i'm amazed that i hadn't posted an update like this before now - i really did decide to completely salt the earth and move on, huh. i guess that's what it's like when you're 16.

anyway, i'm still drawing and posting art over on  jacqal. fwiw i've become far less explosively idealistic in the last 8 years, for better or worse lol. i don't really talk about politics in online spaces much at all now tbh... i don't really have anything new or interesting to contribute, so i just try to stay informed on things. i really don't think being in a constant state of paranoia and rage ever did anything for myself or the "cause" (whatever that cause was).

so yeah. i'm unlikely to post or check here again, but you're all welcome to watch me on :userjacqal: or send me a message over there! much love to you all, hope you're finding some peace in this endless horrorshow.

sexy, sexy meme

also smeone just gave a really good rundown of events
I think people forget that your opinion/venting/ranting is one person's personal feelings. Like...literally, nothing you said there could actually hurt anybody. So then people get all offended over something that read as very present-company-excluded and decide to respond by...dogpiling and being gross and phobic and all sorts of crap? Like HEY THIS'LL SHOW HIM. I'M NOT TOTALLY PROVING HIS POINT OR ANYTHING. (with a side of "BUT WHY AREN'T YOU THINKING ABOUT MY FEELINGS INSTEAD OF YOUR OWN PROBLEMS) And like...if a blanket (and not-serious) statement like that hurt their feelings so much, why didn't they think of what dozens of DIRECTED things aimed at you would do?

might be taking some commissions soon,, (vibrates quietly)

sorry im STILL so inactive on here i just havent really been drawing much furry stuff for a while?? im drawing a bit more recently tho so hopefully ill be back on more! anyway ive been feeling way better lately than i have for like the whole rest of the year so thats good.

also psa ive been sorta testing gender identities a lil bit, im p sure ive found something im really happy with. yeah basically i sorta feel like ive always been like. every gender at once. not in a genderfluid way just in an all of the above way? like ive sorta been picking and choosing different things out over my life that fall under masculine or feminine but ive never really been like. i am this. yeah
so basically if you could refer to me by they/their/them thatd be rad. if you dont even try then youre trash and i dont care about u lol

MY NOSE HURTS MY FACE HURTS I DONT WANT TO DO ANYTHING BUT IM SOO OO O O BORED
THIS IS LIKE A VERY UNEVENTFUL, KIND OF SAD, SLIGHTLY DAMP AND NASALLY BURNING VERSION OF HELL

idk kind of missing blogging tbh i miss quiet apologetic readmores for venting mmmmmmmmmmm
ppeople are scary im sweating oceans. i hate arguing so much uhhghughhuuhguhhuuhhhh

i realllllllly wanna take anatomy classes ahhh but i??dont even get schoolwork done i just spend all my time procrastinating so im so frICKIN BEHIND ON HOMEWORKkkk kkkk k and its like portflio subjects not like math book there is soooo much design homework mMMMMM
poos angrily maybe one day i will go home and do the things i actually planned on doing instead of sitting here like 'hahaha maybe someone will talk to me,, theyre so gonna i can feel it,, ,, ,im soo ready,'' until i go to bed :^|ugh

one thing!! that always bothers me!! is when artists get to a certain point and then see no reason to improve any more!!!
like someone finds a style and thats it. theyre done here. now theyre gonna settle down and do the same stuff forever even if they have no grip on anatomy colour lighting weight or even the processes they use, theyre done here. they will not hear any argument on the topic and they will avoid learning to do other things as long as they possibly can just because its hard
i dont get that AT ALL like i know its other peoples art im not gonna argue with them i dont actually care that much? im not commissioning them so. but yeah it just kinda blows my mind cause im never satisfied with my shit mmmmmm

also just bc anatomy is so fun its incredible like why would you not want in on that

WOAH WOW CAREFUL!!!!!DONT GO TOO FAST U MIGHT UPLOAD ART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

does a dumb baby fart and doesnt draw furries ever

:^(

i have reached my childhood goal of being 16 (in like an hour idk) and i have also just reached my childhood goal of having 1000 watcHERS DANG!!!!!!!!!1 DANG????? DANG
DANG

dang 1000 dang





dang
birthday.dangy

just throw me character designs and ill come up with the rest, im just bored and procrastinating ahhah (❁´◡`❁)*✲ﾟ*
2 or 3 just cause idk how much time i have before people start asking how my actual work has gone hh h, 3rd one might not get done sadly. life comes with risks and tragedies huh
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can someone link me to it? im doing up mine a bit and i never saved the link for it 8( it turns it into shit like this

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but yknow actual decent and with colour ok im stopping h a

edit: ehehhehehehheh

WHO DID THE THING

atm ive got a shitload of homework that ive procrastinated myself into a hole in and if i tried to take on anything else id explode and kill my entire neighborhood but ill hopefully be able to take some soon enough!

and thanks to spid for the rad art i ended up making into an icon cause frickin hECK THAT COLOUR SCHEME AAAaaa <3

so yeah thatll be a thing soon enough! yehaw
idk what else to say quietly slinks back into the darkness

i made another character tho i can never ever make up my mind ever im gonna edit my profile to have all my peeps in it

this is it. my true form
no but wow i am so inactive on here what the hell??? wow gosh so im planning to stop that lately uh. but man yeah so hi (farts jovially) what do people do to stop being inactive hh

dang!! im stuck between feeling all wise and shit and just feeling sad because im still awful but in a different way ahaha
how long have you lot been on here anyway i feel like ive known some of you for an eternity 8u (in a good way hhh)

someone was asking how to position things on a face - it's all based around human faces but some of the stuff still applies :B

http://whosdoing.tumblr.com/post/38925947896

my last exam was like a week ago, i only had 3 because portfolio subjects fuck yesss
this meant i could jump right into an exciting schedule of being lonely and wishing my other work would do itself yeah!!! \o/

so i've had my fair share of relationship drama along with pretty much any other kind of drama possible in recent events, how've you guys been? :B do americans have holidays yet i have no clue

i mustve been watching like 400 people and it was fucking my inbox daily and i can't really deal with that dkfgdkf
i just realized i'm now watching 222 people gOD DAMN IT WDJKDFH im slowly becoming the number 2 8,)

wait so i like deleted half my watchlist jesus h christ that's kinda hard on the heart-muscles
which is actually the entire heart since the heart is a muscle but heart-muscles sounds neat
i'm too tired and should really be heading off but i? art

because i love it so much and get too emotional

this is an actual thing that happens i wish i was even kidding some artists i just don't have the energy to look at i just ??? omfg

sorry for the delays?? school all of a sudden auhguah. also a convention this weekend and someone still doesn't have their cosplay done h a h,, , 8,)
but yeah they should get done the week after that! otherwise that is very sad i am a tragic human being

more like how a psycho killer is born

\o/

don't accidentally save things as pngs instead of psds kids it DOESN'T WORK

I've got school holidays right now so! I'm just taking 3 to be on the safe side :B
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I can do toony stuff, or feral stuff, or human stuff, or pixelly stuff, or Homestuck stuff. whatever fandom you hail from - just whatever you dig, I'll have a go!
Can't do porn becuase I am 15, but pin-ups are cool~ \o/

Here's the prices, in USD, for either ONE or TWO characters.
Really quick stuff is $2
Sketches are $5
Quick colours are $8
Sketch-page of anything is $10
Inks/colours or detail are $15
Digital colours are $15
Reference sheets are $20 (can include more views or details if you want)

If you're in New Zealand, bank transfer works best, but if not then Paypal is good uvu

SLOTS
1) AT
2) AT
3) AT

Thank for looking!!

WOW so i still need to finish two commissions and one is a digital painting and i forgot i find those fucking awful to do and the other should be simple but i didn't have the right colour markers??? so i just went out and bought more expensive markers and then i come home and it's still tHE WRONG FUCKIN COLOUR AND NOW I DON'T AHVE ANY MONEY TOO GO ME!!!! 8)

fuck i am this close to just giving these people their money back i can't even fucking do this what the hell

Taking them because I've been feeling good about art lately ahaha.
I'll have a go at anything you throw my way, except porn becuase I am 15. I can probably do pin-ups though. \o/
Would you like something romantic, or something disturbing? Cute, creepy, simple, cartoony, non-furry or just silly.
I'll also do reference sheets, or just anything more specific you have in mind.

These probably won't be open very long, and after that I'm waiting for my next holidays for more spare time 8(

So here's the prices, in USD, for either ONE or TWO characters.
Sketches are $5
Quick colours are $8
Sketch-page of anything you want is $10
Inks/colours or detail are $15
Digital colours are $15

If you're in New Zealand, bank transfer works best, but if not then Paypal is good!

SLOTS
1) x
2) x
3) x
4) x
5) x

Thank you for looking!