Anyway so what else, oh we went and saw lots of movies, we went to toronto to see the CN tower, we went to ottawa and finally showed him our beavertails pastries! Yesterday when we sat in front of the lake in Peterborough, I was just very glad to hear that Chase felt that this trip with him over was the fullest, as in ... he felt he'd gotten the most out of this time with us together than any of our other times. I felt that way too. u w u

After I saw him leave in his car yesterday oh god I bawled my eyes out until I fell asleep. I still feel on the verge of tears, but I also feel better now that I read his private tweets to me (my ipod touch is still in for repairs) that he is safe and back in his country. Just hope no hullagin in the slums tries to hurt him! D<

Anyway Chase is amaaazing and I hope he can visit again sometime soon ;3; I love him so much ffff <333

I guess I should apologize for being really lazy and not coming online. I haven't had much motivation to check any websites for updates or notes lately because my baby Izzy died just over 4 days ago. I'm having a really tough time getting over it, since she was like ... my life. Reb let her outside without telling me, and she got hit by a car. I'm just relieved that it was a fast death and she didn't have to suffer, but the pain of guilt still haunts me, y'know? She made me so happy, and she followed me everywhere. No joke, she'd sit by my feet while I did the dishes, and when I was done she'd paw at my leg to be carried. She would sleep in my room almost every night, and on the few occasions where she didn't, she'd wait for my at my door until someone let her in.
She always wanted to play with me outside ... or I'd throw her the little toy mice that she just adored. I swear, they rattle, and that's how I called her before she learned what her name was. I was so proud of her for finally recognizing her name too D:
I could call her and she'd run to me and everything. She also didn't know how to Meow, and only chattered.... buh

I'm not really taking her death well at all D: