Just wanting to give everyone a heads up that I'm finally getting that backlog of art uploaded. Wanted to wait to say anything until after I had started on the process, just to make sure that I didn't end up jinxing it.

I've got over 100 pieces of art to upload, and I'm planning on going through about 5 pieces a day. It's gonna take me about 3 weeks to get through everything.

Thanks in advance for dealing with the submission spam. It shouldn't last forever. :3

Never did really start that Savage Worlds game...

BUT, I DIGRESS! I am still around, and am in the process of uploading all of the art that I've acquired in the past... Well, looks like 5 years. So, if that's your kinda thing, feel free to watch. If it's not, that's cool too. I'm going to try to upload one piece a day, but we'll see how that works out.

I've also went ahead and made a small website for my fursona. It's got references, contact info, and guidelines for design changes. Feel free to take a look. https://trevorsacks.com/Lopin

Feel free to hit me up for a chat or whatever. I'm mostly active on Twitter nowadays, @GothPanda. I tend to get busy from time to time, but I try to reply to pretty much everyone.

If you're still here, thanks. :3

I'm going to try to run a Savage Worlds game, possibly over Skype or a Google+ Hangout. Setting will be a nice sci-fi "Furries in Space". If anyone is interested in the "Furries in Space" Savage Worlds game, please hit me up. Would love to get some people on board with this. Also, if someone would like to signal boost this, that would be awesome! :D

My good friend, kegawa, is doing free arts, as part of an Iron Artist thing, He does awesome art, and is where I've been getting a lot of art recently.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2734374

Just making sure this thing still works...

Wanted to get that meme off my front page. And, I may post some other stuff here soon. :P

I make a point of not doing memes, but I also don't have a lot of journals, so I thought I'd try this one out as my first.

1. You can ONLY answer Yes or No .

2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages/comments you and asks. And believe me, the temptation to explain some of these will be overwhelming... things are not exactly as they seem.

3. It is harder than it looks, but NO explanations !!! You will want to... but don't!!!


Kissed any one of your Facebook friends? ---Yes
Been arrested? ---No
Kissed someone you didn't like? ---No
Slept in until 5 PM? ---Yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? ---Yes
Ran a red light? ---No
Been suspended from school? ---No
Experienced love at first sight? ---No
Totalled your car in an accident? ---No
Been fired from a job? ---No
Fired somebody? ---No
Sang karaoke? ---Yes
Pointed a gun at someone? ---No
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? ---Yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? ---Yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? ---No
Kissed in the rain? ---No
Had a close brush with death (your own)? ---No
Seen someone die? ---No
Played spin-the-bottle? ---No
Sang in the shower? ---Yes
Smoked a cigar? ---No
Sat on a rooftop? ---No
Taken pictures of yourself naked? ---Yes
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? ---No
Skipped school? ---Yes
Eaten a bug? ---No
Sleepwalked? --No
Walked a moonlit beach? ---No
Ridden a motorcycle? ---No
Dumped someone? ---Yes
Forgotten your anniversary? ---Yes
Lied to avoid a ticket? ---No
Ridden on a helicopter? ---No
Shaved your head? ---No
Blacked out from drinking? ---No
Played a prank on someone? --- Yes
Hit a home run? ---No
Felt like killing someone? ---Yes
Cross-dressed? ---No
Been falling-down drunk? ---No
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? ---Yes
Eaten snake? ---No
Marched/Protested? ---No
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? ---Yes
Puked on amusement ride? ---No
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? ---Yes
Been in a band? --- No
Knitted? ---No
Been on TV? ---Yes
Shot a gun? ---Yes
Skinny-dipped? ---No
Caused someone to need stitches? ---No
Ridden a surfboard? ---No
Drank straight from a liquor bottle? ---No
Had surgery? ---Yes
Streaked? ---No
Taken by ambulance to hospital? ---Yes
Passed out when not drinking? ---Yes
Peed on a bush? --- Yes
Donated Blood? ---No
Grabbed electric fence? ---No
Eaten alligator meat? ---No
Eaten cheesecake? ---Yes
Eaten kids' Halloween candy? ---Yes
Killed an animal when not hunting? ---No
Peed your pants in public? ---No
Written graffiti? ---No
Still love someone you shouldn't? ---Yes
Think about the future? ---Yes
Been in handcuffs? ---No
Believe in love? ---Yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? ---Yes

Mmyep. :/ Doubt anyone will ask about anything, but yeah. :P

I'm just kind of a bit depressed recently... Thought I'd take this chance to attempt to vent, and figure out some things here, as best I can. I don't intend this to be emo, and I honestly doubt that anyone will actually read it, so it has the effect of me talking to the wind, but whatever...

I post this for self reflection, not any kind of response.

As I think about my life, more an more each day, I'm coming to the point where I realize that I am not happy with what I see... It's not so much that I've failed in life, just that I've failed to do anything, or become something... I know I'm still young, but this is definitely not where I planned on being by this time...

I've also come to the conclusion that I have very few talents... I can't really draw or do art... I can't really write... Hell, I can't even admin a site (knuxadow.net has been down for at least 6 months already)...

I like to think that I'm good with computers, and programming and such, but in reality, my skills are mediocre at best... I can't do anything but procrastinate, and some days it's difficult to even get out of bed...

I work a dead end job as a cashier for a bookstore, and fight for my job daily by selling discount cards, which is hard enough when people don't want to spend extra on things...

I've not been able to get any of my Certifications... I've dropped out of college... Hell, I think I barely made it though High School...

I can't finish anything that I start... I've got projects that I've been working on for years, and they're still not anywhere near 'in progress"...

I just look at myself, and I'm disappointed in what I see, but I don't have the ability to change anything... I'd just rather sit here and sulk, laying in bed all day...

I know I'm being all melodramatic, and emo, but that's not really the point... At least I don't think so... I guess that I'm just disappointed that I'm not really good at anything... I'm a jack of all trades, and a master of none...

I don't really talk to any of my friends anymore... Hell, I just stay couped up in my room... I don't go downstairs... It's not my home down there... I don't feel comfortable down there...

This room is my sanctuary, and my prison...

*sigh*

I guess I just don't know what else to say...

Well, life... You've beat me... Universe, you've won...

I just don't know what to do anymore... I have no reason to continue, and yet I do... Without any justification... And, I'll likely continue, strictly out of habit...

I'm a slave of the machine, and have no way to free myself...

Damnit, life sucks right now... :C

Well, I've come to the conclusion that I really don't participate in any of the sties that I'm a member of. Hell, anyone that used Knuxadow.net knows that that's been down for about three months, and I was only going to have it down for a week...

Anyway, I'm going to try to be a bit more active in the community here, as I'm really lacking any kind of social interactions right now, besides work, and the roommates.

I'm going to need help.. I just ask that you guys get on me to stay here and doing stuff... Just a bit of outside motivation goes a long way...

Here's a good start. I realize that most of you probably know very little about me, so I'll go ahead and make this one of those journals where you can ask me anything and I'll go ahead and answer it. Any question, multiple questions, nothing is off limits.

Well, hopefully, I'll see more of you guys around here soon. :D

Okay... I typically use another blog, you can access here: http://gothpanda.blogspot.com

Um... I'll edit this post as I get more stuff up and do more stuff...

^.^

Pandae says "Peace Out!"...