hello, everyone im sorry for the radio silence. shit keeps hitting the fan for me. at some point itsa going to get to the point to where theres just no excuse. i havant been really motivated to draw lately. about a week ago my cat who ive had since i was like.. 14 years old passed away. allot has been going on behind the scenes. and im sorry. im trying to do better. and in regards to owed commissions and trades. i apologies i will do better. thank you for being patient with me. i hope to get back into things soon. and i hope to even pick streaming back up!

Made you look....HEEHEEHEHEHEHEHE *waddles away in the darkness*

Hello everone is is with my humble exitement to announce I'll be making an appearance in a large collaborative project called paws vs feet! Exclusive art from me and other talented artists

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You can follow me in other places like bluesky or even Tumblr. And devianta-hahahabahaaaa fuck devianr art..you can follow ke too there I guess?

Bluesky https://bsky.app/profile/happyragdoll.bsky.social

Tumblr https://www.tumblr.com/happyragdoll?source=share

Hello everyone I'm gonna try to get back into commissions. For those that I owe i deeply oppologise and I am scatterbrained! If I owe you a pic. Plz remind me here or in notes. I will fix my wrongs!

In other news I have officially cut an abusive friend out of my life. 8 years of being put down. Called ugly. Not good enough, fat the whole 9 yards. He had so much controll over me because he had my family wrapped in his finger. And he knew it. He never said himself but he hinted at it. A part of me cringed to him as a friend. I gave him everything. He milked me and mo own MOM for money. And I've accepted im not seeing that money back l. This man is a manipulative narcissistic misogynist neonazi homphobe transphobe (even though he's transitioning himself make it make semce) human being...I know this man sounds almost too evil!...but this is what I uave been hiding behind closed doors. He controlled me with fear. Whenever he didn't get his way he would call me a faggot and size me up. To make me cower. (And this is a handfull of the manipulative things hes done and said) Well he got too comfertable with doing that. And pissed off the wrong family member. Now they see him for who he is. And thats how I managed to finaly say. Enough is enough! And a part of me wanted to help him. But if you want to help someone that someone has to want to be helped. I did what I can. But I've had enough! And now he's constantly atempting to commit suicide. At this point. I'm just going to say either do it! Or shut up! Do not speak to me untill you get help! Farewell dear friend. I hope we meet again under better circumstances... or not at all

Yeep! Im good ol 29 now! :D it just keeps going! Qwq

Hey guys I've been meaning to update you all. I'm sort of back. Been in and out of art. I swear commissions will be worked on! I'm so sorry for the wait 100 thank yous for your patience! Again! Thank you.

thank you all for the support. i swear i don't deserve you guys. this has been a verry hard few days for myself and my family. we loved that dog and he loved us just as back. his name was Winchester. we named him both after the show and the riffle. he was a hybrid golden retriever and border collie. he didn't have a single mean bone in his body. and he loved us to the bitter end. he got a rare heart cancer that, just came and took him from us. he passed surrounded by the people he loved. there was no doubt he went straight up.

It's hitting me in waves. One second I'm fine the next my eyes start tearing up. Little things like missing the times he barges through my door becaus he knows how to open my door. Finding his toys. His furry all over my clothes still...it hurts ..so much. I'll be okay. Thank you all again for the support and co dolances

Hey. Im sorry guys. I'm going to take a break for a small bit. My dog passed away last night. And I'm just. A slurry of emotions, I'm sorry

Hey guys! This is a little embaresing but I am curently what the cool kids call. A broke bitch. So I'm opening emergency coms. For 8 stages of tickles. This----> https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59259731/ If you want word play you will have to come up with them, yourself. I will work. On them next time i do a stoners night! In my discord server. I'm opening 5 slots and it's first come first serve. If multiple people are interested more slots will open as the first come is complete.

The price for each is 45.00 usd

Slot 1:  AceKoopa
Slot 2: zandor
Slot 3:  j0virus
Slot 4: tokky
Slot 5: [open]

hello everyone Christmas is late as hell. and im trying to work on a Christmas pic with friends...sorry its late....and im sorry im a tad late on other things...commissions! I SUCK! im sorry for the wait. im trying to get better at that.

anyway newyears! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! what a wacky year huh?!?!?!?! (what a fucking wacky decade......) and its ONLY GONNA GET WACKYER! somehow over the span of this year i went from sci-fi geek to spooky clowns. What a shift in theme xDD

ANYWAY i hope to do stuff this year. like improve on commissions, stream more, move on from my abusers, and hopefully finally write my shit down! if i can get act one of devils toybox and steam of pride written down that would be my goal of the year. if i get it written then COMIC TIME BABY.... i have no idea what im doing HAHAHA- anyway!

im gonna be a lill sappy here. but from the bottom of my heart. Thank you all! for tuning in to my weird and wacky fantasies. and stuff... thanks for dealing with my weird ass! hears to more in the future~! happy new year! and merry Christmas!

Wanna ask my ocs a queastion? I'll answer as best I can

its gonna be okay! you are all valid and loved! be strong

And it was good 👍

Still suck. But I'm over all okay. Few panic attacks here and there but whatever. I guess I'm at the "is it over?" Stage i just hope all my mutuals are able to find me. I did leave with out so much as a heads up or even a goodbye. Wich..where are my mannars? My emotions were high. Mixture of allot of things. From the Twitter bs to irl stuff and overdue owed coms. Ect. I can't stand you guys seeing that part of me. Sorry... sometimes if I like it or not the mask falls off. It's funny cuz I keep looking for Twitter as a routine... gonna take some time to get use too.
In other news like everyone I have a bluesky! So be sure to follow me there https://bsky.app/profile/happyragdoll.bsky.social I am however going to probably take a hiatus. I might finish some porsonal work but once I'm back it's commission-o-clock.. again don't worry though. I'm okay I've been through worse mental termoil I'll pass this one too!

And one last thing. Thank you all for the unyielding support from ALL of you. I was in a dark spot and you guys cared. Seriosly I can't ask for better friends followers...people...you all mean so much to me thank you

ten years i had that twitter account. and it was deleted...like that! ten years...two thousand followers. i know its pathetic to be upset about that but....i feel so numb. so much work WASTED!!!! ELON MUSK YOU FUCKING RAT I HOPE ANOTHER ROCKET BLOWS UP AND YOU FINALY GET CUT FROM THE GOVERNMENT FUNDS AND YOUR COMPANY FAILS!!! YOU GOOD FOR NOTHING PARASITE!!! FUCK YOU

i swear cant these hackers hack anything that matters? what a fucking joke. man thinks hes the hero! wen the net laughed at him. hope he gets what's coming to him

Today I am now 28 years old X3c man time flies am I riight?

ill be 28...im getting old

Ey yall! So! Sorry for the lack of...anything! I should update yall for the past few months I've been studying to get my drivers permit! Yeah..I know sad XD in my past twenties and I don't drive.. but!! Good news I got my permit! So with what little free time I have after work I've been kinda practacing driving! I'm proud to say I bumped the curve only twice my first time hee-hee ùwú but yeah! That's what I've been up too! And I assure yall my pritty little dollies! I've been cooking >83

Hey guys. It's been a wile and I'm aware that I've been prity quiet for months. And to tell the truth I haven't been very honest with you all. So I'm going to take the time and swallow my pride and talk to you guys. And be real for a second. Becaus you guys disserve the best. Layeley drawing just haven't been bringing me joy. And I've been too hard on myself. I constantly think to myself. Man you guys deserve better. Or this doesn't look good enough.i just haven't been in it lateley. Ivr been juggling a full time job. An internet life and real life and I've bitten more than I can chew. Allot of it is my falt. For piss poor time management. And im going to try to remedy that. But I can say that all I want but actions speak louder than words. I unferstand if you guys are starting to get frustrated with me. And from the bottom of my heart. I'm sorry between 2020 losing my grandma the comid crisis my best internet friends friends being pedos and stalkers and constant drama. I'm just burned out.
And ....hey! Who's playing a sad violent GET OUT OF HERE!! FUCK OFF!! *glass shatter sound*

now allow me to answer the queastions that are bubbling in that brain of yours
"Am I retiring or quiting?: No your not getting rid of me that easily
"Will i be quiting porn/fetish art" also no
However I want to pursue other projects and hobbies in between. I want to do streaming and such.

As you may have guessed my ocs are deep fried in lore and back stories. And I want to do something with that. But I don't know were or wen to start on that

Roboticora I know how it starts and I know how it ends and I want to be the best I can make

Stitches and smil3s I know how it starts and i think that might be were I start..hypothetically.

Before this drags on tho. Long storry short. I'm going to try to manage my time better and be better. Commissions are still open . But be aware I'm slow but trying to fix it. I'm sorry for my lack of activity and lack of update. Thank you for taking the time to read the rambling of an ideot. Have a good day and or night

It's missing some assets like brushes and 3D models. Lik3 there completeley gone. Is anyone els geting these problems? If so do you know how to fix?

Man...2023 went by so fast...I was going through it this year, man. Stewing in my hatred and just over all having a vilain arc. I need to realize I'm not gonna get the justice I want to see to the bastards dragged my name in the mud and stalked me and my friends for three years. and got away with it ALL. There was allot more behind the scenes ans i mean ...allot more but ill say if Hating someone for grooming a child makes me the bad guy. Then dammit. Allow me twirl my mustache and laugh! Sometimes the hardest thing to do is let things go. But in the end. I know in my heart that i am better then ALL OF THEM in EVERY WaY!!
So this year I aim to be a better me. I know that sounds basic lol. My plan is to get more efficiant with commissions. Stream more. Be better. More patient and learn to stop holding grudges...happy new year! May this year be better

I wanna take this time to say. Thank you all! I can't put into words for how gratefull I am for every one of you. Picking up with my wierd and irisponsible ass. I've met allot of amazing people in this community. And I truly do not deserve you guys. Merry christmass everybody. Here's to another amazing year. 🍷

First of all! Thank you guys so much for the get well wishes..i...don't deserve yall XD
2nd Just leting you know if ya wanna see wips. Up coming projects and updates on my life and stuff to follow my blueaky! Becaus I left for milk and cigarettes at twitter. And im going to neglect twitter for a wile
Long story short. My breaking point was seeing literal liveleaks for the 5th time
https://bsky.app/profile/happyragdo...../3kgrzuqaf5v2h