things have been bad for my partner and I for the last year. we were living apart for the last year and it was very hard on both of us. he rushed into buying a trailer from a coworker so we could get back together, but the trailer turned out to be in such awful condition that we cannot live in it. the work it requires we have neither the skill or funding to complete and its severely infested with roaches that we just cant get rid of despite our desperate attempts to do so. we want to just scrap the trailer at a loss because its not worth saving but if we do, we will be homeless. we need help getting an apartment. please contribute if you can, we would greatly appreciate it.

https://gofund.me/02da5351

i wish i was creative in anyway. my mind is broken, my body is in terrible shape. my family hates me and i am practically homeless. i put out over 100 applications in the last few months and got 2 interviews. no one wants to hire me

i wish i knew how to do literally anything to make some money

its getting harder and harder to find a reason to keep going everyday

it was literally ran by a christian nationalist and the security were nazi furs

fuck anyone that went to it and fuck all nazis and MAGAts

all my so called friends made it pretty clear they dont want anything to do with me anymore. im done chasing people around trying to set things up. it sucks to lose friends but they all left me, so whatever.

I don't have high hopes. Its been 4 years since I cut myself off from the main fandom. I havent been to a con or kept apprised of any news related to this fandom. I guess I just got a lot of free times on my hands since I just lost my job due to discrimination.

I guess I can thank Trumps America for that.

Anyway I think I may go back to writing stories even though I went largely ignored last time. I don't know.