Hey guys, sorry for waiting for... Well... 3 YEARS to update my FA. I guess it is time I did. I am alright now. About to graduate college and all the good and tasty stuff that comes with it. So, still single miraculously. Either the fact that I haven't focused on dating anyone or nobody seems to have focused on me. It is curious. But otherwise I have become stagnate in the drawing department. It is something I get in and out of. Right now I have been playing various games.



A friend of mine is doing art trades by the way. She is a fantastic artist that is just getting better and better every day. She is  Maydayalive and she is taking my artistic attention by storm. Give her a gander.

Here is the journal for specifics on her trades: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7883132/

(any conditions she has have a specific reason to be there)

to all those i havent talked to yet, im sorry. im running out of options to get a job. i dont have medical insurance and i do not have a drivers license. i need a drivers liscense for a job and it keeps in a never ending cycle, i also need a job to get a bank account so theres no getting that either. so now i feel really fucking useless sitting on my ass. not being able to do anything.

ahhhh finally settled in. a friend took me in away from that horrible place i had to call home. now i feel spoiled as its my birthday and i actually got a few presents for once :3. now i am feeling like i belong. one of the four presents i got was an awesome hoodie that has plush all over the inside. heck im even starting to get my funds all settled out

this is that purple fuzzdragon again and ive chosen to open up requests from anyone in the community, i need stuff to keep my mind off of serius matters so go on, slap me with that big juicy request. if you are so inclined however you can make a donation to my sl account (derek dianthus) and from now on im going to be streaming in a higher quality for you all, so dont be shy.

send me a note with your request or hit me up on the stream :3

http://www.livestream.com/hailfireslivestreamshiz

sometime this summer im going to ohio, if im randomly offline for a few days that would be why. i cant sit here and watch tailsy drift away from me

A = French Kisser
B = Good Kisser
C = Will kick your ass
D = Very very easy for people to like you
E = Crazy as hell
F = Loves it hard
G = Can kick your ass
H = Freaking hot
I = Everyone's best friend
J = Hot
K = Crazy
L = Beautiful eyes
M = Very good kisser
N = Cool person
O = Different
P = The best at all sports
Q = An animal lover
R = Beautiful/handsome
S = Damn sexy
T = Easy to fall in love with
U = Will make you laugh till your sides burst
V = Most amazing kisser EVAR!
W = Makes people laugh
X = Never lets people tell you what to do
Y = Can be funny and dumb at the same time
Z = Loved by everyone

hmmmm

rl name:
D: Very very easy for people to like you
E: Crazy as hell
R: Beautiful/handsome
E: Crazy as hell
K: Crazy

Fursona name:
H: Freaking hot
A: French Kisser
I: Everyone's best friend
L: Beautiful eyes
F: Loves it hard
I: Everyone's best friend
R: Beautiful/handsome
E: Crazy as hell

this week i have quite the experience to tell involving taking a trip to hell and back. the last two weeks before last i was in the hospital with 7 life threatening gull bladder stones the size of dimes. unfortunately the reason why i almost died is because they waited so long to try and remove one of the stones that was trapped in my bile duct. which when they did try they failed and made things worse by giving me pancreatitus. which is inflation of the pancreas. they apparently had to wait for a week in order to get that infection which they caused out. in that time the one extremely large stone passed and created more problems with my bile duct. backing up the bile into the liver and also creating problems with that. i was unfortunately also almost starved to death as they didn't even give me IV nutrition for over a half a week. after the surgery to remove my gull bladder which was a half a week ago you i couldn't move or speak without feeling like im just gana die. after i started to recover from this... i noticed that my windowsill was void of get well cards or balloons or anything. made me think what my life was to the people around me. this was what happened to me this past two weeks.

theres something about athus that is conveying the eeriest of thoughts, every time i look at this guy's profile  Athus i get more then just scared. i get terrified. i dont know why. but the feeling lies in my own heart for some reason. i didnt even know the guy or even had him on my watch list. i didnt even have narse on my watch list. even now i look at all these advertisment banners on FA and am not cheered up by the funny ones. this is the only deceased profile i have ever had this problem with. even my... former best friend doesn't scare me as much anymore.

sup everyone, today im streaming and offering one free request to test my abilities. you need to be in the stream though x3

http://www.livestream.com/hailfireslivestreamshiz

*done*

i is streaming, might as well tag along if you guys want to

http://www.livestream.com/hailfireslivestreamshiz

*done*

ok, i really need help here, ranger is going on a 2 week holiday so i honestly have nobody to tutor me in drawing here... if anyone can hook me up with someone that would be great

yo peoplez, i got a new intuos 4 drawing tablet, its cool as all heal and i intend to start a couple requests with it as soon as i get the hang of it. no this does not mean that you can request things right now

shit hit the fan. that is all i have to say.

Christmas, a time of giving, a time of love, i find now it is a time of sadness. about 5 years ago we used to have good holidays, ones that involved love... now they so much as go forgotten by my family, no tree to put up, no merry Christmas anymore, i find that more then 75% of my friends list even care enough to say it. to all of you i wish you all a merry Christmas. i could now care less if i get one back.

i miss the good old days where people came to you without you going to them, now everyone either talks to someone else or just flat out doesn't want me around... i find that there is a pattern of people coming over to me when they have a problem then ditching me a week after i attempt to fix it. i don't know why i bother anymore.

two things happoned today that made me be still here, one, i realized i hadent said goodbye to my mate nor did i have reason to make him the saddest guy on the planet, two, some kid commited suicide off the top of our gymnasium in school today. i dont know how he got up there but he did, and actualy jumped. classes were delayed for an hour after it happoned. made me sorta rethink thinks over. he had more people to talk to then i did, it shows me how weak some people are. ive now made it my job to conquer my emotions two times over.

dont message this account because to dont plan on being anywhere much longer, i will not be talking to anyone later and bye forever.

hailfire



out...

i feel real life is only a constant cry for help with everyone in the world ignoring it. it seems everything in the world has meaning, my life seems to be the exception.

this fandom has more downs then ups from my point of veiw, i may be one. but im not sure i want to be a furry. i feel generaly ignored by most. i may talk to a lot of people... but i dont feel anything at all. i dont even have a best freind anymore. ive lost more then ive gained... i just dont know what to do

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=00gAbgBu8R4&feature=feedwll

my mother wasn't involved with me much. i am not even sure i have even seen her since i came into this world. come to think of it i don't even remember what she looked like. she pretty much moved out once i was born. -bug me to make more

Home was a marvelous house, almost like the American dream, perfectly white house, picket fence, perfectly green grass, you name it. Me and my father went past the front gate, but then my loose shirt that was too big for me caught on one of the pickets and tore a large hole. this pulled me back so hard that i ended up falling on my back. this in turn made me fall on my wings. My wings were very fragile back then. well lets just say they hurt a lot. i was arching my back and whipping my tail around so hard that i accidentally hit my father on the ankle with it. back then i didn't know that my tail was so strong. he feel to the ground himself from the pain o his ankle as i later learned was broken. but after a couple minutes of agony and pain my father got up and carried me inside of the house. more like limped. the house was full of precious artwork and items like vases and modern art. the house had a very large hallway that lead from the main door directly to the back of the house which is the kitchen. then there are two doors on the left, and two doors on the right. and near the end of the hallway there was a staircase leading upstairs which i was forbidden to go up. when my father carried me in he opened the first door on the left which is the living room. the living room was your typical rich guy living room with big screen tv and whatever else. he let me lay on my belly on the leather couch. it helped a lot with the pain but it still hurt. my father then got up and went out the door. then i heard what was seemingly him going up the stairs and a few minutes later him coming down. when he opened the door again he had some sort of green ointment in a jar. he had set it down on an end table next to the couch and opened the jar. he then puts some on his palms and started rubbing my wings down, they felt instant relief. i had then flapped my wings once to see if they were ok and they accidentally knocked my father of his balance sending him back a tiny bit before regaining it. after that he slathered on some of that green ointment on his own ankle. seeming as my wings were ok i got up and looked at his ankle. it looked pretty bad. i looked up into his eyes and still he smiled the same as when we left the hospital.

it was one rainy day that my mother ((hard to believe)) had given birth after 6 hours of intense labor to a baby purple dragon. the reason it took 6 hours is because of the horns on my head would not come out. when i finally was put into the world i was discarded as a defect child almost immediately by my mother. however my father was quite intrigued by me. he decided to keep me rather then put me down as my mother had wanted to do. they did not put me in any of the regular nurseries for they did not know how to take care of me. so they put me in a separate room alone... i was taken care of by a scientist instead of a nurse because none of the nurses had taken interest in taking care of a dragon. i remember her feeding me... pieces of meat... i did not know what was that meat made out of. i had already grown my teeth when i was born. so i was fine in eating the meat. it tasted pretty good though. i never tasted anything like it again. after a months i have grown already to be a hefty 76 pounds. seems dragons grow very fast right after they are born. i got hungry a lot and was fed raw meat for almost every meal. By this time i was already walking. so the hospital dismissed me as well enough to go home. i would never forget the moment i stepped outside, wings furled back, head looking at the sky and all around, heh i was even swishing my tail around. i even got to hold my father's hand. when we got halfway to the red Honda civic that was parked 70 feet from the door i looked into my father's eyes. he looked back into mine and smiled. right then i tilted my head and smiled softly. When we got to the car i ended up laying on my side in the back seat because my wings wouldn't let me sit right. i had yawned right when i got situated and fell right asleep. when i woke up we were home. i saw the door open and my father looked down at me. i then got up and got out of the car with him helping me out.