My sissy is doing a watcher apprectiation free art give away like thing, if you win she'll draw a couples art piece for you and her chary is available for use ^-^
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3822287/

Nothing ever stops all these thoughts And the pain attached to them Sometimes I wonder why this is happening It's like nothing I can do Would distract me when I think of how I shot myself in the back again 'Cause from the infinite words I could say I put all the pain you gave to me on display But didn't realize instead of setting it free I took what I hated and made it apart of me
It never goes away....

Sometimes all I need is a little Linkin Park therapy :)

With sadness and weariness

I plunge fingers into flesh,

pull out my heart,

walk across the room,

open a box,

place my heart in it,

close the box and lock it

- then hide it somewhere

no one can find it

though nothing feeds it

still it beats

and bleeds….

YOU JUST WOKE UP NAKED IN BED NEXT TO ME.....
using only 3 words, what would you say to me??
Note: If you comment, please copy and paste this as your journal. Be a good sport.
Hehe I thought this would be funny!

This is seriously going to get personal, you ready?
Suuuuure, but it probably isn't going to get that personal lol

If you were caught cheating, would you fess up?
*sarcasticly* Nooooo I'll be laying there naked with another guy and trying to explain we were playing strip poker. *rolls eyes* Obviously I would.

The last time you felt honestly broken?
Physically, earlier this week walking around town. Mentally, with everything going on in my life.

Are you craving something?
Something sweet... not sure what.

If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
A very long vacation...

Would you rather have ten kids, or none?
O.O Holy crap! I'd rather have none. 10 is just WAY to many!

What do you hear right now?
Cars driving by outside and my skypes bleeping at me. lol

Is your bed against more than one of your walls?
No -_- I wish it was because I like laying against the wall.

What’s on your mind right now?
Wondering why can't I just not care about things so much. >.< Damn me and my caring!!!

Are you there for your friends?
I really used/try to be, but everyone's kind of doing their own thing or I usually just get used and I got tired of being used.. So I don't really have and 'Real life" friends. They are all online, and I'm ok with that ^_^

Last person to see you cry?
I think my mate, but I try not to even do that around anyone.

What do you do when you get nervous?
I look around a lot and keep my eyes looking down and I get all sorts of fidgety.

Be honest, do you like people in general?
Honestly? Not really. XD; But I try my best.

How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids?
30-ish? Maybe.. Not until I've figured out what I"m going to do with my life.

Does anyone completely understand you?
Eh. I don't think anyone ever has, but my sissy might. Who knows, I can't even understand myself!

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
I have a warm place to live and I have my pets and my online friends and my sissy to keep me happy.

Has anyone told you they don’t ever wanna lose you?
hahaha Exboyfriends :P

Would you be happier if life had a rewind button?
Nooo.. I need a fast forward button. But I got to live with it.

Do you tell your mum or dad everything?
>.< This is a English MEME!!!!!! lol No.. I don't. They wouldn't be happy with me if I told them EVERYTHING.

Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smokes?
:/ Yeah kind of. I get headaches from the smell and I want to avoid them until after they had a shower.

Are you going to get hurt anytime soon by someone?
How would I know?... idiot.

This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
Same person..

Do you think more about the past, present, or future?
Past.. always thinking about the past..

How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
I don't sleep at night.. I sleep during the day, but usually it has been 5-6 hours. Unless my mind decides it needs to keep me awake then 2-3 hours.

Are you easy to get along with?
I can be. I usually have to click with someone to get along with someone easily.

Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with?
No I do not hate my mother...or my sister...or my sissy lol

What was the last drink that you put in your mouth?
..Monster..

What size bed do you have?
Queen size!!!!! Loves it, but if someone wants to sleep in it with me... I need to get a King size or I'll be hitting them lol.

Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in?
Before... thats just crazy to do when you get in!

Do you like the rain?
Damnit, yes. And I havn't seen any in so long.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Doubt it. Haha.

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t do?
There's a LIST.. seriously. I have a list on paper lol

Would people refer to you as a goodie goodie, bad news, or neither?
Goodie goodie for my sisters friends and my family. I'm bad news to people who don't know me because people hear stories ya know.

Who were you last in the car with, besides family?
My mate? I think..

What’s the last movie you saw in theaters and with who?
The mate, it was Total Recall. Really good actually.

Have you ever been hurt by someone you never thought would hurt you?
Oh yes. It always seems to happen.

Your parents are out of town. Would you throw a massive party?
Why would I care if my parents were out of town? I don't live with them lol But sure why not, PARTAY!!!!

Would you rather spend a Friday night at a concert or a crazy party?
Depends on the concert... but I'd do both in the same night! lol

Do you care too much about your appearance?
Lmao, not really. Disheveled hobo dude looks are comfy, but there are times I feel like getting dressed up to fit social standards lol

Are you a jealous person?
Bwhahahaah yup. Makes me very competitive.

Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
I go clothes shopping like, once every 3yrs. :/

Do you miss anyone?
Um..I guess I could say I do, but thats old news now.

Last person who made you cry?
Uh...my computer.

What are you doing tomorrow?
Probably not a damn thing. lol

Is there anyone you want to come see you?
I want my sissy to come see me... and my new fwend Vespa! hahaha

Do you like cotton candy?
Yus.

Who was the last person you had a serious conversation with?
kind of three all at the same time lol

Do you have siblings?
I have 1 half sister i know about, one half brother I know about, but the story is I probably have like 50 lol

Have you ever fallen asleep on someone?
Yeah

How has the past week been for you?
Craptacular.

What were you doing at midnight last night?
Working lol

What is your current mood?
Annoyed and hopeful and trying to be happy ^_^

Who was the first person you talked to today?
Sissy  IndiWolf ^-^ Sorry I bailed tho hun :/

Will this week be a good one?
Fingers crossed, it started out rocky but hopefully it'll be better.

Anything happen to you within the past month that made you really happy?
Um.. I am not entirely sure. I'm guessing making a new friend?

Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?
Nope

Do you have any plans for the weekend?
Clean someones garage lol

haha, gah! I'm gone for ten minutes and when I come back to Indi's livestream it's off line and the chat has been cleared. Wtf! Apparently her skills are getting so much better because she must have finished that sucker in record time....that or she got pissed and got off right way. <.<
Ah, well. Sucked wanted to talk to some friends. I guess theres next time!

1. Who eats more?
It depends on who is more hungry. Usually him, but what he eats I gain. jerk >.<

2. Who said "I love you" first?
I did and it was very awkward because all he did was stare at me and he didn't even say it back lol

3. Who is the morning person?
Well, he wakes up in the morning... I go to bed in the morning. Soooo it's him lol

4. Who sings better?
Um, I think I'm a bit better. I've only heard him sing like two times, but its like whispers :P

5. Who's older?
He is.

6. Who's smarter?
We both have our strengths in somethings more than others. He's smarter with vehicles, video games, comic books. I'm... ok I'm just dumb haha

7. Whose temper is worse?
We feed off each other which is kind of bad <.<

8. Who cries more?
I do. Anything that has to do with him yelling at me I cry, but I won't cry if anyone else yells at me Hmmmm

9. How did you meet?
I've known him since I was 9 years old lol His aunt (who recently passed away) and my mother were best friends

10. Where are you both from?
Both from North Dakota, but he lived in South Dakota for awhile.

11. Whose feet are bigger?
Haha, his, most deffinatly.

12. Whose hair is longer?
O.o Mine... long hair on guys doesn't look all that great lol

13. Who's better with the computer?
Hmmmm I am.

14. Do they have pets? How about you?
Yes we both have pets. 2 dogs and 2 cats lol I must post some pictures of them!

15. Do you plan on getting married?
We will see what happens.

16. Who's the most stubborn?
Oooooh we both are. >.< That's what happens when a pollock(him) and a german/french/norwegian/swedish shewolf come together.

17. Who is the first one to admit when they're wrong?
I do, just because I'm tired of arguing.

18. Who asked who out?
I asked him out, but he rejected me then like two weeks later he took me out to dinner and asked me out on his own.

19. Who's more sensitive?
I am. He can be pretty heartless.

20. Who's taller?
He is.

21. Who has more friends?
I'm guessing him since my friends don't talk to me anymore.

22. Who has more siblings?
He has a half brother and a half sister. I have a half sister and a half brother that I know about. I probably have like 50 lol

23. Who wears the pants in the relationship?
He likes to think he does... but thats just cuz I let him think that ^-^ hahahaha

Answer all of these questions truthfully!!!! Or you can lie if you want, but it won't be as fun.


1. We'll start off easy. What is your name?
Depends who's asking? lol It's Haven damnit! >.<

2. If you like your name say 'Yay!'
That's not a question.... but Yaaaaaaaaayyyyy!!!!!!!!!!

3. Good job. Okay, so did you notice that number 2 was not a question?
Yeah I noticed that.. Good job.. you suck.

4. If you could get a website, what would it be called?
It would be called whatever I want it to be called >.<

5. What was the last song you illegally downloaded?
*thinks* ummmm probably The Game by Motorhead

6. Do you wish you had a webshow like iCarly?
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. No

7. Scary movies?
I LOVE SCARY MOVIES!!!!

8. What is your favorite genre of music? And be specific.
Specific huh, I dont know... I like a lot.. Depends on my mood really. When I'm in a dancing mood my fav music to listen to is like dancy, techno music. But i likes Metal and Rock a whole lot.

9. Do you believe in God? And why or why not?
Nope.. *sigh* What if I dont wanna?

10. Laughter: The Best Medicine, or would you rather take an aspirin?
I'd take asprin for a headache otherwise laughing is good lol

11. When you go to sleep at night, do you leave your door open or closed?
...I'm guessing you mean the bedroom door, because I would rather have my front door closed lol I like my bedroom door shut but my kitties don't like it shut so it stays open -_-

12. You like mangoes.
That isn't a question either.. but yes, I do like mangos. lol

14. Is grey hair sexy on old people?
.....................why would I think OLD people are sexy?!

15. I bet you were so busy thinking about mangoes, you didn't notice that there was no question 13. Hmm?
hahah nope I caught ya! stupid.

16. You just won the world supply of every color sharpie KNOWN TO MAN!!! What do you draw?
O.O I will draw a box of sharpies.

17. Do you have your closest friends phone number memorized?
No not really

16. Do you like adding double letters to words? Ex: Text me or Texxt mee.
Soooooome tiiimes.

17. Is it possible for blondes to be prettier, just from hair color?
Um... sure?

18. Itunes, Limewire, Winamp, or what?
Limewire

19. How many songs do you have in your music library?
well i don't have jack on here because my other computer crashed T-T

20. Keep it up, this note gets better and better!
THAT"S NOT A QUESTION!

21. Why did you decide to complete your FIRST note survey thing?
Because I'm fucking bored.

22. Do you remember being born?
Um no. Am I suppose to?

23. Glasses: smexy or not?
I hate glasses lol Some people can pull it off.

24. Do you like to leave your window shades up when you sleep, to see the sky?
HELL NO, I sleep during the day! The sun would keep me awake.

25. Twenty-five; you get a QUARTER!!!!
....you're dumb

26. Did that last questions make sense?
No.

27. If you were on a deserted island, what one American Idol personality would you take? (Judges, hosts, or contestants.)
I don't fucking know. I hate American Idol

28. What time was it two hours and forty-three minutes ago?
5:08am

29. Did you answer number 28 in your head, or use a calculator? Or just not bother doing it?
the hours i figured out by my self but... i needed help with the minutes lol

30. Are you or were you more happy to turn 16, 18, or 21?
Wasn't happy lol my birthdays suck lol

31. Love conquers everything?
Suuuuure

32. Watch the food network?
no cuz then I get hungry.

33. If you could accomplish any task right now that needed to be done, what would it be?
...Probably clean my apartment and do my laundry.. but I dont want to clean and my clothes are at my parents lol

34. Do you love playing music loud when no one is home?
YEP!

35. Your favorite website besides facebook?
FA or DA

36. Your cell phone is your best friend: T or F?
False. It pisses me off

37. You are a battery, AA or AAA?
Alcoholics Anonymous?

38. LOL! Are you really gonna laugh out loud?
No?

39. If you could sing really well, would you show the world this talent?
Probably not.

40. !@#$%^&*(): Awesome, isn't it?
Hey, now. Theres no need to be cussing!

41. I would eat a hippo for a billion dollars. T or F?
...Why would I eat a hippo? WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU

42. Kleenex or rip-off brand?
Kleenex

43. You can only shop at ONE store forever (But your body doesn't need food or toiletries and stuff), what is the store?
Um.. Walmart?

44. You're listening to music as you're doin this, aren't you?
Nope watching tv lol

45. Do you like black people?
what kind of question is that.

46. Do you enjoy asians?
are you rasist?

47. Wow! This notes almost nearly sorta kinda over (not really), did you have fun with it?
No

48. Chat speak; spawn of satan or, ttly convenient way 2 say things fast!
..what?

49. Gay marriage?
What about it?

50. Abortion?
It's not my desision if someone doesnt want their baby.

51. They WERE questions, I promise!
suuuuuuuuure you just keep thinking that.

53. >.< ..try and make that face in real life.
You're fuckin weird.

54. Did you do it? Did it look oh so funny!?
Yes i did do it... SO WHAT

55. Have you noticed this survey is getting lazy and half of these are not even questions?
Yeaaaaa i've noticed.

56. Wow. You're smart.
aaaaand you're stupid.

57. What grade would you relive in school if you had the chance?
I guess my senior year

58. 11:11… Make a wish?
It's not 11:11.

59. When you listen to music, do you feel self-concsious about your taste?
No, if people don't like it they can kiss my ass. lol

60. What is the most meaningful, moving song that you have ever heard?
Hell if I know I just like how most of them sound.

61. Are you proud of how amazingly long I have kept this note going!?
Nope, I'm actually really disapointed in you.

62. Do you think disney shows are cheesy or just funny?
Some are good.

63. If you grow up and have exacty as many kids as you wanted, all the gender you really did not want, do you try for more?
No... I'll just give the ones I don't want away lol

64. Slow songs or fast songs?
Depending on the mood but I prefer fast songs

65. Ninjas: hot or not?
NINJAS!!!!!!! *Dances* Go Ninja Go Ninja Go Ninja GO!

66. Least favorite tv show ever?
theres a lot..

67. You are the only person in the world, and can bring back three people. Who would you bring, and what would you do?
I can bring back three people huh? Hm.. 1. Boyfriend 2. My sissy 3. Her boyfriend and.... well... I guess repopulate the world? >.< We'd had some fucked up great grand kids lol

68. If you invented a new color, what would you name it?
O.o supercalifragilisticexpialidocious blue

69. Are you giggling to yourself because this is number 69?
Why, yes. yes I am

70. Pervert!!!
Well thats nothing new!

71. Do you like what you do?
I do a lot. doesn't me I like it all.

72. This survey is over. Are you simply on your knees bawling it out?
Nope, but I'm glad its over!!!!!

Tagged by nobody lol

1) Choose one of your own characters (OC) or your Fursona.
2) Make them answer the following questions.
3) Then tag three people.
4) Feel free to add some questions of your own.

Name: Haven and my inner wolf is Tamaska. *Tamaska nods* Yes.

1) What gender are you?
We are female.

2) What is your age?
Haven: I'm 22 going on 23. Tamaska: I am considered an adult, but I am reaching the elderly stage

3) Do you want a hug?
Haven: Sure I guess? <.< Tamaska: I only let my family, my sister, embrace me.

4) Do you have any bad habits?
Haven: I tend to bite my nails? Tamaska: I may have a temper.

5) What is your favourite food?
Haven: LOVE CHINESE! Tamaska: I eat whatever it is I hunt

6) What is your favourite ice-cream flavour?
Haven: Anything with chocolate Mmmm. Tamaska: What is 'icecream?'

7) Are you a virgin?
Haven: HAHAHAHAHAHA no. Tamaska: Yes, i have mated a few times in my life.

8) Have you killed anyone?
Haven: I've got a list.. Tamaska: I might have

9) Do you hate anyone?
Haven: yep i hate a few people lol Tamaska: I cannot say I don't.

10) Do you have any secrets?
Haven: Why would I admit that. Tamaska: I bare no secrets. It is most disrespectful.

11) What is your favourite season?
Haven: Fall ^_^ Tamaska: Winter.

12) Who is your best friend(s)?
Haven: Well, Lauren ^-^ She is my sister :P Tamaska: My sister wolf.

13) What are your hobbies?
Haven: *shrugs* stuff I guess lol Talking with friends and listening to music. Tamaska: I sleep my time away. Until released to speak with my sister.

14) What is your favourite drink?
Haven: I like juice. Tamaska:Water is what I drink. Occasionally I will drink the blood of my kill.

15) When is your birthday?
Haven: July 3rd Tamaska: I do not have a day of birth.

16) What age did you die?
Haven: I haven't died! <.< Tamaska: I do not remember. I am alive within a human body.

17) Are you nice or mean?
Haven: Yeah I can be ^-^ Tamaska: When I am in a pleasant mood.

18) Are you social or shy?
Haven: I am shy usually. Tamaska: I am quiet and keep to myself until I feel the need to speak my mind.

19) What was your first Pokemon?
Haven: pokemon...really? lol I liked alot of them!

20) What's your weakness?
Haven: Chinese food? Tamaska: Hunger and my feelings for my sister.

21) How long can you stay under water?
Haven: I dont know. Tamaska:I do not care to find out.

22) What do you do on a regular day basis?
Haven: Sleep, talk and eat? Tamaska: I slumber until I am needed.

23) Do you love someone?
Haven: Yes, I still do. Tamaska: Love? Family is my love. *nuzzles sister wolf*

24) When was the last time you wet yourself?
Haven: I don't know!

25) What's your favourite band?
Haven: I can't decide

26) Ever worn a dress?
Haven: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA no

27) Willingly?
Haven: Willingly not worn a dress? yes

28) What do you consider fun in the day-time?
Haven: Talking to friends.

29) At night?
Haven: Sleeping? Tamaska: Running free

30) Ever kissed anyone?
Haven: Apparently.

31) ...Of the same gender?
Haven: You are disgusting. Tamaska: I have 'kissed' my pack members to show affection

32) What's your favorite thing to touch?
Haven: You would like to know that wouldn't you. Tamaska: The forest floor

33) Anyone loves you?
Haven; I hope so.

34) What's your favorite color?
Haven: Blue

35) When was the last time you cried?
Haven: Awhile ago. Tamaska: When I was young.

36) Do you have a pet?
HAven: Kitties!

37) Are you crazy?
Haven: We're all mad here.

38) What are you?
Haven: Absolutely Flawless :P TAmaska: A content wolf

39) What's your nickname?
Haven: Uh, Haven. TAmaska: Tamaska is my name that my human gave me. I don't have a name.

40) Do you consider yourself a happy or a down person?
Haven: I'm just a ray of fucking sunshinelol

41) If you were a superhero, you'll be...?
HAven:I would be a supervillain i would abuse my powers lol.

42) Favorite movie?
Haven: Uhhh idont know.

43) What is your current occupation?
Haven: <.< a job

44) Who do you know that bugs you?
Haven: a lot of people lol

45) Have you 'done it' in the past month?
Haven: Of course TAmaska: I assume you mean mate? No i have not.

46) Ever think about getting married?
Haven: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. no Tamaska:Mated yes.

47) Have you ever had a sleepover with someone of the opposite sex?
Haven: Duh. lol Tamaska: Yes, I have slept next to a male wolf before.

48) When was the first time you 'did it'?
HAven: When I was 16? Tamaska: When I was still young and careless.

49) Do you have any piercings anywhere?
Haven: Of course I do

50) Final question. Who do you tag?
Haven: Hm... Maybe  IndiWolf :P

THE NO LIES MEME

Tagged by  IndiWolf
..again dammit!

From now on, you can’t tell lies, are you ready?
- I guess.

Think back eight months ago, were you single?
- nope

What do you carry with you at all times?
- Phone, keys, I'm wearing my clothes, purse (which i am amazed i even use one)

Are you a cuddler?
- yes, but I have restricted myself to only cuddle the mate

What would I find if I looked UNDER your bed?
- Um... probably clothes and some ribbon since Ninja likes to hid her ribbon lol

Who was the last person of the opposite sex you text messaged?
- I think it was my friend Casey or maybe it was the mate? lol

How are you feeling?
- Just blah today..

Is something wrong right now?
- Theres a lot wrong, but I'm not gonna talk about it.

Are you mad at someone?
- Not mad..just kinda ugh.

How much do looks matter to you in a guy/girl?
- Um... i don't know lol If i like them I like them lol

What's the greatest thing that happened to you today?
- I just woke up. So far probably getting a kiss from my mate.

How many TRUE best friends do you have?
- Um, I guess none.

Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?
- Always do.

How many different people of the opposite sex have you cried over?
- Non-family wise? 1 or 2

Where is your number one friend on your friends list?
- on here or fb or in my mind?

Do you have anyone crushing on you?
- I'm still crushing over my mate. lol

When was the last time you talked to your most recent ex?
- Ha it was like 2 1?2 years ago.

Do you sleep with the TV on?
- No, theres no way i could sleep with a tv on it bothers me if i see light or hear noise

Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced?
- yeah, though about it. then thought about the pain it would cause lol

Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
- Nope it's always in bed

Are you jealous of someone right now?
- Nope

Where is the person you like right now?
- I dont know he don't tell me where he goes.

What’s the last thing you put in your mouth?
- a swig of tea? lol

What are you supposed to be doing right now?
- sleeping

What is the sexiest part of your crush's body?
- i think everything is sexy...

Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
- OH many times.

Could you handle a long distance relationship?
- I use to be in one so it worked.

Could you cry right now?
- Nope

Are you okay with the life you live?
- No.

Did you enjoy your day today?
- nope

Do you have a tattoo?
- just one on my left forearm.

Would you ever get any piercings on your body, other than your ear?
- yeah

Ever had a song sang about/for you?
- Once at a bar lol

What was the last thing you spent money for?
- i think to put gas in my car.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
- my mate.

Do you call it fall or autumn?
- Fall, my cousins name is autum.

11:11… Make a wish?
- maybe a better life?

Honestly, who makes you happy most of the time?
- I dont even know.

What were you up to at 9pm last night?
- I was with my friend jordyn talking about her crazy drama filled love life.

Do you hold grudges?
- I try not to but I do.

Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
- yep, sucks.

What are your outlooks on gay/bisexual relationships?
- it doesn't bother me

Who was your last text from?
- my mate

Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
- yes

One thing you’re looking forward to?
- Well it was to see a friend of mine.

Are you shy at first when it comes to meeting people?
- depending on my mood.

Has anyone ever called you sexy?
- only my bf...

What colour is your camera?
- it's blue ^-^

Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?
- yea he says it all the time.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
- Usually.

Are you wasting your time on someone?
- probably.

Have you ever overheard a conversation you weren’t supposed to?
- yea

By the way, what is your name?
- Katie

Are you currently in a relationship?
- Yep.

Do you give out second chances too easily?
- yep.

What color is your favorite hoodie?
- It's black and red.

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
- yea. i'd kiss him again to.

I tag nobody.