Ok so as most of you know. i was re-enlisting. at this point in the game it cost part of my self that im not willing to lose. my place is among people i love and care for thinking also doing USAF AUX but that too would cost part of me. not willing to give up. i done my part and fuck it. im done. time for me and my life. im going to school now to make something useful out of my self.

sorry of the lack of posts i been busy work work and oh yea work... so anyway going to be traveling soon

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Yeah I'm about to sit on top of damn building and shoot everyone that starts to say Happy holidays I'm going to blow there brain matter all over the ground... because one everyone i meet act like an ass hole. well just about. and then other half is they don't care. threed. my family has problems..... where is my scotch whisky.....

So i met this amazing young lady, i never thought I'd never be able to do this again. but i have. i have my self someone i want to spend rest of my life with. hearing her when i talk to her brings me so much joy in to my life. changes my out look that i have had in life. someone i truly do anything i possible can for.
My lovely, my sweet, my dear Miir. Miir, I love you so much.

its been how long now. I still cant let my younger sister go. she is in a navel basic training. all i can think about is what she is doing. is she ok. how am i to keep her safe. im stting here crying because i feel like i have lost her. i use to beable to feel her there. now like she been ripped out. I am VERY close to my sisters. most people dont understand, that my sisters and i have odd bond. and me bing second oldest i feel like i should always protect my younger sisteres. so you know i have 7 sisters. and as i said one joined USCG and i snow in basic. i cant do anything. show her wat to do or how to do it. what can i do. FUCK THIS IS FRUSTRATING.

i feel like failed. today my sister was sworn in to the USCG. i cant help but feel like i have not done my part. i feel grieved by this. I wanted to do one damn thing great. be remeberd as someone. wrong place at the wrong time and i payed 10 times over for it. this is forever going to haunt me.

may she have better luck then i in serving.
I love you Kaitie. and good luck. sorry i didn't call.

twitter user name is Squirrely_one1 dont ask how that happend but it did it for me

yeah i has a tweeter,

OK so contract came up and well changing numbers again. US number is being changed. use to have two but im going down to one. use to be a secondary number for the just in case. but its going to be my primary now. for thou of you i know.... get a hold of me using one of my many emails

Well nice to get text , one AM it saying "im lost." after i told this person 5 hrs befor to be careful when she started drinking. well, found her on side of a road next to a church..LOL. crying her eyes out. why the fuck do people NOT take my advice when tell them to be careful. she left the house she moved into few days ago drunk. got lost and got in fight with someone. less i know the better.

here is my advice to you all. don't drink and walk, run, drive and, pee with your pants on... your going to regret it. or me finishing it off because i think you might learn from it.

but really why.. i drink too, but i don't go around doing stupid shit. if i can control my self drunk. i think rest you of you dumb asses can too.

I well be changing my name to fit my fursona. I been grumpypuppy for a long time but its time to change that today. Problem is i have crapy ideas. So i might just use my sl name. What do you "my watchers" think?

OK my number was disconneced in the UK but thats ok i got a new one. If you would like the number pleas send me a Note and i will shoot you a copy of my number. for those in the US same deal. just i had US number for nearly 4 years

OK. i'm low on money. i need help. i know its not something people would really think of but something im really willing to do. indentured servitude may be a bit extreme but hey i'm willing to take a risk. and get what i need done. IM me? i will keep searching..

Indentured
An indenture is a legal contract reflecting a debt or purchase obligation, specifically referring to two types of practices: in historical usage, an indentured servant status, and in modern usage, an instrument used for commercial debt or real estate transaction

Yeah, i have and odd life style. I'm looking for a owner. that I can serve, and is welling to move to where ever. there are some things that need to be discussed. I willing to do pretty much anything asked of me. i had an rl owner once. but that didn't work out very well. I am MTF and is currently undergoing the change. Please PM me if you like to know more.

OK for some odd reason i cant load fa on with out connecting the VPN. so i will if you any of you have any ideas how to fix this. i would love you too much. im very at this things but this one stumped me. OMG its cold here fingers arn't working getting hard to type >.<

hell yeah 400 page views! ok so i got 400 page views i think thats cool i love it im gald i got it. i should start doing more of my own hand drawn art but hell i dont have the time and i need to upload few pic. that i been meaning to for months!
anyway think you all for watching me and later i'll have shit some cool stuff going up once i get shit fixed.

i got phone call few min ago. Miss k, good friend of mine. from where i work. she die this morning. I can't beleave this happpend. elderly girl. she always said she cant wait for trumpets to sound. she so ready to go. she seemed to heathy. didnt think she would have gone this soon. omg i cant beleave she is gone. it just seem so unreal. someone so sweet and carring. later i will do something in honer of her memory.
trying to stop crying and i cant. all i can think about. shit.

what new pic in store for ya'll well NON! sorry peoples i been busy paying bill and trying to keep my house.
but i will try to have something for you guys soon. i been buzy buzy buzy. anyhow *sigh* i would like to thank all of you for watching me and dealing with my oddness.

well i been looking around and all the good articts wont draw meh v.v who wants my money!? bloody hell. my drawing skill suck and would like something little better.

well why do journals.... none reads them......... i have things to say tooo like other artest. sigh... bite you all late! *tuns and walks out*

today is AUG 2ed. another year older. fuck! anyway yes im older now lets all have round of drinks!

ok so i made a video called mona lisa, and it was taken down. fuck pricks. anyway i now found a song to replace the old one and video will be renamed. will be posted next week sorry for the shit that happend.

105! omg working 6 hrs with jackass customers make me wanna go kill everything that dosn't have fur. sho who is gunna help me? anyway im on New york av and knocking on doors. and thre was a guy called me girl scout . shut up dude. and there were few door SLAMMED on me. i rather be in Afghanistan at lest i can shoot at back at the ass holes.

omg today i was working and my knee have out while crossing the street with car coming>.< yeah thats good news. luckly the car was going slow and the guy stopped to see if was ok. telling im fine sent off him off on his marry way. but omg my knee really starting to get bad. you'd think after a year it would get better and better. if anyway has any ideas that would be great. because i need my legs to do my job