Well, my birthday is tomorrow, i..don’t know if I should be happy, I keep feeling my birthday doesn’t matter to anyone..

Well, my birthday is going to be on the 18th of this month, I would be happy, but I just feel..down..
I just feel my birthday doesn’t matter on here, compared to others on here..
I feel I’ll just be brushed aside, I’ll just have nothing, happy birthday to me..

I want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas, I hope you all had a great time, that you spent time together happily, with friends, family, and or both

Recently, I haven’t been the best, I lost a friend, they passed away from cancer. It broke my heart when I heard, why did it have to be them..?
I wish it was just a bad dream, but it isn’t, it’s a nightmare come true..

I’m a fuck up, I always mess things up, I make people bothered and upset, I don’t mean to, I’m never given a chance, I’m seen as annoying, troublesome, bothersome...
So many have avoided and blocked me..
Why was I made like this? Why do I exist..? What even am I to anyone...? I don’t feel like I’m worth living..
I want..to curl up and cry...

They need help raising money, they lost everything, be a kind soul and donate
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9854549/

I lost..a close friend, what did I do..to make people leave me..
Why..was I born, what’s..my purpose..

It’s my birthday today, I’m twenty five now

My birthday is coming soon, but I doubt anyone will care, no one will see, I’ll just get nothing..
I’m just a bother to everyone..

I feel my nightmare is real, people are leaving me, I’ll be all alone in the darkness, no one wants me, I’m a nuisance and bother to everyone..

I want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas, I hope you’re all safe, warm and spending time with loved ones. I’m sorry for not being so active, I just..having been doing good mentally and emotionally..Things aren’t getting better for me, only worse and worse, it’s made me hurt, scared and weak. It feels like life doesn’t care about me, that everyone will leave me, that no one will care if I leave...I just want to be happy, to have people who care and love, not...the other way...

I’m sorry for not being active much on here, things have just been happening, been trying to put myself together, to get over the bad that has happened, I love you, my friends 💝

This site..
It hates me, I’m seen by many as “that guy”...
I came here to meet new people and make new friends, people that I can share with things in common, only to get spat on and told to go away..
There’s only a rare few people here I met who didn’t treat me badly, they held me together, they saw me as someone, rather than “that guy”...
All I wanted was friendship and kindness, only to get pushed down into the darkness..
I didn’t want to be seen as a nuisance..

I’m sorry for not being on here for a long while, things have been happening up and down, I’m sorry for missing things from other people and friends

I really don’t like April Fools, it causes trouble and possible harm..

Why do some people not want to be friends with me because I’m autistic..?
Apparently when you have a disability, you’re possibly a bad person..

This is a terrible thing to happen..
Many people have died and or are sick, it makes me sad seeing so many people suffer...
The Chinese government did nothing but hide it until it was too late...
And they’re blaming the U.S for the outbreak, which is a lie to shift the blame off themselves..

I feel helpless, I see so much sadness and suffering...
I see friends sad and weak, and I can’t help them...
I’m helpless...

My friend  ShadowYoshiZero is feeling really upset and sad, he needs some friends that will care and love him, please...

A friend of mine wants to sell some commissions and adopts
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal...../#cid:56919308

There are many on here I’ve seen, while some are nice and friendly, most are not friendly and don’t seem to care...
They don’t want to make friends, they don’t care about others except other popular artists they like and friends with..
I’ve seen it first hand...

I try to meet new people, but no one seems to see me, like I’m nothing to them, what did I do to be treated like nothing..?

Well, today is the day, turning 24 now

Tomorrow is going to be my Birthday, will become 24

A artist named  Jaydom needs help. They’re having financial problems and need money, please help them, It hurts to see them going through this...