hello all, i am making new account. my name is Chakat Dreamspirit. this acccount is still in use for while tho

here is a big problem, gay marriage. you gay hating fags!!!!! go kill your self we arnt taking your freedom. your just keeping it for your self because you dont agree with letting others having freedom that men and women alike fight for. next person regardless of faith or what ever dumb shit is int her head, is getting punched in the face if they tell me im wrong for being who i am and wanting freedom to do as any stright married couple can do.
LEAVE MY FREEDOM ALONE YOU HATTING STRAIGHT PEOPLE!!!!!!
here this video know why im so pissed off
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wp76ly2_NoI

Ok so after my truck was Impounded i had to call my mom. Now some of you know i do.t favor my mother. And its not her Im talking about. Im talking about my adopted mom, only one that has supported my differens. Anyway! I am now living with my mom right now witch is so much better because. I have a room and i can be the girl that i am. 6 weeks left till my dotors start me on hormone again. Yes i was on the once before long ago in land far far way. Nut not far enough tho. Because of the dishonor my father caused the family name. I am ashamed to me a messer. Iv latterly broke down 5 times past 3 months 2 them really close to hurting my self. But that's behind me. Well trying to end my life anyway. This will be my year with out any blood family and i am truly feeling it. But i have my adopted family. Want more could i ask for. Other then for the world to except me for who i am. Yeah fat chance. Iv lost hope for the human race. Why i resent it. But really Im getting better.

i really dont know what to think anymore. i was devoting my efforts to setting up best thing in world, now i lost that one person that that goal was set for. now all i see is nothing

5 days laster my worry gets to me and i go to look to see if my girl friend is ok. she left me. with out even telling me. im so fucking heart broken. because yet again i'v been abandoned i cant keep dealing with this i'v been getting help. boosting my life with new people, doing my best to focus on good side of life. now thats gone. i am so frustated and hurt i cant bar it any more. im tired. what have i done wrong. i'm finished. nothing left of me.

oK SO i have been working on book form like high school. it was about how furries came to the light. but i found that few people have already done that and few were simaler to what i have planned. one has the history of it already set out. i just deleted that book. i starting something new called "THE FALLEN" idk what i have planned for it yet. just as of right now it is going to be mostly about a HUGE world wide conflict between Humans and Morphs. My story will have alot of diffrences from other stores about how we came around.


Thou this story as of right now will focus one main character and little about ones around him. i sort of new to writeing only because took em 7 years to get 297 pages of my book i was trying to right. but it was my first and i learnd little from it. good tactical training. SO The Fallen is my new work and i know im new to it and im learning. if have input place share it but, really dont tell me this or that sucks and blablabla help me, dont belittle me.

my methed of writing sucks so bare with me! i have new person i look up to and why am i starting this is because shi just wonderful like that. and hir writing methiend is only thing keeping me reading real books That is goldfur. wonderful writer and hir style love it alot. what got me to write my fisrt book was after reading CS Luise and Christopher Paolini books, i wanted to make one close to my world. but now i look up to goldfur. Why is that? well goldfur basicly made a book that i read part to 4 years ago and go the book 7 months go. i now own few of goldfur's books and i am in love with every thing shi writes. and now i have a storie to share. its story of some few morphs made a diffrence in a world of hate and fear of there kind.




The Fallen. its going to some fun. and this is also to help with stress. so here it is. my therapy

Chakat Dreamspirit

thanks to lacy musketeer a superduper awesome , wonderfully-ordinary star-gazing Qwhilla. i chose this name because it fix my personality and life.

Thank you Lacy

still nothing. starting to feel unworthy, i cant think of something that hasnt been used.

once again in find my self so earatated i cant stand the human race or people around me. i hate everything and mad at everything.

yeah well i tried coming up with a name. but all ones i chose or thought of. are taken. thinking about giving up.

ok this is pissing me off! tring ot make account on FA forums and i cant get in! it is unfair!

dreamtide was used by another person. my search for name that hasnt been used or thought of is hard for me.

once again nameless.

I'v started to make the base for chakat avatar in sl. this is my first time working with mesh so i might not get it.. i will tho try my best to get something looking better in the grid. if anyone would like to help with the project let me know

yay it was her rezday like 3 months ago http://youtu.be/fZwkh4O0hME


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Yay i posted a new video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8qin.....ature=youtu.be

there is the link. i used a new video editor so i hope you guys like it. soon i'll better one and will be making really cool videos

on a side note seems like i can never do anything right. every little thing still settin goff my depression. my morale is gone.. no idea what the pills im taking are suppot to do anymore because tis not helping me lift up. once again i feel like life is slipping away though my fingers

After reading and learning so much about the Chakats, there bio so sounding so real and had solid base to stand on. stories I've read about them, they truly wonderful people and i truly feel i am apart of there world.
given I've liked cats a lot and cheetahs and snow leopards. because of there fluffy tails ^.^ *purrr* anyway moving on.

I am redoing my WHOLE fursona as the blue and purple snow leopard pede and i have created. tho i still have a squirrely mind. only resone i used a squirrel for my fursona for so long is because... people called me a squirrel and it stuck. over all there cute but i don't like squirrels.

well, i'v lost this years chance to go to AC yet again. this is every con plan gets thrashed by something... about to just give up on it.

yeah i dont have anything good to say atm. in fact i have no idea why i am making this post. maybe because i'm lonly? or bored or maybe because i want to make the numbers count up. anyway yeah

i am back home and getting better after the accident, i have been in the hospital for little while recovering have returned and getting back to my book.

ok well i have to go back to alamo for bit because "compilations came up." i'll be leaving day after tomorrow. puts the halt on everything. but oh well. shit happens.


well shouldn't lie to my self. i feel betrayed. trying so fucking hard not to lose control, i feel like my family circle been played against me. almost everyone i know is mad or wont talk to me. i have no where to go. my life is coming to lowest point getting hard for me to think like its worth anything. i dont know what to do anymore or where to go. im trapped. i want this to end i cant take this anymore i really cant. trying my best not to revet to my old hobbits this pain is unbearable i'v lost everything.

I want to die

Ok. Made the move. I feel home but something is missing

Well i am homless till i moveto abq. Nm. No internet but my phone. Updates will be random
lol should be about a month befor every thimg is in order.

Hey everyone i love so much.
i am moving and dont know how long i will be offline. i have my phone i will checking on things with. but over all i'm going to be really busy settleing down in my new place. if you need anything text or call me at 5754154407 and i will get back to you when i can.

ok numbers numbers numbers. ok i have 2 US numbers and UK. if you need them send me a note. i will try and get every updated.

going to be moving soon. going to move to ABQ to to got back to school YAY ........ anyway yeah -_- shit shouldnt have stopped first place. oh well. anyway yes next month or so well be moving up, cant do school in crappy ass town im in. so interwebz will be hard for meh to keep up on the posts and junk.