Hi I have been severely mentally drained and it has affected my drawing time among other things. Halloween is my favorite time of year but it kinda sucked ass this year. Everything I wanted to do was too expensive. I wanted to do a lot more art this year for Halloween but idk by the middle of the month I just wasn’t feeling it. I’m tired. I bet most people are tired. My laptop is dead on top of everything else. I hope the aliens or whatever come soon. :)

This year has been really rough and I've lost track of a lot of things. I kind of got swept up in negativity and it's just been hard to focus on things.
I want to continue on working on my art challenges again. I really want to be able to do a goretober one day or one of those animal month challenges but. I haven't worked on my warrior cats challenge since march and I still have to draw beedrill and. I dunno.
One day I hope I have more time for art and to write and things.

Here's a list of things I hope to finish before the end of the year mostly for me to look back on and see how much or how little I actually did. :V

My bear I started in June.
I want to at least get to the first 50 of the Kanto pokemon. My original goal I think was to have them all done by pokemon day next year lmfao. At least the kanto pokemon.
I want to start working on my snake and cherry blossom sticker again.
I still need to re-draw my one dragon snake guy I said I would earlier this year.
I want to at least try and catch up on my warrior cat challenge. I was really looking forward to drawing yellowfang. :(
I need to draw Jiji again.
I want to finish my Lionking screenshot re-draw.
I want to draw some more of my characters. I have a new vampire character she's a tattoo artist and her name is lamb. I think she's going to be a sphynx cat.
I really also want to work on my Wesker leopard guy I've been meaning to draw him for a while he's my favorite.
I have like four animations I want to work on by the end of the year. Like fucking TWO that need to be done sometime next month.


That's all I can think of right now. I will prob edit this, Or forget about it until december and be like oh fuck. (Hi future me did it happen yet? Also I hope you're happier somehow. idk. =) =) )

I hope y'all are doing good and stuff. I just recently got 2000 followers on my tiktok (smilelikeacid) which is the most I've ever had on any social media platform! I also have a new instagram I'm trying out that I feel like is doing pretty good now that I've been posting every day. (tigerclowns) I hope good things happen for you guys too and I hope that if you're not happy right now that maybe some nice things come your way. :)

It would be like this - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/62186794 - very sketchy lines for right now and 3 - 10 frames. Small animation like blinking or grinning or whatever. I was thinking about maybe doing them $10 - $15 usd base price but if a character is complex there might be a charge because coloring animations is tedious.

I'm saving for a new laptop and a big trip next year.

// Abuse, physical and mental abuse//
I really don't understand why I'm treated like garbage.
I don't know whats wrong with me. And I know there IS something wrong with me. My brain doesn't work right. If there's too much going on it shuts down. Too many people talking or moving around. Too many people talking to me. I don't know how to answer. I still can work. But I don't know what to say. My parents knew there was something wrong with me. The school told them that. But I was never tested. I was labeled as special needs by the school, but I was able to work and did better by figuring things out for myself. I could talk to my friends well enough. I was just a weird kid I guess.

I can't drive. My brain shuts down. I get scared. I am dependent on my mom and I'm a grown adult. I can take care of myself but I can't drive. My mom takes all my money. Keeps me in debt. My teeth are a mess. My grandpa passed away and left me some stock. She's taken almost all of it after burning through hers while being addicted to the lottery. She's a narcissist. But she was abused too by my dad. My dad almost killed her several times.

I could have moved with my friends, but I worried about her. I was worried that she would become homeless because of how many loans and things she has out...How much money she puts into the lottery.

i just want to do my art and find a way out. She hates me and I dpnt understand why. I just want to live and be happy. I don't have enough money to get away. I have too many cats to take care of.
I don't know what to do. I need help but I don't know what avenue to go down. My dream is to have a house with my friends. A catio. A place to adopt these cats out. I think I want to help animals.
I want to work on my art. I want to be better at art. I want to love myself. But she says everything mean about me. She tears me down. ANd it hurts. She phsyically and mentally abuses me. Sometimes its not all the time. Sometimes its a long time before it happens. I'm 35. I don't know. I don't know why I'm putting my buisness out here. I know people love me. I know maybe one day I will be happy. I don't want to give up I want to see me happy. Please let me be happy one day.

I might delete this whenever I wake up. I'm not going to do anything bad to myself. I refuse to give up on myself. I refuse to let these things make me not go on. I will get through it some how. I just need to vent. I always start to write these things and I feel like oh. Why would anyone care. Everyone has problems. The world is a shit show. My problems aren't as bad as someone elses. I don't know.

I don't know.

I am burnt out in general. Everything is heavy and I have been working 6 days a week for the past several weeks. I have been working on artfight attacks and a few things from my last journal. Whenever I get home I kind of space out until I am too tired to really think.

The 4th of July we took in another cat. She has been wandering our neighborhood for a while. She's a little calico cat, really skinny and really sweet. Obviously had a home at some point. One of our neighbors was deliberately trying to chase her out onto a busy road with sparklers. Well it was a friend of a neighbor and he was 'drunk' and he said that he was going to start shooting fireworks at her next. So the neighbors came and got me, because I try and relocate these cats when I can. They had already caught her, and asked me to put her up for the night until their friend left.

Her name is patchy. She's had babies in the last couple of months but I haven't seen them around. Its always been suspected that she's just left to free roam and has a house, so idk why they didn't take the cat to her supposed owners unless they tried that.

I'm not officially affiliated with a rescue although I have made a friend who works in those sorts of circles and mostly traps and neuters/spays ferals. (I have many thoughts about that too. I'm not a TNR supporter but I am also not a coyotes getting fat off cats supporter either. (I have a whole rant about that too because. There are people that make suggestions about 'releasing coyotes in areas where feral cats are' as a joke and I just. It's exhausting. People are exhausting. Can we advocate for wildlife without advocating for coyotes to come into urban areas and learn that oh, humans have pets that are easy prey, they also have trash etc out - easy meals.) It's not good for the coyotes, its not good for the cats that are pets, or other small pets that have shit owners and keep them outside 24/7. I'd like to see LESS dead coyotes on the road near my house, thank you.

My dream is to one day have a small business and a place for these cats to be adopted from. But for now I'm stuck working at a quick service restaurant and day dreaming about having the energy to write and draw. And one day go to disneyworld. While the world falls apart.

:)

I need to do some warm ups. Post your refs.

So I said I was going to do another giveaway at the end of the month but I think I'm going to keep it just for people who watch me (including new watchers).
I think I'm going to do a symetrical headshot like this: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60734585/ but is there anything else that might be interesting? like a wiggle headshot or idk. SOmething else animated? I'll make an official journal or post sometime this weekend.

Deciding I'm only going to spend x much here today and then I will have this much to put aside for this really fun exciting thing I want to do later and this amount here can go toward my future doesn't really work well when you are parenting a parent that would be on the streets or worse if not for you - especially when that parent has a horrendous gambling problem and you've already given them a nice share of money that you shouldn't have really taken out of an account that was set aside for your future.

God I don't know what I'm going to do. But I hope somehow in some way things get better. I don't want to leave her to the 'ok well I don't care what happens to you' part of me that wants to figure out how to move myself and my cats in with my friends but. I've now got too many cats. Because of said parent that is not wise. And I have spent so much of my adult life hoping that she will get wise while putting myself at risk. And then my aunt who also lives with us refuses to get a job and has decided that she is unable to despite being able to - she just doesn't want to.

I just want to be happy. I want to finally get to disney and universal bc I feel like somehow that will heal some part of my inner child and at least make me a little happier. I want a house with a catio. I want to get my teeth fixed. I want to be happy. Please just let me be happy.

So I’ve been posting online since 2005 or 2006. I don’t use DA anymore and I want to pull a bunch of my old stuff off of there and post here. I like to practice with photography on the side when I get the chance. Just things I find interesting or pets or animals whatever.

I think a lot of things I will be posting to my tumblr and to my ko-fi. I’ll be posting my favorite photos and art here from the olden days. Maybe at least once a day for a while, tho I usually space out on the weekends bc those are my off days.

Some things will be going to scraps. Mostly just wanting to archive stuff bc I really don’t trust how much longer DA might be around. And this is officially my main gallery.

I’ll try and post some of my newer photography during this time too. Maybe if I remember I will post that on the weekends. No promises tho cause I am not very good at remembering things.

Which brings me to my next point is that I am going to be posting a public trello. I’m going to hopefully be opening up commissions soon with periodic give aways. I work a day job most of the week. For a while I told myself my work wasn’t that great and no one would ever want to buy it. I know I have lots of areas to improve on. But people have bought commissions from me and that has made me feel a lot more confident in my ability and has helped me to see my improvement. And that makes me happy.

I’m saving to go to Disney world next year. For real this time. My aunt that lives with us has decided she doesn’t want to work anymore and refuses to look for a job. It’s been 8 months. I really don’t want to have to get a second job but I may have to even temporarily to help things out. I still help my friend who helps to foster cats and I have a few that I’ve taken in until she has space for them and we are working to get them vetted. Lots of cats to spay and neuter and hopefully keep from becoming strays/ferals again.

I’ve always wanted to help animals. But I realized I couldn’t be a vet. I couldn’t deal with that level of grief. But yeah I’m rambling.

Just wanted to talk about some things.

Tumblr: https://smilelikeacid.tumblr.com/
Ko-fi: https://ko-fi.com/tigerchomped

Ok so I have my two winners picked! One was from here and the other was from sheezy.

1.) Mazz
2.) janssi

So many cute characters ;; I def plan to do this again in about a month or so. I just like doing give aways and it's good for me to practice. If you didn't win this round I will post another journal soon.

I might pick you randomly if you didn't win if I ever hit another art block or whatever later on in the year.

I should hopefully have these done in a couple of weeks.

My to do list right now is to finish the charmander line, work on a couple of refs, work on my warriors fan art, pinkie pie re-draw and a little animation. I kind of hit a wall after atari passed. It's been rough. I came out the gate this year wanting to do so much art and then my motivation kind of tanked. I'm trying to pick myself back up. I want to open commissions next month. I think I will do symmetrical head shots for $5-10.

I need to update my examples for my ms paint style headshots.
I'm offering symmetrical headshots - one or two and something like this - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56188658/ .
I want to save up for my trip next year and I want save to get a cuddle clone of Atari. He was supposed to go with me to disney world.

So please post your sfw refs! These aren't first come first served I'll use a randomized picker. I'll pick who I'll draw on Saturday. I'm posting this on Sheezy too just because.

Atari is gone. He was only a year old.

He had a lot of issues, and it was kind of a ‘as long as he’s comfortable’ kind of outlook. He had kidney issues, he didn’t like to drink out of a bowl or a fountain so I gave him water out of a dropper several times a day.



He started to go down this Tuesday. He was hiding and didn’t want to eat or drink, when he usually comes up to me every morning to let me know he’s ready to be given water. Wednesday he got worse. Thursday morning he was gone. I held him while he went. He was only a year old. But he had quickly become one of my favorite reasons to get out of bed. I kept him going and he kept me going.



It hurts a lot. I don’t know when I’ll accept what happened, if I’ll ever accept it. I know he knew he was loved. I’m thinking of getting a weighted plush of a gray cat so I can put it in the specific spot he liked to sleep when I go to bed. He liked to lay on my legs. Last night there was an empty spot there, but then it also felt like he was still there.



I think he’s going to join Kisa and Yuki in my yearly drawing challenge thing. He was special.



I think most were confused about why I had a cat named Atari in the first place. And that’s because when he was a little baby his baby kitten noises sounded like little beeps and ‘pews’.

When he was still around I bought a design off of someone based off an arcade cat that I was going to redesign to look more like him in some ways. I’m working on that now. I need more characters that are just for comfort.



But anyway. The world is on fire and I know there’s a lot going on but. If you took the time to read this I appreciate it. I’ve been carrying a lot of grief since 2020 and I’ve been trying to teach myself how to manage it better. I’m not a religious person, I don’t know what happens when we go, if anything at all. I do like to think there’s something. I like the idea that no one is truly gone even if that’s just a comforting thought mostly. I guess I like to think everything happens for a reason in some way, and that everything here is just temporary but I don’t know.



Thinking about it brings comfort. Thinking that he’s up somewhere or whatever sitting with the sun in his fur and with Kisa and Yuki or any of the other pets that aren’t here anymore helps. He deserved the world. His little body disagreed but he absolutely did.

So I try and do this once a year where I work out my art goals.

Last year I feel like I tried to work on backgrounds and things, there were so many drawings I put off and didn’t finish because I was working on the background, so hopefully I’ll be able to finish them this year.

I animated a lot, and eventually I would like to be able to animate more advanced things.

This year I want to try and start working on learning perspective and shading, I really never feel like I know what I’m doing when I try to shade or highlight stuff, and when I look at tutorials and someone’s like yeah well here’s the sun so just figure out where the light would be hitting my brain acts like it has never seen light interacting with a surface ever.

I want to be able to draw Anthro characters and human characters. I want to be able to draw more interesting poses. And I want to be able to have my art draw people’s attention with layout and content.

I do plan on taking commissions more this year, hopefully. Maybe just ych’s and simple things, I’m wanting to save up for a Disney vacation by 2026 and I also need to find a way to get out of the situation I’m in. It’s a lot, and I don’t really have a solid solution on that later part just yet. But I’m realizing that I deserve to be happy, that I deserve to be treated like a person.

I would like to learn how to sew. Every now and then I get the desire to try and learn how to make a fursuit. Maybe eventually that will happen. I also want to learn how to 3D model. I need to work on learning procreate dream too. I want to one day code my own website, and I need to update my personal site as it is now.

Some of my favorite things I did in 2024 are:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55016107/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56618378/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57121596/ (I really want to do some more backrooms draw over things, smooth brain likes the backrooms)
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58641749/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59112452/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59281084/ (people seem to really like this on bluesky and sheezy. I want to draw some more warriors this year.)
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58995142/
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fzu4mO2WB5c I wasn’t able to upload this to my galleries but I really liked my gastly animation and I plan to add onto it later this year. 😊

Some ideas I’ve already had for this year:
Pony lineup.
JTHM panel re-draw.
Stardew valley farm drawing.
Rainy day sticker.
Pokemon. I need to draw all the kanto pokemon by next year. Next year is the big anniversary I think? I also want to do some RE fanart by then. Also Wesker leopard guy I need to draw him.
I have a pokemon comic that I hope to start on sometime this summer.
Yearly Jiji drawing.
Snakes for snake year.

One of my big art goals is to draw something that unsettles even me. I love horror art. I need more.

Links and things:
https://trello.com/b/95ArMONh (nothing here yet)
https://www.tigerchomped.net/
https://www.youtube.com/@infectedhyena
https://sheezy.art/tigerchomped
https://www.tumblr.com/blog/smilelikeacid
https://bsky.app/

Got an invite tonight!
https://bsky.app/profile/tigerchomped.bsky.social
follow me if you want ;v;

I'm still working on a few refs but I am tigerchomped on af (i would have the link but the site is dragging rn)

i'm team vampire

and here are a few of my characters that are available to attack on af

https://toyhou.se/13269110.frankie
https://toyhou.se/441467.vlad
https://toyhou.se/9532832.cyra
https://toyhou.se/8559249.ouija
https://toyhou.se/13012473.viola

I will be live at picarto.tv/Tigerchomped tonight!

I am offering headshot requests because I need some examples.
This is open to everyone, but it would be nice if you were a watcher of mine. :) I want to try doing this every week or so if I am able to.

Sfw refs only - this is not first come first serve and you are not guarantee to get anything from me.

Characters are to be feral/anthro's only. No humans.
Pokemon characters/pony characters are ok too.

how?
i try looking up groups but i am stupid and find ones on like google that aren't very active.
i'm a little intimidated to try posting my art on the dealers den one as far as looking for commissions goes.

DA kinda shit itself so. Until something else comes along I'm here.
Also my cat had her kittens today, she had three. :)