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Posted 7 years agoI post most of my new art on my toyhou.se now. I prefer the set up there for character files. I'll prolly just be posting aything I'm personally working on here, but the majority of the art I purchase will be on toyhouse only. Most of my things are viewable only to those logged into the site already. Sorry. >-< It makes me feel a lot safer posting things.
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First Time Fursuiting Woes
Posted 7 years agoI attended Metrocon this year and took my first steps into fursuiting in public and I loved it. Aside from the heavy sweating and lack of vision, I adored it. I gave so many hugs and got so many compliments and I just simply enjoyed it. I decided to go on a slower day in my suit because I didn't want to get overwhelmed and I am glad I did, but I know I missed the bulk of the furry group because of my choice. Maybe next year tho.
I only had one occurrence that bothered me and I wanted to vent it for a bit. There was a point in time in the dealer room where I was wandering with my handler a lil behind me, so I wasn't completely aware of my surroundings, but I wasn't really feeling so hot at the moment. I was rather anxious and it was normal. It came and went like waves. Apparently, a guy in a group ahead of me was motioning for a hug and I hadn't seen him. He stood right in the middle of my sights which of course is a big blind spot. Not to mention he was rather far away and when I finally noticed him, I was really unsure if he was motioning to me or not. Either way, I wasn't feeling particularly huggy. I shook my head no, he scoffed at me and as he passed he said a few mean things one of them being calling me and my suit lame. All because I denied a hug. I am sorry, but just because I a suited out, does not mean I HAVE to give you a hug, and therefore you should not feel like you have the right to be upset and make me feel bad. I am still a person under the suit.
I am sorry for ranting, but this botherer me too much. Thank you for your time.
I only had one occurrence that bothered me and I wanted to vent it for a bit. There was a point in time in the dealer room where I was wandering with my handler a lil behind me, so I wasn't completely aware of my surroundings, but I wasn't really feeling so hot at the moment. I was rather anxious and it was normal. It came and went like waves. Apparently, a guy in a group ahead of me was motioning for a hug and I hadn't seen him. He stood right in the middle of my sights which of course is a big blind spot. Not to mention he was rather far away and when I finally noticed him, I was really unsure if he was motioning to me or not. Either way, I wasn't feeling particularly huggy. I shook my head no, he scoffed at me and as he passed he said a few mean things one of them being calling me and my suit lame. All because I denied a hug. I am sorry, but just because I a suited out, does not mean I HAVE to give you a hug, and therefore you should not feel like you have the right to be upset and make me feel bad. I am still a person under the suit.
I am sorry for ranting, but this botherer me too much. Thank you for your time.
Random Ranting #238463729 (I think lol)
Posted 9 years agoIt's been over a year since I posted a journal. No literally. Holy crap. I'm dead to the world most times. Anyways there are many things I'd like to rant about. Like a lot.
I started 2016 off by going to a hospital everyday to visit a friend who became dangerously ill last thanksgiving. After being on the edge of life and death for four months he finally showed improvement and by March he was released. I was so happy and ready to take care of him at home. This boy means the world to me and I wanted nothing more at the time to see him all healthy again. Something about seeing a person you love, turn into this walking skeleton is terrifying. Sadly something came up and I had to go to New York for three months to help out my sister after she got surgery. Ya know cause I am the only one in the family without a job so no one else could do it. Not that I was too upset. I love my sis and her kids. I was just wary on bringing my friend back into the same house with his shitty step dad that he finally got free of. Now I see it was a bad idea but back then I had no choice :( :( :(
While in New York I suffered an existential crisis. (Lots of free time = brain over thinking A LOT) I was crying almost every day and freaking out about the distant future. How people my age were doing so much better than me. How people younger than me were doing so much better than me. It was really bad. I was thankful to have my sis nearby to talk me through a lot of the episodes, but it really helped to kick my ass into gear. I knew once I got home I needed to work on getting a job at least. One of the hardest struggles for me seeing as I have crippling social anxiety and cannot drive. (That's terrifying to me as well.)
After struggling for almost two years with a student loan from a college that closed a week after I graduated, it seems there is some light in the tunnel finally. The school board contacted me about a trial against the company that owned the schools, Everest, and how they were able to get my loan cleared out. Now I may not see that money I put into it already but that's a helluva lot better than having to pay off the whole damn thing. Especially since I hadn't been able to find more than a seasonal job the past few years. On the subjects of jobs. I finally found one. I mean it isn't the best job in the work, but I managed to get into a position that doesn't send me into panic attacks every few minutes. I'm part of the Wally World family, but I work later in the day with fewer people and I work with a group of amazing people that I really appreciate. It's harder some days than others to deal with my social anxiety, but I'm doing it day by day and I honestly feel it's helping me curb the anxiety as well. With this job I'm hoping to get good benefits, get back on my meds and actually get to see a therapist.
Compared to the other things I've written about this last thing seems kinda smol, but it means a lot to me. For a while, I've been struggling with my identity. More so my gender identity. I've recently begun to accept that I am a transman. I've finally allowed myself to say this openly everywhere... except in my home. I'm afraid my parents won't understand, and I'm not quite ready to stand on my own two feet just yet. So pissing them off and getting disowned is not an option sadly. To them. I'm just a girl who likes to dress like a boy and chop her hair really short. Anywhere else I'm a boy. I'm happy and proud. Yes, I have feminine tendencies, but who doesn't lol. My name is Ezra. And no I don't care about pronouns. I know I look feminine and that does not bother me unless you point it out after I ask you not to. Main point. I. am. happy.
That is most of the things I've been dealing with this passed couple of years. If you actually sat through all of this, Thank You. It really means a lot to me.
I started 2016 off by going to a hospital everyday to visit a friend who became dangerously ill last thanksgiving. After being on the edge of life and death for four months he finally showed improvement and by March he was released. I was so happy and ready to take care of him at home. This boy means the world to me and I wanted nothing more at the time to see him all healthy again. Something about seeing a person you love, turn into this walking skeleton is terrifying. Sadly something came up and I had to go to New York for three months to help out my sister after she got surgery. Ya know cause I am the only one in the family without a job so no one else could do it. Not that I was too upset. I love my sis and her kids. I was just wary on bringing my friend back into the same house with his shitty step dad that he finally got free of. Now I see it was a bad idea but back then I had no choice :( :( :(
While in New York I suffered an existential crisis. (Lots of free time = brain over thinking A LOT) I was crying almost every day and freaking out about the distant future. How people my age were doing so much better than me. How people younger than me were doing so much better than me. It was really bad. I was thankful to have my sis nearby to talk me through a lot of the episodes, but it really helped to kick my ass into gear. I knew once I got home I needed to work on getting a job at least. One of the hardest struggles for me seeing as I have crippling social anxiety and cannot drive. (That's terrifying to me as well.)
After struggling for almost two years with a student loan from a college that closed a week after I graduated, it seems there is some light in the tunnel finally. The school board contacted me about a trial against the company that owned the schools, Everest, and how they were able to get my loan cleared out. Now I may not see that money I put into it already but that's a helluva lot better than having to pay off the whole damn thing. Especially since I hadn't been able to find more than a seasonal job the past few years. On the subjects of jobs. I finally found one. I mean it isn't the best job in the work, but I managed to get into a position that doesn't send me into panic attacks every few minutes. I'm part of the Wally World family, but I work later in the day with fewer people and I work with a group of amazing people that I really appreciate. It's harder some days than others to deal with my social anxiety, but I'm doing it day by day and I honestly feel it's helping me curb the anxiety as well. With this job I'm hoping to get good benefits, get back on my meds and actually get to see a therapist.
Compared to the other things I've written about this last thing seems kinda smol, but it means a lot to me. For a while, I've been struggling with my identity. More so my gender identity. I've recently begun to accept that I am a transman. I've finally allowed myself to say this openly everywhere... except in my home. I'm afraid my parents won't understand, and I'm not quite ready to stand on my own two feet just yet. So pissing them off and getting disowned is not an option sadly. To them. I'm just a girl who likes to dress like a boy and chop her hair really short. Anywhere else I'm a boy. I'm happy and proud. Yes, I have feminine tendencies, but who doesn't lol. My name is Ezra. And no I don't care about pronouns. I know I look feminine and that does not bother me unless you point it out after I ask you not to. Main point. I. am. happy.
That is most of the things I've been dealing with this passed couple of years. If you actually sat through all of this, Thank You. It really means a lot to me.
Happy N7 Day!
Posted 10 years agoTo all mah Fellow Mass Effect nerds! Show your pride!!!
http://not-so-dalish-elf.tumblr.com.....day-masseffect
http://not-so-dalish-elf.tumblr.com.....day-masseffect
Multi-Post Warning
Posted 10 years agoI'm gonna be posting a lot of old art from my alt account on here cause I can use folders now and I kinda want all of it in one place. I apologize in advance!!!
FRIEND'S RAFFLE
Posted 10 years agohttp://winged-gardian.deviantart.co.....subs-527864142
My friend is trying to start out her drawing career and she is doing a raffle to show off her work! Go check her out!!
My friend is trying to start out her drawing career and she is doing a raffle to show off her work! Go check her out!!
April 1st Birthday Problems
Posted 10 years agoThe biggest issue with having a birthday on the day of fools...
NO ONE BELIEVES YOU!
I actually find it amusing to see people struggle with the idea that I could be fooling them, but no. I was indeed born on the day of fools and extremely happy that I am. It just further solidifies the fact that I am a foolish person with great reason to be. ^-^
NO ONE BELIEVES YOU!
I actually find it amusing to see people struggle with the idea that I could be fooling them, but no. I was indeed born on the day of fools and extremely happy that I am. It just further solidifies the fact that I am a foolish person with great reason to be. ^-^
BDSM Test Results
Posted 10 years agoI took the test and I am rather satisfied with my results.
== Results from http://bdsmtest.org/ ==
96% Bondage Receiver
93% Girl/Boy
93% Slave
84% Submissive
78% Brat
71% Experimentalist
67% Primal (Prey)
65% Masochist
54% Degradation Receiver
51% Pervert
50% Vanilla
50% Voyeur
45% Exhibitionist
43% Non-monogamist
43% Primal (Predator)
41% Bondage Giver
25% Switch
21% Daddy/Mommy
16% Brat Tamer
16% Degradation Giver
9% Master/Mistress
8% All-Rounder
8% Dominant
4% Sadist
See my results online at http://bdsmtest.org/result.php?id=66726
== Results from http://bdsmtest.org/ ==
96% Bondage Receiver
93% Girl/Boy
93% Slave
84% Submissive
78% Brat
71% Experimentalist
67% Primal (Prey)
65% Masochist
54% Degradation Receiver
51% Pervert
50% Vanilla
50% Voyeur
45% Exhibitionist
43% Non-monogamist
43% Primal (Predator)
41% Bondage Giver
25% Switch
21% Daddy/Mommy
16% Brat Tamer
16% Degradation Giver
9% Master/Mistress
8% All-Rounder
8% Dominant
4% Sadist
See my results online at http://bdsmtest.org/result.php?id=66726
I Don't Know What to Do.
Posted 11 years agoI have so many big choices I have to make, and I just dont know what to do.
Lately I've been feeling like nothing but a burden on everyone around me. (No arguments Kimi!) I have no job. I went to school because I was pressured and now I'm not doing anything in that field. (Loan payment coming soon) I'm terrified to get a job due to my anxiety, but when I ask for help from my parents they tell me I don't have anxiety. It's all in my head and I'm just being lazy... It hurts to hear that and it makes me question myself, but I'm pretty sure I have it. Interacting with people or in large groups makes me short of breath and my heart races. All I ever want to do is find some corner where I can run off to and hide away from everything.
So no job = No money. And I want nothing more then to help those who try to help me. I have a few (and I mean a few friends.) that I really think deserve payback for what they've done for me, but the most I can ever muster is silly things like occasional doodles/pics and some of the crafts or random object I make or find. I never feel its enough for their support. I want to help them when they have bad days and all I can ever offer is kind words. It makes me feel useless.
On to the subjects of my parents... They aren't helpful. They use me and force me into uncomfortable positions. Since I have no job and cannot support myself they make me do everything. While everyone is at work(Excluding my father who has no job) I clean the whole house. I do my best and am very proud when I'm done. Then everyone gets home and things get messed up instantly then I get yelled at because I was supposed to clean. I try to argue that I did but I never win. Why do I ever think I'd win with them?
I've already ranted about the three weeks of renovating hell I went through. I though maybe I'd finally have the weekend off. Spend time with my mistress who has a few days off from work. I was stupid for that thought. My dad and mother(Who got two weeks vaca from work) decide they are going to have a yard sale. Yard sales are usually fun occassions correct? Not my parents. They take everything they've packed. I MEAN EVERY FUCKING THING!!! and put it out in the front yard. What we have is NOT a yard sale its a fucking store. and they expect me to help unpack everything I just spent three weeks packing into dark corners(for the inspection). I want to scream. I had already planned to got with my mistress and now my plans mean nothing at all. Even after I told them. No. I am their slave and when they say jump I have to ask how high. So my day yesterday was ruined, and I managed to drag my mistress down with me.
Now I'm starting to think I should move with my sister. I'm pretty sure being away from my parents would be a good thing, but I'm terrified. I'm so terrified. I don't want to leave my few friends behind and go live on the other side of the country in New York, but I know it will be beneficial for me if I do. I'm torn. and exhausted. I have to make a decision soon and start making plans. I'm pretty sure I have to fight to leave. My parents would not let me go easily, but I have to keep remniding myself that I am 22 and an adult. These decisions are my own....
I have to go now. I'm pretty sure my father will break my door if I don't get out there and help with the damn yard sale... I sound so mature don't I...
Lately I've been feeling like nothing but a burden on everyone around me. (No arguments Kimi!) I have no job. I went to school because I was pressured and now I'm not doing anything in that field. (Loan payment coming soon) I'm terrified to get a job due to my anxiety, but when I ask for help from my parents they tell me I don't have anxiety. It's all in my head and I'm just being lazy... It hurts to hear that and it makes me question myself, but I'm pretty sure I have it. Interacting with people or in large groups makes me short of breath and my heart races. All I ever want to do is find some corner where I can run off to and hide away from everything.
So no job = No money. And I want nothing more then to help those who try to help me. I have a few (and I mean a few friends.) that I really think deserve payback for what they've done for me, but the most I can ever muster is silly things like occasional doodles/pics and some of the crafts or random object I make or find. I never feel its enough for their support. I want to help them when they have bad days and all I can ever offer is kind words. It makes me feel useless.
On to the subjects of my parents... They aren't helpful. They use me and force me into uncomfortable positions. Since I have no job and cannot support myself they make me do everything. While everyone is at work(Excluding my father who has no job) I clean the whole house. I do my best and am very proud when I'm done. Then everyone gets home and things get messed up instantly then I get yelled at because I was supposed to clean. I try to argue that I did but I never win. Why do I ever think I'd win with them?
I've already ranted about the three weeks of renovating hell I went through. I though maybe I'd finally have the weekend off. Spend time with my mistress who has a few days off from work. I was stupid for that thought. My dad and mother(Who got two weeks vaca from work) decide they are going to have a yard sale. Yard sales are usually fun occassions correct? Not my parents. They take everything they've packed. I MEAN EVERY FUCKING THING!!! and put it out in the front yard. What we have is NOT a yard sale its a fucking store. and they expect me to help unpack everything I just spent three weeks packing into dark corners(for the inspection). I want to scream. I had already planned to got with my mistress and now my plans mean nothing at all. Even after I told them. No. I am their slave and when they say jump I have to ask how high. So my day yesterday was ruined, and I managed to drag my mistress down with me.
Now I'm starting to think I should move with my sister. I'm pretty sure being away from my parents would be a good thing, but I'm terrified. I'm so terrified. I don't want to leave my few friends behind and go live on the other side of the country in New York, but I know it will be beneficial for me if I do. I'm torn. and exhausted. I have to make a decision soon and start making plans. I'm pretty sure I have to fight to leave. My parents would not let me go easily, but I have to keep remniding myself that I am 22 and an adult. These decisions are my own....
I have to go now. I'm pretty sure my father will break my door if I don't get out there and help with the damn yard sale... I sound so mature don't I...
Character Meme -Cleaning off last journal-
Posted 11 years agoRULES :
1. Pick one of your OCs.
2. Fill in the questions/statements as if you were your OC.
3. Tag four people to do this meme!
4. Tell people that they been tagged with a link from your journal
OC picked: Ezra
1. What is your name?
M-my name? Um. It's Ezra. Ezra Berei the third.
2. Do you know why you were named that?
Because it's my father's name? and my grandfather's name? Maybe its some weird kind of tradition.
3. Single or taken?
*Blushes and looks down* T-Taken.
4. Have any abilities or powers?
*hesitant* I can... Shapeshift. Into animals only. Humans are impossible for me to replicate. Hurts too much... So do big animals.
5. Stop being a Mary Sue!
I-I'm s-sorry! I didn't m-mean to! I can j-just go if th-that helps! *Panics*
6. What's your eye color?
I have gold eyes... Well one is more brown now. It got damaged in an accident...
7. How about hair color?
A wine color. Almost purple.
8. Have you any family members?
I have my parents... and my sister, but I-I'd rather not talk about them...
9. Oh? How about pets?
Like people pets? Or like animal pets? Cause I have a few (Wild) animals I guess I can call pets.
10. That's cool, I guess. Now tell me something you don't like.
Just one thing? Um okay hold on... I think the thing I don't like the most is my scars. I have so many of them...
11. Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do?
I like to decorate! *perks up* Once I was left alone for a week, and when master came home I'd rearranged the whole house. *looks down grinning* He wasn't too happy, but I still got a reward for trying.
12. Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before?
*Bites lip and shakes head* I don't wanna answer that...
13. Ever… killed anyone before?
*face turns pale* Or this...
14. What kind of animal are you?
A cat! A nice lazy little red tabby!
15. Name your worst habits.
Panic cleaning. At least I think it is. Usually gets me in trouble when I do it too much and master can't find his things cause I moved them.
16. Do you look up to anyone at all?
My master and Reaver. *Blushes* They have so much charisma and then there's me...
17. Are you gay, straight, or bisexual?
Demisexual. I don't experience sexual attraction unless I'm emotionally connected with them.
18. Do you go to school?
I did. Not any more though. Thanks to my father...
19. Ever want to marry and have kids one day?
*Fidgets* There are buns in the oven, yes. A-and I am engaged. S-so yes to both.
20. Do you have fangirls/fanboys?
No. I'm usually the fanboy.
21. What are you most afraid of?
Being thrown away or abandoned. I am a mon- n-no... I'm not allowed to call myself that anymore.
22. What do you usually wear?
Anything that covers my arms and legs. I don't want people to see my damage. Oh and a pair of saddle boy shoes. They were the last present I got from my mother.
23. What's one food that tempts you?
Sweets, Ice cream, and a nice big bacon burger. Yumm!
24. Am I annoying you?
No. Why do you ask?
25. Well, it's still not over!
R-really? I thought... Well okay. A few more questions can't hurt.
26. What class are you (low class, middle class, high class)?
Low class. Always low class...
27. How many friends do you have?
I have... a couple. I'm a bit too shy to make them.
28. What are your thoughts on pie?
Pumpkin pie! Yummiest pie in the world.
30. Favorite drink?
Tea. Sweet preferably but I like them all. Cept Earl Grey. Bleh.
31. What's your favorite place?
A big, warm bed, with soft sheets in a dark room. I could sleep for hours and be happy.
32. Are you interested in anyone~?
My Master! He so- *Goes on a rant*
33. That was a stupid question.
*Still ranting happily*
34. Would you rather swim in a lake or the ocean?
Neither! They are dangerous. and I think the last time I went swimming at the beach a shark brushed my leg! (It was seaweed >.>)
35. What's your type?
Type of what?
36. Any fetishes?
*Turns completely red* I am n-not going to t-talk about such things s-so openly!!
37. Seme or uke?
*in a small voice* Uke.
38. Camping or indoors?
I like both. A bed is nice most days but sometimes sleeping under the stars is amazing too.
39. Tag People!
Too Tired to Cry [Vent]
Posted 11 years agoI need to vent. Like bad.
For the passed, I wanna say three weeks, I've been forced to help maintenance our family home. My parent wake me up early in the morning then I not let me sleep til about 5 just to do it all over again. I wouldn't complain if this was something simple but I mean the whole fucking house needs to be fixed before it gets inspected for some kind of financing. Now we've been in this house for roughly a year and a half. The repairs that we are doing have needed to be done since we got the house, BUT my parents have been putting in off and putting it off for stupid ass reasons. All of a sudden something happens and mom gets this weird deal and all the issues in the house (AND ITS NOT A FUCKING FEW THINGS) have to be fixed in half a week before the inspector came.
Dad was sooooo sure we could do it, then he started RE-seeing all the shit that was wrong that he pointed out when we first moved in. The bathroom ceiling is leaking, the kitchen walls need to be sanded down and painted (TO MY MOTHERS PREFERENCE OF COURSE. God forbid we put our ideas in...) All the wires in the living room need to be hidden, my parents bedroom needs complete overhaul (and its fucking huge) wall ports have to be replaced, furniture need to be thrown out and better shit has to be bought. Ya know just to name a few things wrong with the house. (THERE IS SO MUCH MORE FUCKING WRONG!) And we had less then a week.
Dad gets the bright idea to hire the one Spanish dude in Florida that does a shit job at being a handyman(HE ADVERTISING HIMSELF AS THE BEST. YEAH FUCKING RIGHT!) and he screws shit up more. So dad has to postpone the inspection for the next week. Oh Joy. Did I mention that most of my family works during the day leaving just me and dad to work on a five bedroom two bath home with a large ass living room? No? well now i did. My dad is stressing out because he has all this work to do and so little time and help. Yeah I can help, but I can only do so much seeing as I do not have the know how or strength to do a lot of what he needs. So a week passes and we get SOME of the stuff done, but we are in the middle of renovating the entire guest bathroom when the reschedule inspection rolls around. Dad has to reschedule yet again because the house looks worse then when we started.
I should have mentioned this earlier but my mother is a hoarder. and I mean anything and everything. SO we have to figure out where to put all her shit while this inspection happens. Dad rents a storage unit on top of the one we already have, plus the little hut out back, the side room, and now even the attic. YES SHE HAS THAT MUCH CRAP!!!!! Drives me fucking psycho.
Eventually we get help from the family. My awesome cousin who swoops in from the fucking sky and completes about half of the projects we needed. Then my aunt who crawled from her home in god knows where who helped me clean up after each project and helped me do touch ups. Needless to say. I cannot thank them enough I really can't. They stood in for my mother (ms-hoards-a-lot) and my brother(Who needs to just stop having a dick) who love to go straight to bed when they get home instead of helping me and my father. THEN complain the house looks like shit. Lovely aren't they?
Needless to say tomorrow is the inspection and I still have several hours of quick cleans and fixes to do before we get that knock on our door. I've endured three weeks of little sleep, painful labor, and pissy fucking attitudes. ALL I FUCKING WANT IS MY HAIR CUT!!! That's all I want out of this. ONE. FUCKING. HAIRCUT. If I'm denied this because I can't leave the house for some small reason I think I'll scream. I deserve at least this. This one small thing. Fuck I think I deserve to get it colored while I'm at it, but I'm DREAMING if I think that will actually happen.
Now I'm sitting in my room typing this vent (Totally helping btw) when I should be sleeping, cause I have to get up ingodly early before the inspector comes.I want to sob because my feet hurt (Both by standing on and being hit by things) and my body aches in ways I wasn't sure possible before. Im gonna attempt to lay in my bed and stare vacantly at the ceiling until I eventually drift off.
GOOD NIGHT!! (hopefully...)
For the passed, I wanna say three weeks, I've been forced to help maintenance our family home. My parent wake me up early in the morning then I not let me sleep til about 5 just to do it all over again. I wouldn't complain if this was something simple but I mean the whole fucking house needs to be fixed before it gets inspected for some kind of financing. Now we've been in this house for roughly a year and a half. The repairs that we are doing have needed to be done since we got the house, BUT my parents have been putting in off and putting it off for stupid ass reasons. All of a sudden something happens and mom gets this weird deal and all the issues in the house (AND ITS NOT A FUCKING FEW THINGS) have to be fixed in half a week before the inspector came.
Dad was sooooo sure we could do it, then he started RE-seeing all the shit that was wrong that he pointed out when we first moved in. The bathroom ceiling is leaking, the kitchen walls need to be sanded down and painted (TO MY MOTHERS PREFERENCE OF COURSE. God forbid we put our ideas in...) All the wires in the living room need to be hidden, my parents bedroom needs complete overhaul (and its fucking huge) wall ports have to be replaced, furniture need to be thrown out and better shit has to be bought. Ya know just to name a few things wrong with the house. (THERE IS SO MUCH MORE FUCKING WRONG!) And we had less then a week.
Dad gets the bright idea to hire the one Spanish dude in Florida that does a shit job at being a handyman(HE ADVERTISING HIMSELF AS THE BEST. YEAH FUCKING RIGHT!) and he screws shit up more. So dad has to postpone the inspection for the next week. Oh Joy. Did I mention that most of my family works during the day leaving just me and dad to work on a five bedroom two bath home with a large ass living room? No? well now i did. My dad is stressing out because he has all this work to do and so little time and help. Yeah I can help, but I can only do so much seeing as I do not have the know how or strength to do a lot of what he needs. So a week passes and we get SOME of the stuff done, but we are in the middle of renovating the entire guest bathroom when the reschedule inspection rolls around. Dad has to reschedule yet again because the house looks worse then when we started.
I should have mentioned this earlier but my mother is a hoarder. and I mean anything and everything. SO we have to figure out where to put all her shit while this inspection happens. Dad rents a storage unit on top of the one we already have, plus the little hut out back, the side room, and now even the attic. YES SHE HAS THAT MUCH CRAP!!!!! Drives me fucking psycho.
Eventually we get help from the family. My awesome cousin who swoops in from the fucking sky and completes about half of the projects we needed. Then my aunt who crawled from her home in god knows where who helped me clean up after each project and helped me do touch ups. Needless to say. I cannot thank them enough I really can't. They stood in for my mother (ms-hoards-a-lot) and my brother(Who needs to just stop having a dick) who love to go straight to bed when they get home instead of helping me and my father. THEN complain the house looks like shit. Lovely aren't they?
Needless to say tomorrow is the inspection and I still have several hours of quick cleans and fixes to do before we get that knock on our door. I've endured three weeks of little sleep, painful labor, and pissy fucking attitudes. ALL I FUCKING WANT IS MY HAIR CUT!!! That's all I want out of this. ONE. FUCKING. HAIRCUT. If I'm denied this because I can't leave the house for some small reason I think I'll scream. I deserve at least this. This one small thing. Fuck I think I deserve to get it colored while I'm at it, but I'm DREAMING if I think that will actually happen.
Now I'm sitting in my room typing this vent (Totally helping btw) when I should be sleeping, cause I have to get up ingodly early before the inspector comes.I want to sob because my feet hurt (Both by standing on and being hit by things) and my body aches in ways I wasn't sure possible before. Im gonna attempt to lay in my bed and stare vacantly at the ceiling until I eventually drift off.
GOOD NIGHT!! (hopefully...)
My Fuzzy Pack [Updated: 6/8/14]
Posted 11 years agoI have so many babus but I love them all.
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║ ❤ Pandas ❤
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║ ° Gotham Ref Sheet
║ ° Gotham Beast Tamer ❤❤
║ ° Lilith
║ ° Lorelei[NSFW]
║ ° Luceius
║ ° Oolong
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║❤Kitkin Babu❤ <-- Yes he's special enough to be on his own
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║ ° Munenori
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║❤ TRON Furs ❤
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╔════════════════════════╗
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║ ° GliTch IMVU
║ ° GliTch Fem Ref
║ ° GG Byte
║ ° Terror Byte
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║ ❤ Fluffies ❤
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╔════════════════════════╗
║
║ ° Haze ❤ ❤
║ ° Magus
║ ° Blue Moon
║ ° Ataxia - Lappit
║ ° Noelle - Liger [NSFW]
║ ° Dewm - Sergal
║ ° Ambrose - Magic Sheep[NSFW]
║
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╔═══════════════╗
║❤ Flutterbutts ❤
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╔════════════════════════╗
║
║ ° Yericho Chibi Ref
║ ° Felix Vale
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║❤ Ferals & Taur ❤
╚═══════════════╝
╔════════════════════════╗
║
║ ° Vahn - Mundermutt
║ ° Equinox - Lithogrif [NSFW]
║ ° Sherlocke - Chicudo
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╚════════════════════════╝
╔═════════╗
║❤Nagas❤
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╔════════════════════════╗
║
║ ° Uriel
║ ° Benedikt
║ ° Aiden
║
╚════════════════════════╝
╔════════════╗
║ ❤ Pandas ❤
╚════════════╝
╔════════════════════════╗
║
║ ° Gotham Ref Sheet
║ ° Gotham Beast Tamer ❤❤
║ ° Lilith
║ ° Lorelei[NSFW]
║ ° Luceius
║ ° Oolong
║
╚════════════════════════╝
╔════════════╗
║❤Kitkin Babu❤ <-- Yes he's special enough to be on his own
╚════════════╝
╔════════════════════════╗
║
║ ° Munenori
║
╚════════════════════════╝
╔═════════════╗
║❤ TRON Furs ❤
╚═════════════╝
╔════════════════════════╗
║
║ ° GliTch IMVU
║ ° GliTch Fem Ref
║ ° GG Byte
║ ° Terror Byte
║
╚════════════════════════╝
╔════════════╗
║ ❤ Fluffies ❤
╚════════════╝
╔════════════════════════╗
║
║ ° Haze ❤ ❤
║ ° Magus
║ ° Blue Moon
║ ° Ataxia - Lappit
║ ° Noelle - Liger [NSFW]
║ ° Dewm - Sergal
║ ° Ambrose - Magic Sheep[NSFW]
║
╚════════════════════════╝
╔═══════════════╗
║❤ Flutterbutts ❤
╚═══════════════╝
╔════════════════════════╗
║
║ ° Yericho Chibi Ref
║ ° Felix Vale
║
╚════════════════════════╝
╔═══════════════╗
║❤ Ferals & Taur ❤
╚═══════════════╝
╔════════════════════════╗
║
║ ° Vahn - Mundermutt
║ ° Equinox - Lithogrif [NSFW]
║ ° Sherlocke - Chicudo
║
╚════════════════════════╝
╔═════════╗
║❤Nagas❤
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╔════════════════════════╗
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║ ° Uriel
║ ° Benedikt
║ ° Aiden
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I Cost $357.00 a Night
Posted 11 years agoNatural Hair Color:
[x] Brown - $10.00
[ ] Blonde - $7.50
[ ] Black - $1.50
[ ] Bald - $0.50
[ ] Other - $5.00
$ 10.00
Eye Color:
[ ] Brown - $5.00
[ ] Green - $10.00
[ ] Blue - $15.00
[x] Hazel - $7.50
[ ] Other - $1.50
$ 17.50
Height:
[ ] Over 7′ - $20.00
[ ] 6′8″ to 7′ - $17.50
[ ] 6′0″ to 6′7″ - $15.00
[ ] 5′5″ to 5′11″ - $7.50
[x] 5′4″ to 5′10″ - $8.50
[ ] Under 5′4 - $9.50
$ 26.00
Age:
[ ] 50 to 56 - $17.50
[ ] 46 to 50 - $15.00
[ ] 41 to 45 - $12.50
[ ] 31 to 40 - $10.00
[ ] 26 to 30 - $7.50
[x] 21 to 25 - $5.00
[ ] 19 to 20 - $2.50
[ ] 0 to 18 - $10.00
$ 31.00
Birth Order:
[ ] Twins or more than twins - $75.00
[ ] First Born - $32.00
[ ] Only Child - $25.00
[ ] Second born - $15.00
[ ] Middle child - $10.00
[x] Last Born - $10.00
[ ] third born - $55.00
[ ] fourth born - $30.00
[ ] fifth born - $40.00
[ ] sixth born -$21.50
$ 41.00
Drink?
[ ] I did like once - $40.00
[ ] Only Holidays or Occasions - $25.00
[x] Sometimes - $21.50
[ ] YES - $20.00
[ ] only weekends - $30.00
[ ] Every other day - $5.00
[ ] Once a day - $1.50
[ ] I live from the bottle - $Bankrupt$ [[back to $ZERO]]
[ ] No - $60.00
$ 62.50
Vision?
[ ] perfect vision $40.00
[ ] need/have glasses/contacts but don't wear them $20.00
[ ] No correction $10.00
[x] Glasses $5.00
[ ] contacts $2.50
[ ] Surgical correction -$10.00
$ 67.50
Shoe Size:
[ ] 13+ - $30.00
[ ] 12 and a half to 13 - $25.00
[ ] 11 to 12 - $40.00
[x] 7 to 10 - $50.00
[ ] Under 7- $45.00
$ 117.50
Favorite Colors (two):
[x] Green-$75.00
[ ] Red - $60.00
[x] Black - $10.00
[ ] Yellow -$47.50
[ ] Brown - $30.00
[x] Purple - $22.50
[ ] White - $40.00
[ ] Aqua - $35.00
[ ] Orange - $30.00
[ ] Blue - $30.00
[ ] Pink - $10.00
[ ] Other - $50.00
$ 225.00
Letter your middle name(s) start with:
[ ] a-f - $5.00
[x] g-k - $17.50
[ ] l-p - $30.00
[ ] q-u - $35.00
[ ] v-z -$25.0
$ 242.00
Bedroom walls- select all that apply!
[ ] white - $11.00
[ ] green - $33.00
[ ] black - $11.00
[ ] purple - $22.00
[ ] orange/red/yellow - $33.00
[ ] blue - $22.00
[x] other - $35.00
$ 277.00
First letter of the person you last talked to
[ ] a,b,c,d,e,f,g,h,i - $10.00
[x] j,k,l,m,n,o,p,q,r - $5.00
[ ] s,t,u,v,w,x,y, - $20.00
[ ] z - $25.00
$ 282.00
Did you use a calculator to add it all up?
[ ] Yes -$0
[ ]Nope - $100.00
[x] Some - $75.00
Total: $ 357.00
Re-Post as "I Cost $_________ a Night"
[x] Brown - $10.00
[ ] Blonde - $7.50
[ ] Black - $1.50
[ ] Bald - $0.50
[ ] Other - $5.00
$ 10.00
Eye Color:
[ ] Brown - $5.00
[ ] Green - $10.00
[ ] Blue - $15.00
[x] Hazel - $7.50
[ ] Other - $1.50
$ 17.50
Height:
[ ] Over 7′ - $20.00
[ ] 6′8″ to 7′ - $17.50
[ ] 6′0″ to 6′7″ - $15.00
[ ] 5′5″ to 5′11″ - $7.50
[x] 5′4″ to 5′10″ - $8.50
[ ] Under 5′4 - $9.50
$ 26.00
Age:
[ ] 50 to 56 - $17.50
[ ] 46 to 50 - $15.00
[ ] 41 to 45 - $12.50
[ ] 31 to 40 - $10.00
[ ] 26 to 30 - $7.50
[x] 21 to 25 - $5.00
[ ] 19 to 20 - $2.50
[ ] 0 to 18 - $10.00
$ 31.00
Birth Order:
[ ] Twins or more than twins - $75.00
[ ] First Born - $32.00
[ ] Only Child - $25.00
[ ] Second born - $15.00
[ ] Middle child - $10.00
[x] Last Born - $10.00
[ ] third born - $55.00
[ ] fourth born - $30.00
[ ] fifth born - $40.00
[ ] sixth born -$21.50
$ 41.00
Drink?
[ ] I did like once - $40.00
[ ] Only Holidays or Occasions - $25.00
[x] Sometimes - $21.50
[ ] YES - $20.00
[ ] only weekends - $30.00
[ ] Every other day - $5.00
[ ] Once a day - $1.50
[ ] I live from the bottle - $Bankrupt$ [[back to $ZERO]]
[ ] No - $60.00
$ 62.50
Vision?
[ ] perfect vision $40.00
[ ] need/have glasses/contacts but don't wear them $20.00
[ ] No correction $10.00
[x] Glasses $5.00
[ ] contacts $2.50
[ ] Surgical correction -$10.00
$ 67.50
Shoe Size:
[ ] 13+ - $30.00
[ ] 12 and a half to 13 - $25.00
[ ] 11 to 12 - $40.00
[x] 7 to 10 - $50.00
[ ] Under 7- $45.00
$ 117.50
Favorite Colors (two):
[x] Green-$75.00
[ ] Red - $60.00
[x] Black - $10.00
[ ] Yellow -$47.50
[ ] Brown - $30.00
[x] Purple - $22.50
[ ] White - $40.00
[ ] Aqua - $35.00
[ ] Orange - $30.00
[ ] Blue - $30.00
[ ] Pink - $10.00
[ ] Other - $50.00
$ 225.00
Letter your middle name(s) start with:
[ ] a-f - $5.00
[x] g-k - $17.50
[ ] l-p - $30.00
[ ] q-u - $35.00
[ ] v-z -$25.0
$ 242.00
Bedroom walls- select all that apply!
[ ] white - $11.00
[ ] green - $33.00
[ ] black - $11.00
[ ] purple - $22.00
[ ] orange/red/yellow - $33.00
[ ] blue - $22.00
[x] other - $35.00
$ 277.00
First letter of the person you last talked to
[ ] a,b,c,d,e,f,g,h,i - $10.00
[x] j,k,l,m,n,o,p,q,r - $5.00
[ ] s,t,u,v,w,x,y, - $20.00
[ ] z - $25.00
$ 282.00
Did you use a calculator to add it all up?
[ ] Yes -$0
[ ]Nope - $100.00
[x] Some - $75.00
Total: $ 357.00
Re-Post as "I Cost $_________ a Night"
*Bounces up and down* Weirdo ranting
Posted 11 years agoSecond favorite day of the year coming up First being Halloween~ April fools day aka mah Birthday! Really really REEEEAAAAALLLY Hoping to get out of the house for the day (after school). Parent have been at each others' throats all week and I can almost see the tension in the house. Its suffocating. >~< Even I have to walk the nearby park by myself for the day I really do not care. I just want out. Hoping this weekend will be a relaxer too. House sitting can be fun right? Specially with a cute lil puppy, who can eat my face, to keep me company.
In other news I may or may not be making my ownnot so orginial species. They are gonna be mostly based off my lil Yericho since I really adored how he came out. I have no real clue how far I am going with the idea, but I may throw out a few examples in a few days if I do not forget. Still a lot to develop with them. They are going to have a really dorky name too ^-^.
In other news I may or may not be making my own
Fursona Meme (Boredom!)
Posted 12 years agoIs your fursona just like you, or how you want to be?
Gotham is how I wish to be. I let her get away with things like clothing style, hair style, and hair color that I cannot get away with and she's amazingly social compared to me.
Does your fursona have the same personality you have?
Yes. My inner personality that I don't let many experience.
Does your fursona have the same dislikes and likes as you do?
Most of them with a few I gave her to make her just slightly different from me.
Does your fursona look like you at all?
Nope. I made her less chunky than me, better hairstyle/color and clothing style.
Is your fursona the same gender as you, if not why?
Yes kinda. Gotham switches gender ever six hours so yeah. I cannot do that.
Do you have more then one main fursona?
Yes. I have GliTch who I consider my male fur and I could consider Yericho a main as well.
Do you have a back story for your fursona, if so does it have anything to do with your own history?
Gotham has a bit of a back story that blends with my own past from time to time. I try to keep it light, but I like troubled pasts.
Is your fursona mated, if so is it to your real life significant other?
She was until recently... It was my boyfriend's bat, but I try not to draw them together anymore. I substitute him out for a shark I adopted recently.
If not are they looking for a mate, or are they a swinger so to speak?
In stories she will swing, but if I talk about her seriously she is a one person panda.
Is there something special about your fursona that you think sets them apart from others?
I guess making her albino and involuntarily switch genders every six hours. It makes for interesting tales.
Do you have much art of your main fursona/s?
Only a few pieces I've drawn myself. I don't have her down solid enough to actually get art of her. Since in my eyes shes ever changing to my tastes. She's prolly just someone for me to draw and feel comfortable with.
Would you ever consider parting with your main fursona, if so why?
Once... I felt like she was a plain one compared to all the vibrant fursonas out there, but then I thought well that just makes her special in her own way. Simple can be good sometimes.
If you suit, do you have a suit of your main fursona?
I want one of her or GliTch one day. I would love it I just know I would.
Have you ever roleplayed with your main fursona, or do you prefer not to?
I only role play with those I feel comfy and most of the time nothing too dirty... I blush and sputter too much and bail out.
Do you consider your main fursona to be a part of you in any way?
She is a part of me. She is something I can look at and say even though she is so simple she is something special underneath her appearance. She has the ability to let her personality outshine her physical appearance and I need a boost like that. Low self esteem going on over here.
Gotham is how I wish to be. I let her get away with things like clothing style, hair style, and hair color that I cannot get away with and she's amazingly social compared to me.
Does your fursona have the same personality you have?
Yes. My inner personality that I don't let many experience.
Does your fursona have the same dislikes and likes as you do?
Most of them with a few I gave her to make her just slightly different from me.
Does your fursona look like you at all?
Nope. I made her less chunky than me, better hairstyle/color and clothing style.
Is your fursona the same gender as you, if not why?
Yes kinda. Gotham switches gender ever six hours so yeah. I cannot do that.
Do you have more then one main fursona?
Yes. I have GliTch who I consider my male fur and I could consider Yericho a main as well.
Do you have a back story for your fursona, if so does it have anything to do with your own history?
Gotham has a bit of a back story that blends with my own past from time to time. I try to keep it light, but I like troubled pasts.
Is your fursona mated, if so is it to your real life significant other?
She was until recently... It was my boyfriend's bat, but I try not to draw them together anymore. I substitute him out for a shark I adopted recently.
If not are they looking for a mate, or are they a swinger so to speak?
In stories she will swing, but if I talk about her seriously she is a one person panda.
Is there something special about your fursona that you think sets them apart from others?
I guess making her albino and involuntarily switch genders every six hours. It makes for interesting tales.
Do you have much art of your main fursona/s?
Only a few pieces I've drawn myself. I don't have her down solid enough to actually get art of her. Since in my eyes shes ever changing to my tastes. She's prolly just someone for me to draw and feel comfortable with.
Would you ever consider parting with your main fursona, if so why?
Once... I felt like she was a plain one compared to all the vibrant fursonas out there, but then I thought well that just makes her special in her own way. Simple can be good sometimes.
If you suit, do you have a suit of your main fursona?
I want one of her or GliTch one day. I would love it I just know I would.
Have you ever roleplayed with your main fursona, or do you prefer not to?
I only role play with those I feel comfy and most of the time nothing too dirty... I blush and sputter too much and bail out.
Do you consider your main fursona to be a part of you in any way?
She is a part of me. She is something I can look at and say even though she is so simple she is something special underneath her appearance. She has the ability to let her personality outshine her physical appearance and I need a boost like that. Low self esteem going on over here.
Dead Rising 3 making me question myself
Posted 12 years agoSo I was on my first play thru the other day and I came across a psycho named Dylan Fuentes. now i know dead rising is a very sexual pun/moment heavy game and I love it for that but Dylan actually turned me on in a way that frightened me. I found I was waiting for him to yell at me to pole dance cause Nick is adorbz and noobie doing it. Plus I wouldnt mind lietenimg to the guy as long as I wasnt killed or anything. Any way the intro into the fight had me intrigued and I continuously at the risk of losing life, grappled then psycho just so I could see him slap poor Nick's ass... Like Almost died if it wasn't for super rations and shit...
Curse you capcom for making me question how dark my pool of lust really is!
Dead rising rant totally done now.
Curse you capcom for making me question how dark my pool of lust really is!
Dead rising rant totally done now.
Meh Christmas [Rant]
Posted 12 years agoChristmas was ok. Nothing too bad happened. Didn't really have a party, since it was mostly for the little ones. Everyone in my house is stressed and I was happy to actually get anything. I can't complain about it. I guess I just wish for parties like the old days. when my whole family would come over and we'd party like a bunch of idiots. It was really about getting the family together back then... as the years gone by I realize that less and less people would show up or even plan a party... not its doctor visits and quick present drop offs. I miss my family getting together. It took my mind off all the bad things going on around even for a moment and boy do I need it.
Losing my boyfriend three months ago still hangs in my head and I get depressed just thinking about how that fat cow gets to spend time with him and I'm stuck in a room with my mom, brother and his kids trying not to cry because all I really wanted for christmas was for him to be there with me. its sad but I'd actually thought I'd finally be in a relationship when this time of year rolled around... I guess I'll have to build up hope for next year...
Still I am thnakful that I spent some tiem with my brother and his two kids together. its not often I get to see them both at the same time, and it was actually cute seeing their faces when "Santa" came. These small moments I must treasure.
Losing my boyfriend three months ago still hangs in my head and I get depressed just thinking about how that fat cow gets to spend time with him and I'm stuck in a room with my mom, brother and his kids trying not to cry because all I really wanted for christmas was for him to be there with me. its sad but I'd actually thought I'd finally be in a relationship when this time of year rolled around... I guess I'll have to build up hope for next year...
Still I am thnakful that I spent some tiem with my brother and his two kids together. its not often I get to see them both at the same time, and it was actually cute seeing their faces when "Santa" came. These small moments I must treasure.
Horrible Day [Vent/Rant]
Posted 12 years agoMy weekend had been pretty bad. My emotions being toyed with by someone I stupidly keep letting back in. Then monday comes. I get out of bed feeling like super crap. I forced myself to go to school because I've only got three more days before the end of my first module and I don't wanna fuck it up by being absent during a test.
Half way through my class I started feeling feverish. I finally noticed these weird sores I had on my arm and leg. They hurt more as I moved around and I had to stop writing because my wrist would hurt at any little motion. I never brought it up with anyone I just pressed through my day. by the end of class I was worse. I felt feverish and my ear hurt and the swelling had gotten three times worse. Things are made worse because I have to wait three more hours(if I'm lucky) after school ends for my ride to show up. I couldn't take it anymore. I phoned my father and begged him to pick me up. He could not. He had to work. So I suffered through my hours of waiting. I was lucky enough to have a new friend worry about me. He would not let me out of his sight for fear I would pass out. I really appreciate his concern.
When my mother finally picked me up I begged her to take me to the doctor. I really wouldn't take no for an answer. I was worried about the swelling and my sudden fever. This is where things get fun. The doctor took all but five minutes to check my ear and swelling each. Turns out at some point during the night I was bitten TWICE by a Brown Recluse Spider, and my swelling was a bad sign AND I had a severe ear infection that just hopped on while my immune system was shot. I have to take two medications that screw with my sleep patterns and my energy. and if my swelling gets worse I might have to either get a shot in my buttcheek or be sent to the ER.
All this bull onto of emotional stress have me cracking.I really wonder what else could go wrong within the next few days I really do,,,
Half way through my class I started feeling feverish. I finally noticed these weird sores I had on my arm and leg. They hurt more as I moved around and I had to stop writing because my wrist would hurt at any little motion. I never brought it up with anyone I just pressed through my day. by the end of class I was worse. I felt feverish and my ear hurt and the swelling had gotten three times worse. Things are made worse because I have to wait three more hours(if I'm lucky) after school ends for my ride to show up. I couldn't take it anymore. I phoned my father and begged him to pick me up. He could not. He had to work. So I suffered through my hours of waiting. I was lucky enough to have a new friend worry about me. He would not let me out of his sight for fear I would pass out. I really appreciate his concern.
When my mother finally picked me up I begged her to take me to the doctor. I really wouldn't take no for an answer. I was worried about the swelling and my sudden fever. This is where things get fun. The doctor took all but five minutes to check my ear and swelling each. Turns out at some point during the night I was bitten TWICE by a Brown Recluse Spider, and my swelling was a bad sign AND I had a severe ear infection that just hopped on while my immune system was shot. I have to take two medications that screw with my sleep patterns and my energy. and if my swelling gets worse I might have to either get a shot in my buttcheek or be sent to the ER.
All this bull onto of emotional stress have me cracking.I really wonder what else could go wrong within the next few days I really do,,,
Yay of Yayness
Posted 12 years agoI got to go to look at a school today, and I must admit I'm excited, but equally nervous. I just hope my nervousness doesn't ovveride me like it always does. I got to tour the school and see where I will be most days, and got to meet several important people. Everyone was so nice and welcoming and it eased my worries, but they'll always be there and I must keep them in check. If all goes according to plan I will be done with registration and financial things by friday and then starting school on the 14th. Fast I know but I prefer this. If I can get in there and get comfortable it will be better if I'm left to stew in my thoughts for another month. So yay.
Sorry for the rambling rant. Just needed this all to be said and stuff... and stuff, *flees*
Sorry for the rambling rant. Just needed this all to be said and stuff... and stuff, *flees*
Relationshio Rant/Vent. Don't Mind Me
Posted 12 years agoYesterday was a horrible day that started out nice. A simple trip to the park and meet up with my boyfriend had me feeling great, but then I went to a con with both my gf and bf and things got bad. emotions happened and now I believe I am either going to force myself out of the relationship or they are going to ask me to bow out. Its not confirmed but I know its coming.
Finally got home around 2 in the morning and my bf is trying to calm me down and it really didn't work. Spent all night and morning bawling my eyes out, and my father found me. Now to get away from all the stress of life, love, and work I'm going to be sent to NY for a week or two. Hopefully when I come back my head is clear and me my bf and gf can sort things out properly without the sting of fresh wounds and sore emotions.
Finally got home around 2 in the morning and my bf is trying to calm me down and it really didn't work. Spent all night and morning bawling my eyes out, and my father found me. Now to get away from all the stress of life, love, and work I'm going to be sent to NY for a week or two. Hopefully when I come back my head is clear and me my bf and gf can sort things out properly without the sting of fresh wounds and sore emotions.
Game Binge
Posted 13 years agoSo... I've been on a gaming binge for almost a month in a half. It started out when I finally got my Skyrim back from a buddy. I just beat prototype, so I wanted something to play until I found my next adventure. Lo and behold I was surfing the interwebs when I fell upon a quest line in Skyrim that involved the theives guild. I usually avoided the quest line cause I didn't wanna send that poor elf to jail, and I hated Brynjolf because he came of as a bit of an arse... or so i thought.
Not wanting to tarnish my dear Kahijit's rep with the Brother Hood or my streak of avoiding the thieves guild i decided to put him up on the shelf for a while and create my first Dark Elf named Krisel. I made it to roughly lvl 15 before I made her approach the snide man in Riften and completed my horrible deed. Five or six quests in I caught myself thinking 'Hey he's not so bad, and promptly scolded myself'
*shakes head in shame* Sadly by the end of the quest line I had fallen for that damnable man... curse his smexy accent! and calling me 'Lass'
Now half way through my guild missions my friends start shoving another game into my hands and I thought what the heck. I put Skyrim down for several hours and tried my hand at Mass Effect 2 (Since 1 was not readily available to me D: ). I manange to get myself addicted to the game in seconds, and started swooning after Garrus...(Two guys I swoon over and they both seem to be too busy too speak with me *Flails* ). he's awesome. So I'm trying for Paragon cause that's usually the hardest path for me... it's difficult... soooooo difficult.
THEN at some point in that endeavor my best bud Darien pops into my room and grandly announces there has been new classes added to MapleStory. Wanting to try them out I quickly redownloaded the game and logged on as fast as my sad little laptop could. I found myself jumping between My new Phantom on one server and my old Demon Slayer & Wild Hunter on another.
This ENTIRE month I've been switching back and fourth between these three addicting games, and not paying one bit of attention to my facebook, phone, and other messaging options and pissing off my friends... whoops... but c'mon! Who can resist Garrus and Brynjolf... and Cicero... i gotta pick my Khaijit back up...
Games Rule My Life... & I'm Just Fine With That :D
Not wanting to tarnish my dear Kahijit's rep with the Brother Hood or my streak of avoiding the thieves guild i decided to put him up on the shelf for a while and create my first Dark Elf named Krisel. I made it to roughly lvl 15 before I made her approach the snide man in Riften and completed my horrible deed. Five or six quests in I caught myself thinking 'Hey he's not so bad, and promptly scolded myself'
*shakes head in shame* Sadly by the end of the quest line I had fallen for that damnable man... curse his smexy accent! and calling me 'Lass'
Now half way through my guild missions my friends start shoving another game into my hands and I thought what the heck. I put Skyrim down for several hours and tried my hand at Mass Effect 2 (Since 1 was not readily available to me D: ). I manange to get myself addicted to the game in seconds, and started swooning after Garrus...(Two guys I swoon over and they both seem to be too busy too speak with me *Flails* ). he's awesome. So I'm trying for Paragon cause that's usually the hardest path for me... it's difficult... soooooo difficult.
THEN at some point in that endeavor my best bud Darien pops into my room and grandly announces there has been new classes added to MapleStory. Wanting to try them out I quickly redownloaded the game and logged on as fast as my sad little laptop could. I found myself jumping between My new Phantom on one server and my old Demon Slayer & Wild Hunter on another.
This ENTIRE month I've been switching back and fourth between these three addicting games, and not paying one bit of attention to my facebook, phone, and other messaging options and pissing off my friends... whoops... but c'mon! Who can resist Garrus and Brynjolf... and Cicero... i gotta pick my Khaijit back up...
Games Rule My Life... & I'm Just Fine With That :D
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