Where are you staying?
The main hotel

Means of transportation?
Probably local transportation unless I find someone who can help me with the bags

Sharing a room with:
<-- these two <3

What is your gender?
Genderfuck or genderfluid transdude
Pronouns are He/him or It/its

Relationship Status:
None what so ever, not interested in being labelled!
Intimacy(after a few drinks), cuddles and hangouts are welcome tho!

How old are you?
25

How tall are you?
168cm (smol boi)

Which languages do you speak:
Swedish, Finnish and English!

Have you been to Sweden before?
I live here.

Where will you be most of the time during the day?
Working at Art Show or at my table in the Dealers Den

Who will you be with?

Probably gonna poke too

Do you do free art?
After a drink or two I might do some sketches if I'm in the mood

Do you do trades?
Most likely if I have time

Do you do commissions?
I do, have 6 slots at my table up for grabs

Do you have prints/ CDs?
Who even uses CDs anymore??

What suit(s) will you have?
Okashi, due to recent surgery I will only be partially fursuitiing in kigu tho. But Okashi is done by

Can I dance with you?
I don't dance. No you can't convince me. I'd like to be able to walk tomorrow.

Can I touch you?
Big fat NO if I don't know you or if you see the "don't touch me" pin on. Why would you anyway?
(Not as strict after a few drinks but pls be polite, I do hold grudges)

Can I talk to you?
Most likely, if I don't answer even after you repeated 3 times I have spaced out.

Can I hug you?
Unless I know you, no. The people who know me know that answer. If you try and I back off, you know, accept defeat.

Can I take photos of you/with you?
In suit yes, of me as a hoomin, nah not comfy in pics.

Can I buy you lots of drinks?
Start with one and tell me your intentions.

Do you drink Alcohol/Smoke?
I drink and use snuff (snus/nuuska)

Can I give you lots of money?
In exchange for art yes.

Can we hang out?
Get to know me a little first. Or if I can have a friend with me then might be ok.

Are you nice?
Usually friendly, might be awkward. If you're rude I will be rude, if you creep I will report you to security without hesitation.

Other cons you may go to?
MAYBE NärCon Sommar

Attending any events?
We shall see.

How can I find you at the con?
Look for a smol asian dude with blue hair and round glasses.

Can we go out for a dinner?
If we're friends, I don't eat with people I don't know.

Are you buying art?
Maybe, probably, most likely.

What do I have to watch out for, when I am meeting you?
Don't touch me unless I invite it, give me my personal space, I get anxious in social situations so I tend to studder or talk fast and if I suddenly have to go, let me go. I might be close to a breakdown.

What is the best way to get your attention?
Telegram https://t.me/Haxzure or if you see me, wave.

May I kidnap you to my room?
It depends on what you have to offer ;3

You look pretty tired, are you ok?
Yes, this is just my face c:

Can I invite you to parties?
Sure, inviting is always welcome. Won't promise I can attend tho (bc working)

Last time/last con/last meet/last chat we talked so much and now you forgot my name? Why???
Even if I'm looking at you rn it doesn't mean I see you. So many faces, people, so much noise....I need a drink...

Will you tell me your room-number and can I surprise visit you?
Nah...wouldn't appreciate that. That's invite only.

I have a personal question. May I ask you that?
You can ask but don't expect an answer.

Oopsie daisy I kinda forgot about FA for a few months...

I'm back now with more traditional art to show off since my tablet still is old and I've transferred to paper for now.

Gonna upload a bunch of things I haven't uploaded yet so stay tuned~

I hereby announce that I am nowOPENfor commissions and will stay open until July 26th.
Right now I don't have any limit to how many slots I have open, I will edit this journal if that changes.

You can find my ToS here

My prices can be found here

If you are interested in commissioning me send me a message on Telegram, you will find me as Haxzure there aswell or you can send me an e-mail to okashihappymutt[at]hotmail.com to further discuss the matter.

When commissioning, please fill out this form and attatch it to your first message.
Simply writing "Hello" will be ignored.

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FurAffinity name:
E-mail address:
Paypal:
Type of commission:
Preferred pose:
Facial expression:
Reference(s):
Species:
Gender:
Read and understood/agreed to my ToS?:


I will draw:
Any species (This includes all real animals and made-up species)
Any gender (Female, male, FtM, MtF, Non-binary and everything in between)
Any body type
SFW
NSFW (sexual themes)
NSFW (Artistic nudity)
NSFW (Violence, gore, blood)
NSFW (Fetish, BDSM, bondage etc)
Cyborgs (as in mechanical parts e.g. robotic arm/leg/tail)
Nature (Vegetation, plants, mountains etc)
Pets

I will not draw:
Cub art
Heavy drugs (anything beyond weed such as LSD, coke, heroin etc)
Self-harm/suicide
Shaming/hateful themes
Incest (twins, siblings, parents, sons, daughters)
Guns
Inflatables
If you're unsure, feel free to ask!

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If you have any other questions feel free to message me, note that I don't check my notes here on FA often so using e-mail or Telegram is preferred so I don't miss any important info!

Making some adoptables and posting them in a few, hope yall will like them and give them a good new home!
They will range from 10EUR to 20EUR and can be paid with paypal.

Hello folks!
Hello folks!

Halloween is upon us and it's my favorite holiday so I thought I'd have a little Halloween giveaway!

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The prizes are as shown in the picture I threw together:

1st is a simple ref made of your character, simply shaded, your colors will be shown and you can choose to add three accessories or three + and - facts.

2nd is a traditional badge of your character being around what he/she/they are completely nuts about! You can be the King/Queen/Royalty of it. The details will all be cut out separately and laminated, sent to you.

3rd is a Halloween themed floating head, gore, monster, werewolf, what ever monster version you want of your character, size is 800 x 800 pix and you'll also be given an icon version.

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Now head on over to my FB page to see how you can participate!
---->Go here! <---

The winners will be drawn by random on the 31st at Midnight, 00.00.

Good luck! Can't wait to read your comments and thanks for participating~

Hello fluffybutts!

I am opening 20 slots for mini badge commissions!

More info can be found in my commissions info tab on here.
Follow the instructions there to order~

20USD/each + FREE Shipping!!

Go here to order!
http://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/haxzure/

So guys, I didn't know things could change this much in a week.
But apparently it can!

Read my blog, I'm not gonna repeat myself over here.
But I'll put it like this, we have ended our relationship properly now, no hard feelings, calmly and we are both ready to move on.

https://alifewithtoniryce.blogspot....../coffee-2.html

I will get back to comissions next week (hopefully) and will open up for both Fursuit comissions and art comissions in November!

This doggo needs stuff to do!!

Something has happened that will make everything, everything that was about to happen and that was going on. Everything is on hold. Some forever and some just until I am back on track.

My fiancé has left me.
I no longer have a gf, I no longer have cats, I no longer live happily with my own little family.

I loved(and still love) her dearly, but we had our issues.

On Saturday afternoon I came home from a sleepover at a friend's place to an empty apartment.
She had packed her things and left me overnight. Taken everything and everyone that was hers. It was a horrible shock, a horrible feeling. My greatest fear had come true, she had left me.
My greatest fear is to be abandoned. Abandoned by the person I love most.

I will not write out everything about this here.
If you want to give me support or so, leave a comment or send me a message on twitter or telegram.

I do not know how I will manage, but I will have to somehow.
I have never lived alone more than less than a month.

I will have to start over completely.
I can't keep making fursuits since the sowing machine was hers.
I can't escape to the world of gaming since the gaming computer was hers.
It's only been three days now.

I could list forever what I can't do now.
But I have to try and get my life back on track.

I need to find out what I want to do, what I want to become. WHO I want to become.
I have built up my life, plans and dreams around her, because I really thought I'd grow old with her.

Now that I have no clue I have to start from scratch.

So Not that I have been active lately but I will be even less active probably this first month.

I hope everyone else is doing well.

Let me announce that I have created a FA for my fursuit making!

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I will announce whatever I have to say that is fursuit-related over there so go watch that one if interested! Any future wips, finished projects and such will pop-up on that account only.

All art related stuff will still be up on this one though.
I will soon be going to Finland and plan to finish off all ongoing art commissions on my list before then, so I can focus on the fursuit making once I'm home again ^^

I will probably make a trello list too once I'm ready to open up for quotes~☆



Hello Friends!
Sorry for the inactivity but a lot has been going on lately.
Commissions are delayed partly because I've had an art block and partly because I no longer have a work bench. But hopefully I will soon get on with stuff again!

What will be happening next is as follows:

1. Finishing off all commissions.
2. New Free Lineart release.
3. Will present to you all the new project I've been working on!



Thank you for baring with me!

Hello all, I am opening up 5 Telegram sticker slots. Only sets available this time!

My working hours are 10 am - 6pm, Mon - Fri.
If nothing personal comes up your commission should be done within a week from the day you ordered, you will be told when I start. If there are multiple persons ordering on the same day the one that pays first will get started on first.

First come first serve.

Commission information is found here: http://www.furaffinity.net/commissi.....axzure/manage/

But PLEASE comment on this journal if you want one slot. After claiming a slot I expect payment within the next 48hrs or the slot will go to someone else. (This can be discussed though)

Slots:

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3
4
5

Thank you for taking time to read this little info~

Hello fluffs! ♥
So last entry was a bit depressing and sad. I told you what has been going on and all.
This time I want to tell you how it has been going since then.

On Monday morning I went back to the doctor's office to do a "pain measurement", I had no idea at all what that meant and was a little scared that it might hurt. But luckily it didn't hurt more than getting up from bed does. A woman called me in and we went to he same office as on Thursday, she told me to take off my shirt and to sit in a chair. She started off by telling me what she was going to do, she would use this thing that looked like a mix of a pencil and a gun and press it on my 18 trigger spots. I was supposed to tell her when it started to hurt.

That particular day was a pretty good day pain-wise and still I ended up yelping and wincing very much during that whole session and when we were done she said "you sure are sore in a lot of places, what are you here for?", then it hit me. That was why "R" wasn't there to check this on me, he had his suspicions and he had given this to someone who could do it from an objective view. I told her why and she looked a bit...well not worried but she didn't look happy. I was told to wait in the waiting room for my doctor to come get me. (I call him R so we won't use his real name)

When he came to pick me up my heart was racing, I was so nervous.
We sat down and almost immediately he held up the papers and sighed "It is just as I thought, you defiantly have Fibromyalgia. You would need to respond to 11 out of the 18 trigger spots. You reacted to almost all of them without much pressure at all."
I was still a bit in shock from the last visit and now I felt like I had been hit with a blunt guillotine.

Since I got home from that visit I've felt weird, not like myself. It might be because I got new painkillers to help me have a normal life and all that but I've felt....ugly and worthless, like I couldn't do anything.
Like when you've planned a whole bunch of fun things to do, go on a long walk with your dog, go snowboarding, draw, even get dressed. But you just can't, your body won't function the way it should and you can't even get up from bed on your own.

On my worst days Kitty has to support me every step I take because I can't use my cane indoors. She has carried me to the toilet and back, helping me getting dressed and done so much for me.

Every day is painful but it feels a little less painful when I have wonderful friends like you all and a wonderful Kitty ♥

One can feel very down when things are tough but I really try to see the bright side of all of this.
Now we know what it is that is hurtig me.
It is a chronic condition.

As soon as Kitty and I got home she sat down at her computer and looked up a page where they sold pretty canes and other stuff to help people get around with different conditions. We found these really pretty canes that are foldable so I can keep it in my bag on a good day and easily take i out if I would get pain during the day. They are called SwitchSticks and come in a variety of bright colours.
She ordered it for me on Tuesday and I got it on Wednesday. I. LOVE. IT.
It's so bright and colourful, it makes me so happy and doesn't make me feel ashamed of my condition that makes me act like an old person when I'm soon only turning 23.

I will stay active and spread happiness even if I myself happen to be in pain. I will keep drawing on my good days, I will keep snowboarding when I can, I will keep fursuiting and going to cons!!

Maybe this got a little messy but I just wanted you to know how I'm doing.
I'm doing pretty good actually, I feel like the saying "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger" fits perfectly in this situation.

If life thrown knives at you catch them and use them against your obstacles! (Don't kill anyone though)

Thank you once again for all your support! ♥♥♥♥

Hi guys, I feel like I'm making up excuses all the time but I promise I'm not. ;;^;;
So much has been going on and I just haven't had the time to draw. So here comes an explanation, I'll try to make this the short version.

First of all was that suit I was trying to finish before NFC so I could sell it at the art show. I succeeded at that.

I was sent home early from NFC because on the last day of the actual con I got massive pain in my joints from the hips and downwards to my toes. My spine hurt as hell as well. I may have overworked my joints and muscles by getting drunk the night before and dancing without any feeling in my body what so ever.
My dear friend Nathia came to the rescue and drove me and Kitty home. (Special Thanks to everyone else who helper me to the car, you know I love you <3 )

I've had pain in my spine most of my life but in the past 10 years I have got pain in my knees as well, during the past 5 years it has grown even more and spread to my hips, toes, elbows, shoulders, wrists, neck and jaw joints. This pain - I suspected it was nothing particular and hoped it would pass by itself, but it didn't - keeps me awake at night and makes it difficult for me to do chores at home. Or even - lately - getting dressed on my own.
So I was stuck laying in bed for a week or so after the con, not due to "concrud" like most of my friends, but because my legs wouldn't carry me.

We contacted a special doctor during one of these days, a doctor who has studied illnesses that cause pain. So I got an appointment on March 17th. That was yesterday.
They arranged a special taxi for me to get there since I have trouble moving. [...]

Oh and I forgot to mention that my pain is kind of weather controlled. It gets worse when it's cold or when seasons are changing. So during winter, which is my favourite season, it's at its worst and during summer it's less painful. This pain comes and goes each and every day and I can barely plan meet ups with friends because I never know how much pain I'll have that day until the day comes.

[...] I made it to the clinic even if we got stuck in traffic for a good 10 mins which made me late which resulted in them taking another patient before me. It didn't matter ofc since I wasn't there.
When I got into the doctor's office I first handed him my papers they had sent me to fill. A form of sort.
He checked it and we discussed it for a moment, then he asked me to get out of my clothing so he could feel me through properly. (Don't worry I got to keep my undies! No naked dogs!)
He sqeezed my muscles, it hurt. He pinched at my joints, that hurt too. And he checked for reflexes at my knees like every other doctor has, with no reaction at all. My knees have never worked the way they should.
When he was done I got dressed and with some help from Kitty sat back down in my chair.
He turned to me and said what I had been hoping for, "You have a condition called Fibromyalgia, I am pretty sure of that. But to be sure I'll call you in on Monday to run a few more tests."
I was so happy, so relieved, he believed me!
No one has ever believed me or taken me seriously before!! And then the fear hit me. What if I won't be able to snowboard? What if I won't be able to suit? What if I end up in a wheelchair? What if I won't be able to draw?? All those thoughts in my head had me spaced out for a moment.
When I was back we were thanking the doctor and making our way out of his office.

I was happy at first, someone had believed me and not told me that I'm young and that it would get better if I stay positive or just smile more. But I also got depressed, I am afraid. I need to get used to this new knowledge.

So what am I going on about?
The thing is that my hands aren't really working either so it took me 2hrs to write this, I tell you. So I'm working on the commissions as much as I can but please bare with me! I feel like I'm the slowest artist ever but I hope you still like me ;^;

Sorry for such a gloomy journal.
I'll end it with my motto 1 bad 3 good. So I told one big bad thing and here follows five good things.
I got to meet many old and new friends at the con (and I met my bro!) and can't wait for next years con and to start working on that!
I found two Redrusker artbooks which I am very fond of <3
I got my Okashi fursuit and got to suit as him <3<3<3
I got that suit I made for the art show sold, He now has a very good home~
ALL THE PIZZA <3 (Ate so much pizza during the con)

I hope your live's get brighter as spring is on its way~
I myself will go shopping for napkins, hello allergies!

So I am now available on Telegram aswell as [at]Okashi ~

Also, would anyone be interested in getting stickers of their fursona to use in the app?

I was thinking they'd be 60kr ($7) each or you could get a set of six and get one for free for 300kr ($35.24)

If interested leave a comment here, note me or send me a text on telegram! ^^

Hope to talk to you soon!

Where are you staying?
- Hotel

Means of transportation?
- Train and by foot.

Sharing a room with:
- My beloved Kitty ♥

Gender:
- Intersexual Genderfluid. Pronouns: He/him, They/them. (My gf and selected few are allowed to call me "she")

Relationship status:
- Happily taken ♥

How old are you?
- 22

How tall are you?
- 168cm (170cm actually but due to sculiosis I shrink 2cm lol)

What languages do you speak?
- Swedish, Finnish, English and a little Thai~ U^.^U

Have you been to any other furry conventions before?
- Other than NFC? No not yet! U^n^U

Have you been to Sweden before?
- Yes I live here. Though I'm not Swedish!!

Are you doing anything for the convention?
- Yes I am in the Art & Decorations crew so I'll be running around decorating stuff!

Where will you be most of the time during the day?
- Everywhere!

Do you have a fursuit?
- Will have at the con!

Who will you be with?
-  smallblacksticky : abby-dingo  Baronessa  Havre17  Dresmseed My love and many others aswell! Can't tag you all!!

Are you selling anything at the convention?
- Technically yes, I will be selling a partial fursuit at the art show!

Do you do free art?
- Sometimes outside of art raffles. If I'm in a good mod or you buy me a pepsi I'll probably draw you something!

Do you do trades?
- Yes trades are always fun!

Do you do commissions?
- Yup~

Will you get anything commissioned?
- Dunno, but probably yes!

Can I touch you?
- *slips away slowly* ...'...'...'..~U>n>U

Can I talk to you?
- Sure but I might be a bit shy at the start of the con!

Can I buy you lots of drinks?
- Pepsi?? Yes! Alcohol? Nah.

Do you smoke?
- No, never have and never will.

Can I give you lots of money?
- No you keep it and buy yourself something nice~

Can I hug or snuggle you?
- Hug? Ask. Snuggle, ask my Kitty and me first.

Are you nice?
- I try to be as kind and caring as I can be ♥

Can I buy you food and/or eat with you?
- As long as the food I get is vegan then yes sure. (You eat what ever you want)

Can I give you presents?
- Yes but don't give me junk. I'm a hoarder and it's bad enough as it is!

Can I hang with you in your room?
- If you're not invited then probably not but if you are then sure~

Can I dance with you?
- I don't dance unless in suit or tipsy, and I rarely drink alcohol so um...depends!

Can I invite you to parties?
- Sure but I'm not really a party person so I won't know how to act! xD

How can I get your attention?
- By poking me if I'm facing the other way, wave in front of my face or just come up and talk to me! (Also I suit without glasses so ask my handler if I can't/don't see/notice you)

What are you most looking forward to?
- Meeting and hugging all my furriends and crewmates, having a blast and goofing around in suit~

You read all this?
Good, Noow go answer them yourself!

Hello fluffies!
I'm so sorry that I forgot about that journal about those winter themed art pieces but I've been sick and had soooo much to do >__<"

Anyway the winners are chosen and for the wintery memory challenge the winner is  ginfang and for the ultimate gift the winner is  kisselexy Congrats!

Your choices are to choose for me to draw either a simple piece of said gift or memory or to get a winter themed badge of your character! Which ever you choose you will recieve either as a little postcard or if you chose a badge you will recieve it laminated and all at NFC. If you will not be attending NFC just send me your adress and I'll send it to you~

Once again, apologies for the delay!!

Stay tuned for the winter sports art raffle which will be announced after new year's eve!

Hello fluffies, winter has finally arrived but without snow so I feel a bit better now.
Shall we hold a double art raffle for December maybe?
One winter funtime themed piece and one christmas themed one. How about it? :3

To enter for the winter funtime themed one, just dump your ref sheet in the comments and tell me about your favourite winter memory!

To enter the christmas themed one, dump your ref sheet and tell me about the ultimate gift you'd love to GIVE to someone special!

(Someone special like a partner, best friend or sibling. Or pet.)

Good luck every one!
The winners will be announced on December 10th!

Hello my dear friends.
I am so very sorry that I've been off lately but that pesky thinf called life got in the way. Let's take the good news first shall we?
I've started painting on paper with aquarelle again and am loving it, so far I like painting trees.
We nowadays have a bunny called Arwen, she's a rescue and we love her dearly. One day when I got up from bed I found small wrinkly pears in her littlerbox..it turns out that they were babies. 7 of them, sadly 3 of them didn't make it so we now have four left. The babies have opened their eyes and have started exploring the nest and our livingroom. Their names are Mojito (female, we'll keep her), Salsa(male), Tequila (male) and Jäger(male, pronounced jaeger).

Our home is starting to look more like a home than a place someone dumped lots of stuff in. So that's great!

Now for the bad news....

The day before yesterday I got a very powerful anxiety attack, I don't usually talk about things like these but I want to warn others.
I have a medication against my anxiety but this time I lost control and took too many of them, an overdose. This means I took 600mg of that medication.
I won't lie, it didn't help at all, so I told my love and she broke into tears immediately. At the time I didn't understand why but she called an ambulance and they told her to keep an eye on me. Told me I wasn't allowed to fall asleep, it could have lead to my heart stop beating.
She told me this and since I didn't want to commit suicide, just get rid of that 10 ton anxiety in my chest, I started panicking and crying too.
Now I don't remember much more about that night, other than that I sat in Noola's bed until the ambulance came, I remember shouting at Lily(my gf) and at the nurses because I hated to be held down by them.
I remember that I woke up the next morning at the hospital.
They told me that is was a minor poisoning and that it was good I was brought in so quickly. It could have ended badly.

I'm so sorry everyone, I made a stupid mistake and came closer to death than I've ever been before. It was scary, it felt weird and it scared my loved ones.

So I'm warning others now, do not take overdoses of your meds, it can be fatal!!

Now, I need to put some baby bunnies to sleep and make sure all our other babies have gotten their dinner.
Tae care everyone, thank you for reading.

Hugs to you all <3

I think I've come to a conclusion, Okashi is my main fursona. I feel so "at home" with him and ofc I will still keep Hax and Sugar as parts of my identity as furry. But Okashi is the main fursona. Hax represents my puppy sides of my personality, Sugar represents my girly sides and Ôka everything else~

So in the future, if you see me at a con, call me Ôka or Rayn c:

So, why not so much art lately?
I've been occupied playing GW2 and also I now have started working, I have a job! I finally have a job! Been jobless for over two years because of depression but now finally my meds are working for me and I have a job.
I start 5 in the morning and clean 3 kiosks outside of Stockholm's amusement park, Gröna Lund. I stop working when the kiosks open at 10 and 11 for the big one. This is not the greatest job in the world but as I say in swedish "Man måste börja på botten för att nå toppen" which roughly translates to "You gotta start at the bottom to reach the top" though it has a nice rhyme to it in swedish. So a summer job here might get me elsewhere for the winter! c:

Just a llittle update for y'all!

Be well~

I've been thinking...I really don't know what animal or species I am. Am I a wolf? - no probably not now that I think of it.

Am I a red panda? - Yes maybe. Part of me is.
Am I a shark? - Maybe, I love shakrs..but I'm not a meat eater.
Am I a feline of some kind maybe? - no, my gf is and I'm not like her at all like that.
Am I a dino? - No I think not sadly.

So...I'll ofc keep Sugar, Hax and all my other characters. I love them all, but I just can't decide...though it's not a decision for me to make. This decision has already been made, I just need to figure it out.

Also, new character in the making and I feel strangely connected to her. She's a shark and stingray hybrid and her name is Rayn. (Pronounce it like Rain)

We'll just have to wait and see where this leads me.