Since I'm going to be uploading here substantially less, I don't see the point in keeping separate accounts. This account will be dead beyond watching and faving, all future uploads will be at my other account:

 home

You can also find me externally at the following:

personal tumblr (warning for lots of chatting): birdologist
art-only tumblr: crookedkind
deviantart: housekeys
weasyl: home

I'll be sticking around here out of necessity for a while yet (as far as I can tell), but I very much understand those of you who are jumping ship. If it helps, you can find me elsewhere at the following:

personal tumblr (warning for lots of chatting): birdologist
art-only tumblr: crookedkind
deviantart: housekeys
weasyl: home

My upload hiatus extends across all of the above (doodles are being posted on my personal but i doubt anyone cares?????), and the Weasyl is sorely behind and in need of an update. But everything's going to be dusted off and brought up to date as soon as I have an available computer again.

Thanks!

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Radical Face's album Family Roots is an amazingly heartbreaking album.

Radical Face is an amazingly heartbreaking musician.

That is all.

Ahh where to start.

I've been in a pretty sucky downswing in terms of anxiety and that sort of thing. This semester's been pretty rough considering my last melt-down, and both my cat and my dad passing away. I went in for emergency therapy last week, since it was getting particularly scary and awful. It sounded like they were almost about to hold me since I was a ~*danger to myself*~ but I guess they decided to ditch that idea after I calmed down a bit. Right now it's just dealing with reporting back and having a new psychiatrist.

I've really fallen behind in my schoolwork because hahaha making things up requires talking to people and taking initiative and I'd rather jump off a cliff than even answer an e-mail. MOODS.

My bird has hit his first hormonal stage and really isn't much help on the comfort front because of it. Unless he calms down soon I'm not entirely sure how much longer he can stay here, for both of our sakes'. I think we're driving each other into temperamental wrecks.

It kind of just sounds like I'm throwing out a lot of buzzwords for attention or whatever BUT I'M ACTUALLY FEELING PRETTY OKAY AT THIS MOMENT? I'm just not sure what I'm doing right now. Like at all.

Hahajeez.

So I'm kind of in a hard spot right now, and advice would be welcome.

I've been dealing with escalating amounts of anxiety, mostly the social sort, and a stagnating bout of depression for the past while. I can't really leave my room any more, which is really upsetting for me, since I'm also really too off to take care of myself or it. I don't leave mostly because there are always people in the hallway, usually right outside my door, and I can't really leave without having to interact with them. Which I really don't want to do in my current state.

It's getting to the point where it might be effecting my health on a physical level, and I really don't know what to do about it. I guess I could grow a spine but that seems like something I have to work up to.

Anyone else deal with this, and have a coping mechanism? I'm just really at a loss, I've never had it get to this point of not really being able to anything with myself.




talk to people on the internet, hope it helps