http://happysorryart.tumblr.com/pos.....l-today-and-im

alskjdoiwjadlksjoiasoidjwioajd X//d THANK YOU

with some help i carefully put some taums on da, so http://h-appysorry.deviantart.com/

if anything happens i'll pull everything out and jsut leave it alone Xd its like poking a lion with a tiny stick

I was very angry today. Very very angry. Cause i was thinking about past things. About actions..and things that really really hurt me. I hated the feeling. I hated every bit of it, regretted even why I... It's very venomous and the hatred i feel is just as strong as the love i used to feel for this person.

at the end of the night i just ended up crying. All the venom sizzled and turned into a lump in my chest. And I cried for a bit. Then i went to lay down on the floor with my back against the ground looking up at shadows and a mess of light from plugs.

I told myself. "I'm amazing, I'm going to be the greatest thing out there. I'm going to be the amazing cynthia" I smiled and slowly sat up puffing out my chest. "I'm going to do great things, I got so many ideas there's so many things to do. My future is right there I"ll be right there." I stood up and i smiled. "I'm going to be great! I'm going to make my life absolutely amazing, where i can be happy, Where I wont feel sad!"

And then I thought about all you guys. All of you. Who took their time, their precious words, to give to me. To give me work. To show me, to lead me, to help me out. And I literally bowed, thinking of you guys. Who did such amazing things for me. It may be small to you..but to me its amazing.

You guys are so amazing. If i could record this i would and show you my greatest appreciation towards you all.
on a random note. Anger..anger ..it helps make choices..and Helps me move forward. It helps me get the perspective..that..been stolen from me so many times cause i was too polite. Too welcoming of other thoughts. Too sympathetic to others. I channel it to move me forward. Its.. its not the best way.

I can honestly say.. That I sometimes dont channel my anger the right way and it can hurt, and be very destructive.. cause it turns into sadness..

that eats away at me. especially if i have to hold it in and let myself be ran over by other things.

its not ideal. but it works for now. I will get there. I will continue my path, and be the most amazing cynthia there is.
I just.. wanted to share, for some unknown reason. Thank you so much.

I decided maybe i should work on my portfolio a bit for now, I will finish any paid for commissions (one is still pending through echeck)
taum auctions will be available but thats about it.

I have ten paintings to do .//w. So i hope you enjoy watching them come in slowly.



once again commissions be closed, wish me luck!

 keldel  keldel  keldel  keldel

Before i started to try and post more art up here I used to watch her on deviantart. To me her art and creatures were amazing X//d and I got a creature from her.(http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10473401/) I always looked up to seeing her artwork here and there to peek through. After a while i noticed she came here and I was super duper happy!

So happy birthday yo! -gently shoves-

I'm open for custom taums [45USD]
Head shots [30USD]
and Wild cards [min is 25USD]

any others you can check here https://trello.com/b/IOcuAZem/commissions


slots:
1.  lorna_rosefox
2.  macawsome
3.



on side note tell me if your just waitng for a taum auction i could get that one started up soon.

on other other side now.

All about chu:
What do you do for work? Or whats your dream job? How much do you think you need to live comfortably?

I got wild cards, portraits, full bodies, taums
All information here: https://trello.com/b/IOcuAZem/commissions

Gotta keep working and I'll work super hard for you!

Please let me work for you~ <3


1. [Weasyl] Sadbloom [done]
2.  Lorna_RoseFoX [not paid]
3.  ooanubisoo [done]
4.
5.
-more if needed-

Just looking around and feeling very thankful for all you guys and your support. It's a little silly, and i'm sure you guys have enough of me saying thanks all the time.

But to everybody who's supported me, helped me out, gave me heads up, asked me questions, honored me with their precious time. It's been amazing.

You guy's are amazing. I wouldn't be here where I am, with how my art grew without you.

My mom surprised me (after a few days of leaving to play poker)

With money for a flight/hotel/ticket to ..

GaymerX2

.//w. so, i'll be going with a nice portfolio/resume/website/andhopefullygame.

If anyone else is going X//d ahahah you'll see me there. I'm not going there to buy or sell, i'm going there to know what game companies are open for a person like me and my lifestyle and hope i can get myself out there.


In other news, I have a wonderful weasyl account that i continue to put art on there and more updates on there, .//w. if you have a weasyl i'd welcome you there u//u

https://www.weasyl.com/~happysorry

Whatever is here:
https://trello.com/b/IOcuAZem/commissions

Make a list of all the taum owners [ Done]

Start taum page for weasyl/FA [Weasyl done ]

Think of potential ways for it to be easier to know who owns the taums[ ]
(maybe weebly website?? any advice?)

3d Model Dream dragon [ ]
(i got it done jsut have to fix it though for printing)


Think of ways to make taums available for deviantartists..(still very wary about this one) [ ]
(any advice?)


Things that have been done:
I already contact a plush maker just have to figure out cost and things <3
Website, still fixing that for portfolio.
Apartment stuff (gotta see if they want to talk to me later)

ye or neh?

i'm still looking around for ways to make them and all o//wo
http://strawpoll.me/1756292

I gotta clean up my apartment super good so they dont charge me an arm, leg, newborn child, my soul, my ancestor's souls, the avatar.



I'll continue work asap when i get back. Umm other then that i hope you all doing well!

I'll leave with asking you a wonderful questions about chu. You can answer one or all of them if you wish!


- If you were stuck all alone, with everything you needed except people (but you can have wifi and interact like that) would you be happy?

- Who is your rolemodel, real or fake, how do they inspire you?

- do you think people have a certain image of you that you portray or you have your heart on your sleeve kind of deal?

- if you fart and you are alone, do you still look around to check if people heard you? -laughs-

I do offer some cheap commissions that work for a smaller budget called wild cards.

Wild cards are a randomized painting!

Customer lists 3 characters and 3 themes, Which they will go into a randomizer to make a painting with one of their characters and themes

It is a min of 25 USD, and you can pay more if you want me to work on it more But i wont except any money over 80 USD for it.
if you dont have 3 characters using just one character is absolutely fine. u//u

Examples: https://www.weasyl.com/submissions/.....folderid=34220

I do use a random generator for everything so Even i dont know what you'll get until fate chooses X//d.

Commissions open journal

I made it super duper easy one page all information trello!

Please check it out!!!

https://trello.com/b/IOcuAZem/commissions

Slots:
1.  Mankster //done
2.  sevendevils //done
3.  witchpaws
4.  jademerciful
5. Yoko (weasyl)
6.  sevendevils
7.  truemac
8.  jinxi--jax
9. Cooley (weasyl)
10.


If theres any information missing please note me or ask me here i'll clear it up for you!

Well first off, it seems i'll have to open up **taums, so be up for that tomarrow! **
As for lease, it seems because my apartment had lawfully did everything they could to protect me I cannot leave without penalty. I can however buy out. Which is very unfortunate. Because they do not take card. And because they don't take card I cannot use my credit card to pay for money which I do not have. its going to be a whopping 1109.76. Boy do I gotta work hard if i want to get that money.

Lucky for me though I found out i have a family lawyer till december 2nd. How lucky.

If anybody has any preferences on what companies to use for storage and moving I'd love to hear about it! And if you have any experience selling furniture or not i'd like some advice on that too.

Commissions are open!

Next week i'm going to move out all my things put it in a storage/trash/recycle/thrift store. then i'll be at my parents with just my cats and my clothes. Planning only to stay 3 or so months, In the mean time going to prop up my portfolio, get my website all made, get dream dragon up and running. Taum/dream dragon 3d printing.

gaymerx2 is kinda under the rug now, since my parents are being rather touchy about it it seems they've gone back on their word about letting me go to any con. So i'm giving up on it unfortunately i have no choice.

Wish me luck and give me blessings, and I'll do my best to use each little speck of it for my future.

I am,

https://pbs.twimg.com/media/BnEd9xo.....Ci2O.png:large

And recent

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13399511/
and http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13398153/ With youtube animation,

I got tons of new things to bring to you guys u///wu

I still have to write up new commission stuff.

Also have to rig the little guy for dream dragon game and 3d printing

Play dnd? Play pathfinders? Play any game that is written in a book and you have to use the luck of the dice (and your characters) skill?

Well you're in luck! I'm opening special commissions towards this. You tell me what they are, age, looks, armor, clothes. And you'll get a full body right out of it, With your characters name right there next to it. Print it out, show your friends, pull out your iphone or droid, ipod, rock with printed picture, and be like 'This is my character, read-em and weep from how beautiful it is. '

Now Bad thing I don't have examples. Good thing! Cause I don't i'll be testing out how long, and pricing. So this is great deal since I don't know exactly how to price this. My full bodies go normally for 70$

Most of the time when people buy this though, their characters aren't adorned in beautiful detailed clothing of any sorts. So its a bit easier to do those instead of what I'm going to blow your minds with.


So it's going to start of as yes 70$ Its going to get a little more expensive after this. Armor and other things i really gotta work hard on. Weapons everything y'know, THE WORKS!



So table top rpg character 70$ with character name. Is the deal-

1. FA Coracroma

-closed after this-


Commissions I have now are two taums, Once they are done any future taums will be put on hold. Taums auctions and customs will not be available during this time. You can check here on my trello :https://trello.com/b/IOcuAZem/commissions

She's been through alot of classes and things I do want to support her and things.


I want to show her support by showing her to you guys <3 since you guys are the coolest crew around.

http://www.gofundme.com/8ss7a8

She has licences for each kind of weapon I beleive, so shes super good with fighting in acting.

If you guys do give her a view and a donate show me who you be, and if she gets funded all the way i'll randomize and do free surprise art for five random users who do.


I hope she can do it. ahh to be the eldest of 3 sis's gotta try and take care of my younger sisters.

Okay, so I posted soemthign a while a go, about something to me sounded like.. maybe a one of a kind deal cause I've sure never heard of it. But when I did, i got so many objections and so many people telling me how wrong and upset they'd be. I .. I surely got confused. I really did. I posted again I got absolute refusal on the idea. So i did an experiment to post it again only with one difference.

Just one

An all guy game studio where guys of all kinds work together to make games, may it be grunge, shooting game, to cutey things. -sparkles- Help bring in new talents all over to make a difference in the gaming community.

I got no objections. nothing. Completely A okay. Except for one anon..which i'm sorry anon note. You dont help my case when your anon..not at all.

the one that got people riled up was.

An all girl game studio where girls of all kinds work together to make games, may it be grunge, shooting game, to cutey things. -sparkles- Help bring in new talents all over to make a difference in the gaming community.

This reallllly got me thinking. It really did. Cause, hell I could do a Whole TED talk about this once i get enough research to show why people are so prominent to think that its alright to say this to one gender but not the other.

Oh i didn't get this kind of argument over the first quote you see up there.

"I think because it's technically sexist in terms of employment (the law) by refusing male employees simply because they're male."

"Are other girls not interested? There were plenty of females graduating in my field with me, some 2D, some 3D, some live action."

"There was one all-women company as some feminist experiment and it crashed and burned."

"To encourage new female talents to join the industry, I don’t think a company (that thus would be majorly be compromised of unexperienced new people?)"


When I said the game industry is a boys club I got complete denial on that.

But when I brought this discussion up with my school mates. I didn't get denial of this. They understood, and even agreed with me why I got upset with such a thing. And I'll tell you, they are all males. They want more girls in the industry.

there was only two girls graduating in my class for bachelors for computer science. 2.

Also on side note, yes girls have a big disadvantage in the game industry. In some places they wont hire them just because they are girls, that girls who want to go into the industry can't just because of their gender. Or. on the side they will only hire them for their looks not talent. it's pretty terrible.

When I was ranting about this on another website i was told "work harder" In all honesty, I've never been so offended in my life.

---

Now..now..before someone writes something offensive. Just really think about what your going to say.. And ask yourself why are you saying that. Why are you typing this.. is it in your bones are you just deeply offended. Tell me in the post. It can be for either side.

I'll keep it for my research. Before I turn into my 40's i'm going to have long written research on this so I can start changing this around, and help the industry be a little easier on us girls.

My dad encourages me though, he says people are going to hate this or love it. Theres never going to be an in between, if you can find a way to do it do it.

I told him honestly. "I'll try its just finding the peeps who have the courage enough for it."


Let each person have their say in this, don't attack anyone. You can attack me all you want instead, I would deeply appreciate it


I'll be honored to work for you!
I accept payment ahead of time! You have the option to wait till I get to your turn, or to pay while you wait.
You can always check up on me >> HERE <<

-Wild card paintings starting at 25$ That is the minimal price! Limit is 80$
Give me 3 characters + 3 themes =
-random painting for you!
(side note if you don't have 3 characters 1 character is enough)



-Story mode painting 100$(standard pricing)
Exp: X X X



Taums:
-refs 25$
-Custom 45$
-or you can wait for adopt auctions min of 15$


If there other commission you would like to try though instead of these please check my commission tab.

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Slots (not limited to):
1. Weasyl CrypticSorrow
2. Amongwolves
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.

So found out my ditto (usb harddrive) only has paint tool sai files on it and not the file i need to open it. So I resent my email registration with the page and waiting for the lovely new code to help me change my trail over sai into a brand new spanking sai for my parents computer.

I could pirate it but I still feel bad about it since i'm using the system for my own work. It'd just feel really bad for me. So i hope i get my email fast.


My computer will be fixed by the end of the week at the latest. Hopefully by wednsday would be the earliest.

This puts me aback a little cause I wanted to do some 3d stuff.

If you noticed my dream dragon i'm going to be modeling the characters and testing out some 3d printing with them. So there might be little toys that will be out soon. -nods- If they work, and i see how well it does, Taums may be next in the route. I'm excited, i hope you all are.



Anyways thank you guys for all the congrats on the graduation. I really appreciate it, you guys are the best. I'll talk to you in a bit.

some you guys know on weasyl but i'll update here too

So I packed up and got ready to head out. And when i came to school my computer wouldn't turn on. wouldn't read the energy, nothing. nada. So i take it to the tech guys, my warranty is over for it so they can't do much. I renew it for a whopping 330 out of my credit card and now waiting till is in affect so i can send my laptop in to be fixed.
i'm in emotional/pocket pain.


As for any delays dont worry i have sai on my portable ditto device and i'll be using it to make the art I still owe
i just feel bad for my classmates since i was writing the paper and all.

tomorrow is graduation day for me i'm super excited.

Did paperwork for apartment place so gunna see if i can break lease without penalty. (we'll see weds)

Oh i got so many things planned for you and weasyl, I hope you guys will enjoy the next few months with me on the adventure X//d

Commissions open
Animation video of taums to Beautiful creatures
How did taums get created
Twitter



Update:
So i'm graduating this saturday I'm so excited!!

I'm swamped though a little bit on stuff to do for classes but friday is my FREEDAY!

I'm moving back with my parents to get out of apartment place. But that means I have to clean up and get rid of a lot of things. I have so many books..that..I just don't need anymore.

I looked over my student loans and such, got myself a pay plan and i'm all set to go.

I can start working on commissions and putting out more artwork with mores awesome things. I have a lot of things plan, if..my mother doesn't go nuts on me..she honestly wants me to get a desk job. But i feel very very unready to my portfolio and resume to others.

Theres toys I want to make, games I gotta prototype, things to draw and settle down.


Thank you all for supporting me, I hope you guys wont mind the ride into the fun!

I figured i owe some people how i made these little guys and why they are what they are today. I'm a bit sleepy and tired from school, and other things but i hope this helps out anyone who wants to jump on the bandwagon, or trying to do things with the wrong idea.




I'll even put up some links.

So I wanted a character to represent me Cause.. I've started to get a warm welcome on here. I thougth of a bear, i thought of a deer. A dragon. And owl.

I drew a bear first. it was black and shadowy and had a weird little symbol.

-http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9999783/

it didn't stick well. I thought a bit and looked around some more. I was already having fun mixing creatures to make monsters. And with a little bit of a push with everquest i made myself an owl bear. the owlbear fursona happysorry.

-http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10032244/

i liked it. I felt really nice with it it has my body shape and all X//d. I made it super easy if i ever wanted to make a suit i wouldn't fry and i would be able to hold things.

Then i wanted to sketch my character out more.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10050266/

After that i had people asking me for when i'd have adoption. I researched around and others gave me alot of advice and help.

People helped me out with prices and gave me ideas to help me grow with the little creatures.

i made the first pair. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10052151/

it went fast at 15 dollars. I decided then that would always be my base.

then second pair:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10054883/

and it went on. As time went on i began to advertise my art and little bears. and when that happened well i got some people wishing that'd i'd get sued and destroyed by other game companies. Which..in reality they would have to pay someone else way more money than it is to deal with me.

It was awkward and silly, to see people so passionate about it. So I changed the creatures names to taum.


I only made these species cause people requested it, they helped with it.. Even now i get ideas to make more from random users who just want to see the creatures grow and I admire that...

if no one said anything I would be the only one around.

I wanted to make it so that owners wouldn't feel locked or stuck to rules. I allow them to sell their little guys for more than what they buy them. I allow them to do whatever they want to them. Its their lovely little taum, i have no hold on it unless given back to me.


people even make their own closed species and characters that are very inspired by taums and you should go ahead X/d and have a look at their characters. theres some super cute designs.

some people note me though and send me 'oh this person has similar or looks the same' and I thank them for it. Its similar but not the same is what i tell them and I leave it be.

I don't like attacking people unless they did a very harmful wrong to me.

and thats.. not one of them. XD


i love my taums. I'll always make sure to do something fun with you guys if i can.

I know as time goes on there's always going to be bumps here and there. But i do appreciate you guys hanging out and supporting me and my little guys.


i understand why people get upset about closed species. there's a lot of things that go wrong with them and how vicious some people can be with them. May they be the one making the creature or the one all against it.
But give it a few days and you'll forget all about it. in about 10 years you wont even remember why you got all huffed up about it.

i got plans I want to make an animation, make toys, these guys are wonderful stress reliever for me. i wanna see how far i can go with these guys. If i get better heck might make a game out of them for people to play here and there.


Anyways sorry for the long read. Happysorry out, i wont be posting much on the comments but dont get to crazy out there.